by H. D. Gordon
Nelly smiled a little, swiping tears off her cheeks. “That’s a stupid question, Alexa.”
I tried to smile at her but the movement of my face caused me more pain. “Come on,” I said. “It would take a little more than an elbow to the face to finish me off.” Her hazel eyes lit up with anger. “Is that what happened to you?” That gave me pause. I don’t know why, but I guess I’d just expected her to know how I’d gotten here. Then, it occurred to me that no one would have told her. I asked anyway.
“No one told you?”
She shook her head sharply, and I realized then that it was so rare to see Nelly as mad as she was right now. The look she had in her eyes reminded me of, well, me. It was like I could see the monster waiting behind them, the monster that so desperately wanted its revenge; its blood. It scared me to see Nelly like that, more than my own darkness had ever scared me.
“No,” she said. “No one told me. I just got a knock on my door with someone telling me that you were in the infirmary, so I rushed here. When I got here, I saw that you were unconscious on the bed with your face all swollen up, and no one would tell me what had happened.”
I tried to act like it was no big deal. “Well, it was an elbow to the face.” She didn’t even crack a smile, her eyes were still so filled with that anger. “Whose elbow?” she asked.
When I didn’t answer, I felt a flash of ice charge through my arm where she held my hand. Before I could realize what she was doing, she released me and her hand flew up to her mouth. She gasped, “No, he wouldn’t.”
I raised an eyebrow. “That was fast. You’re amazing.” She knew I was just trying to change the subject, but it really was amazing that she’d just Searched me and pulled out a single piece of information in about the blink of an eye.
When she just stared at me, I sighed. “Apparently, he would.” She looked like she just couldn’t believe it. “Why?”
I told her. I told her about the King and his insistence on a “demonstration.” I told her about how I’d drunk blood from Kayden the night before. I told her everything; everything except for Soraya and the village, of course.
When I finished, she sat back and stayed silent for a long time. Finally, she took my hand and whispered, “I’m so sorry, Lex. That’s horrible.” I laughed a little, because it was either that or crying, and I was not going to cry right now. It would probably hurt my face. “Yeah,” I said “It kinda sucks.” Her mouth quirked up, but the anger still lurked behind her eyes. “Super sucks,” she corrected.
I pulled up just the left side of my mouth, the unbroken side, in a half smile. It probably looked more like a grimace. I opened my mouth as if to retort, then shut it. I didn’t trust my words to come out steadily. I didn’t trust the unbidden wetness in my eyes not to flow over. I knew speaking would demolish those dams. Instead, I released a shuttering breath and dropped my head between my shoulders, shaking it back and forth. It hurt, but no other position felt appropriate. Grief had set cinder blocks on my shoulders. Nelly immediately recognized my despair.
She sat down beside me, wrapping her arms around me in a tight hug. It hurt, but I just gritted my teeth and pretended that I couldn’t feel a thing. When she laid her head on my shoulder and started sobbing again, I ran my fingers through her hair in a weak attempt to soothe her. This I could handle. At least I knew that no matter what, Nelly loved me. Nelly would never try to hurt me or betray my trust. Nelly was one person I could count on to bleed, every time I was cut.
Chapter 65
“You sure you don’t want me to stay with you tonight?” Nelly asked as we climbed the steps to my dorm building.
“I’m fine, Nell, really. I can handle a little black eye. Hell, mom gave me more than I can count.”
She smiled a little at the mention of our Mother. “Yeah, but-” When she didn’t continue, I looked up to see that she was staring straight behind me, her face a stone mask. Anger radiated from her eyes like solar flares. Spinning around, I felt the fluttery feeling in my chest a split second before I saw that Kayden was walking up to us.
I tilted my face to Nelly, who was now standing beside me with her arms crossed over her chest. “I’ll see you in the morning, okay Nell?”
She shot me a look that said she would do no such thing, but when I asked her again with my eyes, she sighed and strolled up so that she was standing right in front of Kayden.
