by Gardam, Jane
‘Aye,’ said Florrie, ‘You can have his room. He’d best go, Anton.’
All three, all thinking that she never spoke Anton’s name in public, began to pass the letter between them.
‘Fondle’s running,’ said Parable. ‘Calls it “escorting”. In luxury. He’s running away.’
‘Saving himself,’ said Florrie, ‘and her with him.’
‘If he saves his boys—? His star boys—?’
Florrie was pouring tea carefully into the trefoil cups. ‘He’d best go,’ she said. ‘Canada’s very English. A great clean amiable country and a good long way off from trouble.’
CHAPTER 12
The night before the departure to Canada of Mr. Fondle’s unanimously evacuating school, Terry Vanetski slid out of Muriel Street and down to the rabbit-hole houses by the sand dunes to say goodbye to Mr. Parable.
He was at home. The flames from the sea-coal fire could be seen far down the passage behind him, glittering and painting the walls a rosy orange.
Parable opened the door wider and said, ‘Yes? I have been waiting.’
‘I couldn’t come before. There’s big activity. Piles of clothes. I don’t know where she finds them. I told her I’d leave her all me coupons. I shan’t need them in Canada.’
‘Who knows?’
‘She doesn’t. Dad’s come up with things, too. Things we never knew. There’s a crucifix and a Missile.’
‘It will be a Missal. A prayer book. Come in. I’d have thought that would have been for the Holy Father to give you.’
‘He’s given me a bobbly thing. A rosary.’
‘You know my feelings about the Roman Catholic Church. Well I suppose you’ve come to see what I am going to give you?’
‘It never entered my head, Mr. Apse.’
‘Just as well. I am giving you nothing. Nothing for the moment, that’s to say, except naturally my prayers. Nothing extra for now, but there will be something in the years to come. It will be handled by my head office—you may have heard that I have branches in other parts of the country? I am speaking of my Will.’
‘Thank you very much, Mr. Parable.’
‘Apse—Peter Parable-Apse—it will not be a fortune. You must make your own: as I had to do in London on—.’
‘Yes, Mr. Apse. On ten shillings a week.’
‘Did me no harm. But all this is for after the War. When you are back home again. You will come back. We shall win the war. But I think you should not come back up here. Go to London where I have significant connections, which will quietly endure. You will not want.’
‘I’ll write, Mr. Apse. From Canada.’
‘Remember your Bible, boy. And I shall need to know your address before I die.’
‘But, if you die, Mr. Apse—?’
‘—in order for my executors to send you your inheritance. I don’t mind telling you that, chiefly on account of my esteem for your dear mother and my admiration for your father’s courage, I intend to leave you twenty-five pounds.’
‘Will that be per annum, Mr. Para—Mr. Apse?’
‘No, it will be net, boy. Your capital.’
‘Why are you doing this, Mr. Apse?’
‘Don’t grin, boy. Do not mock. I do this wholly for your mother, fool though she was not to marry me.’
* * *
‘Did you nearly marry Mr. Parable, Ma?’
‘Peter Parable? I did not.’
There was a roar from the bed.
‘More fool me,’ she said, stirring the pot.
‘No,’ said Terry and from the bed came a more acquiescent rumble. ‘It wouldn’t have done, Ma.’
‘Well, I suppose I might have had silk stockings and a fur coat by now if I had.’
‘More like,’ said Terry, ‘you’d have been singing hymns on the sands in a bonnet,’ and the three of them laughed.
‘And you’d not have had me,’ said the child.
‘Well, that could have been a relief.’ She ladled out dumplings and rabbit stew. Then there was apple tart and custard.
‘You’ll miss this good stuff in Canada,’ she said. ‘It’ll be plain stuff there.’
* * *
‘Bed then, aye? Sleep well,’ she said later.
His bag for tomorrow by the door. His papers in a satchel nearby. ‘Up early now,’ she said. They did not kiss. The Odessan took Terry’s hand as he passed the bed. He put money in the hand and spoke to him in Russian. Then the Odessan roared out a spate of some other language in a new horrible, terrifying voice and his eyes looked blind. Florrie ran out to the yard. Terry stood like an object. He said nothing. The Odessan said, ‘You have Russian blood, say something, for the love of Christ. I have nothing to give you. Nothing.’
‘Yes. A chess set. Make me a chess set, my Da.’
‘You will write or cable? Every day, my boy?’
‘Of course.’
‘We cannot speak directly of the love of God,’ said the Odessan. ‘But, I can bless you.’
‘Thanks, Da.’
