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by Lisa Unger


  Whatever got you into that line of work?

  What a question. Most careers were just accidents, weren’t they? You wound up doing something after school to bridge the gap while you decided what you really wanted to do, and thirteen years later, you still hadn’t figured it out.

  But what I’d really like to do is write, he’d add quickly. Some of the more arty ones might perk up a bit. But for a woman looking for some indication that success might lurk in his future, that was generally the last nail in the coffin.

  “It’s going all right, Charlie. Thanks for asking,” Wanda said. He loved the shade of a drawl he heard on her words. Where had she said she was from originally? New Orleans, wasn’t it? “How was your last call?”

  “Big, nasty old critter,” he said. “Dead as they get. Might be one or two more up there. We’ll see when I go back next time. He could have been the last.”

  “Time for one more visit?”

  Crap. All he wanted to do was go home and wash the stink off of him and open a beer, forget about his day, his life or lack thereof. He was even thinking he might try to hammer out a few pages on the novel he was writing, though he hadn’t written a word in months. Of course, he was always thinking he might do that. Instead he’d go home, eat fast food in front of the television, and then go to bed.

  “Anything for you, Wanda. You know that.”

  “You’re a sweet talker, Charlie.” Before he could flirt back, she rattled off an address. “I’ll text it to you, and the directions. I wouldn’t bother you this late, but the woman sounded really upset, and the sales team is gone for the day. She says there’s something huge up there, making a lot of noise.”

  “Oh, really? Most things are pretty quiet during the day.”

  “That’s what she told me.”

  “Well, I’ll check it out.” He decided to go for it. “So, Wanda. Will you still be there when I get back in?”

  In the crackling silence that followed, he felt a wash of disappointment. He’d blown it. She was just flirting to be friendly. Not interested. Now he’d gone and ruined their easy working relationship. He was about to backpedal by asking her to sign his overtime form.

  But then, “I might be, Charlie.” There was that smile in her voice again.

  “Something I can do for you?”

  He cleared his throat. He knew his voice sounded too boyish sometimes. Women didn’t always like that. He tried to modulate it slightly. “I was just thinking-um, wondering if you might like to get a drink.”

  When she spoke again, she dropped her voice down low. He knew she wouldn’t want any of the other people in the office to hear. “I’d like that, Charlie.”

  He felt the first smile he’d felt all day, maybe all week. Hell, maybe all month.

  “Then wait for me, Miss Wanda,” he said. “I won’t be long.”

  “See you soon.”

  In Charlie’s experience, service people were almost invisible to the rich. And once he’d disappeared into the attic, they generally forgot about his existence entirely. Through the thin ceilings of shoddily constructed homes, he’d heard people say and do things-awful things, funny things, embarrassing things. Some of it he wrote down, hoping his observations might come in handy for his novel, if he ever sat down at his computer again and managed something more productive than downloading porn.

  He’d heard a toddler call his mother a bitch; she’d slapped him-he’d heard the sharp smack of palm against flesh-and they’d both started to wail. While he was plugging up a hole mice had chewed through some drywall, he couldn’t help but eavesdrop on a man having phone sex and jerking off in his garage while his wife cooked in the kitchen.

  I love you. I hate you. Take me hard. Don’t touch me. I miss you. What time will you be home for dinner? Don’t forget to call your mom. He’s away on business this week; I can’t wait to make you come in his bed. Can you bring home some milk?

  He was a silent witness to the full rainbow of the human experience, from the mundane to the tawdry. This condition wasn’t informing his fiction, as he’d hoped. It was causing him to prefer the company of rodents.

  “There’s something up there. Something big.”

  The client was unapologetically old, with a snow-white head of tight curls, a face where skin hung like melting wax, but thin and alert. She had bright blue eyes that seemed to assess him from head to toe in a blink-not in a judgmental way. In the way of the wise, knowing, accepting what is. She wore a snug pair of jeans and a big sweatshirt that said ATTITUDE PROBLEM. Her Nike trainers looked like they’d seen some miles.

