Being a freedom fighter meant too much for me to just throw away. I had run away from home and left my mum behind for it and the city needed me to stay protecting them. So I told her there was no way I could give it up, so we agreed to split. She was devastated and cried a lot, which I still feel bad about.
I was upset over it too obviously and fed up with my relationships failing over the same reason. There’s no way I can let it happen with Starlet. She’s too special to lose and I’d be heartbroken and devastated if I ever did.
“I wish my first time had been with you instead,” I admit, staring into her eyes.
She smiles at me lovingly.
“At least our first time doesn’t have to be really awkward since I know what to do,” I say, thinking of the good side.
I feel kind of relieved that I have some experience and know a few things she’d like me to do. The first time I did it, I was nervous as well as excited, thinking of what to do and hoping I’d put it in the right place. Yet with Starlet I won’t have to worry and just get to enjoy it.
“I suppose so,” she agrees.
“I promise I won’t try and have sex with you until you say you’re ready,” I tell her. “I don’t wanna make you feel pressured into it.”
“Thanks,” she snuggles up to me. “I was scared that you wouldn’t want to wait…”
“Star, I’m not that kinda guy,” I reassure her. “I’m not just with you for that. I care about you and I’m okay with waiting.”
“I’m happy you will,” she kisses me. “We’ve only been together six weeks anyway…it’s just too soon for me yet. Maybe once we’ve been together a bit longer I’ll see if I feel it’s the right time.”
“Okay,” I agree. “So I guess we can still have our make out sessions until then?”
She grins at my sexy smirk, “yeah we can.”
I lean close and kiss her again and we spend the rest of the night making out while watching TV and talking.
“I’ve never felt this close to anyone else before,” she tells me, happily snuggled up in my arms. “It’s cool how we can talk about anything. When I’m in your arms it just feels so perfect.”
I smile, loving how she seems to fit in my arms as if she’s always meant to be there. I stroke her hair while she’s resting her head on my chest.
“Yeah, it’s the same for me too,” I reply. “I didn’t know what love really was until I met you. I thought just having a girlfriend you felt attracted to and cared about was love, but what I feel for you is way more than that.”
“I’ve never been in love until now either,” she says. “We’re really lucky to have something this special, aren’t we?”
“Yeah, we are. I never want to lose you, Star. You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me.”
She strokes my face and stares into my eyes, “you’re the best thing that’s happened to me too. I’m so lucky you chose me to be your girl.”
We share a long kiss and then I hold her in my arms for a long time, feeling her close to me. When I finally look down at her she’s drifted off to sleep with a cute smile on her face. I smile too and rest back on my pillow, eventually shutting my eyes and drifting off to sleep.
Chapter 13
“Rickie?” I hear Starlet say, shaking me gently.
I open my eyes a little, waking up from my sleep, “Hey,” I greet her, still tired and half asleep.
“I’m sorry I fell asleep,” she apologises, looking guiltily and embarrassed.
I suddenly remember what happened last night and smile, “It’s cool. I didn’t want to wake you up ‘cause you looked so sweet.”
I feel so amazing waking up next to her. I can’t help getting more excited at how hot she looks with messed-up hair and creased clothes.
“You don’t mind that I slept with you?” I ask. “I was gonna sleep on the sofa but I guess I passed out.”
“No, it’s okay,” she replies, her cheeks flushing at the thought of lying in bed with me all night. “I should be getting back to my place.”
“Are you sure you don’t wanna stay for breakfast?” I ask, not wanting her to go.
We both think of seeing Carl at the dining table and what he’ll think. It’s embarrassing enough when he caught us making out; so what will he think if he knows she stayed the night?
Starlet looks panicked at the thought.
“What if he thinks we were doing it while he was sleeping in the next room?” she asks, a little horrified.
“I guess you could sneak out before he sees you?” I suggest with a grin.
“Yeah,” she agrees quickly. “I’ll just have breakfast once I get back to my place.”
“Okay,” I get up and run my fingers through my hair, trying to tidy it. “I’ll let you out.”
She seems embarrassed and shy as we walk through the flat to the front door. Luckily Carl is nowhere in sight, so we don’t have to worry about him.
I unlock the front door quietly and let her out, “I’ll text you so we can meet up later,” I say, leaning against the door frame.
“Okay,” she smiles. “Bye Rickie. Thanks for letting me stay.”
“No probs,” I reply and we share a goodbye kiss. “Later babe.”
* * *
“Hey, I see you’ve been getting some,” Mick says and goes to give me a high five.
I smile in amusement, “what?”
“I saw Star leaving your flat this morning,” he grins.
I can’t help but smile, laughing a little, “dude, it’s not what you think. We didn’t have sex.”
“Yeah sure,” he says like he doesn’t believe me.
“No seriously, she just slept over at mine.”
“Really?” he looks puzzled. “Why did you let a hot girlfriend sleep over and not have sex with her?”
“She wants to wait,” I answer quietly. “It’s her first time.”
