by Amy Brent
Shit, I’d been crying in front of all of them.
Fuck Thomas.
“Are you listening?” the director asked.
“Um, no, sir. I’m sorry. What did you say?”
Even I heard the hiccup of emotion in my voice, and I watched the director’s face soften. My co-star’s hand rubbed my back harder before it morphed into a massage, and the only thing it served to do was threaten to spill forth more tears. Everyone from the lighting crew to the makeup crew had pitiful looks dripping from their faces, and for the first time in my life, I wasn’t angry with them.
All I could do was dip my face to my lap and sigh.
“Let’s take a hiatus for the day,” the director said.
“But we aren’t done for the day,” I said. “We’ve still got two more scenes.”
“And we can tack them on next week. Right now, you need to go home.”
“Director.”
“Bridget,” he said, “I don’t know what’s going on, and I don’t care. All I know is you’re not okay, and you’re no use to me if you’re not okay. If you need something, let us know. Otherwise, just go home and get some rest. We’ll start fresh in the morning.”
“I’m sorry,” I managed to say.
“Don’t be sorry. Just feel better, all right?”
My co-star helped me off the couch and escorted me to my car. I didn’t bother getting changed nor did anyone stop me from leaving in the outfit I was in. Bernie opened the car door for me, and my co-star tried to convince me to let him come, but all I did was tell him I’d see him tomorrow before I shut the door in his face. I didn’t want to be around anyone, most certainly not some dude from my movie set, especially since I couldn’t stop thinking about Thomas.
He invaded my every thought, despite the betrayal he had perpetrated, and I felt disgusted by it. His eyes still sparkled in my mind, and his thick thighs still glistened behind my eyelids, and even as I felt my tits harden in my bra, tears streamed down my face.
I missed him. I missed his warmth and his presence. I missed his smile and his touch. I missed his body writhing against mine and the way his lips felt on my neck.
But most of all? I missed what we had built. I missed the trust that had been burned to the ground and the imaginary home in the back of my mind that had been blown down by the big, bad wolf. I missed the life I had imagined for the both of us every time I came downstairs and saw him sitting at the kitchen table with a cup of coffee.
How could I tell him I’d actually pictured his daughter running through the halls of this house?
“Shit,” I said.
I threw the door open and waved Bernie away before I stormed into my house. I locked the door and checked every single window before I ran myself up to my room. I knew the moment I collapsed onto the bed and spread my legs that I was in for a ride. Thinking about him soaked my panties and heated my body, despite what he had done to me, and I cursed myself even as my fingers shoved themselves between my legs.
“Fuck you, Thomas,” I said.
My swollen clit was pulsing underneath my fingers, and I knew it wouldn’t take long. I didn’t feel sexy on set, nor did I feel sexy in this stupid outfit, but thinking about Thomas and what his thick dick could do to me made me feel sexy. Seeing Thomas’s body thrusting into mine made me feel beautiful, and all the passion I should’ve had during that sex scene came bubbling to the top.
Thomas really was my muse, and in one fell swoop, he had managed to destroy my personal life as well as the inspiration for my career life.
“Damn it, Thomas,” I said breathlessly.
I thought about how his cock filled me to the brim while my hips bucked into my fingers. I thought about the wasted juices that were seeping out onto my bed. Thomas would lick it all up and swallow me down, wanting every part of me within him, as much as he could get. His cock would dive deep into my depths, shaking my entire body while he throbbed against every vulnerable part of me.
My clit grew bigger with every swipe, just like it did whenever Thomas massaged his tongue against it. My legs pulled taut and began to quiver, just like when he would pin me against the wall and drive his thick dick deep into my pussy. I imagined his balls slapping against my skin while my juices ran down his balls, leaving trails of lust on the insides of his thighs that I desperately wanted to lick up.
“Fuck… Thomas…”
My hips raised in the air while my fingers picked up their pace. My pussy was throbbing, and my breaths were coming in short pants. Every single time I screwed my eyes shut, I could feel Thomas inside me. I could feel his hips snapping against mine while his cock split me in two. I could feel him growing with every thrust while his breath built in the crook of my neck. I could feel his stubble on my chest while the warmth of his lips wrapped around my nipples.
“Oh, Thomas. Thomas. Yes. Just like that. You know how I like it.”
I bucked my hips wildly, inserting a finger inside me while my clit screamed out for mercy. I opened my mouth and licked my lips, preparing for Thomas to kiss them like I knew he would. I envisioned myself swallowing his massive cock whole, while he gripped my hair and his hips pumped into my face while his dick sank down the back of my throat. I thought about how wonderful he tasted on my tongue as he shot his hot come down the back of my throat, using me as his own little pocket pussy before pulling my body up and into his strong, glistening chest.
I thought about how he would drive his cock deep into my pussy before he stilled, capturing my lips in a kiss while he painted my pussy walls for the very first time. How beautiful it had felt to finally be marked as his, wholly and completely, while his teeth had sank into the side of my neck.
