That he would find her worth this sacrifice, the giving up of everything he had struggled to gain, was like a healing ointment applied to her raw heart.
“And I will keep you safe, Lydia. Not only from Salome, but from gossip. Wherever we go, nothing of impropriety shall reach the ears of Rome. If Marcus Agrippa will still have you—”
“There is no Agrippa, Simon.” She touched his cheek with her fingertips. “There is only you.”
He clutched at her hand, still against his face, and closed his eyes. “I would take you out of this city, out of this country, even, if it would keep you safe.”
She smiled, the cold grief of Mariamme’s death thawing in the warmth of Simon’s words, but also in the fire of the battle that she still needed to wage, one that Simon knew nothing of. “There is fighting still to be done, Simon.” She breathed in courage. “Stay here. I have something to show you.”
He shook his head. “There is no time. We must leave at once while the palace is still in chaos.”
“I must gather my things.”
“It is not safe to be about the palace. We can purchase—”
She touched his arm. “There is something I cannot leave behind.” She wore her mother’s pendant. Only the scrolls were necessary. She started for the door, but he caught her arm and pulled her back.
His left arm went around her waist and his right hand tipped her chin. His kiss was urgent, determined.
She responded, but only for a moment. There would be time later.
“Hurry.” He whispered the word at her back as she left the room.
How many hiding places had the scrolls seen in the ten years since Samuel’s death?
Lydia gathered a few clothes for their escape from the servant Tikva’s room—plain tunics and robes that did not bespeak royalty. They would not be leaving the city, only hiding, and they could get more if needed. If Simon had money, that is.
In a dark storeroom, she slid a shelf from its position, pried up a large floor tile usually pinned by one of its legs, and reached into the dark hole she had painstakingly dug into the dirt below.
Her fingers closed around its squared edges and she brought it into the light, then sat back on her heels and brushed the dust from its lid, as she had done when she pulled it from the hole in the corner of Samuel’s house.
Samuel. Would he approve of what she was about to do? Simon was not a rabbi, not a priest. But he could be trusted, just as she had trusted David with the knowledge of the scrolls years ago, though they had made a pact not to speak of them.
Simon would give up his fight for her sake. She could risk the opening of her secrets, to show him why that fight must continue.
She reached into the hole once more, pulled out the familiar sack, dingier and more ragged than it had been years ago but still serviceable. She thrust the wooden box to the bottom and piled in the few articles of clothing she had taken.
She would not even go to her own bedchamber. It was not her home. She had no home. Not yet.
A trickle of doubt slid into her thoughts. How could she leave without completing Samuel’s task for her? But she had failed to find the Chakkiym, regardless of her efforts. How would leaving the palace make any difference? Perhaps Simon would have a better plan.
She hurried back the way she had come, to Simon’s chamber on the lower level. She tapped on the door, then pushed it open.
Simon had a wooden crate set on the bed and was tossing possessions into it. He exhaled at her return and eyed the dirty sack. “This was so important?”
She held up her treasure. “Yes, this is everything. Simon, I—there is something I must tell you, show you—”
He nodded but continued his packing. “There will be time for talking soon, Lydia. I must get you out of here without delay.”
Her fingers tightened around the sack. Yes, perhaps it would be better to wait until they were in hiding. It was a long story, after all.
She set the sack by the door and crossed to his bed. “Can I help?”
“I am nearly finished.” He bent to a chest along the wall and drew a folded piece of cloth from the bottom. Sharp creases and faded colors marked it as both old and long unused. He ran light fingers over the fabric and sighed. “It has been many years since I even thought of this.”
She bent for a closer look. It was white with red stripes.
He shook it out.
The folds fell away. Red and blue tassels quivered at the corners.
Lydia sucked in a disbelieving breath and a tremor passed through her, as though angels had run their fingers down her spine.
Simon glanced at her, then turned fully, his lips parting in concern. “What is it, Lydia? You are so pale!”
“Wh—Is that . . . is that a tallit?”
He held it up. “A family heirloom, you could say. Passed down from my father—Lydia, you are shaking!”
“Finish. Finish, Simon. Why did your father give you this covering?”
He hung his head. “Another failure on my part, I’m afraid. My father came to Jerusalem when he was only a boy, with his father who had been a scholar in Persia. My grandfather, and then my father, went every year to the Temple in a fruitless tradition that left them disappointed every year.”
“Waiting on the steps of the Temple. Waiting for one who never came.”
His eyes flickered with confusion. “You know of their duty?”
But she could not speak more, not until she heard it all.
He swallowed, still watching her face. “When my father died, I was a very young man. At first I too went every year. But as the years passed, I grew to disbelieve that any answers were to be found there. If Judea and our people were to be free, it would be in the strength of our fighting arm, not the scribblings of an old prophet.” He exhaled and shook his head. “Lydia, I—you must tell me—”
In answer, she stumbled to the door, picked up her sack, and returned. With trembling hands she reached in and pulled the wooden box from under the jumble of clothing.
Simon’s gaze was on the box, but without recognition.
She dropped the sack of clothing at their feet. Lifted the tiny latch on the box and opened the lid.
