I Need You Always

by Cynthia P. O'Neill

  I ran my hands up her sides and fisted both breast, causing her to let out a moan. “I want to try something new. All you have to do is tell me to stop and I will. Do you trust me?” I needed to know where we were at and how far I could push her.

  “Yes.” Her voice deepened with desire, as her body started going lax.

  I increased the weight on the machine where she couldn’t pull her legs together and then bent down to rip the crotch out of her spandex shorts. My cock hardened at the sight of her with no underwear.

  I ran my lips up her neck, as my fingers sought out her clit and began to circle her little nubbin, making her squirm. “I can smell your arousal, Marissa. Tell me what turns you on?” I kept my thumb on her clit as one of my fingers dropped to her folds and pushed through to her center, feeling how wet she already was.

  Her breathing became irregular. “You turn me on, Dane.”

  “What part?”

  “I like what you’re doing right now, playing with my privates.”

  “It’s called a pussy.” I insisted. I wanted to get her used to the word since she’d hear it often, especially if I dared to take her to the club.

  She took a deep breath in as my other hand came up and tweaked her nipple.

  “When you pinch my nipples, it’s a livewire to my crotch. I need . . .” I watched as her eyes began to glaze over and she began riding my fingers.

  “I know what you need baby. Just sit back and let me take care of you. Do you want more?”

  “Yes. Please!”

  I knelt down between her legs and parted her folds. Her scent was driving me insane. I took one swipe at her center. Her taste was sweeter than honey and I wanted more. She cried out every time I swiped at her folds, pushing forward trying to drive my tongue deeper into her.

  “I need you to stay still love or I’ll restrain your legs.” I pulled back from her center and concentrated my efforts on her clit, stroking up and down with my tongue, before pulling her nubbin into my mouth and sucking on it. I pushed two of my fingers into her pussy, pushing in and out, getting her worked up and panting with need; feeling her walls start to vibrate around them.

  “Do you need to come, Marissa?”

  Her head was thrown back, eyes closed, and her mouth parted. “Yes.”

  I needed her to see me, to know it was me who gave her pleasure. “Open your eyes and look at me and I’ll let you come.” I needed her to know that I was in control of her orgasms.

  Her head fell forward, as her eyes opened, staring straight at me. “Are you alone and abandoned, Bella?” Her head shook. “Then remember that I’m here, always, before you cast me aside again.”

  “I’m sorry.” She was nearly breathless, on the edge of coming.

  I couldn’t resist her further. “Come now, Marissa.” I curved my fingers inside her, hitting right on her g-spot, while I sucked in the nubbin of her clit and bit down. A scream of ecstasy escaped her lips as her pussy clenched around my fingers, drawing them further inside her. I continued to stroke her core to help her ride out the orgasm, while taking in how beautiful she looked.

  “Oh my God, Dane! Yes, yes, this is too much . . .” My heart swelled with pride hearing her scream my name.

  I reached up to kiss her lips, gently, licking my tongue across her lips before plunging inside. She met my kisses with enthusiasm. “I can taste myself on you.”

  “Is that such a bad thing?”

  “I thought it might be weird, but I kind of like it.” She admitted, blushing.

  “You’re beautiful when you take your pleasure. Whenever we’re together, I want to look into your eyes, to see the emotions held deep within; for you to know it’s me bringing you pleasure. I never want you to hide from me.”

  I reached up to caress the side of her face and she leaned into my touch. “How are you feeling?”

  Her forehead scrunched a bit, before she admitted. “I’d felt off all morning and now I’m relaxed. Why is that?”

  She had a lot to learn, but thankfully, I was patient enough to teach her. “I saw you had a need and I took care of it. If you let me be your Dom, that’s what I’ll do for you.”

  I untied her and carried her upstairs for us to shower. While I would’ve liked to have gone skinny dipping or lay in bed getting her off a couple more times, the clock indicated it was time to get ready for her graduation.

  I’d set her on her feet in my bathroom, as I started our shower. She didn’t flinch or try to hide from me when I removed her clothing and mine. I was smiling on the inside because this meant we were making progress.

