by Alan Gold
Abram flopped over onto his back and felt the late-afternoon sun on his face, warm and soaking into his skin. He forced his eyes open, saw the sky, and drank in the air. How far had he come? Which direction had he been carried by the brown water? Abram let these thoughts wash over him, happy just to feel the sensation of breathing.
And then he remembered the stone seal.
• • •
It was a long walk, but the river was his guide, and the stars gave just enough light in the dark for the exhausted boy to find his way back to the road and the Roman milestone. He felt as though he should pray that the seal would be there where he had hidden it, but he didn’t. He couldn’t face the idea that his prayers wouldn’t be answered, which would be a sign of his failure.
Abram stood over the milestone looking down at its foreign markings, marks chiseled into the surface of the stone in clear lines and crosses. The starlight cast just enough illumination to create contrast in the chisel marks, and Abram reached out to find the X that he’d identified earlier that day.
He swept both hands over the dirt at the base of the short stone obelisk, recalling how he’d pretended to stumble and pushed the stone seal into the dirt to hide it.
Finding nothing of the familiar shape, Abram pushed his hands deeper and scraped away handfuls of dirt and rock and sand as he felt his heart pound and his stomach sink. Could the seal be lost? Had he failed? His movements became more frantic as he cleared the ground, feeling for the seal, until his hand closed around a smooth, hard object and a shape his fingers knew so well. He didn’t even have to look down to know that he had found it.
Abram collapsed at the base of the milestone, held the seal to his chest, and sobbed in the darkness.
• • •
A week later, even the air felt charged with danger. The closer he came to Jerusalem, the more cautious Abram grew, traveling at night and sleeping in the undergrowth of trees during the day.
As he traveled northeast, ascending the hills on top of which sat the thousand-year-old city of Jerusalem, he was forced to hide more often when he encountered larger and more heavily armed Roman patrols and even the occasional legion marching to their headquarters. When he was growing up, he’d been told the stories of his great-great-grandfather—a gentle doctor named Abraham who’d sacrificed himself by confronting a Roman century, allowing his wife and children to escape. It was told that the synagogue in his village of Peki’in in the northern Galilee had been built in his honor. This story was meant to make Abram feel brave, that such bravery was in his bloodline, but as he drew closer to Jerusalem and his objective, his trepidation grew.
Abram could feel when danger approached and when he should hide, because even from far away, his keen senses could detect the creaking of the soldiers’ leather and the clanging of their metal armor. At these times he’d hide in the woods, bury himself underneath leaves and branches and twigs, and wait silently. He often mused that if he were armed with a bow and arrow or even a pilum, the javelin that Roman soldiers carried, he might show the bravery his ancestor had, attack the Roman soldiers, and escape into the forest like the Zealots without being caught.
But for a Jew to be caught with a weapon was death. So he would lie there, peeking out from his hiding place, watching the soldiers march in tight formation behind the horse on which their centurion was riding.
The Romans weren’t his only problem as a traveler in Israel. There was also danger from the Zealots who sometimes wandered these hills, hoping to kill members of a small Roman patrol. And they were known to kill Jews who looked as though they were supporters or collaborators with the Roman army. Such Jews, who usually dressed like the Romans in short togas, might be those who were feeding off the fat of the land instead of suffering, like their co-religionists. It was Jewish women who were the targets of the Zealots, women who wore trinkets or jewels, who painted their faces or smelled of perfumes. Any one of these might become a target.
Abram found himself in a valley at the foothills of the city. Exhausted, he lay on the ground, staring up at a city on the hill, the city about which the rabbis in the cave had spoken with such devotion and awe, the city they called Jerusalem.
He looked at it, and even from here, he could feel its mystery, its otherworldliness. Jerusalem seemed built on the side of a hill, and the gleaming white wall surrounding it seemed to be stopping the city from falling down into the valley. Abram stood to get a better view and hid behind a tree, hoping to be out of sight of the men on the wall above. He stared up, wondering how to get past the soldiers who guarded the gates to the city. Perhaps he should wait until it was night and try and climb over the wall and hide himself in the shadows—
“Who are you? Why are you hiding?”
