by Erin Trejo
Unhinged.
Cruel.
I see it all.
And for one sick moment in time, I want it.
I want to taste it.
I want to hold in my hands.
Chapter 46
Jaxson has my leg hiked up around his muscly thigh as he kisses me without abandon. He rubs that hard dick of his through the wetness further igniting the feelings I have inside of me.
Without warning, he plunges into me.
“Jax!” I cry out as tears spill down my face. The pain, the burn. It’s intense. Jaxson warned me. He warned me that he wouldn’t go easy on me and he did just as promised. He tore through every barrier I had against the outside world, against men. Against him.
He hovers over me, being very still. Is he actually letting me adjust to him? Is he being caring? I pry my eyes open and look up at him. His eyes are clenched shut, his jaw tightly locked. I can tell that he’s fighting to control himself right now. Why? Why is he trying? I asked for this.
I lift my hand to his cheek, his eyes snapping open. I don’t know the look that crosses his face. It’s lost on me.
“Jaxson.” I say his name under my breath. He looks as though he wants to say something but he doesn’t. Instead, her grabs my hips, lifting me into a position he wants me in. His hips rotate.
A slight pleasure begins to form within me sucking out all the pain. He spreads my thighs before ramming into me. So much feeling that I can’t distinguish is crashing over me.
His eyes darken, his hips moving faster. Tears fall down my face as he watches me. A slight smirk curls his lips. This is what he wanted. He wanted to see me cry. He wanted to see that he and only he could break me down.
He wanted to be the one that took away the one pure part of me. This was always his plan whether he admits it or not. He will own my body after this. He will own my soul but I will never let him own my heart.
Jaxson leans down, kissing me roughly. His tongue seeks mine out. The way they force each other for the roughest stroke has my body clenching around him.
“Fuck!” He growls drawing the word out. A slight sense of pride fills me knowing that I’m doing this to him. I’m making him lose control.
His hips pick up their pace. What was once pain is now the sweetest pleasure I’ve ever tasted. I want it. I crave it.
I wrap my arms around his back, pulling him in deeper. He responds with a growl before giving me what I want.
The harder he goes, the more I want. My heels dig into his ass almost painfully. I know he can feel it.
A string of curse words leaves his mouth as he punishes my body.
Lights blast behind my eyes before I feel that heat coiling inside of me.
“You’re close baby. Cum with me, Jade.” He growls against my mouth. He leans up, taking my legs from his waist and pushing them over his shoulders. I didn’t think he could get inside of me any deeper but there he is bottoming out inside of me. My walls clench, locking him in.
A few rougher thrusts, and I scream his name.
“Jaxson! Oh, God!” My body vibrates with my orgasm. Jaxson’s seed hits me deeply. Every rough spurt can be felt deep inside. My body constricts around him, holding him tightly in place.
My nails scratch at his skin.
“Fuck, Jade! Fuck!” His body shakes with what’s left of his release.
Chapter 47
My body aches. It’s a sweet ache. It’s like nothing I’ve ever felt before. It hurts when I move but I’m reminded of what Jaxson did to me making it all worth it.
I yawn as I stretch and look over. I’m still in Jaxson’s bed but he isn’t in here.
I shove myself up and glance around, blinking to get my eyes to focus. There I see him standing out on the veranda in the pouring down rain. His muscled body looks as though it was sculpted of marble. The smooth plains right down to his toned ass.
I can’t take my eyes off him. He’s stunning. I look down and notice all the blood that lost when he took me. I can’t believe he didn’t wake me up to change this!
I do notice that my body has been washed and cared for. Jax took the time to clean me after I feel asleep? How can be so gentle yet harsh?
I’m almost embarrassed. I slide out of the bed before walking quietly toward him. I watch the way he tips his head back, letting the rain hit his face.
As soon as I reach the veranda I reach out and touch his back. He doesn’t move.
“You need to sleep.” Are the only words that he says to me.
“I’m not tired.” His head drops forward, the long length of his hair falling over his face slickened by the rain.
