For Love & Torture_A Submissives’ Secrets Novel

by Michelle Love

  I have to thank them too. And nothing could make me happier than hearing that.

  Into the back we go and the nurse hands me a hospital gown. “Would you like to help your fiancée into this?”

  “I will.” I turn to Bell as the woman closes the curtain around us and find Bell shaking and crying. “Baby, it’s okay.”

  Holding her, I press her head against my chest as she cries. “I was so calm during it all. But now, it’s all just hitting me, Grant. The hospital, the reality of what I went through, it’s coming down on me hard and heavy.”

  “Bell, I’ve got you. I do. I’m never going to let you go again. Not ever. Now let’s get this gown on you and get this part done.” I untie the robe and pull it off her. Then I take off the sheer dress, pulling it off over her head. Taking the bra and panties off her, I toss them in the trash can. “Those can stay right here. I’ll take you home in just my mother’s robe. That monster’s things don’t belong on you.” Kissing her bare shoulder, I take a moment to look her over, to make sure there’s nothing I need to tell the doc about.

  Not seeing anything, I put the hospital gown on her and help her into the bed. She smiles at me, tired and weak. “Grant, you’re the kindest and most considerate person I’ve ever known.”

  Looking down, I know that’s not true. Or it hasn’t been in the past. “I have a lot to make up for with you, Bell. And don’t think I won’t do it too.”

  Someone pulls the curtain open, and a short man with round glasses and green scrubs comes in. “Hi, I’m Doctor Love.”

  I look at the name on his shirt, and sure enough, we have us a legit Doctor Love. “Hi. I’m Grant, and this is Isabel.” I shake the man’s hand. “Take good care of my fiancée, doc. She’s the only one I’ve got.”

  He looks at me with a smile. “Nice to meet you, Grant.” Then he turns to Bell. “And you’ve been through something, haven’t you, dear?”

  The way her lower lips quivers tells me she’s about to lose it. I learn I’m right as she breaks down completely. “You have no idea. And I know you’ll never believe me…”

  He gives me a look that says he’s seen some shit and puts his hand on her shoulder as I hold her hand and pat it, trying to reassure her that he’s here to help her. He leans down and tells her, “Let me tell you something, young lady. I have seen more things than you can imagine. I have treated patients that have had some crazy things happen to them and have even done them to themselves. I don’t judge—I just do my best to heal.”

  I can see we have us a good man here and we’re in good hands. “Doc, my girl was abducted. She was tied up and held against her will. The man who did it made her drink his blood.”

  Bell adds, “He also made me eat this nearly raw meat.”

  “I see. And how long ago did you ingest this stuff?” he asks her.

  She sniffles and I grab a tissue and hand it to her so she can blow her nose and wipe her tears away. “Within the last twenty-four hours.”

  “And have you used the bathroom?” he asks.

  She shakes her head. “No, I was tied down.”

  “Do you need to use the bathroom now?” he asks.

  “I could pee. My stomach is too tense to do anything else.”

  With a nod, he pats me on the back. “Care to help her go to the bathroom? Or should I get a nurse to help her? We’ll need to catch the urine in what we call a hat so we can test it.”

  “I can do it. This lady and I will not be parting at all. I can’t lose her again.” I take her hand and help her up. “Point the way, Doc.”

  He pushes the curtain open and points to the door across the hallway. “Right that way. Just leave the catch in the hat.”

  Taking her inside the bathroom, I find her looking at me with a blush on her cheeks. “You can just turn around. I can do this on my own.”

  Cocking my head to one side, I smile at her. “Baby, you and I are soon to become one.” I help pull the gown up for her and ease her down onto the toilet. She’s weak as a baby all of a sudden. “One day we’ll be in this very hospital, having our first baby. You better know I will be right there every step of the way. I’ll be bathing you, helping you do everything you need to do.”

  I hear the tinkling and smile at her even though she’s blushing up a storm. “Who are you?”

