by Kacey Shea
“A few bets didn’t go my way. But if you could just throw this one fight . . . do this one thing for me and I’ll leave you alone for good.” He has the nerve to lift his chin to meet my gaze.
“I’m not losing just so you can settle your gambling debt.” Disgust drips from my words as I meet my father’s glare. He did nothing for us. He hurt her for years, and once I was old enough, he beat me too. I’d never give up what I’ve worked so hard for just to help this bastard.
“Then I’m as good as dead.” His words catch me off guard. “I owe. If I don’t come through tonight they’re done with me.” I don’t exactly know who “they” are, but I do know he runs in illegal circles. Will they kill him if he doesn’t pay up tonight? I don’t know, but I’m also not sure I care. Maybe that makes me a monster like him.
“So, you bet against your own son?” A laugh escapes my lips but it holds no humor.
“You’re predicted to win. I need an underdog for the payout.”
“Bring back memories?” My father’s voice snaps me to the present and it’s the most unnerving thing to see him here in the flesh after everything that’s happened between us.
“What the hell are you doing here?” I demand with all the hatred I feel.
He shrugs, a little lift to his forced smile. “Free country, son.”
“I don’t want you here. You should consider exploiting your freedoms elsewhere.” I turn to walk away but he catches my arm.
“What? Don’t want to be seen with the likes of me? The only reason you’re here on this earth is because of me, boy. You best remember that.”
“I’ll be sure and write you a thank you note for knocking up my mom,” I spit out as the familiar rage boils within my blood. It’s a simmer, ready to erupt with the force of my muscles and levy the sins of my past against the first casualty who dares to tip the scales.
My father steps closer, his face inches from mine. “Don’t sass me, son. See what happens.”
“What? You gonna hit me? Here? I thought we moved past that the day I walked out.” It feels good to get that out but I’m still fuming.
He laughs and his breath reeks of alcohol. “You were a foolish boy then. Still are now.”
“What’s that even supposed to mean?” I try to shrug back, not trusting myself to be this close and not take a hit. Not when he pushes my buttons every damn time we share the same space.
“Your guy Xavier Johnson. He’s the underdog,” he announces as if I don’t already know it.
“Yeah, well the kid’s gonna cream Sanchez tonight.”
My father’s lips pull into an arrogant smile. “I know that. Odds are three to one, and I’ve got a five-digit check coming my way.”
“I’m leaving now.”
For the second time tonight he reaches out to stop me. His fingers might be what grab my arm, but it’s his words that stop my feet in their tracks. “I’ll split the winnings. It’d be enough to save the gym.” That he thinks I’d take one dime from him after how my career ended only fuels my anger.
“I don’t gamble on fights, and my gym is just fine.” I cross my arms over my chest.
He laughs from the pit of his belly. “That’s not what I hear.”
That’s it. I can’t deal with him anymore. Not tonight. Not ever. “Get the fuck out of here,” I practically growl, but when he doesn’t move I shout, “Now!”
“Ungrateful son of a bitch,” he spits that last word and I lunge.
“I told you never to talk about her!” Grabbing his shoulders, I shove back until his head hits the wall with a hard thump. He fights back, too. Getting me with a knee to the groin, but I’m stronger and I’ve taken harder hits than that. Scuffling until I’ve got the upper hand, I reach back to punch that goddamn smile off his fucking face. I get one good shot in and cock back for a second.
“Matt!” Mia’s shout halts my momentum, and instead of going for his face, this time I grab for his throat.
“Get. The. Fuck. Outta here. You understand?”
His glare stays hard even with the fresh cut on his lip, but when I dig my fingers into the skin at his neck and squeeze, he gives a slight nod. I let go and take three steps back, breathing too hard from that one hit. My gaze follows him, daring him to say another word or to try and gain entry to the event inside. He must realize I’m not playing around because with his lips in a hard, thin line he turns and walks towards Mia.
“Mia.” Apprehension weasels its way into my tone even though I aim to keep it neutral. I don’t know how long she’s been standing there looking like a wet dream. And eavesdropping over all my family’s dirty laundry. “You came,” I say but her expression doesn’t change.