The next morning there was the Holy Father in the house. There was bustle. Sleeplessness had ceased with dawn and now they were all bemused by late heavy slumber. ‘Come on. We go,’ said the Canon and Terry found himself out on Muriel Street where Florrie said, ‘Goodbye then. I’ll not come to the train. Did years of that. I’ll go get your father his breakfast.’ He walked with the priest to the end of the road and turned to wave, but she had gone.
On the station all Mr. Fondle’s evacuees were gathered just as if it were an ordinary school day of years ago. Today however they were going the opposite way.
There did not seem to be very many evacuees. The parents—quite a small group—stood together in a clump talking to each other rather than to their children. Most parents were being very bright. Most children seemed very young. They coursed about the platform being aeroplanes, bright and smiling, noisy and wild. Some swung their gas-masks round their heads. The gas-masks were on long shoulder-strings and in square cardboard boxes. Even Mrs. Fondle carried a gas-mask but it was boxed in black satin and on a ribbon.
‘You can throw them all in the sea the minute we’re out of sight of land,’ Mr. Fondle called, and Mrs. Fondle marched about, smiling.
* * *
The officials in the ticket-office crammed up against the glass partition some with handkerchiefs against their faces. A few of the better-dressed parents gathered closely around the headmaster and his wife and the tall handsome boy (is it Terry? They can’t be sending Terry!) so much older than the rest.
‘Is he your son?’ a woman asked Griespert. Two tiny girls in smocking dresses and Start-Rite London sandals stood silently beside her. ‘He’s surely too old to be an evacuee?’
‘I am a Catholic priest. He is not mine.’
‘Oh—the poor boy must be an orphan.’ The woman waggled a finger at Terry. ‘And so good-looking. You’ll be an American Hollywood star one day.’
‘We’re going to Canada,’ said Terry. ‘Do your children know?’
‘Oh, it’s about the same thing,’ she said.
‘This boy’s parents are both living. He means everything to them.’
Terry was examining the chocolate slot-machine, empty since sweet-rationing, with its metal drawer hanging out. The priest watched, hoping that Terry had heard.
Terry was still dazed and unnerved by Florrie’s absence.
She’d stood at the door steady and confident as a sergeant-major. Hand on latch had said, ‘Well now. Got everything then? Got the cake? Stamps? You’ll need one when you write home tonight from Liverpool.’
She—and Terry—knew that he would never say ‘Aren’t you coming as far as the train?’ That she would never kiss him in front of anybody. He had moved his feet on the step, looking to each side of her, marking time. The shadow of his father cra
wling back to the bed, skirting the chamber-pot, moved behind her. In a minute his father’s pointed knees rose like Alps inside the snowy counterpane.
‘You’ve got one of your socks going to sleep inside one of them shoes,’ said Florrie. ‘That won’t suit Canada. It’s a good fault though, too big. No doubt they’ll wash them in too-hot water. It’s good to see you in long trousers. I’ll send a second pair. Now, you’ll remember to write tonight. And watch your manners.’
That was when she had gone in and shut the door behind her.
When the train steamed in, it gathered the children in to itself, the parents’ flustering, faces against windows. Few children cried. Some looked unconcerned, and remote, blank as the dead. Some of the parents on the platform tried to wave little paper flags.
Inside their carriage the Fondles were talkative and encouraging as with their entourage they set off across the world to safety.
Terry had a corner seat in the Fondle’s first-class carriage but as the train gathered speed he stood up, opened the window by its leather strap and leaned forward to push his head out into the blowy day. At one blast he was caught into the slide and clatter of the train, the sudden, knowing hoot from the funnel. He watched the strings of coarse red council houses, the gaunt chimneys of the iron-works above them. At his back were the Cleveland Hills where Mr. Smith lived with his sick wife and little Fred. Behind the chimneys, in front of Terry and invisible, rolled in the sea towards the mine-fields of the sand-dunes and the barbed wire and Mr. Parable. All his life’s landscape was passing out of sight. Here was the long fence at the end of the grounds of Mr. Fondle’s school. There was a For Sale notice up, facing the train, beside the open Fives Court.
Pressed up against this fence, arms outstretched before her towards the running train, mouth gaping, face yearning, eyes blank and terrible and blind, stood his mother.
Then the train had swished and trundled by and Terry stood at the window until Veronica Fondle twitched at his coat and told him to close it, and sit down.
He never knew if his mother had seen him passionately waving.
CHAPTER 13
A mile or two inland and over sixty years later, old Fred Fiscal-Smith was deep in some gleaming, bubbling ocean. Seaweed trailed in it and there were soft, gulping bubbles, tropical ripples and gentle waves. Java, perhaps? Wonderful case there in the seventies. Faulty refrigeration plant, junior to Veneering. And to Filth.
