reward money, since these crimes were perpetrated with the aid of an officer.” Nathan glanced at Knox with cold disdain.
“He’s brought shame on all of us.”
Lily stared at the gathered children. Most of them were blond and fair, sniffling tearfully and clinging to the officers who tried
in vain to comfort them. The little group was a heart-wrenching sight. “She’s not here,” Lily said dazedly, her face white with panic. She wandered forward, trying to see through the crowd of men. “Are these all the children?” she asked Sir Nathan.
“Yes,” Nathan replied quietly. “Look again, Lady Raiford. Are you certain none of these is your daughter?”
Lily shook her head violently. “Nicole has dark hair,” she said desperately, “a-and she’s younger than these children. Only
four. There must be more, she must be here somewhere. Perhaps in one of the other rooms. I know she’s afraid. She’s
hiding from all these people. She’s very small. Alex, help me look for her in some of the rooms—”
“Lily.” Alex’s hand clenched on the back of her neck, silencing her frantic babble.
Trembling, she followed the direction of his gaze. A Learie’s bulky form crossed before them, blocking her view. Then she saw the small figure in the corner, half-hidden in shadow, Lily froze, her heart thumping so hard that it seemed to drive the air from
her lungs. The child was a wrenchingly perfect little replica of her mother. Her eyes were dark and somber in her small face.
Her tiny arms were clutched around some rags that had been knotted to resemble a doll. Standing in shadow, she solemnly watched the milling adults before her. No one had noticed her because of her quietness, like that of a mouse peeping from
a secret corner.
“Nicole,” Lily said in a choked voice. “Oh, God.” Alex let go of her as she moved forward. But the little girl shrank back, staring
at her cautiously. Lily’s throat ached, and she wiped clumsily at the tears that slid down her face. “You’re my baby. You’re my Nicole.” She crouched before the child. “Sono qui,” she said in a voice that shook with suppressed emotion. “I’ve waited
s-so long to hold you. Do you remember me? It’s your mama. Io sono tua mama, capisci?”
The child looked at her alertly, responding to the Italian. “Mama?” she repeated in a tiny voice.
“Yes, yes …” Sobbing uncontrollably, Lily rushed forward and snatched her up, holding the child’s precious weight against her. “Oh, Nicole … you feel so good, so good—” Crooning against the tangled black hair, she ran her hand over the small head,
the frail length of her daughter’s spine. Nicole rested passively in her arms. Lily heard herself speaking in a frayed voice that didn’t seem to be her own. “It’s over now. It’s finally over.” She drew her head back and looked into the brown eyes so like
her own. Nicole’s little hand came up to Lily’s cheek, then moved curiously to her forehead and the shining dark curls that dangled at her temples.
Lily tried to stifle her sobs as she pressed tearful kisses against her daughter’s dirt-smudged face. All at once the waking nightmare was gone. The icy stranglehold on her heart had melted away, softly, magically. Lily had never known such peace.
She hadn’t remembered what it felt like to be free of bitterness and grief. All she had ever wanted in the world was here—the warmth of her daughter’s body, the pure, perfect love that could exist only between mother and child. For the moment, nothing existed but the two of them.
Alex watched them until his throat was uncomfortably tight. He’d never seen Lily’s face so tender, so maternal. It was a side
of her he had never seen before, nor yet imagined. His love for Lily was suddenly altered by a depth of compassion he hadn’t
been capable of until now. He had never suspected it would be like this, that someone else’s happiness would mean so much
more to him than his own. Awkwardly he turned to hide his own emotions.
Nathan stood nearby, observing the scene with satisfaction. “Alex,” he said in a businesslike manner, “this seems a good opportunity to mention Lord FitzWilliam’s new crime bill, which proposes the opening of three new city offices I’m in dire
need of—”
“Anything you want,” Alex said hoarsely. “The bill is facing great opposition in the House-”
“You’ll have them,” Alex vowed, his face averted. He passed his sleeve over his damp eyes and continued huskily.