The unmarred wax seemed to glow where it sealed the scrolls.
“What are they?” Simon’s words sounded reverent, as if he somehow sensed the truth.
Lydia found her voice at last. “The scribblings of an old prophet.”
His eyes went to hers, then back to the scrolls. “I do not understand.”
“Every year on the Day of Atonement, Samuel told me. Just before he died. Wait on the steps of the Temple for the one who will come wearing a red-striped tallit with red and blue corded tassels.” She took a shallow breath. “Wait for the Chakkiym.”
Simon’s jaw was slack, his eyes glassy. He eased the box from her hands, then sank onto the edge of his bed. “And were you there, all these years?”
She swallowed, her throat dry. “Except when I could not be. I would never have missed, except that I thought it was hopeless. I thought perhaps he—you—had been killed when Herod took the city on Yom HaKippurim all those years ago.”
Simon ran a light finger over the surface of the scrolls, and when he looked up, tears were in his eyes. “How I wish my father and grandfather were here to see this day.”
She nodded, smiling through her own tears. “Samuel too. He spent his life searching. Gave his life protecting them.”
At this reminder, she inhaled sharply. “Simon, do not ask me to explain now, but it was Salome who sent the men who killed Samuel in Alexandria. She knows now that I have the scrolls.”
He jumped to his feet, closed the box, and returned it to her, then pointed to her sack. “We are leaving.”
She twisted the sack between her fingers, the box hidden once more.
Simon took up his crate and headed for the door. He paused and turned, looking over the crate at her. “Everything is changed now, Lydia.”
“I know.
”
“You have done your duty. Delivered the scrolls. From here, there is no need for you to incur more danger. And if you leave with me, you will likely never be known as a Hasmonean, nor a Ptolemy, again. I know what it means to you, to have discovered your birthright. I cannot ask you to give it up—”
“My life, my identity, is not built upon my birthright, Simon. It matters little who my parents were, nor even if they willingly gave me up, or had me snatched from them, or died protecting me. I am a child of the One God, and that is all that matters. And I will stay with you, whether in Jerusalem, or Judea, or farther.”
He smiled over the crate. “Then farther we shall go.”
Thirty-Seven
Simon had people everywhere.
Lydia had never realized the extent of his network, the number of palace staff in place for when the time was right. The men who worked through the city under cover of darkness, striking at Israel’s enemies. If she had known, she would have been terrified for Simon.
For Simon, and for David.
As she suspected, David had become one of Simon’s followers. And in the darkness of an underground storage room once more, Lydia and Simon shared everything with him, showed him the tallit, given by Simon’s father. And in spite of the horror of the day, Lydia found herself smiling at his outright joy.
How he had grown since she first met him at the rail of the cursed ship sailing out of Alexandria. He had been an awkward boy, shy and at odds with his body. Now David stood before her a man, ready to assume the mantle of responsibility that Simon was passing to him, as a father to a son. He nodded at each of Simon’s instructions, sober and focused on names and places and objectives.
Jonah and Esther came, brought somehow by Simon’s messengers. Simon shared his joy over the scrolls, but there were many tears at the parting that must be. In a solemn moment, Simon took the hand of David and the hand of Jonah and joined them together.
Simon was leaving the fight behind, but he was leaving it in good hands.
And then their friends were gone, leaving them to wait in the darkness while the threads of Simon’s influence were pulled to arrange safe passage not only from the palace but from Jerusalem as well.
For they were going to Persia. Though held by the Parthians now, those who had lived there for generations since the exile still clung to the old ways, to the old names.
This was the charge laid upon Simon by his father and grandfather. “When the scrolls are found, they must be returned.” The Chakkiym still lived and studied, they had promised. Back in Persia they were waiting for news of the Messiah, of the coming of the kingdom. The scrolls must be there when the time of the end was come.
They would travel north, through Samaria and on to Damascus, then across to take the Persian Royal Road southward. And within two months, Lydia would see the Persian Empire.
The afternoon of waiting in the storeroom passed swiftly, with whispered conversation about the future, sad remembrances of Mariamme, shared concerns over what would become of her children, left here in the palace with their wicked grandmother and aunt to raise them. Lydia would have to leave all of that in the hands of HaShem, whom she had learned to trust in the journey from Alexandria to this moment.
In a sense, she had been right. A life built on pleasing others to be loved, worrying whether people accepted her, loved her, were faithful to her, would never work. People would abandon and reject, be taken from her, leaving her feeling guilty and worthless or resentful. She must decide that who she is must be grounded elsewhere, in the confidence born of being God’s. A life built on this truth would allow her to reach out and risk, to love others joyfully and without fear, with a hope built on the secure love of a God who would never forsake her.
When David came at last with promises that all was ready, she stood eagerly, stretching her stiff legs.
Simon caught her hand in his own. “You are not sad to leave Jerusalem?”
She frowned. “Though I have spent years here, I have seen little of it. This palace has been something between a home and a prison. I have not come to think of Jerusalem as my city. I have barely come to think of myself as a Jew.” She smiled at David. “There is only one thing I will miss in Judea.”
