To this end, Aoz Roon cultivated his comrades with good fellowship and also paid attention to Laintal Ay, encouraging the boy to come by his side on the chase when he officially reached the years of a hunter.
Out on a deer hunt to the southwest of Oldorando, he and Laintal Ay became separated by flooded ground from the rest of the company. They had to detour through difficult country studded with the great cylinders of rajabarals. There they came on a party of ten traders lying round a grass campfire, torpid after drink. Aoz Roon despatched two of the number as they slept, without any of the others rousing. He and Laintal Ay then rushed from cover holding animal skulls before their faces and screaming. The remaining eight traders surrendered in superstitious fear. This story was told in Oldorando as a great joke for many years.
The eight had traded in weapons, grain, furs, and anything else that came to hand. They came from Borlien, where the people were traditionally regarded as cowards, and travelled from the seas of the south to the Quzints in the north. Most of them were known in Oldorando and known as cheats and swindlers. Aoz Roon and Laintal Ay brought them back to serve as slaves, and shared their goods among the people. For his personal slave, Aoz Roon kept a young man called Calary, scarcely older than Laintal Ay.
This episode brought Aoz Roon more prestige. He was soon in a position to challenge Nahkri and Klils. Yet he held back, as was his way, and consorted with his fellow bloods.
Unrest was growing among the makers corps. In particular, a young man by the name of Dathka was attempting to break away from the metal-makers corps, refusing to service his long term as apprentice. He was taken before the brothers. They could get no submission from him. Dathka disappeared from everyone's ken for two days. One of the women reported that he was lying bound in an infrequently used cell, with bruises on his face.
At this, Aoz Roon went before Nahkri and asked that Dathka might be allowed to join the hunters. He said, "Hunting is no easy life. There is still plenty of game, but the grazing grounds have altered with this freak weather the last few years have sent us. We're hard pressed, as you know. So let Dathka join us if he wishes. Why not? If he's no good, then we'll kick him out and think again. He's about Laintal Ay's age, and can team up with him."
The light was dim where Nahkri stood, supervising slaves who were milking the rathel sows. Dust filled the air. The ceiling was low, so that Nahkri stooped slightly. He appeared to cringe before the challenge of Aoz Roon.
"Dathka should obey the laws," said Nahkri, offended by Aoz Roon's unnecessary reference to Laintal Ay.
"Permit him to hunt and he'll obey the laws. We'll have him earning his keep before those welts you set on his face can heal."
Nahkri spat. "He's not trained as a hunter. He's a maker. You have to be trained to these things." Nahkri feared that various secrets belonging to the metal makers might be given away; the crafts of the corps were closely guarded and reinforced the rulers' power to rule.
"If he won't work, then let's subject him to our hard life and see how he survives," Aoz Roon argued.
"He's a silent, surly fellow."
"Silence is an aid on the open plains."
Finally Nahkri released Dathka. Dathka teamed up with Laintal Ay as Aoz Roon said. He developed into a good hunter, delighting in the chase.
Silent though he was, Dathka was accepted by Laintal Ay as a brother. There was not an inch to choose between them in height and less than a year in age. Whereas Laintal Ay's face was broad and humorous, Dathka's was long, and his glance perpetually cast downward. Their expertise as a team became legendary during the chase.
Because they were so much together, old women said of them that they would one day meet the same fate, as had been predicted in an earlier age of Dresyl and Little Yuli. As then, so now: their fates were to differ greatly. In these young days, they merely seemed alike, and Dathka excelled to such an extent that the vain Nahkri grew proud of him, patronising him, and sometimes making reference to his own far-sightedness in releasing the youth from his bondage with the corps. Dathka kept silent and stared at the ground when Nahkri went by, never forgetting who had beaten him. Some men never forgive.
•••
Loil Bry was not the same after the death of her man. Whereas she had formerly clung to her scented chamber, now, old and vulnerable, she chose to wander in the wilderness of green springing up about Oldorando, talking or singing to herself. Many feared for her, but none dared approach, except Laintal Ay and Shay Tal.