Her eyes are guarded, along with her smile. “You asked me to.”
“Yeah, I guess I wasn’t sure.” I force laughter but it sounds flat to my own ears.
“Good luck.” My father passes Mia and stops walking. He spits blood from his lip against the concrete floor, turning to meet my gaze once more. His eyes are hard and cruel. “You’re gonna need it.”
If Mia weren’t standing there I’d lay into him again. Closing my eyes, I count to ten and breathe in through my nose. When I open them Mia’s only standing a few feet away.
“So, that was your father?”
My jaw hardens when I consider the man attached to that title. I nod.
“I can see the resemblance.”
That only furthers my irritation and I work my jaw back and forth so I don’t say something rude.
“So . . .” She glances around the now empty entryway. “Any other family members lurking around?”
“Sorry.” I shake my head and blow out another breath to clear my thoughts from that bastard. I need to focus on the reason I’m here. Get back in the locker room with Salvador and Xavier. But first I need to make Mia feel welcome after the horrible greeting she just witnessed.
I take in her outfit as I step forward. Her legs appear miles long in that short skirt; the ripped netting of her tights doesn’t help divert my gaze. An “I love dead things,” block letter T-shirt would appear simple if the fabric didn’t hug her breasts and show off her ample cleavage with the V-neck. She’s made up her face differently though, with an imaginary line down the center splitting her into a half beauty queen, half zombie woman.
“Thank you for coming.” I reach forward and am relieved when she threads her fingers through mine.
“I said I would.” Her lips and eyes are still impassive, not giving me insight into her thoughts, and I hope she’ll forgive the altercation she witnessed between me and my father.
“So, what happened here . . .” I point to the side of her face that’s one hundred percent Mia. “You missed a pretty big spot.”
She shrugs. “Think Jekyll and Hyde, the Zombie-Mia version.”
“I like it.” I stare and think of all the things I should say. How I should explain my dad, my mom, and my fall from grace, but the words get stuck in my throat.
Her gaze drops with disappointment, but when she lifts her chin again there’s a smile on her lips. “It’s exciting out there.”
“Yeah, just wait until we get closer to the main event. Did you catch the first fight?” I ask but she shakes her head with a no. The roar from inside reaches us where we stand. “It was brutal. He’s okay, on his way to the hospital just to be sure. I hope you don’t mind a little blood. Things can get pretty gross.”
“You do know who you’re talking to, right?” She points at her face and the side painted like decayed open flesh wounds. “I think I’ll be good.”
“You’re p—” I almost say perfect. The word’s on the tip of my tongue, but instead I clear my throat and add, “Probably right. You can handle more gore than most of my fighters. Speaking of which, I need to go check on them.”
Taking her hand in mine, I pull her toward the room where my guys wait.
“What do you all do beforehand? Backstage?” She nods down the hallway. “File your toenails? Warm up with a quick round o
f jazzercise? Wait, I know! Watch cooking tutorials on YouTube.”
“Nah.” I laugh and shake my head, stopping when we reach the door marked South Side. I run my fingers through my hair and tuck it behind my ears. “Sorry to disappoint but Salvador is most likely stretching and Xavier’s lying on the table listening to Metallica on repeat.”
She winces. “Wow. I would’ve pegged him more as a Tupac kinda guy.”
“Is that because he’s black?” She’s never made a racist comment before, but that doesn’t mean she’s not.
Mia laughs out loud but when I don’t join in she shakes her head. “You’re serious? No. It’s nothing to do with that.” Her brows draw together and she glances over her shoulder.
“I guess I better go back inside,” she mutters and won’t meet my gaze.
God, I’m acting every bit a jerk. It’s as if I can’t help myself. I’m always an intolerable asshole after seeing my father. “Find your seat, okay?”
“Yeah. I’m right next to your brother.” She nods.
“My uncle out there yet?”
“You have an uncle? Is he also a dickwad?” She lifts her brow and for a moment I wonder if she’s insinuating I’m the dick, but then realize the reference is to my father.