  With a shrug, I say, “I’m the man who loves you, baby. I’m the man you’re going to spend the rest of your life with. And now that I’m positive our souls go on, you get me for the rest of eternity too. Is that okay with you?”

  There goes that bottom lip again. And here come the waterworks. “Oh, Grant…” She’s so overcome that she can’t do anything but let the sobs wreak havoc on her body.

  I pull out all the stops and wrap some toilet paper around my hand and wipe her dry. I hate that she’s crying as I do it, but love that she’s letting me. “I love you, Bell. My sweet little Bell. Forever and always.”

  I give her one soft kiss then help her up. She wraps her arms around my neck, her sobs finally turning to little sniffles, and kisses my cheek. “I love you, Grant. I do. I never want to lose you.”

  “Then you never will.” Scooping her up, I carry her back to the hospital bed and lay her down. Then I pull the blanket up to cover her. “Let’s get this taken care of, then I’m taking you home and holding you until we both feel better.”

  With a nod, she agrees, and I take a seat on the edge of her bed.

  I can see our future and know it’s bright.

  Chapter 30

  Isabel

  Waiting on the lab to give Doctor Love the results seems to be taking forever. I keep falling asleep but waking after only a few minutes when I hear someone walk out in the hallway.

  Every footstep sounds like Bart’s.

  Opening my eyes, I see Grant sitting on the edge of my bed, watching television with the sound way down. I still can’t believe he asked me to marry him.

  The curtain is pulled back, and there’s my doctor with some papers in his hands. “Looking good here. You two can get going. There’s nothing to worry about.”

  Grant beams at me. “Great. Now to get you back home.”

  In no time at all, he has the hospital gown off and his mother’s robe back on me and takes me to the car. With a clean bill of health, I do feel better and am glad he made me go to the hospital.

  The ride home passes by quickly, and before I know it, he has me in the shower with him, shampooing my hair and washing my tired body. Although I’m passed exhaustion, his hands moving over my skin send a heat straight through me, and I moan. Kneeling in front of me, he moves his hands up my leg, his fingers grazing my pussy.

  I run my fingers through his thick hair, and he looks up at me. “Feeling a little frisky there, baby?”

  With a nod, I let him know that’s exactly how I’m feeling. “Do you think you’re up to it?”

  “Do you?” He smiles at me as he moves his hands around to my ass.

  “I’m up to it. I need you so badly right now.” I lean back on the warm tiled wall and look down at him with a desperate smile. After everything I’ve been through, I need to feel a connection to something safe and wonderful—only he can give me that.

  His eyes hold mine as he leans forward, kissing my pussy. My palms flatten out on the wall behind me as I start pulsing deep inside of my body. His mouth is hot on me as he kisses me and moves his tongue over my most sensitive area.

  I can’t watch him anymore, the overwhelming sensations driving me to close my eyes and moan with how exceptional it feels. Licking me over and over, he taps my clit every once in a while, sending a jolt of excitement through me.

  I can’t help but think about how much better this feels just because we’re now engaged. What will it feel like once we’re married, I wonder?

  His fingers curve into my ass cheeks as he pulls me forward and becomes ravenous. Licking, sucking, and nibbling at me until I’m screaming with ecstasy and come like crazy for him.

  He’s up
and thrusting his erection into me, going completely still as he feels my pussy pulsing around his cock. “Yes, baby. God, you feel so amazing.”

  Leaning my head on his shoulder, I wrap my legs around him, letting him hold me up and pin me against the wall. I run my fingers over his muscular back and sigh. “How you make me feel is beyond belief.”

  Slowly, he begins to move, sliding his massive cock back and forth inside of me. As he moves, I can’t help but think about the fear from only hours before, thinking that I’d never get to feel him this way again.

  Tears pool in my eyes then fall down my face as he moves inside of me. I almost lost him. I almost lost myself.

  I feel Grant’s hand move up to grab a chunk of my hair. He pulls it back, making me look at him. “I’m never letting you go. I can’t.”

  His mouth crashes down hard on mine as he kisses me like I’m the air he needs to stay alive. He pounds me harder and faster until we’re both quivering with release.