He was so much bigger than her that she had to tilt her head all the way back to look him in the eyes. It was almost comedic, because Nelly is even shorter than I am, and I’m only 5’5”.
I couldn’t see her face, but Nelly’s voice was fierce when she spoke. “If you ever hurt her again,” she said. “I’ll kill you myself.”
Kayden just nodded solemnly. To further my shock, Nelly nudged him hard with her shoulder, causing her to move more than him, and stomped off in the direction of her dorm.
I smiled at her gesture and switched my eyes back to Kayden, who was staring down at his feet. I propped a hand on my hip. “Got something you want to say, buddy?” He nodded slowly and finally looked up and met my eyes. The pain in his gold ones almost made me want to comfort him. Until I remembered that he was a traitor. “Yes,” he said. “I’m sorry.”
I laughed out loud because I couldn’t help it. “Oh, okay,” I replied. “No problem then.”
“Alexa, I did it to help you.”
I laughed again- he was unbelievable-, and gestured to my mangled face. “Well, thank you very much.”
He ran a hand through his hair. “I’m sorry. I hope you know I would never hurt you.” When I started to laugh again, he said, “If the King saw you win, he would see you as an even bigger threat. I couldn’t let you be on his radar any more than you already are. Trust me, Alexa. I did what was best.”
Something in me snapped, and as irrational as it sounded, I wanted to throw myself into his arms for comfort. But that was not about to happen. People who beat the crap out of me didn’t get to be my friends.
“You keep saying that,” I said in a quiet voice. “But, you know what? I don’t think I can trust anyone, Kayden. Especially not you.”
With that, I turned and went inside the building. Kayden didn’t follow. When I opened my door, I threw myself across the bed and laid there in the dark. Slowly, tears started to fall down my face, but I swiped them away and took a deep breath. Those would be the last tears I would shed over that man. I’d just push the pain deep down inside me and ignore it. At least it would be in good company.
Chapter 66
I woke up to see that it was still dark outside. My bangs were plastered to my forehead with sweat, and I was breathing heavily. A glance at the clock on my dresser said that it was just past three in the morning. I didn’t remember having a dream, so what had woken me up?
That’s when I felt it, the pull that was so insistent that it reached me in my sleep. I swung my legs off the bed and hopped up to my feet. It felt like I had a tether wrapped around my soul, and I had no choice but to go wherever it pulled me. I did manage to snag my Gladius off my dresser on the way out. Its pull was a polar opposite to the one I felt drag me out of bed.
My mind even felt a little muddled, but I stepped out into the dark hall of my dorm building and made my way outside.
The whole time I kept asking myself what the hell I was doing, but my body seemed to be moving on its own accord. My feet seemed to walk without instruction from me. I was dressed at least, in the same clothes I’d fallen asleep in, and that meant I had shoes on my feet. I was grateful for this when I was tugged into a line of trees and was made to walk through the forest for what seemed like several minutes. I had no idea where I was going, I just went. It was kind of like being the passenger in a car, with no control over where my body took me.
When the trees ended, I was staring right up at the top of the very high, south end wall. My hands reached up then, and grabbed the rough stone, pulling me up and up so that I was scaling it. It wasn’t easy, and the ston
e bit into my hands when I gripped the surface, but my body just kept insisting that I climb to the top of it.
When I made it to the top, I jumped down on the other side, sending pain shooting through my legs. I looked up to see that I stood on the bank of the large river.
I also stood across the river from a Lamia.
For a second, I thought I was dreaming, so I rubbed my eyes again and refocused.
But no matter how many times I blinked, the beautiful monster was still in front of me. I knew her facade to be misleading; her mouth hid shark teeth, her soul black ink.
I was no longer being pulled by the force that had brought me from my bed, so I just stood there, staring at the vampire across the river.
When she started laughing, and that hissing sound that brought back so many terrible memories escaped her mouth, I knew this was no dream. I studied her for a moment and realized that I recognized her. Since I had only ever encountered Lamia once in my life, I knew from where.