“You need to go back to your room, little puppet.” I shake my head not knowing what I did wrong. I step in front of him, looking into those eyes.
“Did I mess up? Did you not like it?” Fear whirls in my stomach. What will I do if he says no? How I can live with that kind of rejection?
Jaxson quickly lifts his head, his hands coming up to cup my cheeks. He leans in closely and says, “Is that what you think? That you didn’t please me?” I swallow hard before nodding my head slowly.
“Oh, little puppet. I pulled your strings and you danced so beautifully. I’ve never felt anything like it. Never think that your body doesn’t please me.” There, he said it. The one thing that I should have known to be true. My body. That’s what this was all about. His way of taking something else from me. He already took my freedom and now he has the last piece of me. I gave it to him. I willingly for some stupid reason let him take that away from me.
I try to take a step back but his hands tighten.
“Did you think my heart would play into this?” His tone is condescending. It makes bile rise in my throat.
“Let go of me.” I demand him. He laughs a thick gruff laugh.
“I’m never letting go of you little puppet. In fact, I want more of you. That sweet little pussy of yours has done something to me.” He says. Spinning me around, he shoves my back, forcing me to bend over the chair.
“The rain. The thunder. You brought it all on yourself.” He growls before shoving into my already sore body.
Chapter 48
Alone. In my head, in my heart. I’m alone. I’ve never felt so lost. So, abandoned. Why did my parents not want me? What was their goal with my life? Did I mean so little that they left me to this?
“Beverly, can I ask you something?” I ask her as I sit at the counter. She turns to me and smiles, nodding her head. “Of course, you can dear.” God, why didn’t I have a mother like her?
“You know why I’m here, don’t you? You know that he paid for me.” It wasn’t really a question. More of something I need to hear.
“Yes, I do know that. I also know that he’s been different since you’ve been around.” What the hell does that mean? He doesn’t seem different unless you count angrier.
“Don’t look at me like that. I’ve lived with these boys for a long time, Jade. I know when something is off with them. It’s a sixth sense of sorts.” She turns back to her cooking. I let that all sink in. Why would he be different because I’m here.
“Do you know anything about my parents? My family?” I ask. Her hand stops stirring before she sets the spoon down on the counter.
“That isn’t really my place to say.” She begins before she’s cut off by the monster himself.
“She’s right. It’s mine and I’m not ready to share that just yet.” Jaxson walks in stopping to press a kiss to Beverly’s cheek. She smiles like a proud mother would at her son. It’s an amazing sight to see the two of them interact the way they do.
“Why can’t I know about my own family?” that defiant streak seems to be rearing its head today.
“Because it isn’t the right time.” Jaxson grabs the spoon that Beverly laid down, dipping it into the sauce before bringing it to his lips. Such a mundane thing to do.
I watch him smile and wiggle his eyebrows at her. She smiles a big bright smile back. It’s so innocent but sweet. It’s perfec
tion of a family or at least what a family means.
“I want to know who they were. Why am I stuck here with you?” I snap. Jaxson passes the spoon back to Beverly before he turns, crossing his arms over that perfect chest. He leans his hip against the counter as he looks at me.
“Is that a question you really want me to answer in front of Beverly?” That fucking prick!
“Oh, you mean the one where you bought me? The one where you paid for my virginity? I think Beverly and I are beyond that.” I cross my arms to mimic his. Light reflects in his eyes. Beverly giggles to herself before patting his arm.
“Well than. You seem to have it all figured out don’t you, little puppet?” He asks me. My nostrils flare. Anger races through my veins.
“Tell me what I want to know, Jaxson!” I scream louder. I shove off the stool and head straight towards him. So quickly he didn’t see me coming.
My fists collide with the solid mass that is his chest. Jaxson looks down at me, an amused grin on his face.
“Be nice, Jaxson.” Beverly warns him. I don’t need her help. I don’t need him to be nice. He’s a bastard of the worst kind!