“Oh,” he smiles. “I bet you were so teased last night. Did she sleep in your bed?”
“Yeah, we both did.”
He laughs, “man, that is weird. I don’t know how you did it.”
“It was kinda cool sleeping next to her,” I admit, “and it wasn’t like we planned a sleepover. She just fell asleep and I didn’t want to wake her up and make her leave.”
“So you’re okay with waiting? What if she takes ages, like six months?”
I can’t help dying a little inside wondering if she does want to wait that long. I don’t think I could stand it. It’s hard enough to resist her already.
“I guess I’d do it for her,” I say. “She’s really special to me and our relationship means more to me than just sex.”
“Well good luck with that,” he says smirking.
Starlet is on emergency call all day, so we have to meet up at her flat later that evening. She tells me excitedly about her day and how she and Sarah saved a family from getting captured by corrupt police officers. I’m impressed and can’t help picturing it all.
“It’s so hot that you’re a freedom fighter,” I say.
I kiss along her neck, starting from behind her ear and working my way down, and she moans again just like last time. I kiss all along her neck and then slide off the straps of her vest top and bra so I can kiss along her shoulder. She enjoys this too, but I feel her body tense up.
“Rickie, we’re not going too far are we?” she asks anxiously.
“Don’t worry, I promised you I wouldn’t,” I say in her ear.
I go back to kissing her shoulders and she’s more relaxed now she doesn’t have to feel nervous about sex.
She breathes harder as I start to kiss along her chest, although her vest top restricts me from getting too low. She kisses me passionately on the lips, and then I move her onto her back and go on top of her as we start to French kiss.
Once we’re back to kissing on the lips again, she entwines her body closer and I feel her legs brush against mine. It’s so sexy lying like this with her and I feel her move her body a littl
e against mine. It feels so good that I can’t stop myself from doing the same.
We’re both feeling really excited by now and she gives me a kiss.
“I think you should go before we get too carried away,” she says gently.
“Do I have to?” I ask, feeling sad and disappointed. “I feel like I could stay with you all night.”
“I do too, but there’s no way you can sleep over,” she replies. “I don’t want people thinking we’re having sex. There are already rumours going around that we did it last night.”
“I know, I’m really sorry,” I apologise. “I hate that they’re all saying stuff about us. I didn’t want those rumours to start either. I know how you feel about us waiting.”
“It’s okay, it’s not your fault,” she says.
“I guess I’d better go,” I say, feeling awkward because I really want to have sex with her right now and I don’t know how long I can trust myself not to. “I’ll miss you.”
“I’ll miss you too.”
We share another long passionate kiss at her doorway before I leave and go back to my flat.
Chapter 14
Its mega busy at work the next week and I hardly see Starlet with so much going on. Luckily we manage to see each other on Thursday night, since we’re both free from any shifts or emergency calls.
I’m playing on my Xbox when I hear her knock on the front door earlier than planned and pause the game to let her in.
“Cool! Is that the new Need For Speed?” Starlet asks me as she enters the living room.
I look at her in surprise.
“Yeah, it is,” I grin. “How did you know?”
“’Cause I like video games,” she shrugs and hops onto the sofa beside me. “Can we play?”
“Erm…sure,” I answer, feeling surprised and get her an Xbox controller.
“He’s been playing that since he got back from work,” Carl tells her. “Anyway, I gotta go. I’ll ring if I need either of you.”
“Bye,” Starlet says as he goes out the door.
“Laters,” I call after him and set the game to two players.
We play for an hour and it’s just like playing with a friend. Starlet’s funny and playful and I laugh even though she hits into my car and wins at some of the races.
“I’m gonna get you for that,” I tease her while she giggles.
“It’s so cool that you play,” I say as we continue the game. “Girls aren’t usually into video games.”
Starlet grins, “this stuff wasn’t just made for boys y’know.”
“None of my other girlfriends liked ‘em at all.”
“At least back then you didn’t have to worry about your girlfriend beating you,” she teases.
I grin, “we’ll see about that.”
We have another drag race and she passes the finish line three seconds before my sports car does.
Starlet laughs, enjoying beating me.
“No! How can I live this down, being beaten by a girl?” I joke, pretending to be devastated.
Usually I like to win, but playing with Starlet is more about fun than serious competition. I don’t even mind that much about her winning against me.
“That’s for saying I shouldn’t be playing video games,” she says and we start to wrestle playfully on the floor.
We’ve forgotten all about the game now and the Xbox remotes lay abandoned. I know we’re just messing around, play fighting, but she’s so hot that it starts to feel sexy.
I let her pin me to the floor and then kiss her passionately while she’s close to me. Her grip loosens on my wrists and I slip free and use my hands to pull her waist even closer to my body.
We kiss for about an hour with occasional sexy wrestling to keep it interesting. She breathes hard as I run my fingers over the top of her legs, and I feel excited even though I stop myself going too far.
We French kiss on and off when we’ve settled down with the wrestling, and I’m so full of passionate feelings for her that my hand ends up working towards her chest.
