by Frank Zafiro
I cast a glance at the golden sarcophagus and felt a shiver run up and down my back. The tale of all the men from the Egyptian expedition who died rang in my ears.
“Ah, feck it,” I muttered. “We all die someday. ‘Tis better to die under an Irish sky, fighting for freedom. Besides, no Egyptian curse could be any worse than having the English around for the past few hundred years.”
I turned, grasped the lamp and headed upstairs.
CONNOR O’SULLIVAN
Gently Used
I never knew her name for sure, not for the longest time. She called herself by every variation of the name Laurie that I’d ever heard. Sometimes it was Lori, other times Laura. Her nametag said Lauren when I met her, though, so it was always my favorite.
I first saw her across six booths, serving a pair of drunken college students who’d probably been at the restaurant since the bars closed. We were there for breakfast near the end of a graveyard patrol shift. About 0430, the calls for service taper off. Officers who have been running from call to call all night long finally get a chance to take a breath, grab some coffee or maybe even some French toast and start writing up reports.
Part of what attracted me to her, now that I think about it, was the way she was able to still look so hopeful at the end of a long shift, as if the sleepy dawn held a new life for her. Something better.
I don’t know. It might have been the way she brushed a lock of loose hair behind her ear when she took an order, not knowing how beautiful it made her. Of course, it could have been her lovely rack, too.
She always served us with an enigmatic smile, somewhere between shy and seductive. I’d like to think she saved that smile only for me, but that just wasn’t true. The smile was for every man with a badge and I was simply lucky enough to fall into that category.
She flirted. I flirted back. As the days and months passed, the sexual innuendo grew. So did the rumors about her being a badge bunny. I didn’t want them to be true, but I didn’t kid myself that they weren’t.
“What do you think?” I asked Anthony Giovanni one morning, motioning over at Lauren three booths away, pouring coffee.
He glanced over his shoulder, watched her for a moment, then turned back to me and shrugged. “I got no time for ground balls.”
“What the hell does that mean?”
He tore into his French toast. “She’s like taking ground balls in practice, man. Nothing spectacular.”
If anyone would know, it would be Gio. His tall frame, olive skin and dark, Italian hair made it easy for him to meet women.
I watched her finish with the customers three booths away and move our direction. She made a show of sliding the last three feet on the tiled floor. Whenever she did that, my stomach clenched in fear that she’d fall and douse us all in hot coffee.
“Everything good here?” she asked, her eyes locked on my face.
Gio grunted through a mouthful of French toast.
She looked away, reaching for the small plate that my English muffin had been served on.
“Thanks,” I said.
She smiled at me, all shy and seductive, and glided away.
I looked back at Gio. “How is that batting practice?”
He shook his head as he swallowed his food.
“That’s what you said.”
He finished swallowing and took a gulp of his coffee. “Jesus, Sully, do you ever quote people in your reports? Because if so, I’ve got some serious doubts about your accuracy.”
I didn’t answer. Just looked at him.
He shook his head. “I said it was like taking ground balls in practice. Not batting practice.”
“So what? It’s a baseball metaphor either way.” I got to thinking about the metaphors we used as kids. First base was kissing, second base was fondling upstairs, third base fondling downstairs and a home run was the whole enchilada. Everybody knew what those metaphors meant, unlike Gio’s ground ball statement. “But what the hell is it supposed to mean?”
“Connor,” he said, pushing his plate away, “if I’ve gotta explain it to you, what’s the point?”
“The point is, try speaking English.”
He smiled. “You understood me just fine.”
The next morning, Gio was off. The traffic in the diner was slow and Lauren lingered at my table.
“Where’s your friend?”
“Gio?”
“Him and the other one,” she said.
She meant my best friend, Anthony Battaglia, who usually joined us for breakfast, too.
“Both on their days off,” I said.
“They’re both Italian, huh?”
I smiled. “Let’s see. Both named Anthony. One’s a Giovanni, one’s a Battaglia. Yeah, I think that’s Italian.”
“Shut up,” she said playfully, giving me a flirtatious tap on the shoulder.
“We’re all Italians,” I said.
She cocked her head at me for a moment, then dropped her eyes to my nametag.
“O’Sullivan?” she said. “That’s not Italian.”
“It’s not?”
“You’re Irish.”
“Ah, lass,” I said, putting a bit of the homeland lilt into my voice, “you’re far too smart for me.”
She beamed at me. “I’m smart, but not too smart for you.”
Her directness surprised me. I liked it, but for some reason it made me slightly sad. I tapped my near-empty cup of coffee.
“You won’t be able to sleep if you drink any more of that,” she said.
“Maybe I’ve got something to do after work.”
“Like what?”
I smiled at her. “Checking my genealogy tables.”
She got the coffee pot and filled my cup.
“You get off soon?” I asked.
She raised her eyebrows at me, but there was no surprise in her voice. “My relief gets here at six-thirty.”
“I get off at six,” I said.
“That’d be great.”