One day, she was attacked by a bear driven down from the hills by fresh avalanches. Dragging herself along, wounded, she was set on by wild dogs, who killed and half ate her. When her mangled body was found, women gathered it up and carried it home weeping.
Then was the extravagant Loil Bry buried in traditional fashion. Many women wailed their grief: they had respected the remoteness of this person, born in the time of snows, who had managed to remain in the midst of them and yet live a life completely apart. There was a kind of inspiration in such remoteness: it was as if they could not sustain it for themselves, and so lived it through her.
Everyone recognised the learning of Loil Bry. Nahkri and Klils came to pay their respects to their ancient auntie, though they did not bother to order Father Bondorlonganon over to supervise her burial. They stood about on the edge of the mourning crowd, whispering together. Shay Tal went with Laintal Ay to support Loilanun, who neither wept nor spoke as her mother was lowered into the sodden ground.
As they left the place afterwards, Shay Tal heard Klils snigger and say to his brother, "Still, brother, she was only another woman…"
Shay Tal flushed, stumbled, and would have fallen if Laintal Ay had not grasped her round the waist. She went straight to the draughty room where she lived with her aged mother, and stood with her forehead to the wall.
She was of good build, though she had not what was termed a child-bearing figure. Her outward merits lay in her rich black hair, her fine features, and the way she carried herself. That proud carriage attracted some men, but repelled many more. Shay Tal had rejected an advance by her genial kinsman, Eline Tal. That had been long enough ago for her to notice that no other suitors approached – except Aoz Roon. Even with him, she could not subdue her spirit.
Now, as she stood against the moist wall, where grey lichens scrawled their skeletal flowers, she resolved that Loil Bry's independence should serve as an example to her. She would not be only another woman, whatever else they said of her over her grave.
Every morning at dawn, the women gathered in what was known as the women's house. It was a kind of factory. By first light, figures would steal forth from ruinous towers, huddled in their furs and often with additional swathings against the cold, and make their way to this place of work.
A saturating mist filled these mornings, divided into blocks by the shadowing towers. Heavy white birds passed through it like clouds. The stones ran moisture, and mud oozed underfoot. The women's house stood at one end of the main street, near to the big tower. Some way behind it, down a slope, flowed the Voral, with its worn stone embankment. As the women straggled to work, geese – the fowl of Embruddock – came up to be fed, honking and clattering. Every woman had a titbit to throw them.
Inside the house, when its heavy creaking door was closed, the eternal women's tasks were performed: the grinding of grain for flour, boiling and baking, the stitching of garments and boots, and the tanning of hides. The work of tanning was particularly difficult, and was overseen by a man – Datnil Skar, master of the tawyers and tanners corps. Salt was involved in the tanning process, and the tanners traditionally had charge of it. Also involved was the soaking of the hides in goose scumble, work too degrading for men to undertake. The toil was enlivened by gossip, as mothers and daughters discussed the shortcomings of men and neighbours.
Loilanun was forced to work here with the other women. She had become very thin and her face held a yellowy hue. Her bitterness against Nahkri and Klils ate at her vitals so much tha
t she scarcely spoke even to Laintal Ay, who was now allowed to go his own way. She befriended no one but Shay Tal. Shay Tal had a certain fey quality, and a way of thought far removed from the dumb endurance that was a marked characteristic of the women of Embruddock.
One chill dawn, Shay Tal had just climbed from her bed, when a knocking sounded on the door below. The mists had penetrated the tower, beading everything in the room where she slept with her mother. She was sitting in the pearly darkness pulling on her boots when the knock came a second time. Loilanun pushed open the downstairs door and ascended through the stable and the room above it to Shay Tal's room. The family pigs shuffled and snorted warmly in the dark as Loilanun felt her way up the creaking steps. Shay Tal met her as she climbed into the room, and clutched her cold hand. She made a gesture of silence towards the darkest corner of the room, where her mother lay sleeping. Her father was away with the other hunters.
