The Beauty Within
Beauty is within,
Not without.
From what
I heard,
Beauty is
The example
Of mother nature,
The soul of a
Human being.
Beauty stands
For love, kindness,
You in which makes
Me feel the beauty
Of your soul.
Beauty stands
For beautiful in
Which God made us.
Finding Happiness
Visual signs
Of happiness
Appeals slowly
To me.
It is
Something
I can’t explain.
I learn to work
At it, so maybe I
Can feel what others
Feel.
Chilling vibes
Race through my veins
As I daydream of
Never having to go back
To this sinful place.
I feel alone,
Like I need help
Finding my way back
To where I should
Be.
But there’s
No one here
But me so I’m
Afraid I have to
Search for happiness
Myself.
Darkness’ Sin
Darkness takes
Me hostage into
A cage where life
Doesn’t exist.
Smells of vicious
Souls poison me with
Its heartless ways.
Sin is reality,
It’s not a lie,
It’s not fake.
I live in fear,
Afraid to never
Be let go.
I’m imprisoned,
I’m a slave
To its unforgiving
Sin.
I wish
To finally
Be saved soon
Into the light,
Never to revisit
That nightmare
Again.
Silhouette Of A Woman
Whispers of life
Silently enters my ears,
Wondering if I am
Listening and miraculously,
I am.
The silhouette of
A young woman comes
Close to me,
Her sincerity and dignity
Is stronger than
Life itself.
I can see
Through her
That she has walked
Miles for daylight
To come,
Never stopping,
I only hope she would
Put that strength in me.
Liveliness is a prize
You are rewarded with,
Not something you
Just take.
This woman
Is always here,
It’s as if she’s
Bringing me to
A place I’ve never been,
Like a guardian angel.
Voices of life
Whispers to me
To never give up
Or I’ll fail.
The silhouette
Of a young woman
Comes close to me
And guides me to the
Daylight of life.
Pain Is Like A War
Pain is like
A war.
It is a
Crisis that
Cannot be
Healed.
It’s the way
Of life that
Is suicidal.
As I walk on
My own,
I wonder, can
I survive?
I go into
The ocean
And drown in
My own hurt
And lifelessness.
Life isn’t
Supposed to
Be like this,
I think to myself.
It’s supposed to
Be wonderful,
But instead, all
I can see is darkness.
Pain is like
A war,
It can’t be
Changed.
Emotions explode
As I can’t take no more,
No more pain,
No more hurt.
Hoping it would
Go away,
I pray, I pray
To never feel like
This again, because
Pain is like a war,
It is a crisis that can’t
Be healed.
Painful Crime
I am sore
From the pain
That you have
Purposely put
Inside me.
With your
Violent, harsh
Choice of words
That slowly consumes
Me, I feel stuck.
Stuck to the
Point that I am
A prisoner for life,
But sometimes,
I wish I was sentenced
To death so I wouldn’t
Have to suffer.
My Baby Called Nature
My baby is called
Nature for its beauty-
Everything I want
Walk Of Pain Relief
You’ve built
Anger inside of me,
So much anger
That it feels
Like I’m about
To go on a
Psychedelic rage,
Hoping that no one
Will catch me and
Lock me in a cage
So that I will not continue
My self-centered walk
Of pain relief.
Pain relief,
Being that I
Want someone
Else to feel this pain,
Feel this hurt,
And feel backstabbed
Just like me and then
Maybe they’ll
Realize what I mean
By self-centered
Walk of relief.
Realistic
Let’s be realistic,
We were never true,
We were just playing
Careless games with
Eachother.
No matter
How many times
We’ve tried,
It would be destroyed,
Destroyed by our
Careless,
Unforgiving,
Non-negotiable,
Unhappy selves.
You may say
This is unrealistic,
But it’s not
And it never
Will be.
Life Complications
As I look outside,
It’s just like life,
Beautiful, but wild
And uncontrolled.
I wonder why,
Why it has to be
Like that,
Why it’s so hard,
But it’s hard because
We make it hard
By the things we do.
I’m not saying
Life can’t be
Easy, but how
Can it be when
We don’t think outside
Of our selves,
Outside of us.
Love Loss = Nothing
The feeling of
Love coming down
Like rain,
Transferring from
You to me like
A person giving
A heart to someone
Else is like never
Before.
Have you ever
Wondered why
Love exists,
Why it gets to
Everyone it exposes?
I have, because without
It, nothing exists.
Love
Phobia
Yes, I have
A Love phobia,
The phobia in which
Makes me think I’m
Not worth it,
The phobia that
Makes me wonder
If I’ll ever be unafraid
To love again.
I’m scared,
I’m scared that
I’ll end up making
A mistake with love
And never being
Able to love or to
Be loved again.
People say,
“Oh, you’ll find
That perfect person”,
But what if that
Doesn’t work for me?
What if it’s just a myth?
I want to be loved,
But I’m scared.
Life (Like An Equation)
She was born
An angel that never
Hid herself from
Who she really was.
Never in her life
Did she want to feel
Pain, because if she did,
She would be weak.
Dreams of how
She could be was
Never a concern,
But dreams of how
She wanted to
Be was always
A concern.
Bad feelings
Consumed her,
Feelings that were
Never meant to be felt.
