He held the book out, letting Atrus take it.
“I also wanted you to experience things for yourself, without preconceptions. I wanted you to see, with your own eyes, the awe in which we are held in the Ages.”
“Awe, father?”
“Yes, Atrus, awe. And so they should, for are we not gods? Do they not owe their lives, their very breath, to us? Would they be here had I not written on the whiteness of the page?”
Gehn paused, then. “I want you to stay here a while and observe this Age, to see just what is possible. It will help you with your own writing. You will stay with one of the locals—an old woman whose husband died some years back. You will be courteous to her but aloof, you understand?”
“I understand.”
Gehn sat back. “Good. Then go now. My acolyte is just outside. He will take you to where you will be staying.”
§
The acolyte walked silently before Atrus, his ceremonial torch, its shaft carved with tiny D’ni symbols, held up before him. Curious villagers knelt and bowed their heads as they passed, a low whisper going from one to another in their wake.
When they came to the path through the village, however, the man did not go straight on toward the cave, but turned to the left, climbing a narrow set of steps between two huts that climbed up past their steeply sloping roofs. Atrus followed, coming out above the village on a path that seemed to lead nowhere. Ahead of them was only the dark, moonlit slope of the hill.
The man led up, walking slowly, solemnly, as if at the head of a great procession.
Atrus looked back toward the harbor, his eyes finding the bridge and, beyond it in the darkness, the meeting hut. Beyond that, visible only now that the lanterns had been lit inside, was a long, low tent. As Atrus watched, he saw his father walk across and duck beneath the canvas flap.
He turned back. Ahead of him, to his left, just over the hump of the hill, there was a hint of light. As they climbed, it grew, revealing the outline of a hut just over the brow of the slope. The light was from its open doorway.
As they drew nearer, a figure stepped into the light—outlined for one brief moment before it merged with the darkness.
The old woman.
As the light from the acolyte’s torch fell over the front of the hut, she was revealed. Like most of her people, she wore a simple, dark-brown smock of coarsely woven cloth. Her hair, likewise, was unsophisticated, its thick gray strands framing her deeply lined face in an unkempt halo. She was the oldest person Atrus had ever seen.
She looked away, bowing awkwardly, then stepped back, allowing him to enter the hut.
Atrus hesitated, then ducked under the low lintel, into a clean, warm space that was filled with the strong, fresh scent of herbs. Looking about him, he saw them at once, all along the right-hand wall, above two narrow shelves of pots and pans: sprig after sprig of herbs, hung on tiny wooden hooks.
The floor was covered in planed wooden boards, the low roof made of rafter and thatch. Halfway down its length, a plain blue curtain cut off his view of the rest of the hut.
“You want to eat?” the old woman asked, uncomfortable in his presence, her D’ni even more rudimentary than the acolyte’s.
Atrus shook his head. “Thank you, I’m not really hungry.”
“Ah…” Her nod seemed more from nervousness than agreement. She looked at him anxiously, her brown eyes never leaving his face. “You want to sleep?”
“I…” The truth was, he wasn’t really tired. After all, back in D’ni it was barely suppertime. Yet he could sense how awkward he was making her feel and felt awkward himself for doing so. “Yes,” he said, after a moment. “If you would show me my bed.”
There was a slight movement in her face which he didn’t understand. She seemed…regretful? Then, with a tiny shrug, she went across and, pulling the curtain aside a little way, looked back at him, pointing to what seemed a kind of stall.
He went across and looked, then laughed; a pleasant laugh of surprise, for there, between the thin wooden walls of his sleeping stall lay a simple, straw-stuffed mattress.
“Like home,” he said quietly.
The old woman was staring at him, curious now. “Beg pardon, Master?”
He looked to her, realizing his eyes were moist. “When I was a child, with my grandmother, I had a mattress similar to this.”
“Is it no good?” she asked, as if he had been speaking a foreign language.
“No, no…it’s…wonderful.” He looked to her and smiled, strangely grateful to her. Then, on impulse, remembering the pleasure his grandmother had always got from feeding him, he said, “Can I change my mind? I mean, about the food?”
“Of course!” the old woman said, a smile lighting her face for the first time. “I bring you soup and bread, yes?”
He grinned. “It sounds marvelous!”
“Then you wait, Master. I bring you some.”
Atrus watched her go, then looked about him, suddenly at ease, breathing in the pleasant scent of the herbs.
He knelt, setting his knapsack and the notebook down in a corner of the stall, then removed his cloak and stowed it in the sack. As he straightened up again, the old woman returned, carrying a wooden tray. On it was an earthenware bowl of soup, a wooden spoon, and half a small loaf of brown bread. Atrus accepted it gratefully, then sat, the tray in his lap. Smiling at her, he broke off a hunk of the bread and dipped it into the bowl.
For a while he ate in silence, enjoying that simple meal. Finished, he looked up at the old woman.
“Was it okay?” she asked, a look of deep concern on her heavily lined face.
Atrus grinned. “It was wonderful! The best I’ve ever tasted!”
The truth was, he had no idea what it had been, but what he’d said wasn’t a lie. It had been wonderful. The best soup he had ever tasted, Anna’s notwithstanding.