After a few more hits, he moves in. Lifting me around my waist, he throws me over his shoulder. Like a fucking caveman, he walks us up the stairs all while I scream and fight him.
Chapter 49
Tossing me onto his bed as though I weigh nothing, Jaxson pulls my shoes from my feet.
“Stop touching me you son of a bitch!” I scream as I try to pull away from him. I scoot back up the bed but he grabs my ankles, pulling me back toward him.
He reaches up and pulls his shirt over his head before dropping his pants. He can’t do this to me.
Grabbing the waist of my shorts, he rips them down my legs. He slides his fingers under the sides of my panties before ripping them from my body.
“Are you going to rape me now?” I ask harshly.
His eyes flicker with fire. I know I’m pushing him.
He stands over me, stroking the length of his hardened dick. My eyes move from his to his dick. Why is it so fucking appealing to me? Why do I want him the way I do?
“Rape? I warned you, Jade. I warned you that no one else would get inside of that sweet little pussy of yours. It’s mine. It belongs to me! Rape isn’t something that’s given willingly.” His tone turns my stomach. Heat filters through me.
My eyes slide back to his hands. The way he’s fisting himself, getting himself off. I want that to be me. I want to be on the receiving end.
“What’s wrong, Jade? Your cheeks are pink. Does me touching myself make you horny? Do you want me slipping and sliding between those pretty thighs?” The need is becoming more than I can handle. I start to move my hand between my legs when he stops me with a gruff, “Don’t!” My hand stops mere inches from where I need it to be.
“Beg me, little puppet. Beg me for what you want.” How can he do this to me? How does one scorching look in his eyes make me forget about everything else that just happened downstairs?
“I want you inside of me. I need you inside of me.” His eyes dance with amusement. It should piss me off. I should feel disgusted for begging him but I don’t. I can’t. That need is too much.
Jaxson grabs my ankles and pulls me to the edge of the bed before he says, “Now spread those legs for me.” His growl sends heat to my core. I’ve never felt this way before.
I do as I’m told, spreading my legs for him.
“Fuck.” He hisses between his teeth before lifting my legs over his shoulders. Jaxson drops to his knees when a cry leaves my throat.
“Patience my little puppet. It will come in handy for you in the future. All the times you think about me.” A long swipe of his tongue. “All the nights I’m not there to please you.” Another. “All the times when you want me inside of you.” A quick suck on my clit and he’s gone. “Patience. Wait for me, little puppet.” The last words came out as a whisper.
His tongue gets to work driving my body crazy. My back arches off the bed, pushing my pussy into his face.
“Yeah, ride my face baby.” I buck my hips until I feel that all too familiar warmth spreading like a wild fire.
My body tenses before I explode on his tongue.
Chapter 50
I lay here breathless. That orgasm ripped me in half. Jaxson moved to the side of the bed, pulling something out of the bedside table.
I don’t have the energy to look either. My eyes flutter closed before I hear him moving around.
“Don’t get comfortable. I’m not done with you yet.” His words shoot a whole new need through me.
I don’t move though. Not until I feel something vibrating against my leg. I jump and look down as Jaxson chuckles.
“You’ve never pleasured yourself with one of these? How do I not believe that?” He says coolly.
“What the hell do you think you’re doing with that?” I ask nervously. I don’t want that thing in me. I want Jaxson in me although that thing is smaller compared to him.
“Don’t worry, my dick is going to be inside of you. This will be too.” He holds the vibrator up for me to see. I shake my head. No way is that fitting inside of me with him.
“Not in the same hole, Jade.” He assures me. I watch him as he puts lube all over the vibrator. The way he strokes it in his hand. God how he can he make that look so sexy?
“Get on your stomach.” He demands. I shake my head. No way in hell.
“Now, Jade. Don’t make me force you.” I suck in a breath at that. Would he force me? Of course, he would but he likes it when I’m willing better.
I roll onto my stomach when I hear him groan. The bed shifts behind me and I know he’s there.