I feel a little anxious as I touch her, in case she rejects me or gets angry that I’ve gone too far. Her body stiffens with nerves for a second when she first feels me doing it, but she carries on kissing me and lets me continue.
I feel so turned on that I’m getting to second base with her, even though she still has her bra and top on. I really want to take them off and feel her properly, but I’m not sure whether she’ll be okay with it or if I’m already pushing it.
I don’t want her to think I’m after sex again and get upset about it, but I can’t seem to stop myself. I’m a guy, so obviously I want to have sex with her right now, so badly, and it’s taking a lot of energy to stop myself. I’m not sure I can fight it any longer.
I put my hands under her t-shirt, running my fingers up her back and deepening my kiss. I love hearing her breath hard as she enjoys it and I find the back of her bra and unclip it, using my one second technique to get it undone.
“That was fast,” she says, impressed. “I thought most guys take forever to work it out.”
I smile, “I guess I’m used to it.”
She lets out a sigh of pleasure as my hands work back towards her chest and I’m finally feeling them properly. I couldn’t wait to get a feel of her C cups and they feel amazing. We continue to kiss passionately and I feel so hard as I continue gently, trying not to squeeze too hard and hurt her. I start to massage with my fingertips as I feel them, the way girls seem to like, and she starts moaning softly.
Once I’m done and pull my hands away, she unexpectedly wrestles me to the carpet and kisses my neck. I let out a low groan. It feels amazing to finally have a girl do that to me. I’m used to being the one who does it. It feels even better because she’s pinning me down and on top of me. I love feeling her body close to mine as she does it.
“You are so sexy,” I whisper in her ear. “You’re gettin’ me way too excited.”
She quickly gets off me and I feel disappointed.
“I’m sorry. I don’t mean to tease you,” she apologises.
“It’s okay, I kinda like it,” I reply, loving our make out session but still frustrated that it’s going nowhere.
We cool things down and just kiss and cuddle on the sofa for a while until she leaves. Then I have to go straight to my bedroom to do myself to the photos of her on my mobile, fantasying about all the stuff I’d like to do to her right now.
Chapter 15
When we both have a free night two days later, I take Starlet out for a meal, making a reservation at one of the poshest restaurants in the city. Starlet dresses up for the occasion, wearing make-up, a white denim mini shirt and a fancy purple top.
She looks gorgeous and I can’t keep my eyes off how hot her legs are. The skirt is short enough to show a lot of them off but not so short that it’s looks slutty or inappropriate for the place we’re going. She’s too self-conscious to risk going on my motorbike with a skirt, so we take a taxi instead.
“You look so sexy,” I say quietly in her ear as we sit closely together at the back seat. “I love that you’re wearing a skirt. I haven’t seen you in one before.”
“Sarah recommended I bought it on our shopping trip,” she explains. “I thought you might like it.”
“I definitely want you to wear mini shirts more often,” I say and brush my hand over her right leg.
She blushes and I have to stop myself before I go too far. I’m already fighting the urge to passionately make out with her at the back of the taxi, so I need to keep my hands under control, no matter how incredibly attractive she is.
We have a starter, since this restaurant does three course meals. I really want to have cheesy garlic bread, but that’s a pretty bad idea for a date, so I have spicy chicken pieces with dips instead. Starlet considers the spicy chicken too, but decides on ordering the fruit salad instead, so she can have chicken for her main.
We happily tuck into our starter, talking and laughing. It feels go
od to spend some time with her away from work and I love how great our dates always feel. I get along with Starlet really well, so much better than any of my previous girlfriends, and we can talk for hours without getting bored.
Our main courses arrive and Starlet hungrily starts to eat her plate of battered chicken and chips. I can’t wait to get stuck into my steak and chips and it tastes delicious. However, I only eat half of it before my mobile ringtone goes off.
Starlet looks over at my mobile a little worried, knowing exactly what it’s going to be. I dread answering it too because I really don’t want to be pulled away from her when we’re having a good night together. I already have the mobile sat beside me on the table, in case I get called in for something, and see from the screen that it’s a call from Bryan.
“Sorry,” I quickly apologise to Starlet before answering the phone call. “Hey Bry, what’s up?”
“Hi Rickie, you don’t mind coming down to the office and helping me out with something, do you?” he asks and I feel deflated.
“Yeah, sure,” I answer. “I’m not at the base right now but I can make it over in about twenty minutes.”
“Okay, I’ll see you soon.”
“Laters,” I say and hang up.
Starlet’s already looking at me, waiting for me to tell her the bad news that she already knows is coming.
“I’m really sorry, I need to go,” I say sadly.
She looks upset too, although she’s trying to hide it, “At least we made it to main course. I really wish we could have got to desert though,” she jokes.
“Star, you know I really want to stay,” I tell her regrettably, “but it’s going to take time to wait for a taxi and get back, and Bryan wouldn’t have rung on my night off if it wasn’t important. I’ll have to go right now.”
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