In the dung-scented confinement of the room, they were little more than grey outlines, but Shay Tal detected something amiss in Loilanun's hunched appearance. Her unexpected arrival suggested trouble.
"Loilanun, are you ill?" She whispered the words.
"Weary, just weary. Shay Tal, throughout this night, I spoke with my mother's gossie."
"You spoke with Loil Bry! She's there already…. What did she say?"
"They're all there, even now, thousands of them, below our feet, waiting for us…. It's frightening to think of them." Loilanun was shivering. Shay Tal put an arm round the older woman and led her over to the bed on the floor, where they sat huddled together. Outside, geese honked. The two women turned their faces to each other, seeking signs of comfort.
"It's not the first time I've been in pauk since she died," Loilanun said. "I never found her before – just a blank down there where she should be – scratched emptiness…. My grandmother's fessup was wailing for attention. It's so lonely down there."
"Where's Laintal Ay?"
"Oh, he's out on the hunt," she said dismissively, immediately returning to her theme. "So many of them, drifting, and I don't believe they talk to each other. Why should the dead hate each other, Shay Tal? We don't hate each other – do we?"
"You're upset. Come on, we'll go to work and get something to eat."
In the grey light filtering in, Loilanun looked quite like her mother. "Maybe they have nothing to say to each other. They're always so desperate to talk to the living. So was my poor mother."
She began to weep. Shay Tal hugged her, while looking round to see if the sleeper stirred.
"We ought to go, Loilanun. We'll be late."
"Mother was so different when she appeared … so different, poor shade. All that lovely dignity she had in life was gone. She has started to … curl up. Oh, Shay Tal, I dread to think what it will be like to be down there permanently...."
This last remark was forced from her in a loud voice. Shay Tal's mother rolled over and grunted. The pigs below grunted.
The Hour-Whistler blew. It was time to be at work. Arm in arm, they shuffled downstairs. Shay Tal called the pigs softly by name to quiet them. The air was frosty as they leaned on the door to close it, feeling the rime on its panels powder under their fingers. In the greys and sludges of early morning, other figures made for the women's house, armless as they clutched blankets about their shoulders.
As they moved among the anonymous shapes, Loilanun said to her companion, "Loil Bry's gossie told me of her long love for my father. She said many things about men and women and their relationships I don't understand. She said cruel things about my man, now dead."
"You never spoke to him?"
Loilanun evaded the question. "Mother would scarcely let me get in a word. How can the dead be so emotional? Isn't it terrible? She hates me. Everything gone but emotion, like a disease. She said a man and a woman together made one whole person – I don't understand. I told her I didn't understand. I had to stop her talking."
"You told your mother's gossie to stop talking?"
"Don't look so shocked. My man used to beat me. I was scared of him…."
She was panting and lost her voice. They crowded thankfully into the warmth of the house. The soak pit of the tannery steamed. In niches, thick candles made from goose fat burned with a sound like hair being ripped from hide. Twenty-odd women were gathered there, yawning and scratching themselves.
Shay Tal and Loilanun ate lumps of bread together, and took their ration of rathel, or pig's counsel, before moving over to one of the pestles. The older woman, now her face could be seen more clearly, looked ghastly, with hollows under her eyes and her hair matted.
"Did the gossie tell you anything useful? Anything to help? Did she say anything about Laintal Ay?"
"She said we must collect knowledge. Respect knowledge. She scorned me." Talking through her face full of bread, she added, "She said knowledge was more important than food. Well, she said it was food. Probably she was confused not being used to it down there. It's hard to understand all they say…."
As the supervisor appeared, they moved over to the grain.
Shay Tal looked sideways at her friend, the hollows of whose face were now filled with an ashen light from the eastern window. "Knowledge can't be food. However much we knew, we'd still have to grind the corn for the village."
"When Mother was alive, she showed me a drawing of a machine powered by the wind. It ground the grain and women didn't lift a finger, she said. The wind did the women's work."