This was one of the monsters that had killed my Mother. The thought made my own beast roar to life inside me, breathing fire through my veins. I could feel the heat of it all the way down to my toes, and if the river hadn’t been about twenty feet from bank to bank, I might have tried to leap over.
I tightened my grip on the sword, and the blade shot out from the end of it. The Lamia hissed again, and her black eyes flashed with warning. “Eassssy, Warrior,” she sneered.
“There’ssss no need for violencccce.”
I stood there completely dumbstruck. What in the hell was happening? “What do you want?” I spat, finally finding my voice.
She smiled, displaying a mouth full of razor sharp fangs. “Your ssssweet blood would be nicccce.” She inhaled deeply and licked her lips. “I can ssssmell it from here.” My fury scorched the earth beneath my feet. “Then, come and get it.” She clucked her tongue and flashed another terrifying smile. “Clever little Warrior, you know that I can’t.”
I considered trying to throw my sword at her, but the thought of losing it in the river stopped me. The sword was the only gift I had left from my Mother. Then, I thought about trying to swim across the river, which was stupid for obvious reasons. So, I ended up just standing there.
When I decided that this was pointless, I turned and went to climb back over the wall. The Lamia hissed again behind my back. “I called you here for a reasssson, Warrior,” she said.
I spun back around to face her. “You have no control over me. You didn’t call anything.” I knew that was a lie, but I was just really pissed off now. I had to get away before I did something reckless.
She laughed again, and the sound was like nails on a chalkboard to my ears. “You have our blood in your veins. Of coursssse I can ssssummon you.” She tilted her head a little and smiled again. “So doessss that ssssister of yours.”
I wanted to scream in rage, or better yet, send my blade through this bitch’s neck. Taking a deep breath, I said, “Tell me why you came here, or I’m leaving.” The Lamia shrugged, and the normal gesture looked very odd on her. Her black eyes stayed locked on me as she spoke. “I came to deliver a messssage.” I clenched my fists and spoke through gritted teeth. “What message?” She smiled again and I got the strong urge to knock her fangs right out of her head. If I could only reach her. “A deal hassss been broken,” she hissed. “Sssso, I’ve come to break our end of the deal.”
I just stood there waiting, the whole hissing thing was getting more than annoying. I was beginning to think that no matter what message she had for me, it wasn’t worth hearing another word out of her mouth.
Finally, she told me what she had come to tell me. But it was not a message that I had ever expected to hear. It was not something that I had even thought was possible.
With one more flash of her fangs, she said, “Your mother livessss, Warrior.”
Chapter 67
“You’re lying.”
The Lamia rolled her black eyes. “I have no reasssson to lie to you. Do what you will with what I’ve told you.”
She turned to leave, but I called out to her. “Where is she?” Her head whipped around, and a slow, jagged smile spread over her face. “What do I get in return for that information?”
I almost growled in frustration. I had nothing to give her that she would want, and I wasn’t even entirely sure I believed her. But was I willing to bet my Mother’s life on that?
No. Glancing around, I picked up a large rock, then, I used my sword to cut my palm open. Blood welled up on my hand and across the river, the Lamia hissed loudly. I rubbed my palm all over the rock, covering it in my blood.
“You want this?” I asked, holding up the rock.
“Yessss,” she hissed, with her eyes locked on the rock in my hand.
“Then tell me where my Mother is.”
This made her laugh again. The monster raged inside me. “Clever little Warrior,” she said. “Give me the rock and I’ll tell you.”
I rolled my eyes and pretended like I was going to toss the rock in the river. She hissed again and spoke quickly. “She’ssss in Dangeon.”
My breath caught in my throat. Why would she be there? She hadn’t committed any crime. And if she was in the prison, that meant that the Lamia were not behind what had happened to her. The anger that I always kept so close to me threatened to take over at that moment. But I took a deep breath and tried to regain control over myself.
