She tipped her head. “I’m an old-fashioned girl, Luke. Maybe I want you to kiss me first.”
He smiled, relieved, sliding his hands into her hair. “But I don’t have to?”
“Nope. You can reject mine just as easily as I rejected yours.”
He laughed, sliding one hand around the back of her neck as he brushed wisps of hair from her forehead. He pulled her gently forward, watched her eyelids flutter closed.
“Ah, hell, sweetheart. I definitely accept your challenge.”
And then his lips were on hers, and holy hell, it was like he’d never kissed a woman before. The zinging energy that flew directly from their lips downward had him shifting in the chair after only a few seconds, like he was in frigging junior high. She was tentative, sweet, and oh, so soft, and she tasted like strawberries and Sam Adams. Her hair fell around his face, and it was all he could do not to imagine it fanning over him in bed.
He gave her a gentle tug, and then she was nestled against him, one hand on his chest while the other slid slowly up his jawline and into his hair. And all the while, their tongues danced a slow, sweet rhythm as he tightened his arm around her, pressing her close.
It had been a long, long time since he’d been able to completely shut down all of his sensors and just live in a moment, but Gabriela gave him no choice. There was no way to think about anything but her as she whimpered softly when he pulled her closer. No way to imagine anything but slipping those clothes over her head and cupping her ass as he lifted her to his mouth.
Would she stop him?
They kissed for what felt like hours, until he could feel his pulse ratcheting up to meet the birdlike one he felt just under the skin on her delicate, sweet-smelling neck. He slid his hand under the hem of her tank top, meeting impossibly soft, silky skin. As his thumb grazed her curves—good Lord, no bra—she made a low, contented sound that went straight to his nether regions, and he knew if they didn’t stop soon, he wasn’t going to want to stop at all.
Oh, who was he kidding? He already didn’t want to stop. He had no idea where the woman had learned to kiss, but Jesus, she was going to do him in here, and he was going to be loath to prevent her from doing so.
Her fingers played in his thick hair, a heaven-sent erotic massage as she broke the kiss and pulled his head to her neck. He planted soft kisses along her collarbone and up to her ear, tracing it with his tongue, making her gasp and tighten her hands on his head.
With one hand, he slid the strap of her tank top aside, kissing a trail over her shoulder as his fingers slipped down her arm and onto her thigh. He could hear her breaths coming faster, could feel her pulse racing under his lips … knew there was no way making love to her would be anything but frigging spectacular.
And then one of the dogs yipped and moved to the edge of the porch, quickly joined by the other one. Gabi jumped, pushing her shirt back to rights as she pulled away from him. Luke swore internally as he grabbed for the flashlight. The dogs, even though they were small, weren’t barkers. If they were yipping, they’d seen or heard something in the woods. And there were four teenagers in a tent in those woods.
“Gabi?” A tentative voice came from just outside the light of the porch, making Luke swing his flashlight her way.
Make that three teenagers.
Gabi stood up quickly, almost losing her balance. Her cheeks were dead pink, as was her neck, and her hair was mussed from his hands, but she did her best to be all business as she turned to Sam.
“What’s up, Sam? Everything okay?”
“Um, yeah. Just woke up and saw you were gone, and you didn’t come back. Figured I’d better make sure you hadn’t been eaten by a bear.” She shrugged, crossing her arms. “But I guess … well, that wasn’t exactly the issue. Never mind. Carry on. Forget I was here.”
Gabi looked back at Luke, her eyes wide, but he didn’t know what she wanted him to do. Clearly they’d been caught. Even if Sam hadn’t seen them kissing, she’d only have to take one look at Gabi right now to know they’d been this close to taking things inside.
“Hey, Sam?” Gabi cleared her throat. “I wouldn’t mind if maybe we could keep this—you know—between us.”
Sam smirked, but Luke noticed it didn’t have quite the venom of a week ago. “You want to offer me something for my silence?”
“No. I’m just asking, one woman to another.”
