by Soraya Naomi
I pour a whiskey on the rocks for Damian and slide the glass to him across from me.
“Thanks, Cam,” he speaks loudly over the bass of the music.
Damian works for Luca and Adriano; I have no idea as what. He’s a nice looking Italian. Thick, dark hair and tall, but he’s too serious all the time.
Leaning forward on my elbows, I ask, “What’s wrong?”
He mirrors my action, then out of nowhere, I hear from behind me. “Cam.”
Startled, I spin around and expel a heavy sigh. “You’re such a freaky ass stalker.” Adriano always sneaks up like this. And he’s so stealthy, you don’t notice him.
“Leave us,” he says to Damian without breaking eye contact with me, and Damian scampers away as Adriano’s lips twitch in laughter. “Did you just call me a freaky ass stalker? We should really work on your cussing skills, Cam.”
I’m tempted to engage in his game but decide to call him on his behavior since he has the tendency to drive everyone away from me. “He’s just a friend. You don’t have to bark at him.”
“I hope he’s not a friend without benefits like I am.” Disgust carves his face when he sneers friend without benefits.
“No one is like you.” I lean into him sideways, until my shoulder hits his chest, as his hand drifts down my spine, cupping my ass.
“Good,” he murmurs into my ear while fondling my behind. “Will you be here later?”
“I don’t know. I’m tired,” I answer honestly.
The music has toned down. A couple passes the bar, but it’s provided some much needed privacy and hides us below the waist. It appears as if we’re just talking closely.
“Stay,” he insists and slides his other hand over my stomach and down my thigh, then slowly climbs up again, raising my skirt.
My stance widens on its own, my body betraying the lie in my words. “I’m tired. I’m dreaming of a night in my bathtub.”
He chuckles, caressing the bare skin on my inner thigh. “Do you know what I dream of?”
“No,” I breathe.
“I dream of you on this bar, without a shred of clothing, on your hands and knees while I stand at the end with a bottle of chocolate liqueur resting on the bar. I tip the bottle, and the thick liquid sloshes onto it toward your hands, pouring over the surface and raining down the edges. But you’re out of reach. Too far for me to taste. So I hold out my hand, inviting you to come to me. You lie flat on your stomach, then crawl to me, ever so slowly. The sweet liqueur drips seductively off your breasts. And you’re irresistible as you sit back on your haunches, so I can lick your nipples.” He cups me firmly between my legs. “Then I guide you onto your back, spread your legs wide and eat out your pussy, Cam. I lick your orgasm and every last drop off you so your taste is on my lips and tongue for hours.”
Adriano unlocks a hidden desire I’d lost while being held at Fat Sal’s depraved underground club. He’s the first person whose touch I can tolerate. Without knowing, he’s healing my scars. There’s a magnetic connection between us that’s far too tempting to resist anymore.
“Are you definitely coming back?” I ask sweetly, my panties are already soaking wet.
“Yes.” His fingers circle my core, and I sway, making another half-circle to bury my face against his chest.
His arm comes around my lower back, holding me. He nudges my panties aside and enters me in a gentle push. As I rock against his finger slightly, my breath tangles around a moan. He thrusts in and out while peeking around, making sure no one’s watching us.
“I want to watch you come, Cam.” Adriano rubs me fiercely.
His touch, which I’ve been anticipating for so long, fires up my insides. He controls my arousal with skillful fingers, and I explode, biting my lip and trembling in the aftermath.
“Hmm.” I lazily lift my head, and his smoldering eyes storm with lust.
His breath fans my cheek – how can he never smell of smoke? I see him lighting a cigarette often, yet he always smells fresh, like the outdoors.
Kiss me.
Unfortunately, he doesn’t. Instead, he holds up his finger, glistening with my arousal, and his lips curve up before he sucks it. He’s waiting, waiting for me to ask him to kiss me. I remember him telling me the first time he drove me home that he wants me to beg for it.
“Kiss me,” I whisper and add, “Please.”
