The Ex-Wives

by Deborah Moggach

  Contents

  Cover

  About the Book

  About the Author

  Also by Deborah Moggach

  Dedication

  Title Page

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-one

  Chapter Twenty-two

  Chapter Twenty-three

  Chapter Twenty-four

  Chapter Twenty-five

  Chapter Twenty-six

  Chapter Twenty-seven

  Chapter Twenty-eight

  Chapter Twenty-nine

  Chapter Thirty

  Chapter Thirty-one

  Chapter Thirty-two

  Chapter Thirty-three

  Read on for an extract from Something to Hide

  Copyright

  About the Book

  Meet Buffy.

  With three ex-wives, a failing career and only his dog George for company, Buffy’s bachelorhood is looking worryingly confirmed.

  Until he meets Celeste.

  Dazzled by love, Buffy has no idea that Celeste is systematically researching his ex-wives, children and step-children, and unearthing secrets that will change all their lives...

  About the Author

  Deborah Moggach is the author of many successful novels including the bestseller The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel. Her screenplays include The Diary of Anne Frank and the film of Pride and Prejudice, which was nominated for a BAFTA. She lives in North London.

  ALSO BY DEBORAH MOGGACH

  You Must Be Sisters

  Close to Home

  A Quiet Drink

  Hot Water Man

  Porky

  Driving in the Dark

  To Have and to Hold

  Smile and Other Stories

  Stolen

  The Stand-In

  Changing Babies

  Seesaw

  Close Relations

  Tulip Fever

  Final Demand

  The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel

  Heartbreak Hotel

  ‘I don’t think I’ll get married again.

  I’ll just find a woman I don’t like

  and give her a house.’

  Lewis Grizzard

  For Max Eilenberg, Mike Shaw and Rochelle Stevens

  The Ex-Wives

  Deborah Moggach

  One

  BUFFY WAS SITTING in what he still insisted on calling the saloon bar of his local, The Three Fiddlers. The racing commentary was drowned by the noise of a drill. Outside, as usual, they were digging up the road. This time, according to one of those self-congratulatory Bringing It To Your Community placards, they were laying down cable TV. The noise of the drilling was joined by the hooting of cars, stuck in the inevitable traffic jam this caused at the junction with the Edgware Road. He was feeling mulish and dyspeptic. Despite his post-breakfast sachet of Fybogel his bowels had failed to move that morning; nor had his first Senior Service, inhaled vigorously into his lungs, had its usual, prompt effect.

  He gazed into his foam-laced, empty glass. He was feeling his age, whatever that meant. Depending on his mood, sixty-one shifted both ways – only sixty-one and my God, sixty-one. Today it was my God. Events had conspired to irritate him, an elderly reaction he knew, but still. First there was the bowel business, or non-business. Then, when he had gone out on this glorious summer’s day he had had another undeniably elderly reaction: how did young girls manage to wear such indescribably hideous clothes? Once he had looked forward to hot weather, revealing, as it did, achingly tender shoulders, slim legs and promising hints of cleavage. Now girls cropped their hair and wore those awful, awful boots. Those with the most monumental buttocks wore luminous shorts; the slim ones, on the other hand, enveloped themselves in drooping layers of black, like Greek grannies. And he himself, of course, was entirely invisible. Not a flicker from them. Nothing.

  It was then, when he was looking at the only recognisably female woman, that he had tripped up on an upturned paving stone, outside his block of flats, and almost taken a header. Blasted TV cables. Testily, he reflected upon choice. Nowadays, choice had been removed in the things that mattered, like saloon and public bars. Once harmlessly divided into two sections, two pungent little microcosms of society which one could visit at will, depending upon one’s finances and the presence of a female companion, pubs had now been knocked-through and neutered – Tony Blackburned into a mid-Atlantic no man’s land of bleeping machines and androgynous creatures probably working in PR. On the other hand, there seemed to be a proliferation of choice in what one already had too much of anyway. Take lager. Nowadays there were about a million different brands, the more obscure the better – he should know, he’d done the voice-over for one from East Senegal or somewhere – who needed them? Though of course the repeat fees were welcome.