  Holding onto him, I try to catch my breath as he does the same, and we stare into each other’s eyes. Then I see the glisten of a tear in his, and I sob as he cries along with me.

  It all feels so real now. It never quite felt real when I was held captive by Bart. It was like a nightmare that would surely end. And it did end, only not with me waking up.

  He’s still out there, and we both know that. We both know he’ll come back for me. We both know there will inevitably be some horrific fight to the death for at least one of us. Hopefully Bart, but he seems to have something on his side that we don’t.

  But then again, we do seem to have—at the very least—Grant’s mother.

  “It’ll be okay, Grant. I know it will. Your mother will help us. I know she will.” I smooth my hand over his head as I sniffle and try to get control of myself.

  “I know. I do.” He sniffles and turns the water off then puts me down so he can grab a couple of towels. “I need to get you into bed. You need some rest. I’ll stop this crying. Damn, I’ve been doing so much of that lately.”

  Wrapping the soft, warm towel around my body, I sigh. “Grant, you have every reason in the world to cry. It’s cleansing. Just from your emotional family reunion, you’ve come so far. Crying helped that happen.”

  With a nod, he wipes his tears away along with the water from the shower and turns to pick me up, carrying me to bed. “I’ve never felt more out of sorts. I’m elated to have you in my arms again. But I’m scared to death that bastard is going to try his best to take you back out of them again.”

  “I know. I’m afraid too. I wish I knew what to do. I wish there was some way to disappear and make it so that he can never find me again. I wish he was human so the police could arrest his ass and end this.” I close my eyes and fight the tears. I’ve cried so much, and I’m so tired. I just don’t have the energy for anything else.

  “Shhh.” His lips press against my forehead as he places me on the bed and pulls the towel off me. He pulls the blanket up to cover me. “You’re safe now. The security system is on, and I’m right here. I’ll be holding you tight until you can’t sleep any longer.”

  He climbs into the bed and wraps his body around mine like a cocoon, and I’ve never felt safer in my life.

  “Thank you, Grant.” I snuggle into his wide chest and let his warmth comfort me. “I love you.”

  “I love you, baby. Now get some sleep.” His lips touch the top of my head, and my eyes close.

  He loves me, and I am safe.

  At last.

  Chapter 31

  Grant

  One day later

  The sound of thunder wakes me up as it rumbles outside. Bell is sleeping like a baby in my arms. Once she fell asleep, she fell hard.

  Moving as little as possible to pick up my cell, I see the time is half past four in the afternoon. We’ve slept all day long. And now it’s time for me to get up.

  I have things to tend to.

  Rubbing my eyes, I wipe the sleep away and sit up. I throw my legs over the side and stand up. Stretching out, I find my body is well-rested and so is my mind. Now, time to make things happen.

  “Hey, where are you going?” her sleepy voice drifts out from under the blankets.

  “Just putting on some clothes. I have a few phone calls to make.” I turn and slip back into bed with her, staying on top of the blankets so I don’t get too comfortable.

  Her doe-like eyes gaze at me as she runs her hand over my bearded cheek. “I’m getting up too then. I don’t need to spoil myself too much with all this sleep.”

  “We can get ready and go get something to eat if you’d like.” I push her hair back and kiss her forehead. I don’t seem to be able to stop touching her. “I need to call Betty and have her take Bart off the member’s list immediately and have her alert security. If he does come, I want him picked up. And I suppose I should call Detective Jones, although he’s not exactly the best of help.”

  Her brows furrow. “Why not?”

  “He thinks you wanted to go with Bart. He thinks our lifestyle is what got you where you were.” I roll away from her and get up before I’m too tempted to stay there the rest of the day. My cock’s already twitching as I look at her sleepy, beautiful face.

  “Well, that’s not true at all. The reason Bart stalked me is because of something else altogether. Something supernatural. Something not of this world. But I bet you’re right. The cops can’t help me. Maybe a priest or something like that, but not the law. Bart is above the law. When a man can just disappear, there’s not much the law can do to him.” She rolls out of bed and pads to the bathroom. “I want a cheeseburger and some curly fries and a huge chocolate shake.”