"The men wouldn't care for that," Shay Tal said, with a laugh.
•••
Despite her caution, Shay Tal's resolution hardened; she became the most extreme of the women in defying what was unthinkingly accepted.
Her special work was in the boilery. Here, the flour was kneaded with animal fat and salt, and steamed over troughs of rapid-flowing water from the hot underground springs. When the dark brown loaves were ready, they were cooled, and a lean girl named Vry distributed them to everyone in Oldorando. Shay Tal was the expert of this process; her loaves had the reputation of tasting better than those of any other cook.
Now she saw mysterious perspectives beyond the loaves of bread. Routine no longer contented her, and her manner became more remote. When Loilanun fell ill of a wasting disease, Shay Tal took her and Laintal Ay into her house, despite her father's protests, and patiently tended the older woman. They talked together for hours. Sometimes Laintal Ay listened; more often, he grew bored and went off on his own.
Shay Tal began to pass ideas to the other women in the boilery. She talked in particular to Vry, who was at a malleable age. She talked about the human preference for truth over lies as resembling the need for light above dark. The women listened, muttering uneasily.
And not only the women. In her dark furs, Shay Tal had a majesty felt by the men, too – Laintal Ay, among others. With her proud bearing went proud talk. Both the looks and the talk attracted Aoz Roon. He would listen and argue. He released a vein of flirtatiousness in Shay Tal, who responded to his air of authority. She approved of his support of Dathka against Nahkri; but she allowed him no liberties. Her own liberty depended on allowing him none.
The weeks passed, and great storms roared over the towers of Embruddock. Loilanun's voice grew weaker, and one afternoon she passed away. In her illness, she had transmitted some of Loil Bry's knowledge to Shay Tal and to other women who came to see her. She made the past real to them, and all that she said was filtered through Shay Tal's dark imagination.
Loilanun, as she faded, helped Shay Tal to found what they called the academy. The academy was intended for women; there they would seek together to be something other than drudges. Many of the drudges stood wailing by her deathbed until Shay Tal, in a fit of impatience, threw them out.
"We can observe the stars," Vry said, raising her waiflike face. "Have you ever studied how they move on regular paths? I would like to understand the stars better."
"Everything valuable is buried in the past," Shay Tal said, lo
oking down at the countenance of her dead friend. "This place cheated Loilanun, and cheats us. The gossies wait for us. Our lives are so circumscribed! We need to make better people just as we need to bake better loaves."
She jumped up and flung open the worn window shutter.
Her shrewd intellect saw immediately that the academy would be mistrusted by the men of Embruddock, and by Nahkri and Klils above all. Only the callow Laintal Ay would support her, though she hoped to win over Aoz Roon and Eline Tal. She saw that whatever opposition the academy met with, she would have to fight and that fight was necessary to give new spirit to all. She would defy the general lethargy; time had come for progress.
•••
Inspiration moved Shay Tal. As her poor friend was buried and she stood with a hand on Laintal Ay's shoulder, she caught the eye of Aoz Roon. She burst into speech. Her words carried wild and loud among the geysers.
"This woman was forced to be independent. What she knew helped her. Some of us are not to be owned like slaves. We have a vision of better things. Hear what I say. Things will be different." They gaped at her, pleased at the novelty of her outburst.
"You think we live at the centre of the universe. I say we live in the centre of a farmyard. Our position is so obscure that you cannot realise how obscure.
"This I tell you all. Some disaster happened in the past, in the long past. So complete was it that no one now can explain to you what it was or how it came about. We know only that it brought darkness and cold.
"You try to live the best you can. Good, good, live well, love one another, be kind. But don't pretend that the disaster has nothing to do with you. It may have happened long ago, yet it infects every day of our lives. It ages us, it wears us out, it devours us, it tears our children from us, as it has torn Loilanun. It makes us not only ignorant but in love with ignorance. We're infested with ignorance.
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