Abram whipped around in shock, his heart pounding, wondering at the failure of his ears to hear someone coming. His eyes darted about to find the source of the voice. In the distance, standing among the trees, he saw a young woman, perhaps a year or two older than he. She wasn’t a Roman but a Jewess, dressed in a long gown with a shawl over her head and neck. She was beautiful, and he stared at her.
“I asked who you are. And why are you hiding behind a tree?”
“N-nothing . . .” Abram stammered.
“Nothing? Is that your name or what you’re doing?”
Abram had no answer under the scrutiny of the young woman.
“Well, if you’re called Nothing and you’re doing nothing, then why are you on my father’s land? And who are you hiding from?”
“Abram.”
“Abram? So that’s your name? But I prefer to call you Nothing, and that’s what I’ll call you until you tell me what you’re doing here.”
“Nothing.”
“Don’t start that again. You’re Nothing from nowhere, and you’re doing nothing. Stop being silly and tell me who you are and why you’re here.”
The young woman’s voice was shrill yet commanding. But Abram’s heart began to settle, and he pulled his senses together.
“Who are you?” he asked.
“I’m Ruth. I’m the daughter of Eli and Naomi of the Tribe of Judah who own this land. And one day, when I’m a woman, I’ll own it, because I have no brothers. So there.” She walked over to him and seemed to be scrutinizing him. “You smell,” she said.
“I fell into a river. I’ve been walking for two weeks. I’ve been sleeping in the fields. I’m sorry.” Though, in that moment, Abram had no idea why he was apologizing.
“The Kedron River runs into this valley. Its water is clean. It comes from Jerusalem. You should wash in there. But you mustn’t drink the water because the Romans are in the city, and my father says that the Romans are filthy and may even piss down the wells. When you’ve washed, come back and talk to me. I’ll be here tomorrow.”
And with that, she was gone. Abram looked at Ruth’s departing back and wondered why she’d spoken to him like that. She was rude and arrogant. But she was very pretty, and despite her offensiveness, he thought it was a good idea to go and wash in the river. He would then come back to this spot, not only to meet the girl again but also to work out which was the best way to enter Jerusalem.
The following day, Abram realized that he wasn’t looking up at Jerusalem but peering through the trees in the hope that Ruth would walk toward him. Not only had he washed himself thoroughly in the cold water, he’d also found a private place where the river meandered through fields, and washed his clothes as best he could. He’d spread them out on the bank to dry, lying naked in the warm sun and hoping that nobody passed by.
Dressed and no longer smelling of rotting earth and decaying grasses, Abram sighed, wondering whether it was part of her rudeness to promise to return and then fail to do so. He’d been waiting for quite some time and was beginning to think that his morning had been wasted when a voice behind him said, “You’re not much of a spy, are you, Abram Nothing? I’ve been watching you from behind this tree for a long time, and you didn’t know.”
Abram spun around, again dismayed that his ears had failed him. She came out from behind a thicket and walked toward him. Today she was dressed differently. Yesterday she’d been in a plain brown gown and a black shawl; today she was dressed in an iridescent blue dress with what appeared to have different-colored threads running through it. A pure white scarf was pulled over the back of her head, and she wore sandals on her feet. Her hair was black, but her eyes were what fascinated him. They were a deep and rich purple, the color of the dyes made from seashells found on the shores of the Mediterranean. He’d never seen such eyes. He could feel himself staring as she walked purposefully toward him.
She stood just the distance of an outstretched arm from him and sniffed at the air.
“Well, you certainly smell better than you did yesterday. Have you eaten? You look starved. Come with me now.”
Ruth turned and walked in a northerly direction away from the hill of Jerusalem. Without a word, Abram followed her.