His words brought a ray of spring sunlight to the old woman’s face. “You want more?”
“Can I?”
It was as if, with those two little words, he had offered her all the riches of D’ni. She beamed, then hurried away, returning in a moment with a second bowl and the other half of the loaf.
“There,” she said, standing over him as he ate, grinning broadly. “You growing boy! You need your food, eh?”
§
Atrus woke in the darkness before dawn, wondering for an instant where he was, the scent of herbs in the tiny, enclosed space oddly disturbing.
He sat up, listening to the silence, then stood, making his way quickly, quietly outside.
Both moons had set and the land was dark now, intensely dark, the sky almost bright by comparison, like the desert sky at night. Yet looking up he knew he was not on earth. Where was the Hunter now? Where the Dipper? Were they elsewhere in that vast, star-dusted sky, or was he somewhere else entirely? In another universe, perhaps?
The thought was one he had had more and more often these past few months. A dangerous, unspoken thought.
And yet the more I discover about Writing, the more I challenge my father’s view that we are creating the worlds we travel in.
What if they weren’t so much making those worlds as linking to pre-existing possibilities?
At first he had dismissed the notion as a foolish one. Of course they created these worlds. They had to be! How else would they come into being in such precise and predictable forms? Besides, it was simply not possible that an infinite supply of different worlds existed out there, waiting to be tapped. Yet the more he’d thought about it, the more he had come to question his father’s simpler explanation.
He walked down the slope until he came to a slab of rock overlooking the lake. There he bent down, squatting on his haunches, looking out across the dark bowl of the lake.
Now that the moons had almost set, it was close to impossible to distinguish where the lake ended and the land began. It was like peering into the volcano on a moonless night. You could see nothing, but you might imagine everything. That was t
he thing about darkness—the way it refused to remain a simple absence. Unlike snow, which he had seen on one of Gehn’s other Ages, the darkness took on forms—thousands of forms—for the dark was both fluid and potent.
Behind him, over the crest of the hill, the day was making an appearance. Slowly, very slowly, light bled into the bowl, etching sharp-edged shadows on the hillside facing him. Atrus watched it, fascinated, then turned, squinting against the bright arc that peeped above the curve of the hill.
Turning back, he noticed something just below him on the edge of the lake.
At first he thought it was some kind of sea creature—a seal, perhaps—but then, as it straightened up, he saw it clearly, silhouetted in the half light.
A girl. It was a girl.
As he watched, she bent down again, making a series of little bobbing motions. He frowned, puzzled. What in Kerath’s name was she doing? Then, with a little jolt, he understood. Washing! She was washing! That little mound beside her was a basket full of sodden clothes!
He laughed, and as he did, he saw her tense and look around, like a startled animal.
Gathering up her basket she scurried up the hillside, disappearing over the dark hump of the hill, her tiny figure briefly outlined against the arc of the sun. Atrus watched, astonished by her reaction, then stood. The sun was half risen now. In its light he could see the thatched roof of the hut, dark shape embedded in the deeper darkness of the slope.
Atrus turned, making a slow circle, his arms outstretched as he breathed in the rich, clear air. Then, determined to make an early start, he hurried up the slope, making for the hut.
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“Young Master?”
Atrus turned onto his side, wondering for an instant where he was. Herbs. The smell of herbs. Ah, yes. The old woman’s hut. He was on the Thirty-seventh Age of Gehn, and it was morning.
He sat up, rubbing his eyes, then looked to the old woman, who stood with her back half bent in the opening to the stall.
“Forgive me, young Master,” she said breathlessly, “but the Lord Gehn wants to see you at once.”
Nodding his thanks, he stood and stretched. What time was it? And how long had he slept? He seemed to sleep longer, deeper, while he was here. Maybe it had something to do with the air.
He yawned, then, knowing how his father hated to be kept waiting, went outside.
Pulling on his glasses, he studied the scene that met his eyes.
Beneath him the slope was a tawny brown, furred like an animal’s back. Beyond it the folds of land that surrounded the lake were revealed in browns and greens—so many different shades that he caught his breath to think of such subtle variation. And the textures! He walked out slowly, onto the ridge. Tall, dark trees, their crowns explosions of jet black leaves, covered the left flank of the nearest hill, ending abruptly in a smooth covering of bright green grass. Atrus laughed.
“Why do you laugh, Master?”
Atrus turned, facing the acolyte, the smile gone from his face. He had sot seen him when he’d stepped out.
“I laughed because of that hill there. It reminded me…well, of a half-shaven head. The way those trees end in a straight line…”
The priest stepped up and looked, then nodded; but there was not the slightest trace of amusement in his expression. He looked back at Atrus, then, with a bow, said, “Your father awaits you, Master.”
Atrus sighed inwardly. It was his fourth day on the island and still the man retained his distance.
He walked slowly down the slope, silent now and thoughtful, looking about him at the swell and fold of hills surrounding the lake. As the village came into sight, he stared at it a while, then looked to the acolyte.
“What is your name?”
“My name?” The man seemed strangely intimidated by the query.