  Wanda had said the old lady was upset, but she didn’t seem upset to Charlie.

  “I can’t get to the attic anymore, or I’d find it myself and beat it to death with this.” She glanced toward her cane, lifted it a little for emphasis. “I’ve had every critter imaginable up there-been in this house more than fifty years. Never heard anything like that.”

  She looked up at the ceiling, and he found himself doing the same.

  “What did it sound like?” he asked. They’d climbed two flights of stairs together-in spite of the cane, she was fast-and now stood beneath the attic entrance. He was still catching his breath a bit. It was a big, old house, a veritable museum of dusty carpets, mediocre oil paintings of nature scenes and stiff-looking people, heavy, ornate furniture. A grand piano in a room filled with books, working fireplaces with mantels covered in framed photographs. Beds with handmade quilts, dolls reclining in window seats. A real house, echoing with life lived-full of memories and irregularly shaped rooms.

  “Thumping, banging. Almost… rhythmic.”

  Probably not rats. Raccoons did a lot of thumping and pounding for some reason.

  “Okay, Mrs. Monroe,” he said, reaching up for the cord that would release the attic door and ladder. “Let’s see what you have up there.”

  The door came down easily, and he unfolded the ladder until it reached the floor. Mrs. Monroe flipped on a light against the encroaching darkness. He looked at his watch; it was already after six. He wondered if Wanda would really wait for him or if she was just being polite. Maybe he’d go in and find a note-Sorry, Charlie. I had to run. Another time? He wouldn’t be surprised; he didn’t have much luck with women. After a few dates, they always seemed to want to be friends. He was already feeling the crush of disappointment before they’d even had their first drink.

  “You just be careful,” Mrs. Monroe said. “And holler if you need anything.”

  He hoisted his bag over his shoulder and climbed up, feeling the old ladder groan beneath his weight.

  The only light source in the attic was a small circular window at the far end. But in the waning hours of the day, it just served to create a field of shadows. He could stand but with an uncomfortable bowing of his head and scrunching of his shoulders. He pulled out his flashlight and shone the beam around, expecting to hear skittering, maybe something knocked over in flight. But there was only silence. Boxes, an old rocker, a small rolltop desk-a landscape of old and forgotten things. Why didn’t people just get rid of their junk? The old lady said herself she hadn’t been up here in years.

  He looked around the floor for feces, lifting his nose to the air for the telltale smell of urine. But all he smelled was dust and mold as he made his way through the junk-an old radio, a box of rotary phone parts, piles and piles of books.

  He was sniffling, holding back a sneeze, by the time he’d reached the end of the space. He looked out the window. He could see the roofs of other houses, the church steeple peeking through the gold, brown, and orange of northern fall on the trees-oaks, maples, some old pines and birch, aspen, sycamore. A Florida native, he loved the seasonal slide show of the North-the bright green springs and tawny autumns, the black-and-white winters. All he knew when he’d come up for college was the perennial summer, the swaying of palms, the white sand against green ocean. A beautiful single note that wavered only in extremes of weather-hurricanes, dramatic thunderstorms. Bright,
hot sun and still, stifling air, or black skies and ferocious winds, sheets of rain. A couple months of perfect, dry, seventy-degree winter weather seduced the folks from Michigan and New York, only to leave them wilting when August turned to September turned to October and the weather still rivaled saunas and blast furnaces.

  Walking back through the attic, he kept his eyes to the floorboards-still not detecting any critter presence by smell, sight, or sound. And then there it was, just as he was about to climb back downstairs. On a draft, he caught just the lightest odor of something foul, the curling, unmistakable scent of death.

  He looked around a bit more, moving boxes, garment bags thick with old clothes, and accordion files bloated with yellowed papers, but the beam of his flashlight revealed nothing. If something had crawled up here and died, he’d have trouble finding it in all this clutter. He’d have to wait until the scent got worse. Luckily, the weather was warm. By tomorrow, late afternoon, it’d be ripe. He’d follow his nose.