  Marissa surprised me by apologizing. “I’m sorry I was in such a mood earlier. I know my family and brother mean well, and that you’re here for me, but I still felt a bit alone. It’s hard to explain.”

  I’d already washed Marissa’s hair and body, when she’d offered to do mine in return. I hadn’t expected it, but was enjoying her touch. I loved how she circled me to ensure every inch of me was covered in body wash, before leading me under the water to rinse it off.

  I’d had my eyes closed to keep the soap out of them, when I felt her grab the base of my cock. Before I could protest, her tongue came out and swiped at the tip before taking all of me into her mouth. I could only manage, “Marissa, you don’t have to,” before her mouth began to move back and forth over my dick.

  This was a dream come true. Her mouth felt so fucking perfect surrounding me. I could feel her taking me to the back of her throat and almost gagging. “You need to breath through your nose and hollow out your checks, Bella.”

  She did as I asked and the suction picked up causing me to almost come. “I need you to gently touch my balls.”

  I don’t know how much practice she’d had with sucking a man off, but my god she was driving me crazy. I grabbed hold of her head, guiding her where I needed. I could feel my balls drawing tighter. “I’m about to come, mi amore. You need to stop if you don’t want me coming in your mouth.”

  I tried to pull back, but her hands came around my hips, covering my ass and pulling me closer. Damn, she was sucking me even harder. I felt my cock stiffen even more before it shot off coating the back of her throat. I thought she’d pull away, but she drank down every bit of my seed until I was completely dry.

  Marissa finally released me and I pulled her up, pressing her against my chest. “You didn’t have to do that. Thank you, angelio mio.” She truly was my little angel.

  “I know. But, I wanted to repay you for earlier. You’ve already gotten me off a couple of times and asked for nothing in return.”

  I lifted her eyes to mine. “I thought you didn’t like the taste of cum.”

  Her eyes were sparkling, as she smiled. “I didn’t like his, but you taste amazing, a cross between salty and sweet, reminding me of a walk on the boardwalk, back in Virginia, smelling the salt water mix with the sweet smells of cotton candy.”

  My lips found hers immediately to thank her. We spent the next few minutes lost in emotion, before finally getting out of the shower.

  “You amaze me, Marissa. For someone who’s not familiar with giving blowjobs, I’d have to say that was some of the best head I’ve ever received.” Her skin blushed.

  I didn’t know how to approach the subject, so I just came right out and asked. “Would you mind accompanying me to my psychiatrist appointment this week?”

  Her face was full of puzzlement. “Why do I need to go with you?”

  “I think it’d be beneficial for us to talk with him and his wife.” I went on to explain. “They’re both in the lifestyle and I think she’d be able to help answer some of your questions regarding submission. We’ll still go at the pace you want. All I ask is that you just talk with them and ask some of the questions you may not want to talk about around me.”

  She mulled it over for a few minutes. I began to get worried wondering if I’d pushed too quickly. “I’d like that. I do have questions and don’t know who to discuss things with. It would be nice to underst
and everything before committing to this lifestyle.”

  THE RELAXATION I’D FELT from Dane’s excessive attention didn’t manage to last long. While we were getting ready to leave, I’d received a couple of texts that the plans with my roommates had been cancelled. Ashley’s fiancés family had driven in to support and celebrate her day. Dawn’s employer had upped her start date because they had a person quit, so she’d be calling it an early night and driving up to Atlanta in the morning.

  I hadn’t handled the change in plans very well and was silently moping on the drive over to the university. Dane helped me out of the car and pressed me against the door and held my face where our lips almost touched. “You’re going to snap out of this funk you’re in and enjoy the day you’ve worked so hard to achieve. If you don’t, I won’t hesitate to take you across my knee and paddle that sweet ass until you’re begging for mercy.”

  I would’ve thought his words would make me run the other direction, but an image of a similar scene, from one of my favorite books, shot into my head and made me tremble with desire. He’d already shown me so much; things I didn’t think I’d be able to handle, but left me wanting more. I was surprised to hear myself say, “Yes, please.”