David held his arms out to her, and she went to him and let him wrap strong arms around her.
“Thank you, my friend.” She whispered the words against his chest. “I should have been lost without you. You have done me nothing but good from the moment we met on that ship, and I am so proud of the man you have become.”
He sniffed and pulled away.
“No sadness. We go to fulfill what was always meant to be.” She squeezed his hands. “And we will write. When it is safe, we will send letters with news, and you will send letters of your bride, and your house full of children, and the amazing things you will build with these hands.”
He smiled through tears and nodded, then turned to Simon for a clasping of arms, a slapping of backs.
“Be careful,” David said. “Herod is beside himself with grief and rage. He staggers from room to room, crying out for Mariamme as if she lives.”
Lydia closed her eyes, the words of Mariamme’s curse in her ears. She nodded once. Let him go mad, then. Let him drown in his madness.
And then they were off, running up the stairs to the side entrance. Outside in the darkness, a figure shifted from the palace wall.
“Riva!” Lydia’s heart lurched. They were so close.
But Riva’s pale face was tear-streaked and she held out a package to Lydia. “Her jewels.” She swiped at her tears. “She would have wanted you to have them.”
Lydia took the package from the girl’s outstretched hand, then pulled her into an embrace. “Get free of this place, Riva. Find yourself in the One God. He will love you like no other.”
And then Simon tugged her toward the darkness, and they were vaulting to the wagon bed as it rolled away.
They rounded the corner of the palace, kept close to the wall as they crossed the front, where the wide square of paving stones marked the beginning of the royal fortress. Past the massive arch, the Temple behind them. The stars were blotted out tonight, masked by heavy clouds that threatened rain.
The horses’ hooves echoed off the paving stones and the walls of the palace, a rapid click that beat in time with Lydia’s pulse.
And then it was more than the clouds that held a threat. The very air around them seemed to grow thick with menace.
A shout from the palace roof drew their eyes upward. There at the lip of the roof, a dark blot against the gray-black sky.
Salome. Arms upraised and yelling.
Their driver slowed, not because of the spectacle on the roof, but because of the swarm of guards that had appeared before and behind, pouring like insects into the paved front court of the palace.
Above Salome, the very clouds seemed to swirl with the blackness of her rage. The words of her ranting fell upon those below like hailstones.
“Lydia, Daughter of Ptolemies. Lydia, Daughter of Maccabees. You are nothing!”
Lydia rose to her feet in the bed of the wagon. Simon pulled at her hand, but she slipped from his grasp.
“Goddess, hear my cry!” Salome raised her voice to the wind. “Al-Uzzá, goddess of my people, come to my aid. Destroy this one who would rip power from your favored ones!”
A darkness that could not be seen with the eye but only felt with the spirit pressed upon Lydia, a presence of the darkness that had forever set itself up against the people of God.
She raised her eyes to Salome’s wrath, to the powers of the air she implored. “Drive on, Reuben.”
She felt the driver look back at her in question, but she did not break the connection with Salome, only held up her hands to the guards who approached. Held them outstretched, like Moses did as the people fought the Amalekites. She had forgotten that story until this moment, but the words of Samuel were as fresh as if he told it yesterday. The Amalekites, whose desce
ndant now stood upon the palace roof and tried once more to wage war against the plan of God.
Lydia kept her arms raised, her feet spread wide for balance, as they passed through the clot of guards untouched, and Salome shrieked futile curses down upon their heads.
Lydia had been raised in a Greek palace in the capital of Egypt. She had seen royalty in the power circles of Rome and been claimed as family in Jerusalem, City of God. But not until this moment did she truly understand herself, truly see who she was meant to be. Her childhood fancies of a royal birth had become truth, but the truth of her birth did not define her. Did not give her any more worth than she’d already possessed as a child of God.
Greek or Egyptian, Roman or Jew—one day they would all bow before the One God. All peoples, nations, and men of every language, as the prophet Daniel had said. His dominion was an everlasting dominion that would not pass away. His kingdom was a kingdom that would never be destroyed.
And as part of that kingdom, Lydia could not be shaken.
Salome’s screaming curses ceased. The guards closed ranks behind them and they rolled on, through the streets toward the Valley Gate. Lydia lowered herself to sit beside Simon, who wrapped a tight arm around her waist.
But Salome would not be defeated. She was there suddenly, flying out of the darkness astride an ebony stallion, like some sort of avenging demon, black hair streaming backward from white eyes and bared teeth.
The horse galloped alongside the wagon on Lydia’s side.
Simon stood, one foot braced against the wagon bed.
Salome reached for Lydia, grabbed at her robes, and yanked.
A yell from Simon and the wagon rumbled to a stop, but not before horse and ground and Salome blurred into one.
Lydia fell to the hard-packed dirt, tangled in the clawing arms of the woman who had sworn to see her dead.
Salome’s face appeared above hers, a wicked grin creasing the taut skin. “Worthless servant. Did you think—?”
And then she was gone, jerked backward by Simon’s strong arms.
Lydia struggled to her feet, every joint bruised.
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