“Yes! Thomas! Oh… fuck!”
I came all over my hands, my juices slipping out and soaking my skin, while my chest heaved with exhaustion. My back collapsed to the floor while my body shook and stars burst behind my eyelids. All of a sudden, I saw Thomas’s smiling face. I saw his glistening cheeks slick with my fluids just before he leaned into kiss me, and I brought my hand up to cup his cheek before I came back to reality.
Thomas wasn’t there, and he wasn’t there because he’d opened those beautiful lips of his and betrayed me.
I rolled over with my juices still on my hands, and I cried myself to sleep.
Chapter 28
Thomas
I called my mother and asked her if he could take Lacey overnight and get her to school. I needed to get to Bridget’s before she got up and going for her day, and I told her to be on standby in case I couldn’t get to Lacey that afternoon, either. I hadn’t heard from her since everything went down at the studio, and I knew I wouldn’t sleep well until I knew she was all right. Someone knew about Bridget, and I had a feeling her agent had something to do with it, but the trouble was trying to convince her of it. I could’ve gone through the channels of chivalry and done something dramatic to show her how much I cared for her, but Bridget was the kind of woman that was more down to earth and practical than that.
No matter what she portrayed to the cameras.
“If I don’t hear from you, honey, I’ll assume I’m picking up Lacey.”
“Thanks, Mom,” I said. “That means a great deal. I’ve had a couple days off, so I’m assuming she’ll need me early and late for a while.”
“Not a problem. Just keep us updated when you can.”
I hung up the phone with my mom before I prepared myself like I was going in for work. I stopped in to get Bridget’s favorite coffee before I got to her home, hoping it would entice her to at least open the door for me. I parked my car and went to knock on the door, looking each and every way to make sure nothing seemed out of place, but when her voice came through the heavy façade, my mind went straight to the task at hand.
“Bridget?” I asked.
“What?”
“I’ve got coffee,” I said.
“Well, I’m making some, so good for you.”
“Let me in,” I said. “We ne
ed to talk.”
“There’s nothing to talk about,” she said. “I know it was you.”
“Look. You’re scared, and I get that. And part of my job is to protect you. Even if this isn’t a personal relationship, I can’t do my job unless you let me in.”
“And letting you in is what got me here,” she said. “Letting you into my life is what put me in this position.”
“I don’t know why the hell you think it was me.”
“Just go away, Thomas,” she said.
“No. I’m not. Because I don’t want to. Because you’re in trouble. Because I care for you. Because my daughter loves you. And I’ll keep rattling off reasons until you open this damn door and let me in.”
“No,” she said.
I sighed and leaned my head against the door. The iced coffees were getting warm in my hands, and I knew she would want it the moment she opened the door.
“Look, I got your favorite: a dirty iced chai with two shots and no added water. You like it rich and caffeinated, and you said you drank it year-round because it reminds you of fall. You told me you wished it could be fall year-round because you think you look better in sweaters and skinny jeans, but really you look the best beside me in bed covered in sweat. What kind of shithead man remembers stuff like that, Bridget? Come on. Just open up. At least so I can give you your coffee.”
I heard a pause on the other end before the lock on the door flipped. I wanted her to let me in, whether I had a key or not. I needed her to let me in voluntarily so I knew she was willing to talk. She slowly opened the door and stood before me with her eyes bloodshot and the bags of her eyes dark with lack of sleep. Her shoulders were hunched, and her hair was thrown up in a bun, and her pajamas were hanging off her shoulder as she reached for the coffee I was holding.
“Thanks,” she said.
“Can I come in?” I asked.
“Whatever.”
I walked in behind her and shut the door while I heard her footsteps recede behind me. I couldn't let her shut herself in her room without talking, so I kept my back to her and just called out. Maybe if she didn’t see my face, I would be less threatening, or maybe if she thought I didn’t see hers, she would be more willing to be vulnerable.
To be real. To be truthful with me for once.
“How could you possibly think I could do something like that to you after what we’ve been through?” I asked.
“It’s the only logical explanation,” she said.
“Not when multiple people know, Bridget.”
“My agent’s the only other person, and—”
“Maybe she started it for publicity?” I asked.
“Why the hell would she do something like that?” she asked.
“Because the movie you just shot before you hired me was about a woman with a different identity who meets a man who shows her how to move forward instead of backward. Maybe she’s drumming up publicity for the movie and then pawning it off as a stunt? Either way, it’s plausible.”
“Why would she do that to me?” she asked.
I turned around at looked at her, tears streaming down her face while she guzzled her coffee. She was war torn and exhausted, and all I wanted to do was wrap my arms around her and keep her sheltered from all of this until I could figure it out.
“Because in the end, people are always money hungry,” I said.
“It’s technically plausible,” she said, sighing.
“Bridget, look at me.”