  His lips landed hard on mine as his tongue pushed through and ravaged every inch of my mouth, leaving me breathless. I found myself turned on and rubbing myself against him. He pulled back slowly, putting some distance between us. I could tell he was just as turned on as I was by the obvious bulge in his pants.

  “If it wasn’t your graduation day, I’d take you to the nearest hotel and give you something else to think about. You’re playing with fire, Marissa, and I have no intentions of burning you.” A smile crept across his face, as he extended his hand out to me. “Shall we find your friends and try to make the best of a celebratory day?”

  I nodded and we took off toward the arena in search of Ashley, Dawn, and Robin in the midst of all the graduates. We found them in no time and I hugged everyone, barely holding back the tears in my eyes. I knew I’d see Robin and Ashley from time to time, since they were local, but Dawn was my bff and go to person when I needed a pick me-up on my attitude. I was already missing her. I put my emotions aside and introduced Dane to everyone. I loved how Ashley’s eyes widened and Dawn and Robin’s jaws nearly dropped to the floor. Yes, he’s the epitome of the perfect man and he’s MINE! Did I just say he’s mine?

  Dane shook everyone’s hands, telling them how nice it was to put a face to a name. He leaned over giving me a kiss on the cheek, whispering, “I want to see you smiling when you walk across that stage to receive your diploma. I’ll be cheering for you in the stands and afterwards we can go out and celebrate with a nice meal.”

  I tried not to look at him directly, but he made sure I was in his line of sight, by lifting my chin so our eyes met. I tried to put forth a smile. “Yes, Sir.”

  There was something going on in Dane’s mind. As he turned to take his place in the stands, I noticed a smile on his face. What’s that man up to?

  Several hours passed before it was my turn to walk across the stage. When I reached for my diploma and shook the Dean’s hand, there were several screams and a thundering applause, causing me to smile and laugh. That couldn’t be all Dane, could it?

  When we finally caught up with one another, he was quick to notice something was off. “What’s wrong, baby?”

  I couldn’t tell him. I didn’t want to tell him. I just shook my head as I debated handing him a note. Dawn came up behind me, rubbing my shoulders to calm me and explained. “Tom came by our house yesterday insisting I tell him where Marissa was. I’d refused and he threatened to beat down the door. We called the cops on him, but he left before they could get there. He left this note in the door addressed to Marissa.”

  I watched as he opened the note carefully and read it aloud:

  The note was short and to the point, but still threatening. Dane wrapped his arms around me, pulling me to his chest as a sob escaped. “Don’t worry about him, mi amore. We’ll give this to the police and see about a restraining order. It’s obvious this guy has a screw loose.”

  Ashley spoke up this time. “I don’t know if this means anything but he kept repeating, “She still owes me and I intend to collect until the debt is paid off.” Then when we called the cops he insisted we give that note to her and to watch our backs.”

  Tom’s behavior and words were bizarre. I couldn’t understand what I owed him for. We didn’t have a chance to analyze anything when I heard someone clear their throat. “Congratulations Marissa!” It was Mr. Prescott with several other people I didn’t know.

  “Mr. Prescott, what are you doing here?”

  “Dane told me how your parents were unable to come and we wanted to share our support on your graduation.”

  “But, I’m just an employee, no one special.” I tried to argue.

  The woman next to Mr. Prescott spoke. “Every employee who’s hired at Prescott becomes a member of our extended family. You’re exceptional to us for looking out for our son.”

  Another gentleman, standing by Mrs. Prescott, cleared his throat causing Dane to speak. “I believe introductions are in order. Marissa, you know my father already, but I’d like to introduce you to my mother and my younger brother Raphael, but you can call him Rafe.”

  I extended my hand to shake his mother’s and then Rafe’s. “It’s a pleasure to meet you both. Thank you for coming today.”