• • •
“Would you like some water or pomegranate juice?” Ruth’s mother, Naomi, asked as Abram finished off his second bowl of lentils, wiping the bowl greedily with a large wedge of bread.
The woman was thin and pale, but her eyes shone the same deep purple as Ruth’s. Abram had been welcomed into the home by Naomi with warmth and the taste of real food. His palpable relief showed on his face, and Ruth’s mother couldn’t help but smile.
It was only when his stomach was full and he leaned back from the table that he remembered his fears and his experiences with the Christian family, who had also shown him kindness at the beginning.
Ruth’s father, Eli, sat at the end of the table. Abram glanced at him from time to time, but his manner warned the young man not to trespass on his mood. He appeared to be cloaked in shadow, an expression of indifference lining his face. He had said little since Ruth had pulled a reticent Abram into the home, but his eyes had rarely left Abram’s in that time. Even as Abram looked down into his bowl to finish the last of the lentils, he could feel Eli’s eyes boring into him.
“Where have you come from, Abram?” asked Naomi as she set down the water jug.
“Peki’in.” Abram hoped that his home village was so small that his hosts hadn’t heard of it.
“He looked half starved when I found him, but he seems better now,” said Ruth.
“Someone must have helped you along your journey, Abram. Surely you didn’t travel that far on your own,” said Naomi.
“I can look after myself,” Abram replied, almost defensively, trying to keep his eyes away from Eli’s gaze.
“But you must have seen many things on the roads, many dangers. These days nobody is safe traveling, especially a man as young as you. Romans soldiers and Zealots and caravans and all manner of strange people are throughout the land. And every one of them is a danger to us Israelites.”
“Not just them,” said Abram. “I encountered madmen and men who called themselves Christian Nazarenes. Strange people who laugh at our laws.”
“You met Nazarenes?” asked Eli, his interjection surprising Abram. “You weren’t taken in by these Nazarenes and their nonsense, were you, boy? They’re heretics who ignore the laws of Moses. They’re thieves and madmen. I know these people. A month ago, they were scouring this part of Israel seeking out converts, telling everybody that they could drive the Romans out with love and the word of this Jesus person. Some fools of neighbors went along with their nonsense, but I drove them off my land.” Eli burst out laughing. “Wash away sins in a river? What rubbish! That this life has no value but all will be well in the next? That’s just an excuse to be lazy! Only fools and the desperate would believe such things.”
Abram felt compelled to respond and, in some way, defend himself. “In my village, I served the Rabbi Shimon bar Yochai . . .” The words came out of Abram’s mouth as a way to prove his Jewishness and stave away the memories of the baptism by river. Again Eli surprised him.
“Rabbis are little better than these Nazarenes,” he said, taking a last drink of water. He looked at Naomi and Ruth, but they’d heard it all before. “Rabbis! What good are rabbis? Have they defended us from the Romans? Have their words eased our suffering? And what good did the temple ever do but take our money and make sacrifices of animals that we might have eaten instead of going hungry? Listen to me, boy. Don’t put your trust in anything but the work of your own hands and the family around you. Everything else is empty. God doesn’t care about us. Look around; the proof is everywhere. We starve and struggle. Moses gave us a land of milk and honey, but in the time that’s passed since he walked these hills, we’ve had nothing but war and conquest and rape and pillage.
“Land of milk and honey. What a lie! If this is God’s land and we’re God’s chosen people, then it can only have been God who sent the Romans to crush us. That’s how much He cares for us!”
“Eli, you’re scaring the boy,” hissed Naomi, but Eli ignored her and continued.
“The Romans crush us and all we can throw against them are the Zealots. Where’s our Jewish army? Where are the soldiers of Solomon and Samson, Gideon and Joshua? How can we defend our land and our people when all we have are rabbis, and now these Nazarenes are telling our people that this life has no value, and the only time they’ll be happy is when they’re dead?”
Abram wanted to say something, but Ruth looked at him and almost imperceptibly shook her head, so he remained silent.