  And then there were all these TV channels, cable and things, popping up when it was flustering enough keeping up with the four one already had, especially now they had a video and Penny kept recording The Clothes Show over his Palm Beach Story. And then self-righteously blaming him because he apparently hadn’t labelled it.

  ‘I don’t see why you make such a fuss’ she said, ‘you never get around to watching all those boring old films anyway. It’s so anal, darling, to hoard.’

  ‘I just like to know they’re there. It’s like church.’

  ‘But you never go to church.’

  ‘Exactly. But I know I could, if I wanted. It’s there.’

  She had tossed her shiny hair and clipped shut her briefcase. Then paused. She had stood still, like a fox, scenting a rabbit a long way off, through the undergrowth. Her nostrils flared. Maybe she could write a piece on it. That’s what she was thinking. He knew her so well. Maybe one of her cuddly, tabloid Aren’t Men the End? pieces, with blush-making references to himself; maybe something for a woman’s glossy, Cosmopolitan or something, Ten New Grounds for Divorce. An amused, middle-class think-piece for The Times. She spread her talents widely. My God, she even wrote for High Life – one of the ten grounds for divorce, in his opinion.

  But Penny was in Positano, writing a travel piece for somebody or other. She was writing a lot of travel pieces lately. This, of course, was the real reason for his irritability. It was lonely, shuffling along to Marks and Sparks to buy a Serves One meal. By now he knew them by heart. Cumberland Fish Pie – disappointing, too much potato; Lasagne – a bit ersatz but okay. They reminded him of periods in his life he preferred to forget. Besides, there was never quite enough in a Serves One so he usually bought a Serves Two, which was just too much, of course, but being greedy he always ate the lot, scraping out the foil dish, and then fell heavily asleep, waking in the middle of the night with heartburn. Then there was the wine problem. A half-bottle wasn’t nearly enough, of course, not nearly. But a whole bottle was marginally too much, with the same results except when he woke it was with a flaming throat and palpitations. When Penny was there it was fine; she was a light drinker which meant he could polish off practically the whole bottle but not quite.

  Besides, he liked to chat. He liked her breezing in from the outside world, tut-tutting at the mess and half-listening to the events of his afternoon. She was invigorating, in a vaguely abs
tracted way. She had breeding – her father was a brigadier – and a Home Counties gloss to her, she sorted things out and got things done. She could be good company – amusing, full of gossip – especially when there were other people present; when they were alone she was inclined to boss him about. She was at her best with workmen – good-natured but firm and authoritative; rather the way she handled him, in fact. Otherwise she treated him the way she treated the dog – with brisk testiness, especially when he got under her feet or stood in front of the fridge.

  He wasn’t good at being alone. He got bored. He missed the bickering, the sulks, even the hours she spent on the phone when he was trying to watch the TV. Scents in the bathroom – perfumes she got as promotional freebies – lingered for days after her departures. Actually, they didn’t exactly remind him of her; they reminded him of some idealized female presence, the sort of woman he had never met, and certainly never married. The sort of woman who cooked him dinner unresentfully and laughed at his anecdotes even though she had heard them before; who didn’t record over his videos. Who didn’t call him ‘darling’ with an edge to it; why did women only use endearments when they were particularly irritated, or trying to make some sort of point?

  He got to his feet. George’s tail thumped; he got up, with difficulty, and gazed up at Buffy, his eyes moist with devotion. Why had no woman, in all these years, ever looked at him quite like that?