“Thanks,” I said. Then, I tossed the rock into the river.
Across the river, the Lamia screeched that ear-splitting noise, but I just climbed up the wall and swung my legs over the other side.
Right before I hopped down on the other side of the wall, I heard the Lamia call out to me. “Good luck with reaching your mother, Warrior. As ssssoon as you sssstep over thissss river, I’ll kill you, and I’ll drink every last drop of your ssssweet blood.” I jumped down and rolled my eyes again at her threat, even though she could no longer see me. Making my way back to my dorm room, I mumbled to myself, “Yeah, well, you’ll have to get in line.”
Chapter 68
I put everything I owned in my backpack, which wasn’t very much, and headed out. It was still early, with the sun just barely peeking over the horizon. I had a few stops to make before I left and I wanted to be out of here before the rest of the city woke up.
I made my way to the wolves’ dorms and checked the directory to find out which room was Jackson’s. When I got there, I took a deep breath, and knocked on the door.
I had to knock a few times, but finally, the door swung open and Jackson stood there. His reddish-brown hair was messy from sleep, and he was only wearing a pair of boxers, which had cowboy hats and lassos printed all over them.
“Alexa?” he said. “God, what happened to your face?”
I shrugged off his question. “Can I come in for a second?” He stepped to the side and gestured for me to enter. “What’s going on?” he asked, once he’d closed the door behind me.
“I’m sorry I woke you up, but I need to ask you for a favor.” He looked confused, but he nodded. “Anything.”
Taking another deep breath, I said, “I need you to keep Nelly safe while I’m gone.”
“Okay, but, where are you going?”
I sighed, wishing I could tell him, but I had to do this on my own. I wasn’t going to put anyone at risk while I went on a mission that I wasn’t even sure was real. “I just have some things I need to take care of, Jack. I need you to trust me. Will you keep Nelly safe for me?” He nodded and pulled me into a hug. “Of course I will. But, you will be coming back right?”
I pulled back and kissed him on the cheek. “Of course.” At least, I hoped I would.
He sighed and ran a hand through his hair. When he spoke, his green eyes were full of affection. “I’ll wait for you then.”
I smiled, and fought tears that were threatening to surface. “You might be waiting a while.”
He smiled back, but there was hurt behind his eyes.
“I’d wait an eternity for you, Alexa.”
I pulled him to me and gave him a long, sweet kiss. When we broke apart, his eyes were glowing wolf gold, and I was pretty sure mine were too. “Thank you so much, Jackson, for everything. You’re the best friend I’ve ever had, and that means more to me than I could ever tell you.”
He smiled again, and this time, it reached his beautiful eyes. I turned to go, but then remembered I had one more favor to ask. Reaching into my pocket, I pulled out the note I’d scribbled down in my room before I’d left. “Will you give this to Nelly for me?” He pulled me into one last hug and kissed my forehead. “Alexa,” he whispered.
“I’d kill a bear for you.”
I laughed at that. This was the reason I loved Jackson. He could always manage to make me laugh, no matter what horrible situation I found myself in. I decided then that if I was ever going to tell him, now would be the time to do it, especially since I didn’t know if I would make it back from my trip.
“I love you, Jackson.”
He brushed some hair out of my face and ran his fingers down my cheek. “Alexa,” he sighed. “I’ve always loved you.”
I left then, but I knew, with absolute certainty, that he really did.
Chapter 69
My next stop was a little further away, so I ran to get there. I was still feeling pretty strong after drinking Kayden’s blood, but I knew that I would need to eat after I made it outside the walls.
When I reached Tommy’s house, I knocked on the front door, and to my surprise, he answered pretty quickly. When he opened the door, I saw that he was fully dressed in his usual expensive attire, with black dress pants and a blue button-down shirt that matched his eyes. He looked surprised to see me too, but he immediately stepped to the side and gestured for me to enter.
“To what do I owe the pleasure, Alexa?”