by Joe Haldeman
They did have a stretchy ankle bandage to keep me upright and working. I slept for a couple of fitful hours and then was up at dawn to work a grave-digging shift. There were individual graves for the dead farmers, but what I and five others were working on was a mass shallow grave for the eighteen enemy dead. It was a pyre as much as a grave, actually. Hip deep, twelve feet by six. We filled it with dry wood and kindling and stacked pine logs on that. And then the bodies.
I was glad to be excused from that part of it. There were plenty of enthusiastic volunteers.
A vocal minority wanted them stripped. Manufactured clothing would be rare soon. Okay, Roz said—you can take it, but you have to wear it yourself. No one did.
It was a horrible sight. Faces blackening and melting in the flames, restless dead limbs moving, insides boiling away and bursting, the fire bright and greasy with rendered human fat. Finally, it was only skeletons and separated bones momentarily glimpsed inside the roaring flames.
Part of me watched the process with numb detachment. I didn’t even notice when Namir left my side and then came back with a cup of wine, which he offered to me.
“No,” I said. “I’m still queasy.”
“Yes,” he said, and stared at the fire as he drank. He smiled, and I wondered what he was thinking. Maybe I didn’t want to know.
“Got some more for you,” Roz said, approaching with Jerry pulling the cart. Seven or eight bodies, all apparently men. “Let’s check all the pockets for ammo before they go into the fire.”
I reached for the top body and jumped back. It was Card.
“Sorry,” Roz said, recognizing him. “I’ll do it.”
His face was unaffected, calm. But the top of his head had been blown out of round by a bullet that hit him in the temple. On the other side, an exit wound the size of my fist.
“He didn’t feel anything,” I said.
“A pity.” She pulled him off the cart by his feet and dragged him partway to the fire. She turned out his pockets, found something, and held it out to me. “Yours if you want it.”
It was a keychain with two old-fashioned metal keys as well as modern stubs. It was attached to a little carving that I immediately recognized: a small sea tortoise carved from a tagera nut in the Galápagos—my parents had bought them as souvenirs for us before we got on the Space Elevator on the way to Mars.
Mine was still on Mars, in a box of personal effects I’d left behind.
“Thanks,” I said, and stared at it as she and two other women carried his body away. I turned my back toward them so as not to watch him consigned to the flames. There was no love between us, but a lot of history.
My last blood connection to the Earth. Parents long gone and both my children Martians. “Back in a minute,” I said to no one in particular, and headed for the latrine. It wasn’t the most pleasant place to sit and think, but if I spent enough time there, the next time I looked into the fire, I wouldn’t recognize anybody. And the heat from the flames suddenly felt monstrous.
18
By the next morning, the fire had burned all the way down, and there was nothing recognizably human on the surface of the ashes. Those of us who had dug the pits were given a morning of rest while different work crews filled them.
I volunteered to take some tea and cookies out to them, mid-morning, which was good fortune for me, if not for them. I dropped the tray. But I got to see the Martians land.
A huge floating disc, maybe half the size of the entire compound, floated swiftly down out of the sky and stopped, hovering a couple of feet off the ground. There was no sound except for the crash of my teapot and cups.
“Please do not shoot,” the disc said with an amplified American accent. “We’re unarmed; we mean no harm. Hello, Carmen.”
“Hello,” I said. “I know you?”
“No. But there are people aboard you do know.” There was a dome-shaped protrusion in the center of the disc. A wedge of door opened, facing us.
A Martian stepped out and rippled toward the edge of the disc, all of its arms out in greeting.
“Snowbird?”
“It’s good to see you, Carmen. Paul is not with you.”
“He died . . . he died a couple of days ago.”
“I am sorry we missed him. We could use another pilot. It’s a long way back home.”
“Siberia?”
“Back to Mars. Home.”
“It came from Russia to pick me up? Us?”
“They picked me up in Russia, Carmen. They came from Mars, of course.”
“We are trying to locate every surviving Martian on Earth,” the amplified voice said. “You and Paul appear to be the last.”
Namir had come up beside me. “Leaving . . . for good?” he said.
“We don’t know,” the voice said. “This is all native Martian technology, which is to say, it’s from the Others. It might last forever, it might crash today. All we know for sure is that we can’t touch the surface of the Earth. If we do that, the power dies.”
“We had to jump on board,” Snowbird said, “from a snow-covered roof.”
“I’m afraid there’s not much time,” the voice said. “In the absence of Paul, you could bring another. But you have to decide now.”
I turned to Namir. His eyes were wide. Elza stepped up next to him, without touching, her face a mask. “Go with her,” she said softly. “You have to.”
Dustin limped up and put his hand on her shoulder. “For both of us,” he said. “For all of us. Go.”
Namir embraced them both, and said something I couldn’t hear.
Then he turned his back on everything and held out his hand to me.
His hand was large and strong. The skin was rough. “Shall we?”
We took two steps together and leaped into space.
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EPILOGUE
It’s been a long time since dying was simple. When I returned to Mars, almost forty ares ago, two of the first people I met were my dead brother.
Before the Others pulled the plug on the Earth, back in 2138, there had been a constant data exchange between the two planets for most of a century. Absolutely total backup, which included the cybernetic copies of Card’s two reserve bodies, although they were physically destroyed along with Los Angeles.