Smirking, Adriano traces his finger over my lips and dips his head, meeting my mouth over his finger. It feels wonderfully illicit to lick his finger that’s been inside me together. His hand moves down to my throat, and our lips touch. Even his kiss brings back to life the butterflies in my stomach, and I taste his tongue. Riding the tide of a simple kiss he’s mastered to a tee. He strokes my throat as he ravishes my mouth. His palm slides to the top swell of my breasts, but then he pulls back. Adriano lowers his forehead to mine, expelling a loud breath that makes his lips tremble.
“I have to stop or else I’ll fuck you here on the bar,” he admits in a low tone.
I smile as he pecks the tip of my nose. “Be here when I get back.” He raises a brow, challenging me to disobey him.
“Yes, sir!” I mock salute, and he slaps my ass, quite hard. “That hurt!” I smooth the sting as he saunters away.
“I’ll kiss it better tonight.”
And he did kiss it better that night.
CHAPTER 6
Adriano
I race down the circular driveway of the Syndicate’s headquarters, braking at the front entrance. The rumble of the engine ceases, and I head inside the house.
For the last nine months, I’ve spent as little time as possible here. Memories of Cam and me puzzle and depress my mind as I hike up the stairs to the second floor and turn left toward the office.
James spots me approaching him. “Adriano,” he greets from behind his desk, typing away on his laptop.
Henry’s seated across from James, and I take the vacant chair next to him.
“Any updates?” I look from James to Henry.
James points to Henry to speak up.
“She’s either living off cash or has left the country. She’s moving completely under the radar. Maybe someone’s helping her, or she has another identity?” Henry suggests.
“No.” I lean forward and rest my elbows on my thighs. “She doesn’t have those kinds of connections.”
“Are you sure?” James’s tone of voice is impatient, reflecting my state of mind.
“I’m not positive. She was secretive about her past, but I knew her well enough to know that she lived an isolated life without any friends.”
“So we have nothing!” James concludes and rears back in his chair.
“I just don’t know where to search anymore, James,” Henry defends as I scratch my unshaven jaw.
I need some food to settle my nerves, which is another aspect of my life that reminds me of Cam. She would always take care of me, having ordered take-out when I arrived at the house late at night.
I’m not too proud to admit I’m somewhat of a mama’s boy; used to being taken care of. My parents were poor, but I didn’t lack anything except material goods. Both my parents were born in Italy and moved to the U.S. in the mid eighties when my mother was diagnosed with lupus after I was born. It’s a chronic autoimmune disease that mostly affects women of child-bearing age. Symptoms my mother experienced were skin rash, weight loss, fatigue, and frequent joint pain. Treatment in the U.S. was more successful at bringing the symptoms under control, so they decided to move to Chicago. Lupus isn’t hereditary, and I was born healthy, followed by two siblings: my twenty-five year old brother, Carmine, and nineteen year old sister, Mary.
Unfortunately, lupus is a lifelong disease, and there’s no cure. My mother has a serious form, but it often goes into remission and remains quiet for months. She’d have seizures, not being able to work due to kidney failure. She’d scream out in pain because her organs were being attacked. My father got laid off from his job, and it weighed heavily o
n his conscience that he couldn’t help my mom if we didn’t have money. His love for her is never-ending, and he’s always stood proudly by her.
Even though she was sick often, she’d always make time for her children. We had date nights where she and I would do something together outside the house. When money was too scarce, she’d still find ways to do something special with me, like a picnic in the park.
But as a teenager, I started to understand that our lack of money was posing a big problem. We didn’t have health care, and hospital bills kept piling up, so I got a job in the Loop – we lived in public housing just outside that area – at a bakery owned by Alessa Calderone, James’s wife.
At that bakery, I met Luca. And at that bakery, I met James, who recruited us for the Chicago Syndicate. James was the underboss back then, and he paid me royally as a prospect, also providing tuition for business college. He also made me a killer. I was bound into silence by being required to commit murder – omérta, the code of silence and secrecy every member must pledge before becoming an official member of the Chicago Syndicate. Omérta ensures that you can’t ever go to law enforcement without facing murder charges yourself.