Sam was silent for a long moment, but finally nodded. “Fine. I saw nothing, but if you do get mauled by a bear on the way back to the tent tonight, I want it on record that at least one of us gave enough of a shit to check on you.”
* * *
“Y’know, you can put that thing on backwards six times, and it’s still not gonna fit.” Oliver shook his head as he put his hands on his hips early the next morning. “Where’s your head today?”
Luke looked up from the outboard motor he’d been trying to repair, then sighed as he set it down and wiped his hands on a rag.
“My head’s fine,” he growled, then put up an apologetic hand. “Sorry. Not a lot of sleep last night.”
“Ah.” Oliver turned to the workbench, but not before Luke saw him smile. “Wouldn’t have anything to do with a woman, would it?”
Ha. It had every-damn-thing to do with a woman, and that woman was currently in the water, doing dock-to-raft laps, even though the air temp was still hovering below seventy degrees. She’d forgone her morning coffee in favor of a penguin plunge, which left him wondering exactly how much sleep she’d gotten after she’d followed Sam back to their tent last night.
“Why does everyone always assume a bad mood or sleepless night is about a woman?”
“Because usually it is.” Oliver shrugged. “And I might have seen one wandering your way last night, long after she should have been asleep.”
“Oh.”
“In my defense, I wasn’t looking … well, any more than I’ve had one eye out that window for thirty years now. Old habits and all.”
“Well, then, you must have seen her come back down that pathway an hour later, right?”
“Nope. Went to sleep. Figured you could handle her.”
Luke sighed, watching her touch the raft and head back toward the dock. She picked up speed, her strokes long and fluid, and he wondered if she was half as conflicted this morning as he was.
“I don’t know, Oliver. ‘Handle’ might be a strong word.”
“Well, I imagine she didn’t head your way looking to borrow a cup of sugar.” His eyebrows were up as he turned toward Luke. “Freak you out, did she? Not exactly the type you’d expect to show up at your door at midnight?”
“She’s not the type I’d expect to show up at my door anytime, if she wasn’t trapped here with us.”
“And that’s what’s got you all discombobulated this morning?”
“Maybe.”
Hell, yes.
Oliver shrugged again. “Might not be my place to notice, but all things being equal, I gotta say, she seems genuine. She could have come in here with a lot more bluster and a lot less class, and she didn’t. Somebody pulled a big-ass snow job on her with this assignment, and she hasn’t taken off yet.”
“Well, that’s because we’re holding her van hostage.”
“Bullshit. She knows she can have that battery anytime she asks. It’s not her we’re trying to keep from leaving.”
“I know.”
“She hasn’t been too proud to ask for help, either. I think that says a lot.”
Luke rolled his eyes. “Pretty sure that says she’s completely, utterly desperate.”
“Not that you have a pool-boy complex or anything.”
“A pool-boy—what?”
“Complex.”
Luke sighed. “I heard you. I just don’t know what you mean.”
Oliver reached for a metal stool and sat down. “Luke, we’ve known each other a long time, right?”
Oh, boy. In the scheme of conversational openings, this one never ended well. “Yeah
. A really long time.”
“So you’ll excuse me for knowing a lot more about you than you’re probably comfortable with, right?”
“Nope.”
Oliver nodded, smiling. “Good. Then you’ll also excuse me for being more than a little pissed that you don’t think you could possibly measure up to a woman like Gabi.”
“It’s not about measuring up.”
“No?” Oliver sent his eyebrows upward. “Then what is it?”
“It’s about—hell, I don’t know. It’s about the fact that this isn’t reality, you know? She’s here for four weeks, I’m here for—well, I don’t even know, given Briarwood’s plans. We’re from completely different worlds, Oliver, and I’m pretty sure neither of us has any plans to change that anytime soon.”
“That’s a weak argument. Just saying.”
“No it’s not, and you know it. It’s reality. She’s here because she’s stuck here, not because she would have ever chosen a summer like this.”