Her eyes slowly rose to my gaze, and I knew the moment she locked them on me that I had her. I knew she saw the innocence and desperation behind my eyes. The burning need to get her to accept the truth.
“I didn’t do this,” I said. “I swear to you.”
And at that very moment, she broke down and ran to me. She dropped her coffee, and it splashed all over the floor. Her shivering body came barreling into mine. She wrapped her arms around my waist, and I pulled her close into me, peppering the top of her head with kisses while she cried into my chest.
“What is happening to me, Thomas?” she asked. “Why? Why is this happening?”
“I don’t know, Bridget. But I swear to you, I’ll figure it out.”
“I gotta go to the studio today. We couldn’t—”
“It’s all right,” I said. “Let’s get you cleaned up and get you to the studio.”
For now, everything was all right. I helped her upstairs and into her shower and stood in the bathroom while she cleaned herself up. She was so weak and tired, and I was petrified of leaving her in there by herself. I was concerned she would slip and fall, possibly crack her head open or break a bone. I needed her to be safe, if anything from herself.
“What time do you need to be at the studio?” I asked.
“Thirty minutes,” she said. She was now dressing in her room, and I was standing out in the hallway. She emerged looking a little more rejuvenated, though I could tell the past couple of days had really weighed on her. I could only imagine how scared she had been without someone here to watch her back, and as I put my hand on the small of her back to escort her downstairs, I felt her lean heavily into my touch.
“I’m right here,” I said. “And I’m not going anywhere.”
We got to the studio, and they threw her right into a sex scene. Something told me this was the scene she was babbling about when she was crying, about not being able to do it or something. But as I watched the steamy scene unfold before my very eyes, something told me she had her mojo back. Her sounds were spot on, and her nipples were rock hard. Her co-star was sweating from her grinding against his covered dick while I was trying not to palm my own as I watched. Her tits flailed around, and at one point, she rolled him over and sat on top, and the director was drinking up the entire shot and encouraged them to keep going.
The way she puckered her lips and the way she rolled her hips brought back memories of what she looked like whenever I pinned her to the wall. That helpless look, coupled with those powerful hips of hers, forced me to turn around and resituate myself, and when I did, my raging cock leaked a bit into the hem of my boxers.
“Shit,” I said.
“And, cut!” the director said. “Bridget, I don’t know what the fuck you did, but brilliant. Let’s move on to the next scene. As far as I’m concerned, that was redemption from yesterday.”
I turned back around and saw Bridget running toward me. I picked her up and swung her around before I landed a passionate kiss upon her lips, and I could feel her nipples raking against my chest.
“How was it?” she asked.
“Perfect,” I murmured into her lips.
Each and every scene rolled by just as perfectly, and by the time we were on the road, it was only three that afternoon. The director was practically kissing her ass trying to make sure she’d bring that kind of A-game tomorrow, and Bridget was all smiles when we got into the car and started back to her home.
“God, it’s nice to have an early day,” she said.
“How are you feeling?” I asked.
“Like I could use a nap.”
“Care for some company?” I asked.
“Don’t tempt me, Thomas. I know your mother must’ve taken Lacey to school for you to have shown up as early as you did. You need to be there to pick her up today.”
“See?” I asked.
“See what?”
“That right there. Why would I have jeopardized something with a woman who cares about my daughter as much as you do?”
She looked over at me with her big, bright eyes, and something seemed to finally click into place for her. She nodded her head while she dug around in her pocket for her phone, ripping it out and scrolling through her contacts. I knew who she was about to call. I was just shocked when she put in on speakerphone.
“You sure you want me to listen to this?” I asked.
“You’re my bodyguard, right? Don’t you wanna know if you need to protect me from my own agent?” she asked.
She h
ad a fair point, so I gave her a nod and leaned back just as Linda picked up the phone.
“Make it quick, I’ve got ten minutes until my next meeting,” Linda said.
“Hey, you remember that note that was left on my door?” Bridget asked.
“What about it?”
“Are you sure there was no one you told?” she asked. “Even like, insinuated something to? Maybe for publicity for the movie coming out or something?”
“Bridget. Every time you pop up in a headline, you’re either out with that bodyguard, drunk at a club, or gabbing with your friends. There’s a better chance you got drunk and spilled the beans.”
“Linda, I’m just trying to cover my corners. Thomas said—”
“Look. You and your first-name-basis bodyguard are none of my business. You’re not the only actress I manage, and trust me, I can’t keep up with half the secrets you guys walk around with. I’ve got better things to do, like this meeting I’m taking for you, by the way, than to worry about how much of a mess you’re making your life.”
“I need to hear you say it,” Bridget said. I could tell she was holding back tears, and I didn’t blame her. It was astounding to me that this woman was employed by Bridget and was talking to her this way. I was sure a million other agents in Hollywood would’ve given their left testicle to manage the Bridget Meyers.