“Oh, no.” I blow out a breath. “He’s nothing like Pop. He’ll love you.”
She inhales deeply and blows it out in a rush. “Oh, goodie. The whole family is here.” She tries to smile but she’s obviously uncomfortable. After what she witnessed with my father I’m not surprised. Maybe a little disappointed. She shoves her hands into her back pockets and meets my gaze. “What about your mom?”
Doesn’t matter how long it’s been or how many times someone asks, that question still packs the same punch. My face falls before I can right it. I open my mouth but Mia reaches out to touch my arm.
“She’s gone.” I manage to get out.
“I’m sorry, Matt. I didn’t know. How long since?”
“She passed eight years ago. Cancer.”
“I’m so sorry.”
“You didn’t know.”
She pushes up on her toes and wraps her arms around my waist, burying her face in my chest. Little as she is, her hold is tight and safe, a comfort I need more than she knows.
Laughter sounds from behind the door and it’s a reminder that I need to get back to my guys. “I’ve got to go,” I mutter into her hair.
She lets me go with a sad smile, and without another word walks down the hall to rejoin the crowd. I watch her until she’s out of sight, and I have to wonder. How much longer will she stick around now that she’s seen my past? Hell, she’s only had a preview. If she knew how badly my last fight in the octagon played out—the months following—she’d run and never look back. I want to explain. I want to make her see. Let her in enough to share the pain, but that’s completely selfish. I put the idea out of my head and resolve to spend the rest of my night focused on what really matters. Getting my guys through these fights and emerging with a UFC contract for Xavier. Anything less is unacceptable.
Salvador’s fight is the complete opposite of Ricky’s. He and his opponent go the full three rounds and give the crowd a great show, and he wins by points. It’s exciting for the gym and all my South Siders cheer and shout on our way back to await Xavier’s turn.
He doesn’t speak much. I admire his focus and am thankful for it. My mind, as much as I try not to let it, continues to wander back to the past. It’s as if I’m not fully here in the moment. I’m sure no one notices, or if they do it appears my thoughts are on the fight.
Before we know it, Xavier’s called on deck. As the final fight on tonight’s card, this is the coveted spot and expectations run high. We again arrive as a team, and Xavier enters the octagon with total focus. I can’t help but turn around once to find Mia in the crowd. She stands with my brother, Nikki, and Uncle Jimmy, cheering along with everyone else. Our eyes meet because unlike everyone else in attendance, she’s not watching my fighter. She’s watching me. That alone fills me with pride.
As soon as the buzzer sounds, Xavier pounces with his attack. He doesn’t hold back or wait to feel things out. It throws his opponent off balance, and they hit the cage with a loud rattle. I wince because the other guy is gonna have waffle bruises down his back from that alone. Xavier gets in a few great hits, but Sanchez blocks his next attempts and they break apart.
There’s no reason to shout direction because Xavier’s doing everything as he should. He’s more than ready for this night. Sanchez attempts a few kicks, but Xavier reads the third one and catches it in his hand. He throws Sanchez to the ground and jumps atop him to rain down a series of hits that not even I could block.
The ref watches closely this time and shouts a halt to the match. The bell rings and Xavier bounces off the mat and back to our corner. The cheers simmer to an echo of murmurs from the crowd. Xavier paces along one side of the cage while the medics enter to attend to the man down. Before they can reach him, however, Sanchez sits up and waves them off. The crowd cheers and after he stands, Sanchez walks over to Xavier and shakes his hand. The shouts from fans escalate to whoops and hollers. Xavier put on one hell of a fight. Short but precise, and I’ve no doubt he’s earned himself a room full of followers.
Watching the ref raise Xavier’s hand high and declare him the official winner, I should be filled with pride. Pride for this kid. Excitement for my gym. For the opportunities ahead. Instead, what’s on my mind is how my old man is ten grand richer tonight. In some sick and twisted way I’m a part of that. It dilutes this moment. Sours the win. My lips might pull into a smile for the fans, but on the inside I haven’t been this angry in years.