His hands massage my ass gently before I feel his tongue. He moves it over each mound. Shivers roll over my body.
Jax runs his hand down the crease of my ass before slowly teasing my entrance.
“Is there anything I do that doesn’t make you wet?” His growl sends more moisture between my thighs.
His hands are warm as he caresses me. He spreads me, planting a kiss near that puckered hole. My body tenses instantly.
“If you don’t trust me for anything else, trust me with your pleasure.” His words should scare me but they don’t. In fact, they turn me on. I relax slightly into his touch.
Jaxson sits up, positioning himself behind me. His dick enters me slowly. I gasp.
“Feel me, Jade.” He thrusts so slowly I feel like I’m slowly melting away.
He picks up his pace slightly. The harder he pushes into me; the higher I get.
That’s when I feel it. His hand comes around my waist, playing with my clit as he whispers, “Relax, little puppet.” The more he works my clit, the more relaxed I feel. He slides the vibrator inside of me, into a place that no one has ever touched before. It feels intrusive but with his slow movements, it begins to feel pleasurable.
He sits back, leaving my swollen clit to throb when he flips on the vibrator.
“Jaxson! Jax! It’s too much!” I scream. The feral sounds that leaves him spur me on.
I shove my ass back, wanting him deeper. The way the vibrations blow through me, I may explode into a thousand little pieces.
“That’s it. Let it go.” He coaxes me. My orgasm rips through my body. I feel Jaxson fill me.
I gasp for air. He turns the vibrator off and slowly eases it out of me. When he pulls his dick free, I collapse onto the bed.
“Don’t get too comfortable. Dinner’s almost ready.”
Chapter 51
I sit awkwardly at the table. Jaxson grins like an asshole at me. He knows what we did up there and he knows that intrusion won’t go unnoticed.
“Will you be attending the Bishop party this weekend?” Beverly asks pulling the attention away from me. Thank god!
“I haven’t decided. I suppose if I were to get a date, I could.” I can feel his eyes burning through me.
“I’m not interested.” I state before taking an
other bite of my pasta. I’ve never tasted anything so good. Beverly is an amazing chef.
“You answer as if there was a question.” His tone is dark. Back to himself.
“Jaxson. Mind your manners. The parties are elegant. They are beautiful and you will meet lots of new people.” I take another bite as Beverly speaks.
“I don’t need to meet anyone new. I think I’ve met enough recently. Besides, I’m sure Jaxson would scare anyone away that may approach me.” I don’t bother looking at him. I know he would. The thought crossed my mind briefly to say yes and see who I can con into telling me more about my family but Jaxson is too smart for that.
“On the contrary, Miss Dell. I think you will fit right in with the Bishop’s. They are certainly your kind of people.” Is that a hint? Is he saying that I may be able to ask questions?
“If I must go then I will.” I say shoveling another bite into my mouth. I don’t know why he wants to play these kinds of games with my head. I don’t know what kind of sick thrill he gets from it.
“Are you enjoying the pasta, dear? I can make more next week.” Beverly asks. I smile at her and nod.
“I don’t think I’ve ever tasted anything so good.” I purposely look at Jaxson and wink. I like seeing how far I can push him. How much I can play before that dark Jax comes back.
“I wouldn’t say that. You were an eager little thing when my dick was in your mouth.” Beverly swats at his arm. Jaxson shrugs and raises his hands in defeat.
“Forgive me. I wasn’t thinking clearly.” He chuckles darkly. My cheeks heat up but no one looks my way.
“Thank you for dinner, Beverly. I’m going to go to my room.” Before I can make it out of my chair, Jaxson is on me.
“I don’t think so. It’s early and we need to talk.” Surprise must cross my features. Jaxson pulls the chair out the rest of the way before grabbing my hand in his.
I look to Beverly but she just gives me a little wink.
“What now, Jaxson? If you don’t want to tell me about my parents, I don’t want to talk to you.” I try to pull free from his grasp but it’s too strong.