Of course there are billions of such “people,” sitting around as passive records, whose physical bodies are long gone. Some of them even had citizenship, back on Earth, if they’d filed the right incorporation papers before they died. Card had. I guess he could still vote in California if anyone was running for office.
I talk to one or the other every now and then, but it’s creepy. The calendar peeps me when it would be their birthday on Earth. His birthday.
They’ve never asked me about the day that he died.
If only my parents had lived long enough to be duplicated; I’d love to talk to either of them. They might not have done it anyhow. I haven’t. It takes weeks of immersion, and a desire to outlive your body.
I may do it yet. Both universities are after me, so all this valuable history should not be lost.
But maybe it should be lost. It’s not as if they don’t make new history to take its place.
When my dear Namir died, after we’d been together almost thirty ares, he declined to leave a copy. He quoted Wordsworth to me: “The old order changeth, making place for new / And God fulfils himself in many ways.”
He didn’t believe in gods any more than I do. But it’s a convenient shorthand.
Twice in these forty ares we have seen signs of life, communications, from Earth. There’s a powerful telescope at the observatory that’s dedicated to that task, at least one person watching the Earth whenever it’s up.
During the second-most-recent opposition, a tiny cross burned in Siberia, the place where Martians last lived on Earth. Each arm of the cross was forty miles long, so it was quite an engineering feat with primitive tools. Twenty ares before, a fiery cr
oss—or X—appeared in the desert of White Sands, New Mexico, and was visible as a black mark on Earth’s crescent for months.
They are still there. Still looking up.
Sometimes before dawn or just after sunset, I go up into the old dome and watch the blue spark of Earth rising or setting.
I did that this morning, for no special reason on the Martian calendar, but mine peeped and reminded me that on Earth I would be ninety years old today. Or my bones would be.
So I carried these old bones up and sat there alone, watching the Earth fade as the sky went from indigo to pale orange. Remembering the morning more than seventy years ago, waiting for a cab in the Florida dark. My father pointing out the bright unblinking red dot that we were about to visit. Saying we’d be back home in about five years.
But home was where we were going.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Joe Haldeman (1943 –) is a US writer who took a BSc in physics and astronomy before serving as a combat engineer in Vietnam (1968–1969), where he was severely wounded, earning a Purple Heart; later, in 1975, he took an MFA. This range of degrees was an early demonstration of the range of interests that have shaped the Hard SF with which he has sometimes been identified; his experiences in Vietnam have in fact marked everything he has written, including his first book,War Year(1972), a non-SF novel set there, and the concurrently drafted (though much delayed)1968 (1994).
Table of Contents
ENTER THE SF GATEWAY . . .
INTRODUCTION
MARSBOUND
Dedication
PART 1
LEAVETAKING
1- The Undead
2- Good-bye, Cool World
3- Captain, My Captain
4- Last Meal
5- Pizza Hunt
6- Fears
7- Canned Meat
8- Stop
9- Losing Weight
10- Social Climbing
11- Up and Out
12- Trouble
13- Virtual Friends and Foes
14- Midway
15- Sexual Disorder
16- A New World
17- The Land of Oz
18- Marswalk
19- Fish Out of Water
20- Nightwalk
PART 2
FIRST CONTACT
1- Guardian Angel
2- Homecoming
3- The Dragon Lady
4- Bad Cough
5- Invasion from Earth
6- Zen for Morons
7- Suffer the Little Children
8- Ambassador
PART 3
SECOND CONTACT
1- Setting the Stage
2- Formalities
3- Speaking in Tongues
4- Puzzles
5- Unveiled Threat
6- Peace Offering
7- Language Barrier
8- Signal-to-Noise Ratio
9- Betrayed
10- Trojan Horse
11- Endings, Beginnings
STARBOUND
Dedication
PART 1
THE SEED
1- NATIVITY SCENE
2- HISTORY LESSON
3- GERM THEORY
4- NO ORDINARY HERO
5- LOGICS
6- EARTH AND MARS AND IN BETWEEN
7- INTRODUCTIONS
8- FAMILY MATTERS
9- SECRETS
10- NEW WORLD
11- GOOD-BYES
12- GROWING THINGS
PART 2
THE PLANT
1- GRAVITY SUCKS
2- YEAR ZERO
3- RECORD
4- WEIGHTY MATTERS
5- SWEET MYSTERIES OF LIFE
6- PRIVATE PARTS
7- KAMIKAZE
8- WATER SPORTS
9- ADULTERY FOR ADULTS
10- SWEET MYSTERY OF LIFE
11- HEROES
12- MEDICAL HISTORY
13- TRAUMA DRAMA
14- LOVE AND BLOOD
15- SEX AND VIOLENCE
16- INJURIES
17- THERAPY
18- ANNIVERSARY
19- YEAR TWO
PART 3
THE FLOWER
1- YEAR THREE
2- TURNAROUND
3- THE GRAND TOUR
4- OTHER-NESS
5- TURNAROUND
6- ADJUSTMENTS
7- ABOUT TIME
8- LOOSE CANNON
9- RELATIVITY IS RELATIVE?
10- RAMPAGE
11- DEAD WORLD
12- NO SURVIVORS
13- END OF A WORLD
14- PREDICTIONS
15- CHANGES
16- MOONBOY SPEAKS
17- CLOCK-WATCHING
18- RESPONSES
19- INFALL
20- THE LONGEST JOURNEY BEGINS WITH A SINGLE STEP
EARTHBOUND
Dedication
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EPILOGUE
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
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