I’ve been moping! I’ve been letting this whole breakup be the center of my life, with no plan or intention of moving forward.
Bryan and Geena cheated on me. They are going to have a baby. They are going to get married. They will have the wedding that I planned for Bryan and me.
And now what? What does the future have in store for me? I am heartbroken, I am homeless and I am jobless. What am I going to do about it now?
“The pain is going to be there for a long time, Ash. It’s not going to go away anytime soon. But it doesn’t mean you won’t do something about it. It doesn’t mean you shouldn’t move on with your life. The pain is going to be part of it. You know what they say? If it doesn’t kill you, it should only make you stronger. And hey, what do you know? You’re still alive, aren’t you?”
I took a deep breath and then I closed my eyes.
Somehow, a light bulb seemed to have flickered inside my head… for the first time in weeks. I smiled slowly at Adam. “Yes, Adam. I’m still alive…”
Chapter Three
DIAMOND:
The strongest and hardest mineral. Commonly used in engagement rings to symbolize the unbreakable bond between a man and a woman.
For the next few weeks, I spent my time job-hunting. I tried to steer clear of weddings for now. I know that I’m still in pain, but acknowledging the pain doesn’t really mean adding up to it or provoking it in whatever way.
But by end of the week, I still have nothing. I am still the same clueless girl I was weeks ago.
“Hang in there, sweetheart.” Nicole said to me one night we decided to check out the new bar in the city called Oil Rig. “You’ll find one. Although, you would have found one already, if you just went back to wedding planning. You were famous before. People loved your work. It is easy to get a job with the competition.”
I rolled my eyes. “What’s the point of planning other people’s weddings when I don’t believe in love anymore? If my own wedding is being realized by someone else?”
“Speaking of that, are you… going?” John asked.
“Hell no!” I replied quickly. “Why will I come to the wedding of my ex-fiancé and my ex-best friend? Especially if they didn’t have the decency to change a thing that I planned when I was supposed to be the bride? Geena is a classic! She stole my fiancé! And she stole my wedding ideas! She’s… a…” I sighed. “She’s a… I don’t know the word!”
“A thief?” Dannie suggested sarcastically.
“More than that! She’s a lying, stupid, conniving bitch!”
“And Bryan?”
“He’s a cheap, indecent, spineless son of a bitch! They really deserve each other!”
“Great!” Nicole clapped her hands. “We’re getting somewhere! At least now, you hate him enough to admit that you need to get back at them for what they did to you.”
“How can I get back at them?” I asked.
“By showing them that you are happy.” John said. “That you’re beyond this. That you’re over him. That you’ve moved on. And you’re a lot happier now than when you were with him.”
I snorted. “Okay. So I’ll get my revenge in… five years! Tough! They won’t even remember me by then!”
“They may not even be together in five years, who knows?” Nicole muttered.
“You don’t have to be really happy. You just have to show them that you are. Even if you are still breaking inside. You don’t have to show them that. You just need to let them see that you are happy, even if you aren’t.” John said.
“You mean… for the show?”
“Yes.” Dannie said. “But the minute you start feeling better about it is the minute you will start getting over him! And you can do it, doll.”
I smiled. A new sense of excitement filled me. And for the first time in weeks, I felt a little lighter and little bit happier.
I raised my bottle to them. “Cheers?”
“Cheers!” They agreed and we all took a gulp of our beers.
“So, how about pawning that ring?” Dannie said. “It can get you out of Adam’s apartment.”
“Come on, sweetie. No need to hold on to it. He isn’t worth it. The memories aren’t worth the pain that came afterwards.” Nicole said.
And just like that, I decided that… I will cash in on Bryan’s memories. The bastard deserved it for all that he did to me. After all, he owed me for the flowers on his wedding!
The next day, I was feeling a bit more cheerful than usual. I wanted to know how much Bryan’s engagement ring was worth and I felt excited that maybe it’s time for me to move out of Adam’s apartment. I can’t be in the charity of the guy forever. And I know I was putting him in a difficult position with his family since Geena is his sister.
I met with Nicole and Dannie and we went to the mall to get the ring checked.
“Okay, my frame of mind should be… I am over him and I have a new boyfriend.” I said, smiling dreamily.
“Hmmm… the first part is easier to believe than the second. Who is this mystery guy? Or don’t tell me you have totally sold out your values and you decided to hook up with Adam.”
I wrinkled my nose. “Adam? Eeww!!! Incest!”
Nicole laughed. “So who’s the man?”
I shook my head. “No one yet. But if I accidentally run into Bryan or Geena, that’s what I will tell them. It doesn’t have to be true. But I’ll raise my chin and that’s what I’ll say. I’m happy as a bird! And I’m no longer a virgin! I’ve given myself up on a steamy night of passion with my boyfriend, who I am very much in love with!”