“Yes, your name. What is it?”
“My name is…One.”
“One?” Atrus gave a small laugh. “You mean, the number one?”
The man nodded, unable to meet Atrus’s eyes.
“And was that always your name?”
He hesitated, then shook his head. “My birth name was Koena.”
“Koena,” Atrus said, walking on, his eyes taking in the pleasant shapes of the thatched roofs just below him now, the covered walkways, the delightful contrast of the lake’s vivid blue against the bright greens and russets of the land sloping down to it. “But One is the name my father gave you?”
Koena nodded.
A faint smile appeared at the corners of Atrus’s mouth. Of course. He should have known. He turned his head, studying the man a moment, not disliking his long, rather severe features, noting in the unforgiving daylight just how coarse the cloth of his cloak actually was, how crudely fashioned the symbols on it.
“Have you been my father’s helper long?”
“A thousand days.”
Then this Age was indeed “recent.” Gehn had created it only a matter of three years ago at most. But what about before that? Had it existed in any form at all? Did these people have any memories of a time before the Lord Gehn had come among them? And if they did, were those memories true memories, or were they also written in?
He knew from his studies that you could not actually write such things: not directly, anyway. Yet when you created an Age, with all of its complexities, then a great shadow of cause and effect was thrown back, such that the Age, though new created, still had a “history” of a kind. Not a real history, of course. How could it have a real history, after all? But in the minds and memories of its inhabitants it would seem as if it had. To them, the past would seem as real as it did to him or Gehn.
Or so Gehn argued. For himself he was no longer quite so sure.
A strange, high-pitched cry from somewhere to his left made Atrus start, then turn to look for its source. There was a strange flapping noise in the air, then a shadow whisked past his feet. He looked up in time to see a strange, plump-bodied animal shoot past, swimming, it seemed, through he air.
Koena was staring at him, astonished. “Master?” he asked. “Are you all right?”
“That!” Atrus said, pointing after it. “That…animal…what is it?”
“That? That is a bird, Master.”
Atrus stared openmouthed, watching the “bird” circle over the lake, the flapping noise coming from the long arms it used to pull itself through the air. He watched it swoop, then dive.
“Amazing!” Atrus said. “I’ve never seen its like!”
Koena was staring at him now.
Atrus shook his head. In the other Ages there had been many birds, but never anything like this. This was simply bizarre. It was more like a small rodent than a bird and seemed far too heavy to fly, and those strange, furred wings.
What did he write? He wondered. Why would Gehn create such a creature? Or had he? What if this wasn’t deliberate? What if it was an accident?
Atrus turned, looking to Koena.
“Come,” he said, intrigued by the thought that his father might purposefully have created such a creature. “Let’s go down. My father will be angry if he is kept waiting.”
§
Gehn, who was finishing his breakfast, sat at a table covered in a thick red cloth edged with golden tassels. He was eating from a golden bowl, a golden goblet at his side. Behind him, on a stand, was a silk pennant, the D’ni symbol of the book emblazoned in black on its pure white background. Atrus stepped into the tent, looking about him, noting the luxuries that were on display on every side. In the far corner of the tent was a massive wooden bed, the headboard clearly of local design. Beside it was a D’ni dressing screen, painted gold and blue and carmine.
He stepped forward. “You sent for me, father?”
“Ah, Atrus…” Gehn said, wiping his mouth with a silken cloth, then threw it aside. “I thought we should continue with your lessons, Atrus.”
“Father?”
Gehn nodded, then took his arm and led him across to a l
ow table in the corner on which a large-scale map of the island had been spread out.
Atrus stretched out a hand and touched the bottom left-hand corner with his index finger. “Where’s that?”
“Gone,” Gehn said, looking at him strangely.
“And that?” he said, noting another, smaller island just beyond the sea passage.
“Gone.”
Atrus looked to his father and frowned. “How?”
Gehn shrugged.
“I…” Atrus shook his head. “Is this what you want me to look for? Things disappearing?”
“No, Atrus. I want you simply to observe.”
Atrus stared at his father a moment, then looked back at the map. As far as he could see everything else was precisely as he recalled it from his preliminary journeys around the island, down to the smallest detail.
Gehn went across to his desk and, opening the leather case he had brought with him from D’ni this time, took a slender notebook from inside and handed it to Atrus. “Here.”
Atrus opened it and scanned a few lines, then looked back at his father. “What are these?”
“What you have there are a number of random phrases from the Age Thirty-seven book. What I want you to do, Atrus, is to try to ascertain what aspects of this Age they relate to, and how and why they create the effects they do.”
“You want me to analyze them?”
“No, Atrus. But I do want you to begin to grip the relationship between the words that are written on the page and the complex entity—the physical, living Age—that results. You see, while our Art is a precise one, its effects are often quite surprising, owing to the complexity of the web of relationships that are created between things. The meaning of an individual phrase can be altered by the addition of other phrases, often to the extent that the original description bears no relation whatsoever to the resultant reality. That is why the D’ni were so adamant about contradictions. Contradictions can destroy an Age. Too often they simply make it break apart under the strain of trying to resolve the conflicting instructions.”
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