  He climbed downstairs to find Mrs. Monroe where he’d left her.

  “Find anything?”

  “Well, no. But I do smell something. So I’ll set a couple of humane traps and come back tomorrow afternoon to see what we’ve got. I suspect raccoons.”

  She nodded but looked skeptical. She followed him down the stairs and out to the truck, where he got the traps. He should have been up-selling her, telling her she had an infestation, getting her to sign a contract for more service than she needed. There were bonuses in it for him if he did the sales job as well as the trapping work. But he just didn’t have it in him. He didn’t have that sales personality, that ability to see a need, a fear, or a desire, and then manipulate it. His father was a salesman, always knowing how to mold himself to please, to work a room, to schmooze with a client. But the gene didn’t pass on to Charlie. He could only be himself.

  Back at the office, he’d tell them that she was difficult and they’d leave her be. There were enough suckers out there. The difficult ones weren’t worth it, especially these days, when people could post their discontent online. He’d come back and check the traps when he was done for the day tomorrow, write her a bill for the service.

  In the late dusk, Mrs. Monroe didn’t seem as tough as she’d appeared inside. She cast a worried glance back at the house, holding the paperwork he’d handed her.

  “Don’t worry, Mrs. Monroe. I’ll get rid of whatever you have up there.”

  She gave a little laugh. “At this age, it takes more than critters in the attic to worry me.”

  But he could tell it was bravado. In the rearview mirror, she was just a tiny, frail shadow in the gloaming.

  5

  Maggie found the house dark and quiet. She closed the door that led from her office suite to her home and locked it, feeling a familiar mingling of relief and a mild flutter of nervousness. Closing this door and turning the dead bolt was something she made sure she did at the end of every day, a way of leaving her work behind. Some days this was easier than others. It was a door that she discouraged Jones and Ricky from walking through. They were to call her on the phone if they needed her. And they, surprisingly, respected that-though Ricky was not above pounding on the door when he’d seen a client drive away and knew there wasn’t another patient inside. Mom, I need some money! Mom, I can’t find my Ramones T-shirt! Jones liked to refer to it as the shrink zone. There was some resentment there, she knew, even though he had suggested that they build the addition rather than lease office space somewhere. Dr. Willough thought that she should have an off-site office, that a simple doorway wasn’t enough to protect patient privacy, to achieve the crucial separation of family and professional life. But, especially when Ricky was small, Maggie found the convenience of being steps away from her home and family very comforting-between patients she could do a load of laundry, run a quick errand, read her son a story, and give the part-time babysitter a break.

  “Hello?” she called, walking into the kitchen.

  She’d expected to hear the television on, or the pumping bass from the stereo in Ricky’s upstairs bedroom. She’d even thought she might see Jones sitting out by the pool, their bottle of wine already open, her glass waiting. But no. The sun had already dipped below the horizon and there had been no one home to turn on the lamps against the evening. She felt a low-grade anxiety, a nagging loneliness.

  She moved through the rooms, flipping switches, filling the house with the light and warmth she needed, turning on the small, new flat-screen on the kitchen counter just to hear the sound of the local news. When the house seemed more alive, she felt better.

  She peered into the refrigerator and fooled herself for a moment, thinking she might actually get creative and cook something. But since she hadn’t been shopping and Jones had polished off all the leftovers-not just the lasagna but also the black bean soup she’d made earlier in the week-she gave up the idea quickly. The refrigerator offered only some wilting carrots and a bag of prewashed organic lettuce, a package of cheddar cheese, some tubs of Greek yogurt, and half a bottle of pomegranate juice. Of course, there were always the staples-milk, eggs, bread, butter, all varieties of condiments. She’d never allow the refrigerator to be completely empty. Her mother had never run out of these things, not once in Maggie’s childhood. Always be prepared to make an omelet or a grilled cheese sandwich. And always buy a roll of toilet paper when you do your shopping, even if you don’t need it. That way you never run out. Elizabeth’s household wisdom: there was no shortage.