“What’s the name of your boyfriend?” Dannie asked challengingly.
“None of their damn business.” I replied chirpily.
“Bravo!” Nicole said pulling me to the next jewelry store she saw.
I reluctantly gave my ring for appraisal at the jewelry shop. The guy at the counter gave me an apologetic smile. Instantly, he was able to deduce that it was an engagement gone sour.
“I’ll see what rate we can give you.” He said.
We waited for five minutes, looking at the rings and trinkets around us. I could only heave a sigh looking at the diamond engagement rings in front of me. I must admit that Bryan’s ring, apart from the big stone, didn’t really have much style.
“Excuse me, Ma’am.” The guy finally called us.
We approached him. My heart was pounding. Somehow, doubts came back to me. That ring showed how much Bryan valued me, or loved me. Pawning it doesn’t say much about how much I valued him no matter what he did to me. And God knows I did value him… too much!
The guy looked at me uncomfortably. “I’m...” He took a deep breath. “I’m… sorry. But we cannot buy this.”
“What? Why?” Nicole asked.
The guy lowered his voice so that only me, Dannie and Nicole can hear him.
“Because, I’m afraid that this is a fake.” He said. “The diamond is not real.”
“What?” I asked in shock. I knew my face was turning crimson. “That can’t be!”
I picked up my ring and looked at the engraving inside to make sure that they did not switch it. It’s still there—the date that Bryan proposed to me.
“Ma’am… this is cubic zirconia. The value of which is… I don’t know… a couple of hundreds?”
“What?” Nicole asked, completely shocked.
“You didn’t notice?” The guy asked. “I’m afraid that even the band… was just plated.”
“I’m not a jeweler, how am I to know?” I asked sarcastically.
“I’m really sorry.” The guy said. He smiled at me ruefully.
I took my ring back. I thought I was going to faint any minute. How could I have been so stupid? He proposed to me with a fake stone? What? He really thought I was so stupid that I wouldn’t notice? That no one would notice?
How cheap did he take me for?
“Ma’am…” The guy at the counter said. “I’m really sorry.” He handed me a card. “Do come and visit u
s again. We’re giving you a privilege discount card which you can use on your future purchases.”
I nodded, trying to prevent tears from rolling down my cheeks. “Thanks.” I said weakly.
“Let’s go.” Dannie said to me.
I seemed to be floating mindlessly towards the exit. I wasn’t looking in any direction, wasn’t actually seeing anything when I collided with another customer who was entering the store.
I caught a whiff of sweet masculine perfume as I felt strong arms wrap around me in an iron grip, preventing me from falling flat on my butt. I leaned my head on his broad shoulder and for a moment there, I felt comfort… just when I needed it the most. I held onto his shoulders and quietly let the tears seep out. Because I needed it. I needed a shoulder to cry on. Someone to hold me as I let reality slice through me. I needed someone to be strong for me at that moment when I felt the weakest… when the pain enveloped me ruthlessly.
“Are you alright, Miss?” I heard him ask, his solid chest rumbled beneath my face as he spoke.
Slowly, I turned my head upwards and found myself staring at a pair of pitch dark sunglasses. His black bangs fell over his dark brows, one of which is raised as he stared down at me.
My mind went blank as his face and his presence filled my senses. I took in his handsome face, the sweet masculine scent of him, the hint of concern in his voice and the feel of his arms around me.
“Are. You. Okay?” He repeated, this time louder and with more emphasis to every word.
I nodded as reality slowly returns to me.
Slowly, he released me, making sure I was steady enough to stand on my own. Then he took a step back. It was only then that I saw what he was wearing. White shirt and black leather jacket.
“Take it easy, okay?” He said. And with a final nod, he went inside the store, leaving me standing outside, still in awe.
“Okay, enough embarrassment for the day.” Dannie said, pulling me away.
“Gees, Ash. For a moment there, I thought you were going to go hysterical in that poor soul’s arms!” Nicole teased.
After walking one block with my friends, I finally snapped back to reality.
“That guy was real?” I finally asked.
“Who? Dark-haired Ken Doll?” Dannie asked back.
I nodded.
“Yeah.” Dannie replied. “And he is sooooo hoootttt!” And for a while, I thought Dannie was going to cry. “I haven’t seen him before!”
“Big city. You can’t know everybody who lives here!”
Then I remembered how his arms wrapped around me. In that instant, I felt warm, comforted… safe. I felt the comfort that I have been looking for since I found out about Bryan and Geena.
I looked at the ring that I still clasp in my hand and I remembered how Bryan made me believe his ring was real… along with his love.
I stopped in the middle of the sidewalk. I started crying again.