“So it’s Stockholm syndrome? You’re going with the theory that the captive is falling for the captor, because he’s the best thing on the menu?”
“She’s not fall—she’s not a captive. Jesus, Oliver.” He rolled his eyes, trying to refocus his attention on the motor.
“Hey.” Oliver’s voice commanded attention, and Luke’s head snapped up, just like it had the night Oliver had bailed him out of that stupid drunk-tank cell. “You’re not the going-nowhere kid you tried so hard to be fifteen years ago. You’re not some sort of carbon copy of the loser father who never showed up to raise his son. You’ve made a life for yourself, and it’s a damn good one. You’re making a difference, and the right woman is going to see that. I have a feeling a good woman is already seeing it.”
“She knows nothing about me, Oliver.”
“And you think her feelings would change if she knew you spent your early days bouncing around from foster home to foster home? Think she’d find you less attractive if she knew you’d spent years fighting anybody who pissed you off, just because you didn’t know what else to do?”
“Yeah, I do.” Luke nodded, his jaw set hard. “Because that kid’s still boiling inside, and that kid will never get over getting left behind when his mother’s rich new boyfriend thought she’d be more attractive with fewer little truants in tow. So yeah, I’m all reformed adult and all, but there’s still a lot of anger there, and it’s firmly directed at a lot of people who deserve it … people who reside in the same circles as Gabi does.”
Oliver was silent for so long that Luke thought maybe he was finished speaking. But then he sighed carefully.
“What happened to your sister isn’t Gabi’s fault, Luke.”
Chapter 20
Half an hour later, Gabi toweled off her hair in the new bathroom, feeling refreshed and tortured at the same time. She’d tossed and turned for most of the night, and had decided as dawn broke outside the tent that if she didn’t start the day with an arctic swim, there wasn’t going to be enough coffee in the universe to wake her up.
On one hand, she was filled with zingy, delicious energy as she thought back to last night. On the other, she was filled with what-the-hell-were-you-thinking pain. She hadn’t gone to Luke’s cabin with any intention of having things end the way they had, but omigod, once he’d issued his little challenge, there’d been nothing she could do to stop herself from slinking over to his chair and kissing him like a complete hussy.
Not that he hadn’t returned the favor. And not that he hadn’t been the one to suggest it in the first place, but seriously. She knew better. Yes, she’d been lusting after him practically since she’d opened the van door almost two weeks ago, but really? A midnight walk to an almost-stranger’s cabin was ticking off the first of the fall-fast-fall-hard-fall-stupid boxes. And as much as she knew better than to ever walk that pathway again after dark, it was the only thing she could think about doing right now.
She’d been kissed before. She’d even been kissed well. But she’d never been kissed like Luke Magellan had kissed her … like his only mission was to make sure she never, ever wanted to stop.
Would they have stopped had Sam not appeared? That question had tortured her into the wee hours, and as she looked in the mirror to see feverishly pink cheeks, she had a pretty strong feeling she knew the answer, if the decision had been left to her.
It was a good damn thing Sam had showed up.
She brushed her teeth, desperate for her early-morning routine to still the grasshoppers in her gut. What would she say to Luke this morning? How would he look at her? Was he having regrets?
Or was he reliving their moments like she was, unable to shake them from his brain, either?
She sighed. Here she was, staring down her thirtieth birthday, and yet she felt like a thirteen-year-old with a summer-camp crush. And as much as she wished she could head out for a hike, or just hide in her tent, or maybe even grab a paddle and disappear for the day in a canoe, she had to face the day.
And that meant she had to face Luke.
She took a deep breath, bundled up her swimsuit and towel, and headed out the door, only to run smack into the very person she’d been hoping to avoid for at least a little bit longer.
“Oof!” she huffed as she slammed into him.
He grabbed her upper arms, steadying her, an amused smile on his face, but distance in his eyes. Dammit.
“Little distracted this morning, Gabi?”
She felt her cheeks go red. “Just didn’t expect anyone to be skulking outside the bathroom door, thank you.”