  But it was good advice; Maggie had followed it, even in college. As a cook, a wife, and a mother, she held herself to at least that standard. Even now, she had cupboards full of more toilet paper than they’d ever need.

  “Why do we have so much toilet paper everywhere?” Jones always wanted to know.

  She picked up the phone and dialed his number, but her call went straight to voice mail.

  “Where are you?” she said. “I was thinking of ordering a pizza and salad for dinner. Sound good? Call me.”

  Then she dialed Ricky. Voice mail again.

  “What do you think about pizza for dinner? Maybe you want to invite Char?”

  It was probably a bad idea given Jones’s mood and the whole tattoo thing. But so what? If Ricky and Jones didn’t fight about that, they’d fight about something else. Maybe they’d be on better behavior with a guest at the table. They could all have a meal in relative peace.

  She ordered two pizzas from Paesano’s (Jones and Ricky preferred Pop’s, but she thought it was too greasy), one plain, one pepperoni, and a large Greek salad, got hung up on the phone exchanging niceties with the owner, someone she’d gone to high school with, Chad Donner. She might even have kissed him once-she had a fuzzy memory of some indiscreet moment at an unsupervised Halloween party. At any rate, he always made goofy jokes and exuded a lonely energy when she stopped in to pick up a meal or if he answered the phone at the restaurant, as though he remembered something that was important to him but that she had long forgotten. When she hung up, feeling vaguely bad, her thoughts returned to Marshall.

  When Marshall had left her office, it was as if he’d taken all the air with him. She’d sat stunned and breathless, though she couldn’t have said why precisely. It wasn’t as if he’d raged, or lost control, or even moved physically toward her. But she’d felt a malice radiating off him in palpable waves. When he was gone, she’d called the high school and happened to catch Henry Ivy during his break.

  “He hasn’t been in school in a week,” Henry said. “I e-mailed you.”

  “Did you?” she asked, opening her e-mail for the first time that day. She scrolled through a flock of waiting messages and found Henry’s, sent late yesterday afternoon. She wasn’t much for e-mail, hated the impersonal distance of it. People used it to hide from one another. It stripped communication of expression and tone, essential markers for meaning. She avoided it when possible, preferring to pick up the phone.

  “Something’s changed, Henry,”
she said. “We’re losing him.”

  “What happened?”

  She recounted the session in broad strokes, avoiding specific things he’d said to protect Marshall’s privacy and her oath. She focused instead on his mood, the air of malice, and his abrupt departure from her office.

  Henry was silent for a moment after she finished. If she’d been talking to Jones, that silence would have annoyed her. She’d have rightly assumed that he was multitasking, not quite listening to her. But with Henry, her friend since high school, she knew he was processing her words, turning the possibilities of the incident over in his mind.

  “Maybe I’ll stop over there on my way home,” he said finally. “Check in with Marshall.”

  That was the problem with The Hollows-though maybe it wasn’t always a problem. Everyone’s relationship was complicated-your doctor was also your neighbor, maybe she’d gone to the prom with your brother. The cop at your door had been the burnout always in trouble when you were in high school. In this case, when Henry stopped by to check in on Marshall, Travis might not see his kid’s teacher dropping in to check on a student. Travis might see the boy he’d mercilessly bullied for years, the one who’d finally-after a summer growth spurt-beat him down in front of the whole high school at a homecoming game. Beat him so badly that Travis had actually cried. No one was quite as intimidated by Travis Crosby after that-until he’d started wearing a badge and carrying a gun.

  “Do you think that’s a good idea?” she asked.

  “I think it’s my job.” She detected a note of defensiveness, which reminded her of a question she’d held at bay for a while. How much of Henry Ivy’s interest in Marshall had to do with Travis?

 

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