Ruth’s mother tried to change the subject. “Where will you go to from here, Abram? Where are you headed?”
“Jerusalem.”
Naomi shook her head and Ruth raised an eyebrow at him.
“I’m going to Jerusalem,” said Abram more clearly. “I have something that I must do up there.”
There was a long moment of silence before Eli spoke. “You’ve been in the sun too long, boy.”
“You cannot go into the city, Abram. It’s forbidden,” Naomi said.
Abram was worried by the urgency in her voice. “I know. But there is something I must do.”
“What could be so important you would risk death?” asked Eli, his voice softer, more kindly—the first genuine question he’d asked. But Abram realized that he’d said too much and took another sip of water.
“His business is his own, Father. Perhaps he has a sacred quest he’s not allowed to tell us.” Ruth’s voice rose in excitement.
Abram looked at her and was worried that the beautiful young woman was reading his mind. She gave him a wink. But the sweet moment was broken when Eli thundered, “I forbid it! You will not go. Now that you’ve eaten in my home, I will not have your blood on my hands. I forbid you to go anywhere near the city. Do you understand me? If the Romans catch you up there, and they surely will, they will put you to death without a second thought.”
Abram and Ruth remained silent.
“Do you understand me?” Eli said.
Still Ruth and Abram remained silent, simply lowering their eyes from his intense gaze.
• • •
Later, as Abram lay curled up on the floor in a corner of the room, he thought of Rabbi Shimon and touched the stone seal inside his shirt. The high priest had tried to dissuade him and taken the stone from him, declaring that he should abandon his task. Abimelech and the followers of Jesus had scared him with their zeal and their desire to change who he was, telling him that his task was for nothing and what he did in this world did not matter. In this house, he was being blocked again as Eli decried God Himself and forbade him from entering the city. Abram felt as if he’d entered a world of madmen.
The youngster was confused and angry. He’d been brought up to trust the words of men and women older than he was, to respect them. Yet he’d found three people whom he, by rights, should have trusted, who were acting against him and his mission.
Suddenly, he heard a shuffle in the pitch-blackness of the sleeping household. He strained to hear what it could be and nearly cried out when a blanket was dropped unc
eremoniously on top of his body.
Over him stood Ruth. Before he could say anything, she crouched beside him and lowered her mouth almost to his ear, so close he could feel her moist breath on his cheek.
“I can get you into Jerusalem,” said the fiery young woman. “Trust me, it’s easy.”
Jerusalem, Palestine
May 7, 1945
ALTHOUGH THERE WERE nearly twenty people in the room, there was a sudden silence, broken only by the static from the radio. The ceiling was blue with cigarette smoke, the table was groaning with bottles of wine and black beer, as well as piles of plates, knives, and forks alongside the remnants of hastily eaten food. The young men and women, many red-eyed and exhausted from hours of duty, expeditions, and danger, listened eagerly in case the clipped and very proper voice of the BBC announcer came back on. They and the rest of the world were waiting to hear what was happening in the redbrick schoolhouse that served as the supreme headquarters of the Allied Expeditionary Force in the champagne city of Reims in France.
All of the young Jewish men and women, fighters for the guerrilla force Lehi, had temporarily put down their rifles and sidearms, their grenades and explosives, and gathered in the secret meeting room near Ben Yehuda Street in order to listen to the broadcast. Through a tinny radio speaker, they would soon hear the announcement of the end of World War II. For the first time since Hitler’s coming to power in 1933, Deutschland would soon no longer be über alles, über alles in der Welt.
The BBC announcer was reading from hastily written notes handed to him by his reporting staff, who were on the telephone to their man in France observing the solemn proceedings. Hitler had killed himself a week earlier. His body, along with that of his new wife Eva Braun, had burned to a cinder. Reichsmarshall Herman Göring decided to take control of the beleaguered nation, hoping that as the new führer, he’d be treated with respect by the British and the Americans; but he’d been peremptorily removed and replaced by Grand Admiral Karl Dönitz.