  Buffy bought another pint from the landlord. He was new, an impossibly tanned, athletic type. God knew why he had decided to run a pub. The world was becoming filled with handsome, vigorous young men. They sprang up from nowhere, or sometimes from Australia, and ran the sort of enterprises that seemed vaguely beneath them; the sort of businesses which used to be run by boring old geezers you could rely on to be there year in year out, for ever. These new ones all looked as if they had just dropped in to do you a favour. This particular one was called Curtis, he had heard the name, but the moment had passed when he could have called him Curtis, casually, and now it was too late.

  Buffy sat down; George sank to the floor. Penny seemed to have been away for ages; in fact she had only been gone for two days. The trouble with these absences was that you had to be particularly nice to the person before they departed, and particularly nice to them for quite a while after they returned; it gave a marriage an unnatural glaze, a stagey feel. Also, because they had been abroad it made everything you had done seem even more petty and trivial than usual. If that was possible. She always returned tanned and somehow taller – he forgot how tall she was until he saw her again. Radiant, too, but full of complaints to make him feel better. ‘Christ, the hotel . . . more like a building site . . . bulldozers, mud . . . We had to watch a fashion display, three hours, would you believe it they all wore flares . . . almost as bad as folk dancing, no, not quite, nothing’s as bad as that . . . then we had this nightmarish rum’n’rhumba evening . . . Shirley got totally paralytic, you know, she’s the one from Family Circle . . . and everyone had the most appalling hangovers the next day . . .’

  She brought him back things to eat – obscure Greek sweetmeats wrapped in foil, Sicilian anchovies, things that leaked in her suitcase. He was touched by this, of course, but it made him feel like a housewife whose husband was returning home. This in turn let to the inevitable operational hitches once they had gone to bed. The longer she had been away, the more honour-bound he felt to attempt some sort of sexual congress on her return. After some dampish fiddling around they both knew they would never get any sleep this way, it could go on for hours. ‘Don’t worry,’ she’d whisper, ‘I’m totally zonked, anyway.’

  Two

  CELESTE. CHARMING NAME, charming girl. Celeste, handing round chicken sandwiches. It was a hot day in July; the day of her mother’s funeral.

  Celeste lived in Melton Mowbray. She was twenty-three, an only child, now orphaned by her mother’s final shuddering breath. She had an only child’s tended look, and indeed had been dearly loved. She smelt of soap. Her hair was cropped short, and there were small gold studs in her ears. Her fragile grace and inky eyes gave her the look of an antelope, startled by an intruder, but like all impressions this was partially misleading. In fact she had a stubborn streak, and was very good at maths. Her nimble fingers had made her Cats Cradle Champion at her primary school. She was logical. Columns of figures were to be one of her few reassurances in the tumultuous year that lay ahead. Buffy was deeply impressed, when he first saw her, by the way she cupped a phone to her ear, wedging it with her shoulder, whilst with her free hands she wrapped his numerous pharmaceutical purchases in plastic bags and rang them up at the till. He was hopeless at that sort of thing.

  In those days Celeste wore angora sweaters in pastel colours. Sometimes, when she cycled, she wore a track suit. Fashion, that collusion of narcissists, did not engage her interest for she was a solitary person and her pleasures were solitary ones – swimming in the local baths, her stinging eyes blind to the gaze of the lifeguard; bicycling; biting the bits of skin around each of her fingernails, one by one. If she had neuroses she was unaware of them, for her family had no words for stuff like that, nor sought them because they were nothing but trouble. They led a quiet life. She wore a gold crucifix around her neck but the reason for this, the fathoms of faith it crystalized, were so far largely unexamined too. She was an innocent, something still possible in Leicestershire.

  The lounge was crowded with mourners. Mourners. She had to fit this unfamiliar word to the faces. Some of them were relatives she had never seen before, and would never see again. Amongst the people there were several large men from Ray-Bees Plumbing Services. They fingered the mantlepiece ornaments that from now onwards, for ever, it would be her job to dust. Though chronically unreliable – ‘Don’t get rabies!’ was a cry that had once confused her – they had turned up en masse for the funeral, probably as a skive. Her mum used to clean their offices.