  Chuckling, I can’t believe she can say all that about Bart and still have an appetite. But my Bell isn’t a normal woman. She’s far more than that.

  After making the phone calls and getting dressed, we head out in the car to get my woman something to eat. The rain has eased up as the sun is about to set.

  “Would you look at that sky, Grant.” She rolls down the window on the Jag to get a better look at the orange sky. “It was dark all the time where I was. No light except what came from the fires.”

  “The fires?”

  She nods as she continues to look at the marvel in front of her. “Yeah. There were these giant fireplaces with enormous fires burning in them. They were in the rooms I was taken to. And there were these really tall, gorgeous women too. Like his slaves or something. But they were there because they wanted to be, or so he said.” Her gaze turns to me, and she looks at me with a quizzical expression. “Why do you think he wanted me when he had so many gorgeous women at his disposal?”

  “Because you’re one of a kind, baby. And I’m not letting him have you. So I don’t want you to worry, okay?” I take her hand as I take off down the road and hold it right there on the console between us.

  I don’t say a word to Bell about anything I found out during my calls, but Betty is history. She didn’t do any of the background checking on Bart that we require for all of the potential members of the club. She also didn’t check the background of his lady friend either. Tad is having Betty escorted off the property as soon as she arrives for work tonight.

  If anyone wants a contract tonight, they’re just flat out of luck. Isabel is staying right by my side tonight, and we’ll be staying home. Tomorrow is soon enough for Bell and me to get back to work.

  As I pull into the parking lot of the café Bell loves, I see my brother, Jake’s, car parked in front. “Look who’s here.”

  Bell nods at the car I was looking at. “Isn’t that Jake’s car?”

  “It is.” I turn when I hear her opening her door and grab her arm. “No ma’am. You wait for me to let you out. I don’t want your feet on the ground unless I’m right there to protect you.”

  She smiles and blushes. “I feel like you’re spoiling me, Grant.”

  “I am.” Getting out, I go to her side of the car and get her out, then wrap my arm a
round her. For all I know, Bart could send flying monkeys to pick up my woman. If he does, they’ll have to get through me first, and that won’t be easy.

  When we get inside, we find my little brother sitting at a table for four with a pretty young lady. I walk up behind him, looking at the woman he’s taken out on a date. “Hey, little brother. What’s up?”

  Jake looks at me and smiles then gets up. “Hey, you guys. Sit down. Join us. We haven’t ordered yet.” He looks at the hold I have on Bell and laughs. “If you’ll let your lady go, I’d like to hug her hello, Grant.”

  I let her go and they hug, exchanging pleasantries. I eye the woman he’s got with him. Offering her my hand, she shakes it as I introduce myself. “Hi. I’m Grant, Jake’s oldest brother. And you are?”

  “Alice. His friend.” She looks at Jake as he pulls out a chair for Bell and asks, “And who is your friend, Grant?”

  Bell reaches out to shake her hand. “I’m Isabel. And did I hear you say your name is Alice?”

  Alice nods her head, her short blonde hair bobbing with the movement, and smiles. “Nice to meet you.”

  I take a seat opposite Bell’s and lean back in the chair. “Guess what I did, Jake?”

  With a laugh, he shakes his head. “With you, bro, there’s just no telling.”

  “I asked Bell to marry me, and she said yes,” I inform him.

  “No way!” He looks at Bell. “Seriously?”

  She nods, and he looks back at me. I know he can’t be at our wedding, so I make something else up. “We’re going to head to Vegas and get married on Halloween. Just the two of us.”

  “I see. Well, congrats you guys. So will I be an uncle soon?” He nudges me in the ribs.

  “If I have my way, you will.” I shoot a look at Bell and love the blush that covers her cheeks.

  She looks down, fiddling with her hands in her lap and I absolutely love her reaction. Even with all the crazy things we’ve done, making a baby is a new one for us. I can’t wait to get started on that.