“It wasn’t even a real diamond!” I wailed.
“Oh, God! Here we go!” Dannie rolled his eyes and pulled me with him and Nicole.
“Did you hear what the guy said? It was worth only a couple hundred bucks!” I continued crying. “How could he do this to me? I thought he loved me then! And this ring… this ring was the symbol of how much he valued me, that wretched son of a bitch!” And I threw the ring on the street.
“What are you doing? You could have sent it back to him to tell him that you already know!” Nicole said, running after the ring.
But then a beautiful white sports car came rushing past in front of us and ran over my ring.
“Oh no!” Nicole panicked.
“Nicole! You’re going to get yourself killed! Get back in here!” Dannie shouted.
Nicole quickly crossed the street to pick up my ring… or what was left of it. True enough, the huge stone had been smashed leaving only the gold plated band.
“Thank you!” Nicole called after the car angrily.
“I don’t need it, Nicole!” I said to her. “This confirms what we already know. Just… throw it away!”
“You’ll never know. You just might see Bryan one day and make him… I don’t know… eat this!” Nicole said angrily. “How can he do this to you, Ash!? I thought… I thought you two were best friends. I thought you were soulmates.”
“Is this how cheap he thought I was?”
My friends hugged me, making me feel better. Or at least they tried.
I still couldn’t believe it even until that evening when Dannie, Nicole and I went to meet up with John at Oil Rig.
John was speechless almost the whole time. He was shaking his head as he took large gulps of his beer.
“Say something, will you?” Nicole said.
John shrugged. “I can’t really say anything except that… I thought Bryan couldn’t sink any lower!”
“A freaking cubic zirconia! He said he spent a fortune on that ring!” I said. I drank my beer. “How could he trick me like this? How couldn’t I have known? I was a wedding planner, for Christ’s sake!”
“You plan weddings, honey. Not engagement parties. Your job begins long after the ring has been placed on the bride-to-be’s finger.” Dannie pointed out.
Now I realized that for the years that we have been together, Bryan and Geena must have thought me naïve. I was this… pushover, who worshipped the land that they both walked on… like they couldn’t do anything wrong in their lives. I did almost everything they asked me to. God! I’m such a fool!
My sorry thoughts were interrupted by a phone call from my mother.
“I… have to take this call, guys.” I said. I quickly dashed to the nearest exit of the bar and answered my phone.
“Are you okay, sweetie?”
“I’ve been better, Mom.” I replied.
“Well… I’m sure… if you’re still in touch with your cousin, Adam, your invitation has reached you by now. I know it may come as a surprise.”
“Yes! It was a shocker!!!” I muttered sarcastically.
“I know what they did to you was horrible, sweetheart.” My mother said apologetically.
“There are no words for it, Mother!” Tears instantly rolled down my cheeks but I refused to let her hear me whimper.
“But sweetheart, you and Geena… you’ve been the best of friends all your lives. I mean… you can’t really miss this one time event in her life.”
“Mom? What are you saying?” I asked her. “Are you… saying that Geena and Bryan will last forever?”
“Oh, sweetheart. You aren’t… over him yet, are you?”
“Wow, Mother! It’s only been two months since I found out that my boyfriend for years has been… sleeping with my best friend for life! I’m not really made of stone, Mother!”
I heard her sigh at the other end of the line. Then she said, “This is going to be tougher than I thought.”
“What’s going to be tougher, Mom?”
She took a deep breath and then she said, “Sweetheart… we were hoping you will come.”
“Where?”
“To… the wedding.”
Right that instant, I thought I was hearing things. I could not believe what my mother just asked of me. After running what she said over and over in my head, I still thought I was hearing things.
“Mom… wha… what did you just say?”
“Sweetheart… We know that it was wrong what they did to you. But… this is our family. Geena is like a daughter to us too. You grew up together. You were best friends all your lives. It’s tradition to have a reunion during big events in a family member’s life and Geena’s wedding is a big event. You may be mad and hurt about the whole thing, but you and Geena… you go a long way, sweetheart. You two will kiss and make up and you will learn to forgive Bryan. You were also best friends. You would… feel sorry someday if you missed this wedding. I heard it would be grand!”
“Oh Mother! I am sure it would be!” I said very sarcastically. “After all, I planned the whole thing! This was supposed to be
my wedding Mother! Mine and Bryan’s! The fact that you think I can get over their sleeping together behind my back, and lying to me for months so easily is unbelievable, Mom! Geena may have been my best friend all my life, but now… she’s just some bitch who broke my heart, stole my fiancé, and ruined my dream wedding!”
“Sweetheart… please. You can just show up for an hour at the reception. Say hi to your relatives. Say hi to Uncle Jack. It would mean a lot to him for you to be there.”
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