I’m not a good man. I never claimed to be. I’m a man who took the opportunity to take care of his sick mother and provide for his family, even if it would alter his life forever. James made me a ruthless businessman; a man who trusts no one.
Even my family doesn’t know I’m a mafia member. Carmine, who recently graduated law school, has his suspicions, but my parents believe their son owns a thriving software company and makes his money from that alone, which is partly the truth. And that women are my pleasure, which is true.
Over the years, women have become my diversion, and my attraction to the female sex has been somewhat insatiable, I confess.
And joking around became a coping mechanism because I’m confronted with enough murder and sickness.
I’ve supported my parents, brother, and sister since I was seventeen. I will support them until their last breath. My parents, Mary, and Carmine all live in my building – Carmine in a separate apartment on the thirtieth floor, and Mary, who’s in a graduate degree program in Modern and Contemporary Art History at the School of the Art Institute of Chicago near our skyscraper, still lives with my parents. Carmine and I visit them every Friday whenever we can. With all the odd hours I work and eat, it’s comforting to enjoy a home-cooked meal once a week. And my mother makes a delicious, authentic baked ziti.
Only on several occasions did I cancel on my parents; to be with Cam. The first Friday I decided not to have dinner with them was the night Cam finally yielded to my persistent seduction.
*
One year and eleven months ago
I step on the gas, swerving lanes rapidly in the obscurity of the night.
Blood surges south when a flash of earlier today comes to mind – Cam in an angelic sleeveless dress. Her shuddering legs when I made her come. Focusing on the road is problematic when all I want is to throw Cam on a bed and savor every part of her body. Revel in her. Inside her.
Three months of chasing Cam has only heightened my thirst for her. Her rebuffs in denial of our chemistry are entertaining, and I enjoy teasing her. I linger around to be with her, and she knows it.
But while for the first few weeks, I really did just see her as a sensual conquest, somewhere along the line, the game has changed. She’s become my friend. My first female friend. We have dinner, go to the movies, and try to see one another daily. This is all new for me, and I don’t even notice other women when she’s with me. I do still flirt just to rouse her, and it works – every time.
Her beauty is irresistible. Her voice is spellbinding. Her kindness and the way she takes care of me by always having food for me is endearing, and sometimes I feel like Cam’s unlocked a part of me that was exclusively held in reserve for her. But I temper that down because it could also be the result of my denied yearning for her. And whatever happens, nothing more can come of us. I’ll never bring an innocent citizen into the Syndicate world, especially not someone I consider a friend like her.
I’ll make sure it doesn’t come to that. It’s never come to that before. Although I’ve also never had to go through so much trouble for just a kiss. I smile because any other woman I would’ve forgotten or told to fuck off. No woman is worth waiting three months for a damn kiss. But Cam was. That kiss was arousing in its contradiction: dirty because we both tasted my finger that had been inside her, and on the other side, sweet because of the taste of her tentative tongue. Now, she’s finally allowing me to touch her and allowing herself to luxuriate in my touch; that’s what I wanted.
Without bothering to park my car in the designated spot, I jump out at the front entrance and run up to the second floor.
I open the heavy double doors to the strip club and zero in on the bar to my left where the little vixen awaits. Her pull on me is undeniably strong.
The slow murmurs of the handful of soldiers and other women are drowned out when I focus on her. Then I spot silverware and a plate filled with steaming spaghetti carbonara.
She beckons to the plate and bar stool. “For you. Sit and eat. I know you’re hungry.”
She’s absolutely dumbfounded me, and I just stare at her plump lips for a second. It’s that raspy voice coming from those gorgeous lips that has me adjusting my pants before I sit and prop a foot on the footrest, sniffing the savory bacon. She’d always have food for me from that night on, another addition to our routine.
“You know me well,” I comment, and the corner of her mouth tilts up.