“If I have to twist every arm in Parliament, I swear you’ll have them.”
Chapter 14
Alex looked up from the newspaper in surprise as Burton announced the arrival of Mr. Craven. They had spent a pleasant morning so far, Alex reading the Times and occasionally joining Lily and Nicole on the parlor floor as they stacked wooden building bricks into precarious towers.
“Oh, do show him in,” Lily said to Burton, and threw Alex an apologetic smile. “I forgot to mention that Derek intended to
call this morning. He wanted to allow us a few days of privacy before he came to see Nicole.”
Frowning slightly, Alex stood up from the sofa, while Nicole went to chase the baleful cat, Tom, around the room. Whenever
the poor animal settled in a patch of sunlight, Nicole was drawn to the inviting flick of his tail. Lily gathered some of the toys
that were scattered across the parlor floor. She thought with a rueful smile that Alex had bought too many toys, a multitude
that would have overwhelmed any child. The sight of the pitiful knot of rags that served as Nicole’s doll had been too much
for him. He hadn’t rested until he had bought every kind of doll available at the Burlington Arcade shop … dolls with real
hair and porcelain teeth, dolls made of wax and china, complete with their own tiny trunks and trousseaus. The nursery
upstairs was crammed full of toy theatres, a rocking horse, a grand doll house, balls, musical boxes, and to Lily’s dismay,
a painted drum that could be heard throughout the mansion.
It had not taken long for them to discover Nicole’s disconcerting habit of playing hide-and-seek, spontaneously disappearing
and then grinning at their anxious faces when she was found beneath a sofa or end table. Lily had never encountered a child
who could move so stealthily. Alex would sit down at his desk in the library and work for an hour, and discover that at some
point she had quietly crept underneath his chair.
Gradually Lily’s fears that Nicole might have been abused in Giuseppe’s care subsided. Although she was a cautious child,
she was not fearful, and in fact possessed a sunny nature. With each day that passed she became more vocal, and soon
her enchanting giggles and ceaseless questions, spoken in garbled Italian and English, rang through the house. She developed
a particular attachment to Henry, frequently demanding to be held by him, yanking at his thick blond locks and gurgling with
laughter at his reproving frowns.
Derek came to the parlor, his green eyes falling upon Lily. She rushed to him with a pleased laugh, discomfiting him with
a quick embrace. “Here now,” he said in a mock reproof. “Not with your husband looking on, gypsy.”
“What marvelous h’s,” she observed with a grin.
Derek moved forward and shook hands with Alex. “Good morning, milord,” he said, smiling sardonically. “Quite a day for
me. I’m not usually received in such high-kick parlors.”
“You’re welcome any time,” Alex said pleasantly. “Since you were so hospitable in allowing me the use of your apartments.”
Derek grinned at that, while Lily turned crimson. “Alex,” she protested faintly, and jerked at Derek’s arm to divert him.
“Mr. Craven, I’d like to introduce you to someone.”
Derek’s gaze settled on the little girl, who
was standing next to the sofa. Nicole peered at him curiously. “Miss Nicole,”
Derek murmured. Slowly he sank to his haunches and smiled at her. “Come say ‘ello to your Uncle Derek.”
Hesitantly Nicole started for him, then changed her mind and ran to Alex, clamping her arms around his leg. She gave
Derek a bashful grin.
“She’s quite shy,” Lily said with a soft laugh. “And she has a decided attachment for blond men.”
“No luck for me there,” Derek said ruefully, fingering his dark locks. He stood up and regarded Lily with an odd expression.
“She’s beautiful, gypsy. Like her mother.”
Alex struggled to suppress a sharp twinge of jealousy. He reached down and smoothed Nicole’s hair, dislodging the huge
pink bow that was tied on top of her head. He knew there was no reason to be jealous of Craven. Although Craven loved
Lily, it was clear by his actions in the past that he would never be a threat to her marriage. Still, it would never be easy for
Alex to stand by silently while another man looked at her that way.
