by Teagan Kade
So why is it I’m reluctant to sleep with him? I mean, not that sex should dictate a relationship, but I want to. Am I really so concerned he’ll forget me the moment he comes? He doesn’t think of me like that, as another notch, an achievement. I know he doesn’t.
Sara Fortes. It does have a nice ring to it.
*
The funeral is small and low-key. It rains lightly, the weather joining our sullen mood. The wake’s not much better, egg sandwiches with wilted lettuce summing up the general atmosphere.
Gretchen couldn’t make it. I didn’t expect her to come. I said I’d pay for her airfare, but she never had the same attachment to Nan as I did.
“My god, Sara.”
I turn, glass of iced tea in hand. “Mrs. Dobson, how are you?”
It’s probably been a decade since I’ve seen Mrs. Dobson, Nan’s next-door neighbor. Her hair’s whiter, but her chubby complexion and rosy cheeks remain.
She looks me up and down. “My god what a fine young woman you have become.”
“Thank you. You’re looking well yourself.”
She rolls her eyes. “Hip’s busted, arthritis everywhere, but I manage. Don’t get old, Sara. It’s no fun. Say, I heard you were flying around the world, a big fashion star.”
Now it’s my turn to laugh. “I only work for a fashion label. I’m not the talent.”
“With legs like yours, you could be. You Young girls and your good looks. You certainly didn’t get them from your daddy.”
“I wouldn’t know.”
She ignores this. “And you enjoy it, the traveling?”
“I do.”
“A man?”
What is it with the man question? “I’m taking it slow, Mrs. Dobson.”
She leans in. “Yes, I remember the business you had with that Millertown boy.”
I’ve tried very hard to forget it, to leave this town behind me. “The whole town knew, Mrs. Dobson.”
She shakes her head. “Took your innocence and tossed you away like rubbish the very next day, the scoundrel. He’s in prison, you know, upstate. Half of those Millertown boys are.”
“Oh?” I reply, not caring one way or the other. That ‘boy’ is the reason I fled Rosie so fast. I can barely remember his face, but I sure as hell remember how it felt to find him hooking up with Gemma what’s-her-name the next day. I didn’t ever want to feel that way again, every relationship that followed ending in equal disaster. I’m no doormat, though. I left him with a nice little shiner. I’m sure he told all his friends he fell down a flight of stairs.
Mrs. Dobson leans close. “If there’s one thing I have learnt from all this business, Sara, it’s that life is far too short for ‘taking it slow’. I had many chances to find a man growing up, but I fussed around thinking and dawdling while the loves of my life were snapped up one by one. Don’t let it happen to you. Dive in. Live your life.”
“Thanks, Mrs. Dobson.”
She moves onto the next geriatric leaving me looking out the window considering her words. They’re cliché, straight from a Hallmark card, but there’s a certain truth in them. Why am I taking things slow? She’s right. Anything can happen, and often does.
It’s time, I tell myself again, but now I’m determined. It’s time to give yourself to Andy Fortes.
*
It’s strange being back in my childhood room. Why was I so obsessed with pink?
I lie back on a pillow with way too much lace going on, looking up at a ceiling filled with boy bands and movie stars, most of whom you couldn’t pay me to sleep with these days. Again, what was I thinking?
You weren’t. Your hormones were.
I run my finger over Andy’s contact on my phone. They still are.
I debate whether or not to call him. It’ll be late in Hockenheim, after midnight.
Fuck it.
I dial, breath short as the ringtone goes on and on and on.
A sleepy voice answers. “Sara? Everything okay?” His words are a little slurry.
“Have you been drinking?” I ask.
“I’ve had a couple of lemonades, sure.”
If I didn’t know better, I’d say he’s a little lost without me. “Big night, huh?”
“Just celebrating the win. Not the same without you, though.”
He might be drunk, but he’s happy. “You can’t have fun by yourself?”
“I’d have more fun with you.”
I ignore the drunken innuendo. “Maybe you should get some rest. You’re off to Belgium tomorrow, remember?”
“I could walk to Belgium,” he chides.
“Not with ‘a couple of lemonades’ under your belt.”
“At least I got Stacey back.”
I stiffen at her name. “Stacey?”
He’s laughing to himself. “I bumped into her at the party, as you do. Can’t seem to shake that woman.”
I start tapping the side of the phone, nervous. “You talked to her?”
He giggles again. “You bet your ass I did. Told her to wait for me naked in the lobby bathroom, sent that photographer from the Daily in after her. Felt a little sorry for humiliating her like that—for about five seconds.”
He laughs again and I exhale with relief. “You have been busy.”
“That’ll teach her to fuck with Andy Forbes.”
“Fortes,” I correct. He really is drunk. It’s becoming a habit.
“You coming back?” he says with a lilt.
“Tomorrow. I’ll see you in Belgium.”
“Looking forward to it.”
“And Andy…”
I pause, thinking of how to phrase my feelings, to tell him I’m finally ready to give myself to him fully.
Until I hear snoring.
“Andy?”
The sound’s muffled. Stupid guy’s gone and passed out on me.