I notice that she wants to say more but holds it in and finishes tidying the bar while I take a bite of the creamy spaghetti and devour it within minutes. I was hungry.
I watch Cam work, and when she’s done, I nod toward the second private room – which is always reserved for Cam and me nowadays. Whenever I return to this house late at night and she’s waiting for me to drive her home, we sometimes sleep in the private room together. Just sleep, so far. I spoon her, but she’s never warmed my naked skin with her bare hands. I’m throbbing to experience more explicit physical contact. I’ve been jerking off while I picture eating her pussy until she knows only my name in her world. My fantasies have never been this numerous or this intense.
She instantly follows me across the room to find privacy away from the soldiers and girls hanging out on the sofa in the club.
In the dimly lit grey-white room, she goes to the bed in the center. I lock the door and swivel around. She’s on the edge of the mattress. Cam’s bright brown eyes track my movement as I stalk toward her, unbuttoning my shirt and pulling it loose. She tilts her head up as I stand in front of her, so I cup her cheek, and her hand rests on my stomach. Her tentative exploration of my abs fills me with a passion to have her. I groan when she scrapes her nails up and down my chest. She wants this as badly as I do. The anticipation that’s been building for weeks has detonated into a need to have her tonight. The waiting is over.
I snare her wrist and tug her up, lowering my mouth just above hers. “I think I’ve waited long enough.”
Cam blows out a soft sigh, placing her palms on my chest. “We’ve both waited long enough.”
Her hands snake up my neck, into my hair, and I crash my lips to hers, pulling her into me with both arms wrapped around her middle. I touch my tongue to hers as sweet vanilla invades my nostrils. Ravenously, I capture what I’ve hunted for so long, and I grind my hardening cock against her, making her moan.
She moves her hands over my shoulders, letting my dress shirt flutter to the floor. Then her fingertips trace the tattoo on my left side by my ribs.
“It’s beautiful,” she utters, tracing the black ink of the compass rose design. “A compass...The letters are different.”
“Those are the initials of my family members. Now, enough talking, Cam.” With a grin, I force her backward.
I begin undoing her white dress, revealing her cleavage, and
the dress falls down in a pool around her feet. I knead her breasts over her sexy lace bra while trailing kisses along her collarbone. Hurriedly, I unhook the bra in one snap and bare her breasts. I’ve fantasized about sucking her nipples so often, and that’s just what I do. Cam intertwines her hands into my hair, curving her breast into my mouth while I get rid of her panties. Then I guide her onto the bed, and her olive skin glows on the grey satin sheets. My fingers curl around an ankle, and I crawl up her slender body that’s beneath me. Her short auburn hair fans across the pillow as she takes in every one of my features. I push her ankle up with me, spreading her legs, and lie atop with my rock-hard cock at her bare pussy. Only my slacks prevent skin to skin contact. I’m going to take this so slow until she begs me to fuck her.
She strokes my entire upper body, and I shudder under her touch. Her eyes reflect only me. I tuck her hair behind her ear while still spreading her wide and rock against her.
“Oh god...” She bites her plump lower lip, and I lick the red mark, circling my hips.
She moans loudly when I release her ankle and slide my hands up her sides.
Taking it slow? Fuck that.
We become a frenzy of entangled limbs as we kiss passionately, and I graze my lips down her throat, playfully sinking my teeth into her nipples. She giggles and tugs at my hair, but I continue and lick down her flat, smooth stomach toward her totally bare center.
“Show me your pussy, Cam.” I press my lips on the inside of her thigh, right next to where she wants me.
She groans in discontent and desire.
I swat her hip and bite her thigh. “Greedy! Now show me.”
And she laughs, trying to push her legs together, but my hands shoot out to stop her. I almost come in my pants like a twelve-year-old that’s seen his first porn movie when her pointer fingers spread open her folds. She’s already wet, and my view is magnificent. Her back bows in eagerness of my mouth on her. I relish how she surrounds me completely. After weeks of chasing, she’s finally letting me inside. And the chase has made this victory all the more gratifying.