  His mother wrapped her hand around mine and pulled me into a hug, after kissing both sides of my cheeks. She’s definitely Italian. “Please feel free to call me Celia, dear.” At first I tensed, but her perfume and kind demeanor reminded me so much of my grandmother back in Italy.

  Rafe was the classic flirt bringing my hand up to his mouth before kissing my knuckles. “It’s a pleasure beautiful.”

  A familiar sound came from behind them. “Aren’t you forgetting someone?” My mind must be playing tricks on me.

  “Nate?” Did I really hear him? I watched as my brother stepped around the Prescott’s and picked me up, spinning me around.

  “Happy Graduation, sis! And you thought I’d miss it.” Tears were pouring from my eyes as I nodded. “Like I’d let that happen. I know you wanted mom and dad here, but there’s more going on than what you need to be bothered with. They feel bad about things, but promise to make it up to you as soon as they can.”

  I hugged my brother tight. I don’t know how he got here or who was responsible, but my day just righted itself and I felt I could breathe again with a member of my family here to support me. “How did you . . . ? Who’s responsible?”

  Nate hugged me close. “Dane called and told me how much you wanted me at Graduation. I’ve worked day and night for the past week, finally making a dent in my assignment a couple of days ago; enough to where I have a couple of days off. So with the Prescott’s help, I’m here.”

  Tears flowed freely down my face as my brother and I held each other. So much had changed since we’d last seen one another. I hadn’t told him about Tom’s possible involvement in ruining his car. I glanced up to see Dane watching us closely, a smile spread across his face. I mouthed the words, “Thank you,” to which he mouthed, “You’re welcome, mia principessa.” (My princess.)

  My friends told me they needed to go. I noticed Rafe gave Dawn a warm smile that made her blush. It’s too bad she was moving away, because the two of them looked like they had a brief moment. I promised to keep in touch with her one way or another. Thank goodness we lived in the technological era.

  We ended up at a high end restaurant where Mr. Prescott had standing reservations. Everything about the evening was wonderful, from the wine to the food, and definitely the people. I could feel the love that Dane’s family had for one another. It reminded me of the love my family had at one time, before business got in the way. Maybe someday we could recapture some of that.

  I was lost in thought when I felt Dane’s hand grab hold of my knee, drawing
circles with his fingers all the way up my thigh. I tensed, wondering if my brother would see what was going on, since he was sitting next to me. He leaned over to place a chaste kiss near my ear and whispered. “You’re too tense, mi amore. Don’t worry about Tom. We’ll make sure you’re safe. I want you to enjoy the rest of your night or I’ll deliver on that spanking to try and get you out of your head tonight.”

  My breath caught. What did he mean by “out of my head”? Was he talking about subspace? In one sense the idea called to me, wondering if such a thing truly existed or if it was only a fantasy in my novels. In another, if it was real, how hard would one have to spank, or inflict pain to reach that alternate plane of consciousness?

  “So how’s the job? Are you enjoying the travel?” There’s nothing like being jarred back to the present with a barrage of questions from my brother.

  “The job is amazing, Nate. I’ve already traveled to parts of Europe that I’ve only dreamed about.” I looked over at Dane, squeezing his hand, and nodding toward Mr. Prescott. “I look forward to learning more about the sales and acquisitions side of the company and doing whatever I can to help add to the bottom line.”

  “That’s wonderful, sis!”

  The conversations shifted around the table. While the men talked, Celia was sweet, engaging me in conversation about my Italian and Irish ancestry, talking about clothes, and inviting me on a shopping trip with her soon. I was captivated by how comfortable she seemed to feel in her own skin. She exuded confidence. Plus, I noticed she kept touching an intricate necklace around her neck and smiling at Mr. Prescott any time their eyes met. I wonder what all that is about?

  “Ouch!” I must’ve been out of it again. Dane just bit my ear lobe.

  “What’s going on in that mind of yours?” His voice was but a whisper, as his breath washed over my neck with a few kisses making me squirm in my seat.

  “It was nothing. I was just lost in thought.” I tried to convey, but hoped he wouldn’t see through me.