“I think I love you,” I tell the phone, promptly hanging up and collapsing onto the bed far too hot and bothered for this cold New Hampshire night.
CHAPTER THIRTEEN: BELGIUM
Andy
Fucking Carl. I thought I had him on Turn Twelve, but he’s proving slippery, increasingly cunning with every round. Spa’s my favorite circuit, even over Monza. I should have nailed it but I came up short—not that it’s my fault.
Even the commentators thought my car was underpowered. Passing was an impossibility. “Perhaps they should swap cars,” they joked, but standing in second place was no laughing matter.
I stalk around the back of the pits following the race looking for a place to drive my fist into, but Steven’s missing and the mechanics evaporate when they see me, clearly sick of my tongue-lashings, however warranted they may be.
I do manage to find Sara. She looks better than ever, light and airy in white like the first time we met. Hands in my pockets, I approach her in the middle of the garage. “You’re back.”
“I am,” she smiles.
“How was it?” I realize what I’ve said. “Fuck, I don’t mean… You know.”
“It’s fine,” she smiles, coming closer. “Look, don’t worry about the race. Carl is only ahead by three points. You can easily catch him in Italy.”
“I will.”
“That’s the spirit.”
She looks down at her shoes before lifting her eyes back up to meet mine, blue on blue. “How about dinner tonight?”
What is this? A parallel world?
I look at her with an air of suspicion. “Did I say something last night? I know I spoke to you, but for the life of me I can’t remember what I said.”
“Only your little fun and games with Stacey.”
Shit. “Oh, yeah. Probably not the world’s best idea. I was going to delete the photos the Daily guy gave me anyhow.”
“Forget her,” Sara continues. “Dinner. What do you say?”
“I say yes.”
“You know a spot?”
I smile. “I do.”
*
Sara let me pick out my own suit tonight.
Technically, I’m obliged to wear Caliber attire in public, but she wanted to see what my fashion sense is like. Given the look on her face, she’s not disappointed.
And Sara? I have a hard-on halfway to the moon a second after I take her in. The dress she wears is red, silky, strapless and short—real short. Every eye in the restaurant is on her. A young waiter even drops a glass of wine when he passes, his eyes snapping away from her ass. I give him the ol’ ‘I got this’.
“How many Michelin stars does this place have?” Sara queries, dabbing at the bird’s nest of quail eggs and angel hair in front of her.
“Does it matter? There are so many good restaurants here you could throw a dart at a map and still come up trumps. The Belgians know their food… and wine. Brussels is famous for it.”
Two glasses more and I’m speaking far too frankly for this hour. Sara soaks it all in, eyes gleaming and open. She listens, responds—a far cry from the cold snap she was fronting when we first met.
Main course out of the way, I pick up the menu. “Dessert?”
The change that comes over her catches me completely off guard. She leans forward, cleavage bulging and lips pouted. “I’m all yours.”
I look down between the table to find a foot in stockings jammed right against my dick, toes curled against my shaft. I follow the natural trajectory across, and yes, it’s her alright.
“Sara?”
The tables are close, but not that close. Anyone could see this.
“Are you complaining?” she purrs.
“No, definitely not.”
She smiles, pure sex. “Drink.”
I take a sip of wine while her foot continues to press and prod against my package. I’ve never been so hard. Just the thought of the gauzy satin of her stocking against my trousers is sending me careening towards release.
I look up. Sara’s eyes are cat-like, flecked with gold from the streetlights outside and dripping with arousal. It’s only a split second, but it provides all I need to know.
She twists her ankle and really starts to work at me. God, it feels so fucking good.
I take another sip and half choke as the butt of her heel slides up and down my clothed cock. I’m rock hard, cock trapped in place by my underwear and pressed painfully against the side of my leg. I’m not used to this, being the, for want of a better word, victim.
She’s rubbing, every move so sensual and practiced. I look around the table and cannot believe no one else has noticed what’s going on here.
Suddenly I’m stiffening further, the familiar roar of an impending orgasm in my ears. My breathing has become ragged, these clothes far too tight.
Faster and faster her foot works rubbing and curling up against me. “I really missed you, Andy. Like, really missed you.”
I think I’m actually going to come in my pants right here at the table. I can feel the blood lifting in my cheeks, my throat suddenly dry.
Oh fuck.
I suddenly leap from the table, catching the edge of it with my knee and trying to spin off to avoid anyone seeing the giant erection I’m packing.
“Andy?” she queries, knowing full well what’s going on. “Everything okay?”
I take my seat again and hold my hand up, announcing with a crack in my voice “Check, please.”
*
The door to my hotel suite has barely closed before Sara’s standing against me, hands on my collar.
Time to take the power back.
I literally throw her onto the bed. She collapses into the middle mattress of the bed legs spread, her red thong a beacon underneath the net of her stockings. I climb onto the bed over her and fill my hand with a breast, her nipple pressing through the fabric into the hard palm of my hand.
I lean down and rub my thumb along her jaw before my tongue disappears into her mouth and we’re finally back together, one in breath.
I taste the fruity wine in her mouth, feel her lips conform and wrap around my own, her heartbeat a hummingbird against my chest. It drums hard and I know the feeling is mutual, that tonight will be night she releases herself to me.