  Celeste went into the kitchen to fetch the stuffed eggs. She unpeeled the cling film; it shrivelled, and stuck to the down on her arm. She wanted to ask her mother the names of the relatives in the other room, but simultaneously she knew this was impossible. Post still arrived for her mother, wasn’t this strange? Envelopes addressed to Mrs Constance Smith, one of them offering her the exciting chance of winning a Vauxhall Astra. There was a burst of laughter from the next room; funerals can be surprisingly jovial affairs. She longed for them all to go, and yet she dreaded the moment when they would leave.

  She carried the stuffed eggs into the lounge. The noise changed; under the voices she could hear the low murmur of condolence, like another instrument, a cello, being added to an orchestra. ‘Let me take those.’ ‘Why don’t you sit down?’ ‘Budge up, Dennis!’ She was Connie’s little girl and what was she going to do with herself now? Orphan was like mourner, a new word she had to fit to herself. A word she had to be fitted up with, like a surgical implant, for life.

  The air thickened with cigarette smoke. ‘Little mole on his cheek,’ she heard. ‘Brand new candelabra.’ There was a stirring. ‘What time did you order that minicab, Irene?’ Upstairs, in the wardrobe, hung her mother’s clothes. They would remain there, hanging. Each time she visited they would remain in exactly the same order. If, that is, she could bring herself to open the door. She had no idea it would be like this; that death would change all her mother’s possessions – transform each one of them into something charged and motionless. Objects that were meaningless and yet impossible to touch, as if a spell had been put on them.

  In the end, of course, she had to do something about it all. She took a week off work, to sort things out. Shoes were the saddest, with their dear, empty bunion bumps. Scrawled recipe cards were the worst, in her mother’s handwriting. So was anything her mother had repaired doggedly, with bits of sellotape. So was everything. Celeste felt frail and elderly; she did it slowly, and had to sit down a lot. Outside there was the blast from a radio as Stan next door repaired his car; she didn’t even know what day
of the week it was. She emerged like an invalid, blinking in the sunshine. She was numb but surprisingly enough she still noticed things, as if she had a secretary beside her, taking notes. What was this new cereal called Cinnamon Toasts? Why did the scratchy beat of Walkmen always sound the same, as if everyone was listening to exactly the same pop song, all over Britain? Who could answer her questions now?

  She was basically a cheerful sort of person and grief was like a foreign and alarming country, visited by other people but never by herself. The death of her father didn’t really count because she was only six at the time. She must be in that country now, though it didn’t affect her as she had imagined, the landscape didn’t look like the brochures, and she couldn’t recollect the exact moment when she had crossed the frontier. In some ways she felt exactly the same, though Wanda, who lived opposite, said she looked awful and how about coming over for a spot of supper, they were having Turkey Thighs Honolulu? Douggie was cooking it, with tinned pineapples not fresh, but what else could you expect in a dump like this?

  Celeste ate heartily. She had always had a good appetite and it seemed to persist through everything, like traffic lights still working when a city has been evacuated. Wanda wore a purple leotard; below her freckled cleavage her breasts looked as tight and glossy as plums. She was a bit of a goer; her husband Douggie had had a vasectomy.

  ‘Why don’t you go to London?’ she asked.

  ‘Why?’ asked Celeste.

  ‘Why not? Want to be stuck here all your life? God, I’d do anything to get away.’ She sighed. People confided in Celeste nowadays, more than they used to do. Her bereavement had made them readier to pour out their own complaints, maybe to keep her company. She had learnt a lot about other people’s troubles these past few weeks. ‘Sub-let the maisonette’ said Wanda.

  Celeste felt nauseous. ‘I can’t decide things like that.’ She couldn’t decide what clothes to wear in the mornings. Such an effort. Tonight she felt stupid and sluggish, like an amoeba; like some lowly, spongey form of life that only flinched when prodded. She felt sleepy all the time. Was this grief?