I go through the motions. Xavier accepts his belt, the new owner of this semi-pro title for the time being. I spot the UFC scouts as they talk together and flick gazes at Xavier. All the guys from the gym, including their family and friends crowd around to offer their congratulations. Tonight was a big win for us, for South Side, and I only wish I could allow myself to enjoy the victory.
“Congrats! Oh, my God! Matt, that was so exciting!” Mia winds her way through the crowd and leaps so I have to catch her. Her smile is so damn wide, and with the crazy face paint she looks almost out of this world.
She plants a kiss on my lips, a rare form of PDA and the shock of it pulls me to the present. “Yeah, it was,” I say as she steps back.
Her eyes are wide and exhilaration drips from her words. “Xavier was unbelievable. I can see now why you have so much faith in him.”
“He did good. He did exactly what we trained for.” My lips pull into a smile, maybe the first real one all night, but it’s more for the beautiful zombie girl grinning back.
“Haywood! Congrats, bro. You train some beasts over there at South Side. I’m gonna have to come check it out.” Shawn Spencer, the imposter of a fighter and rival gym owner interrupts our moment. Mia takes another step out of the way.
Forcing a smile I don’t feel, I accept his handshake. “Hey, Spencer. Good seeing you again. Stop by anytime.” He better not, though. Snake is probably hoping to poach my best fighters.
“Sounds good, bro. Catch ya later.” He winks and heads toward Xavier. He’s a bold motherfucker, I’ll give him that. I’ve no doubt he’ll try and sway Xavier over to his gym right now. Son of a fucking bitch.
“So, do you have to stick around or can we head to the party now?” Mia says.
My eyes meet her expectant stare. Party. Right. The thought of hanging out with a bunch of drunk assholes in costume sounds like absolute hell right about now. Glancing over Mia’s shoulder, I spot Kyle waving me over. He’s with the UFC scouts. It’s not possible to miss them all tramp stamped out in their sponsored apparel. “Actually, I need to stick around for a while.”
Mia nods. “Oh, okay. Then I’ll meet you there? I’ll text you the address.”
Damn it. Right before my eyes Spencer’s got his arm around Xavier’s shoulder, pointing at Kyle and the UFC s
couts. “Yeah. Hey, I gotta run . . .” I drop a kiss on the side of her face, the one that’s not covered in stage makeup, and jog over to Kyle before this day gets any worse.
“Matt Haywood! Here’s the coach of the hour. Noah Bibby, Ethan Sharp, you’ve met Matt before, I think.” Kyle makes introductions.
“Noah, Ethan. It’s great to see you again. Enjoy the fights?” I say.
Ethan nods. “Hell yeah, we did. That Xavier Johnson is really something. You got time to grab him so we can talk?”
This is it. Everything I wanted. So, why is it after I snag Xavier and we sit down to a late dinner with these UFC reps I feel as though I’ve lost the best thing I ever had in my life?
Matt walks away and it feels very much like rejection. I’ve never been one to run after a man, but I can finally understand the urge to do so and that thought angers me enough to leave. I’m already late for the party. Jared and Rae have been texting me photos of their fun all night. I thought I’d made the right choice by splitting my evening and coming here first, but now I’m not so sure. Between witnessing the altercation with his father and now this brush off, I’m not positive Matt’s the man I thought he was.
“Mia! Wait up!” Matt’s brother Danny calls out and waves. Nikki’s attached to his side, much as she’s been all night. I have to admit as much as I don’t want to like her merely because of her connection to Violet, she’s been friendly all evening. I wouldn’t go so far as to invite her to hang out, but she’s not the vile person I first assumed.
“Hey,” I say as Danny and Nikki reach me in the crowd. There are still quite a few people loitering around.
“You sticking around to wait for Matt?” Danny asks.
“No, actually I need to catch a bus uptown. My friends throw this killer Halloween party each year and I’m already late.”
He nods. “You want a ride? We were about to take off.”
“Oh, I don’t want to put you out.”
Nikki hooks her arm in mine. “Seriously, Mia? Come with us. Danny’s ride is a thousand times better than a city bus!” She doesn’t even wait for my answer and tugs me outside along with them.