But I want more, always more.
I slide off her, kneeling at the edge of the bed. I pull off her heels, take hold of the top of her stockings, dragging them away while she lies there breathless. The material separates in my fingers and I tear it off, pulling and tugging until her legs are bare.
I discard the stockings and separate her legs, pulling aside the crotch of her thong and finally taking in the pussy that’s been front and center of my fantasies for so long.
It’s beautiful, her slit moist and wet, her plump lips guarding the honey I desperately crave. It’s all so delicate, her hole a glossy cherry ripe for the plunder.
I bury my face between her thighs and lick her front to back in one long stroke, her juices catching on my tongue and staining my lips. I drive my tongue inside her hot channel, let it sit there in her heat and arousal.
She gasps, voice caught. Her hands run through my hair and she bucks against me, moaning my name.
It’s music to my ears.
I tongue her clit and keep the pressure up, her breath stolen and her dress bunched up around my head. It’s suffocating, stifling, but I wouldn’t be anywhere else. Her asshole squeezes against my chin, fingers digging into my scalp harder than they should.
She rises and flutters back down, her thighs scissoring against my ears and her mewing turning into choppy, halted moans.
That’s it, baby. Come for me.
I’m surprised when she pushes my head away. She kneels on the edge of the bed, mouth open and eyes urgent, lifting me to my feet and pulling my belt away.
She unzips me, yanking my pants and boxers down to my knees.
“Sara? You don’t have to—”
She looks up at me with those feline eyes and I know whatever she says will be gospel. “Just shut up and let me suck your cock.”
My shirt is lifted away and her lips move down my chest and over my stomach. They press and depart, press and depart, only lingering, wet warmth in their wake.
They move down lower, converging around my belly button. I tell her to keep going, not to stop, to never, ever stop.
She fishes out my member, her fragile fingers wrapped around my shaft. I can feel her hot in-out breath against the head of it. She holds my cock in both hands and strokes it twice before taking it into her mouth.
I can tell she’s enjoying it by the way her tongue rolls around and the soft purring that follows. It leaves her mouth wet, her tongue trailing down between my sensitive glans and over my shaft. She pulls a testicle into her mouth and massages the soft sphere gently, letting it pop out and in until my hands are on her head and my hips are jerking forward involuntarily.
I cannot believe this is the same girl. Whatever she went through back in the US has washed all her inhibitions away.
Guess you don’t know her as well as you thought.
All for the better.
She dribbles over my cock, absolutely soaks it with saliva and rolls her hand around it, the slobber gathering between her fingers and making loud smacking sounds every time she draws her fist down.
I flinch and spasm. I’m sensitive, way, way too horny to survive this.
She watches me with amusement, adds more pressure and takes some away, playing and teasing my cock and balls.
I can’t even remember the last time I had a blowjob this good.
My cock disappears into her throat, her muscles clamping and pressing around my member beautifully.
My cock quivers, balls heavy and ready to release, but it’s too early. I need to draw this out, satisfy her first.
I pull her up to her feet and plant my mouth hard against her. I taste myself on her lips, the soapy brine of my cock on the surface of her tongue as it curls up against the roof of my mouth.
I throw her back onto the bed.
She laughs, a schoolgirl, the mood light and fun and so far from my usual encounters with whicheve
r girl wants her five minutes of fame.
“Is this what you want?” Sara draws her legs up, her feet flat. Her butt rounds out and her thong is a red so vibrant it’s like someone’s trailed lipstick down the crack of her ass.
I pull off my pants, tearing the wrapper from my wallet with my teeth and sheathing myself while she shakes and quivers in wait.
I come forward, lift the strap of the thong away from Sara’s pussy and slip a finger inside to the second knuckle. It glides easily into her wetness, her heat churning around it.
She lifts off the bed as I finger-fuck her, slippery arousal from her flushed sex running free from her hole.
There’s gasping, moaning, but I cannot tell from which mouth it comes, only the slick, squelching sounds of my fingers filling her tight slot audible.
I climb up her body, never letting my fingers leave her body. Sara’s hand moves between us to tighten around my cock.
I kiss her neck, suck the easy skin there between my lips, her pulse rippling.
I can’t take it anymore. I flip her over, pull her thong away until it’s stretched wide from her thigh, snapping with a sudden violence and whipping across to the wall. I hold her ass with both hands.
This is it.
Sara reaches behind herself and places my cock against her opening. “Please,” she begs.
I place a hand on her back and sink myself inside her. We moan in unison, my cock sliding deep into her tight confines before I pull back and hammer forward again.
Before long I’m up to my balls in the steamy grip of her hot sex, drawing myself back and driving forward hard, filling her to completion with every stroke.
She draws away, spinning and taking me by the shoulders. She casts me onto my back and throws a leg over my body before settling down upon my member, the act hidden by the sheeny puddle of her dress.
“Fuck,” she exhales, a hand on my chest for support as my cock plunges into her body.
I fuck her harder and faster, my body swinging up from the bed to smash against her ass. I’ve been craving this for the longest time, neither of us holding back.