“I wasn’t skulking. I was walking by the bathroom when you barreled through the door.”
“I did not barrel. I do not barrel.”
“Fine.” He rolled his eyes as he slid his hands free. “You were the epitome of grace. I apologize for suggesting otherwise.”
“Thank you.”
“Did you have a nice swim?” He pointed at her beach towel.
“Yup. But does this lake ever get above freezing? Just curious?”
“It’s usually tolerable by late August, yes.”
“Fantastic. We’ll be gone by then.”
The words fell out of her mouth before she considered their implication, in relation to their time together last night, and she didn’t think it was her imagination that his mouth tightened as she spoke.
“I know, Gabi.” He shook his head. “I know.”
“Are you … regretting your challenge?” She forced the words out, sensing a chill in his tone, needing to know where she stood before the girls got up and she had to face Sam’s accusatory face.
He ran a hand through his hair, not meeting her eyes. “Yes and no.”
“That’s helpful.”
“Are you regretting it?” He looked at her finally.
“Well, I am right now, since it looks like you’d rather have a poker to the eye than spend one more minute in my presence.”
He smiled sadly. “Not true. I’m just—I don’t know. I think maybe we weren’t necessarily thinking clearly.”
“Ah.” She fought the tremble that almost immediately hit her chin. Even at age almost-thirty, rejection still sucked.
“It’s not you, Gabi.”
“Omigod, are you serious? Did you just say that?”
He closed his eyes. “Sorry. I know.”
“Okay. Well.” She took a deep breath, looked around, not knowing what to say. “I should … go.” Then a nervous laugh burbled out. “But I can’t … go. There’s nowhere to go. I’m stuck. You’re stuck. We’re … stuck. This is stupid.”
“You’re babbling.”
“No shit, Sherlock.”
He reached up to touch her face, and she tried to back up, but couldn’t. “It’s really, really not you.”
“And yet, after one kiss?”
“After one kiss, I didn’t sleep a wink, okay? Does that make you feel better?” He pulled his hand back, sighing as he stared out at the water. “I don’t do … this, G
abi.”
She tipped her head. “By this, you mean—”
“I don’t do the casual thing. And as much as I could easily have taken you inside last night and kept you awake all night—as much as I wanted to—we both know that in the end, we’d just be making an epic mistake.”
“Oh.” Gabi crossed her arms. “Well, gosh, when you put it that way.”
“That’s not—bad word choice—sorry.” He shook his head, reaching for her, but she backed out of reach.
“No, really.” She put up a hand, and dammit, she could feel tears prick behind her eyes. No way could she let him see that. “I’ve never been someone’s epic mistake. Not really interested in changing that, so thank you.”
“Gabi, that’s not what I meant. I just mean—shit. I don’t know what I mean right now. You’ve got my head tied up in knots.”
“If it’s any consolation, I didn’t go to your cabin last night with some sort of evil plan to seduce you.”
“I know. I’m … sorry. And I’m not sorry.” He sighed. “I just don’t want you to have regrets.”
“Me? Or you?”
“I don’t want either of us to have regrets, but I assume you’re the one who’d be more likely to suffer them, okay?”
“Why?”
“Because be honest, Gabi.” He swept his arm around the woodsy area. “I’m sorry I issued a stupid challenge. This isn’t really your world, slumming at a rustic camp. And I imagine it’s not really your habit to go slumming with camp employees, either.”
Gabi felt her eyes go wide. One hand crossed her middle, while the other went to her throat. Had he really just said that?
The psychology major in her suspected what he might be doing here—striking out and disengaging first, before she had a chance to do it herself—but knowing it and hearing it aimed directly at her were two very different things.
“I see.” Her voice was quiet as she nodded slowly.
“It’s just—listen. We’ve got, what, only weeks left here? And then you go back to your Briarwood life, right? This camp thing isn’t your reality, and I’m a little old to be someone’s summer-camp romance. I’m definitely too old to be someone’s one-night stand.”
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