Peer pressure
Was her weakest link,
She would always
Get high on the pain
That she felt,
So much that it didn’t
Feel like pain,
It was just something
She got used to.
Words that
Came out of her
Mouth were
Unordinary and
Unusual,
Negative and
Wrong.
She would
Go to the wishing
Well,
Close her eyes,
And drop
the penny In hopes
that She would
get what She wanted,
light without darkness,
happiness without sadness.
Life is like
An equation,
Hard to solve,
Never easy,
Always hard.
She built this
Wall up to protect
Herself from
Pain until she
Realized that in
Order to be happy,
She has to feel pain.
We Both Found Life
My body is
On this earth
For a reason.
My soul is
Crawling to
Reach the depths
Of my mouth
To speak on behalf
Of my heart.
Freedom vibrates
My physical body
And seduces my
Mental mind.
Cries of passion
Comes down
My face as I cry
Tears of the living,
Of this realm,
And this island
That grabs my whole
Self, consuming me
With uncontrollable
Feelings, making
Me claustrophobic
To these emotions.
Not so much
For me to die out,
I gain the strength
To open myself
To ones emotion
And cry passionate
Tears with them.
Spiritual emotions
Lifts us up as we
Are seduced by one
Another’s souls.
My body is
On this earth
For a reason.
My soul is
Crawling to
Reach the depths
Of you.
Where You Are
Feelings of soulful
Cries mysteriously
Comes down like raindrops
From outside.
Invisible clouds
Appear as I realize
You’re gone.
I drop my
Head in misery,
Wanting to feel his
Hands touching me,
Feeling me,
But I then realize
That what I want
Is not real.
I then realize
That my feelings
Weren’t enough
For him to stay.
Where you are,
I cannot come
To stay.
This world
You’re in is
Sucking up my
Reality and who
I am.
Maybe we were
Never meant to be
If this, you see
Is not wrong.
Where you are
Is where you are
And where I am is
Where I want to stay.
Beauty Of Life ( Human Nature )
The beauty of life
Is beautifully like you-
In human nature
Garden Of Life
I went into
This garden
Of life,
The beauty
Of it was like
The beauty
Of nature.
The smell
Was like the
Smell of
A girl’s sweet
Citrus perfume.
The garden
Of life is like
Nothing you’ve
Ever seen.
Face Beauty
How your
Face shines
Like the
Brightness
Of the sun.
Why, I wish
That my
Facial features
Were as golden
As yours.
……
Beautiful
Masterpiece.
Survivor’s Life
I’m crawling
Up the balcony
Of life trying
To learn to go on
My own,
Into the wilderness
Of experiences,
Feelings of unordinary
Life that can’t be
Defined.
Therefore,
Portions of little
Demons that follow
Me frightens me,
It makes me afraid
To live.
The paths that
I’ll walk on
Threatens my
Ability of strength.
Life is like
A rollercoaster,
It has its ups and downs,
But when the downs
Go lower, I panic.
I panic
Because that
Makes me feel
Like a failure,
Like I’m doomed
In this world.
Chills come upon
Me as I lift my
Arms to soar because,
What if I fall?
Will I ever get up?
Thoughts consume
My mind,
It blocks positivity,
The thing I need
To survive.
But I’m
Not a survivor,
Because if I was,
I could soar right
Now with all the
Negativity gone
And fear unknown.
But it’s
Getting close
To time and
I’m scared,
But if I close
My eyes and lift
My wings and fly
And soar on my own,
I’m a survivor.
Stars Shining
The stars are shining
In the night sky with beauty-
Twinkling in ones sight
Those Are The Days That I Miss
Like the brightest
Of days when the sun
Comes out and
There’s no darkness.
Those are the days
That I miss when you
Were here and not
Extinct out of my life.
Like the sounds
Of the birds
Communicating
By their chirps.
Those are the days
That I miss when
We would communicate,
Except with us,
Our communication
Was by a kiss.
How a beautiful
Flower blooms like
The beginning
Of our relationship.
Those are the days
That I miss…
Stuck In Nowhere
I’m in a dark
Covered room,
I have nowhere
To go.
I have no one here,
I am nowhere near
Where I should be.
I feel like
I’m stuck and
I can’t get out,
I just want to go
Somewhere where
There’s an out,
I just want to get out.
Memories Blinded
The memories
I have of you are
Like a big explosion.
The gasoline
Was me being
Blinded by who
You really were,
Blinded by the
Face of a guy that
Never existed.
The fire was
You burning me
With undeniable
Pain that you put
Me through.
I sit and say
“Your loss”,
But it’s really
My loss too
Because I lost
Something special
To me, trust and love.
Addicted
As I insert
This drug of you
Into my vein,
Up Into my heart
and soul,
I can’t stop.
They say go
To rehab but still,
I can’t let it go,
I can’t let you go.
I sometimes
Wish I was never
Introduced,
Because when people
Ask if they can use,
I say “No,
He’s mine”,
And when they do,
I get jealous.
Everybody
Says that you’re
Bad for me,
All I say is I’m
In love with you
And I’m addicted.
The Pain In My Heart
My chest
Feels like pins
Is sticking through
With your sharp knife.
As I see my
Blood dripping
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