I’d like to say that when I changed my clothes back at the station and threw on a little cologne, I thought long and hard about what I was about to do. I’d like to say that, because I’d feel better about things now if it were true. But it wasn’t. All I really thought about was getting laid.
She waited near the front door of the diner, her jacket folded over her arm, and she slid into passenger seat of my car as if it were a well-rehearsed move.
“Good morning,” I said, and instantly felt stupid for saying it.
She grinned at me, though. “Good to be off work anyway,” she said.
I pulled out of the parking lot with no idea where I was going. She took care of that. “Turn right on Birch.”
I turned right. We drove in silence, with the exception of her giving me simple directions. Before long, we pulled into the parking lot of the Greyhouse Apartments at the foot of the Five Mile Hill.
“My spot’s right there,” she said, pointing to number fourteen.
“Where’s your car?”
“It broke down.”
“Did you take it to the shop?” I pulled in and parked.
She nodded her head. “It’s still there. Something about the transmission.”
I didn’t know much about cars, but I knew transmissions cost a lot to fix.
“It’s all right, though,” she said. “I take the bus.”
I turned off the engine and got out of the car. I considered going around and opening the door for her, but she got out on her own before I’d even shut my own door. She met me at the rear of the car.
I hesitated, but she flashed me a smile and motioned with her head. We crossed the parking lot, went up the stairs and into her small apartment.
It was very clean. The only dish in the sink was a single coffee mug. The place had a hint of orange in the air.
“Nice,” I muttered, more to myself than her.
“Thanks,” she said, draping her jacket over the high-backed chair at the breakfast bar. Then she turned and wa
lked toward me. The glint in her eye was no longer mysterious, just hungry.
She kissed me and all pretenses, if there had ever been any, fell away.
I returned her kiss and pressed my body up against hers. Our breaths came quick and urgent. Our hands explored with the rough passion of a first time, each groping touch possessive and selfish. Her tongue was fiery and wet and it darted between my open lips, raking the roof of my mouth.
She moaned as I broke away from her mouth and kissed her neck. Her moans were soft at first, then louder. The sound of her voice was a ragged purr.
My brain had checked out and my body was on fire. We clawed at each other’s clothing until we were both naked. We staggered toward her bedroom, kissing and groping, a four-legged awkward beast. Two steps into the living room, still half a dozen away from the bedroom door, she stopped and pulled me to the floor. Her thighs found my hips and I entered her with a single deep stroke. She moaned deep in her throat.
Steady, I said to myself, but it was no good. She pulled me deeper into her with arms and ankles, then she kissed me and her hard breasts pressed against my chest and it only took a minute of that breathless, wet passion before I let go. Molten fury poured out of me and into her and I watched her eyes widen and then close.
We lay on the living room carpet, still in each other’s grasp. Her hands stroked my back lightly and I kissed her neck and face, finally finding her lips again. Her lips parted and drew me in for long, deep kisses. My hardness refused to go away. The slow kisses became harder and faster until she rolled over on top of me and we were thrusting and grinding again.
The second time lasted much longer and ended much quieter than the first. I felt her come first, her whole body tightening around me. After that, she sat up and leaned back until I finished. Then she smiled at me, a sweaty, satisfied smile and brought her face next to mine. She gave me an almost chaste kiss on the corner of my mouth and then nestled down onto my chest.
We fell asleep.
When I woke up, it was ten in the morning. I heard her shower running. I sat up and considered joining her.
My next thought was that I should just leave, make it a one-time thing. Avoid complications.
In the end, I settled for leaving her a note.
Lauren, I wrote on a small notepad with Minnie Mouse in the left hand corner smiling at me and holding a huge pencil. You were wonderful. C.
Then I left.
I started seeing her pretty regularly after that. Seeing her. What a quaint euphemism that is. What I should say, to be honest and true, is that I kept fucking her after that, and on a pretty regular basis.
Things developed into a nice little routine. I saw her at the restaurant and she served me coffee and English muffins. If she asked me for a ride home, I knew that meant we were on. I’d pick her up after work outside the restaurant and drive her to her place. We’d have sex. Most of the time, I left a short while later. Once in a while, I dozed with her, lying in her bed covered with sweat and sheets. But I made sure to never stay the whole day.
She asked me about it once. I sat up in her bed and swung my legs over the side when she reached out and took my wrist.
“Stay?” she whispered.
I smiled at her and leaned down to kiss her temple. “Gotta go,” I whispered back.
“Why?”
I didn’t answer her, but I knew the reason.
I don’t want to give you the wrong idea about what we are.
I kissed her temple again and stood up, looking for my clothes. Her hand was still holding my wrist. She let go and reached for my manhood, first cupping, then grabbing gently and stroking.
“Stay,” she whispered again.
I stayed and fucked her again, but I still left before noon.
I kept quiet about our thing, but Gio figured it out pretty quickly. At least he waited until a morning when we were alone to ask me, “How long you been fucking her?”