He gritted his teeth in frustration. It would be easier to bear if he and Lily had resumed their marital relationship. The last time they had slept together was before he had found her alone with Giuseppe Gavazzi. Since that night, Lily had been completely absorbed in her child. A tiny bed had been moved into the room next to theirs. Several times each night Lily awakened to check
on Nicole. He saw Lily’s outline in the darkness, hovering over the peacefully sleeping child, guarding her as if she feared her daughter would be spirited from the bed. The child was seldom out of Lily’s sight. Alex offered no objection, knowing that as
time passed, Lily’s fears would gradually subside. And after all the emotional turmoil his wife had been through, Alex was hardly going to force himself on her … although it might soon come to that. He had never wanted anyone this much—having her so near, seeing her soft and utterly happy, her skin and her hair so beautiful, her lips warm, smiling … Sternly he forced himself
to stop thinking about her, feeling his body beginning to react to the stimulating images.
The truth was, he didn’t know what the hell Lily wanted. She seemed so content with the way things were. He was desperate
to know if she needed him, if she loved him, but he remained stubbornly silent, deciding she could make the next move, and if
it took a hundred years of silence, suffering, and celibacy, so be it. He cursed her every night as he retired to his solitary bed.
When he fell asleep, he dreamed of her all night. Sighing grimly, he turned his attention back to the visitor.
“… I’m going to take my leave,” Derek was saying.
“No, you must stay to supper with us,” Lily protested.
Ignoring her pleas, Derek grinned at Alex. “Good day, milord. I wish you luck with these two. You’ll need it.”
‘“Thanks,” Alex replied dryly.
“I’ll see you out,” Lily said, accompanying Derek to the entrance hall.
As they stood alone in the doorway, Derek folded his hands over hers and gave her a brotherly peck on the forehead.
“When are you coming back to Craven’s?” he demanded. “It isn’t the same without you.”
Lily lowered her eyes. “Alex and I will visit some evening.”
There was an awkward silence between them, while they each contemplated a multitude of words better left unspoken.
“So you have her back now,” Derek observe.
She nodded, gazing into his dark face. “Derek she said softly. “I never would have survived the last two years without you.”
She knew they were saying good-bye to their friendship as it had been. There would never again be the conversations before
the fire, the shared secrets and confidences, the odd relationship that had sustained them both in different ways. Impulsively
she leaned up and kissed his cheek.
Derek flinched as she took her mouth away, as if the touch of her lips had hurt him. “Good-bye, gypsy,” he muttered, and left, striding rapidly to the carriage that awaited him.
*
The cat stared at Nicole with slitted eyes as she approached him with a winning smile. Reaching out slowly, she grasped his flicking tail. Hissing with annoyance, Tom whirled around and struck out with his paw, leaving a scratch on her hand.
Nicole’s mouth opened as she regarded him with surprise and hurt. She began to wail piteously. At the sound of her
crying, Alex came to her swiftly, scooping her up as she ran toward him. He patted her back and jostled her comfortingly.
“What happened, sweetheart? What is it?”
Still crying, Nicole showed him her hand.
“Did Tom scratch you?” he asked with soft concern.
“Yes,” she sobbed. “Naughty, naughty.”
“Let me see.” Alex scrutinized the faint pink line on the back of her hand. With a sympathetic sound, he kissed the tiny scratch
to make it better. “Tom doesn’t like his tail pulled, sweetheart. When he comes back I’ll show you how to pet him, and he won’t scratch you ever again. Here, give me a hug, my brave girl.” Amid his light talk is soothing, Nicole promptly forgot about her scratch and beamed at him, her little arm clutched around his neck.