I watched her walk away, admiring the taper of her waist and curve of her ass. “What makes you say—”
“Cut the crap, Sully,” he said. “I’m not stupid and besides, you’re about as hard to read as Green Eggs & Ham.”
“Rules you out, then, doesn’t it?”
“How long?”
I shrugged. “A little while.”
He shook his head at me. “Don’t get serious with her.”
“I’m not.”
“I mean it.”
“So do I.”
He stared at me, disbelief etched on his face.
I raised my hands up in surrender. “Really, I’m not. It’s just sex, all right?”
Gio nodded as if that meant everything was all right in the world. “Fine. But be smart. Use protection.”
“Okay, Dad.”
“I’m serious.”
“She’s on the pill.”
Gio pulled his head and shoulders back and gave me a look bordering on contempt. “No kidding she’s on the pill. I’m not telling you so she doesn’t get pregnant.”
“Then what—”
“How many people you figure you’re fucking every time you bang her?” he asked.
“Huh?”
He rolled his eyes at me. “You heard me. How many?”
A flicker of anger burned in me. “She’s clean,” I grunted and took a drink of coffee.
He nodded. “I’m sure she bathes regularly and wears pretty perfume. I’m sure she smells real nice down there. But how many people do you figure you’re fucking every time you get inside that?”
I shrugged. “Maybe we’re exclusive.”
Gio snorted. “Maybe you are.”
“You saying she’s not?”
He gave me another look that said I was the biggest dumb ass he’d ever met.
“I guarantee you she’s not,” he said, tapping the table with his index finger for emphasis.
“How do you guarantee something like that?”
“You want names?” he asked.
That stopped me cold. I took another drink of my coffee and swallowed hard. “I don’t want any names. I don’t care.”
“You don’t care?”
“No, I don’t,” I said. “So there’s others. So what? It’s not like I’ve got some kind of claim to her.”
Gio must have seen something in my face that belied my words because he shook his head again. “You better cut loose of her, Sully. There’s plenty of pussy out there and this piece is making the rounds.”
I didn’t answer. Instead, I thought hard about what he said. Her car never had been fixed, so what did she do on the mornings that I didn’t drive her home? What did she do on my days off?
I never called to find out.
I never asked.
I didn’t figure I had the right.
That morning, she asked for a ride home. I thought about lying to her about working overtime, but she asked while she was pouring coffee. Her breasts pressed against my triceps as she leaned forward to fill the cup. I changed my mind and took her home anyway.
The sex was frantic that morning. I tore at her blouse as soon as we were through the door and took her there on the linoleum floor of her small kitchen, both of us still half-clothed. Afterward, the hum of the refrigerator and her heavy breathing was all I could hear. I caught my breath, and left.
She didn’t ask me for a ride home for almost a week.
Lauren didn’t say a word for most of that next week, serving coffee and French toast and eggs and bacon, still smiling and flirting as if we’d never been together and I’d never left her lying on the kitchen floor without so much as a word or a glance.
Gio and Anthony were both off. I sat in a booth and drank coffee while I wrote my reports. I’d been there thirty minutes when she slipped into the booth across the table from me.
Her eyes were red. Not the red from being tired. Her eyes were red from crying.
She didn’t say a word for a long time. She just looked at me. I’d thought that I could be heartless when the time cam
e, but the truth was I felt bad. It only took thirty seconds of her staring at me with her red eyes before I said I was sorry.
She waited a moment, searching my face as if to gauge my sincerity. Then she gave a little nod, stood and went back to work.
That morning, she didn’t ask for a ride, but I stopped by anyway. She was waiting for me and got into the car without a word. We drove to her apartment in silence, as if a spoken word would negate my apology or her acceptance of it.
I’d like to say that I made love to her that morning. I’d like to say that the moment was something special and tender and beyond the simple physical act that we’d been doing for weeks and weeks. But the truth was, while things were more gentle and I stayed deep into the afternoon afterward, it was still just fucking.
I didn’t love her. I wasn’t eighteen and prone to confusing lust with love. I knew it was her body and her scent and the primal way she had sex that excited me and brought me back for more. Love was when you couldn’t live without somebody. I could live without Lauren. I just didn’t want to stop fucking her.
Still, all of the small things I noticed before we slept together never left my consciousness. The stray lock of hair she brushed into place. The light brown freckles across the bridge of her nose and on her cheeks. How she smiled with such hope, talking about going over to Seattle to attend art school. The dreamy way her eyes closed and her upper lip broke out in a sweat when she came. I liked those things. I liked them a lot. But I didn’t love them.
She never stopped seeing other men. I figured that one out pretty easily. The signs were all there. The evidence at her apartment, though she tried hard to hide it. And there were the mornings she didn’t ask me to drive her home. I drove by her apartment a couple of those mornings and saw a different car parked in her stall both times.
Gio was right.
She was a whore.
But I still wanted her.
One morning, I lay in bed behind her, my fingers tracing the outline of her hip. The smell of sex hung over us like netting and I closed my eyes and drifted toward sleep.