Silently Lily stood watching from the doorway, an ache of love gathering in her chest until it became painful. Unaware that he
was being observed, Alex carried on a conversation with Nicole, setting her down and searching beneath the sofa for her misplaced doll. The sight made Lily smile. She hadn’t known until this moment if he would truly want to be a father to her
child. She had no right to expect it. But she should have realized he had more than enough love to give both of them. He was
not the kind of man who would blame an innocent child for her unfortunate beginnings. He had so much to teach her, she
thought, about love and trust and wholehearted acceptance. She wanted a lifetime of being with him and giving him all the joy
one man could possibly endure.
Out of the corner of her eye Lily saw a passing housemaid, and she beckoned discreetly. “Sally, please look after Nicole for
a while. It’s time for her nap, so if you gathered up a doll or two and took her to the nursery …”
“Yes, mum,” the maid said with a smile. “A good little girl she is, mum.”
“She won’t be,” Lily replied wryly, “after a few years of Lord Raiford’s spoiling.”
Giggling softly, Sally went into the parlor and began to sort through some toys. “Mine!” Nicole cried, wriggling to be let down,
and she went indignantly to rescue her dolls.
“My lord,” Lily said demurely, though inside she was filled with giddiness and anticipation. Alex looked at her questioningly.
“I wondered if we might have a word in private?” Without waiting for an answer, she headed to the stairs and ascended
them gracefully, her hand lightly touching the lacy iron balustrade at measured intervals. A frown worked between Alex’s
tawny brows, and he followed her slowly.
When they reached the blue and white bedroom, Lily closed the door behind them and turned the key. Suddenly the silence became electric. Alex watched her but didn’t move, conscious of his body swelling and thickening, his skin turning hot and sensitive beneath his clothes. His breathing became shallow, and he strove to control it.
She came to him, and he felt the touch of her fingers on his vest, her movements deft and light as she unfastened the intricately curved buttons. The vest hung loose, and she moved to his cravat, unknotting the warm silk and pulling it free from his throat.
Alex closed his eyes.
“I’ve neglected you terribly, haven’t I?” she whispered, starting on his shirt.
He was stiff and straining with arousal. He knew she could see the flush creeping over his skin. The touch of
her breath
sinking through his shirt to his chest nearly caused him to groan. “It doesn’t matter.” he managed to say.
“It matters very much.” She pulled his shirt from his trousers and slid her arms around his lean waist, rubbing her face against
the rough hair on his chest. “It’s hardly the way to show my husband how much I love him.”
Suddenly his hands came up and closed around her wrist in an unconsciously brutal grip. “What?” he asked numbly.
Her dark eyes gleamed with emotion. “I love you, Alex.” She paused as she felt a tremor in his powerful hands. “I love you,”
she repeated, her voice vibrant and warm. “I was afraid to say it until now. I thought you’d send me away once you knew
about my daughter. Or worse, that your sense of honor would make you keep us, when you secretly wanted to be rid of us
and the scandal we’d cause.”
“Be rid of you,” he repeated thickly. “No, Lily.” He let go of her hands and caught her face between his palms. “It would
kill me to lose you. I want to be a father to Nicole. I want to be your husband. I’ve been dying slowly over the past days,
wondering how to convince you that you need me—”
She laughed throatily, her eyes bright with tears of happiness. “You don’t need to convince me of that.”
He buried his mouth in her throat. “I’ve missed you … Lily, my love …”
Her breathless laugh dissolved into a moan. His body was hot and demanding against hers, his muscles taut beneath her palms
as she caressed him. Hastily he undressed her, and stripped off his own clothes. She reclined on the bed as she watched him, wanting to cover herself but knowing that he took pleasure in the sight of her. Lowering himself to the bed, he pulled her smooth, naked body against his and cupped her buttocks in his hands, urging her hard against him. “Tell me again,” he
muttered.
“I love you,” she whispered. “I love you, Alex.”
His hand slid deep between her thighs, while his mouth possessed her in a long kiss. She touched her tongue to his, and they
slid together in a mingling of silken heat and fire. “Again …” he said, but this time all she could do was sigh brokenly and writhe
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