But Fiscal-Smith’s forehead seemed to be resting now on a smooth glass, globular surface, and he was a baby again. More alarmingly he was gazing into a wide mouth with bright lips turned inside out like a glove, opening and shutting, moving tirelessly, eyes staring with disbelief. Ye gods, it was a gold-fish and he was slipping off the edge of the bed!
Where’d she gone? The Madame?
A bang and a rushing figure, and she was back. It was morning in the best bedroom of The Judges’ Hotel and the curtains were being drawn back. Her voice rattled on. And on.
‘Now then, Fred. Thermometer. Straighten yourself out before we’re gathering up the gold-fish off the floor. They’re meant to soothe the guests, not frighten them. My own idea. Copied from dentists. It’s raining and right cold this morning—almost afternoon. You’ve slept twelve hours, Fred. You’ll be right in a day or two and you’d best stay here till you are.’
‘No, no. I must get home.’
‘I’ve told him, your so-called “ghillie”, I call him Bertie as I call you Fred, Fred, when we’re alone. Since Herringfleet school—.’
‘Tell Bertie—’
‘I’ve told him. Returned from one of his memorial services, I said, with the flu. Staying here. Told him to bring down any post, except that, knowing him, he won’t. Bone idle. Here’s the paper. More about the Service. What a mob of double-barrels!’
‘Do go away. I’m not awake. Home—.’
‘Now don’t tell me Lone Hall’s ever been home, Fred. Just as Fiscal-Smith’s not the name you were baptised. You and I hailed from Ada Street first, just as his high-and-mighty hailed from Muriel Street. It was your Dad fancied the Hall up here long since and now you can’t get rid of it. Smith was your name.’
‘I’d never try. I’m denying nothing about Ada Street. I’ve come back up here. In the North. Might never have left Hong Kong. I’m faithful.’
‘Breakfast. Here. Eat it. They’ve done you eggs and bacon.’
He munched, his back against the pillows. Beside him on the table the gold-fish hung in their blob of ocean, then shrugged and shimmered away into some ornamental pebbles and ferns.
‘You’re kind, Margaret. You’d never order me out. I’ll stay a day or so for old time’s sake. I can’t really afford—.’
‘You’re worth millions, Fred. Shut up. What happened down there? Something’s upset you.’
‘Oh—didn’t know many people. Didn’t feel very welcome as a matter of fact. Old friends change. Or die. Or both. Thinking of Hong Kong—I was Sir Edward Feathers’ best man there you know—and, well, rather aware that nobody has ever, exactly, wanted me. And the obituaries were full of mistakes. Terry Veneering’s “childhood in Russia”. Old Filth’s “uneventful life”! Ha!’
‘Come on, get your own life, Fred.’
‘Bit late now, Margaret. Everything’s getting right dim, now.’
‘You said that like a local, Fred. Go back to sleep.’
‘Aye. And put a cloth over them bloody fish,’ he said in a voice that would have been unrecognisable in The Temple. As he fell asleep he said, ‘Remember Florrie Benson? Terrible business that. Terrible world.’
CHAPTER 14
The huge four-decker cruise ship stood like a city in Liverpool Dock and the faces looking down from the upper decks were dots. Gang planks stood robust and heavy. Rows of lifeboats, all tested and passed, hung like fruits.
There had been a last-minute delay and now the date of embarkation would be tomorrow, Friday the thirteenth. Normally no big ship would have risked such a date, but there was a waiting group of convoy ships and Liverpool was being heavily bombed and more bombardment expected. There was a sense of urgency.
The ship was carrying around a hundred children mostly the East End of London poor, homeless, and some orphaned already in the Blitz. National newspapers had been carrying photographs of dead children laid out in rows. Churchill had not yet vetoed these evacuations by sea but, there was serious lobbying about patriotism for one’s country being the noblest place to die; and also suggestions, since the sinking of a similar ship carrying children less than a month earlier, of nervousness.
Most of the London children had said goodbye to their parents at Euston Station and continued by train to Liverpool where the delay had meant a stay of two nights in rat-infested hostels. Some had cried, a few fallen ill—there was a case of chicken-pox (this boy was taken home)—but most of the rest were noisy and excited and looking forward to the six days of crossing the Atlantic to a new life. None of them mentioned the partings from home. They had transformed themselves into a new, intimate community consisting only of each other.
‘When are we going?’ they lamented. Not only the German bombs at night but the huge barrage of Liverpool gun-fire thundered all around them, hour after hour all night. ‘Soon,’ they were told, ‘Soon.’ Two of the children had been on board the earlier evacuee ship a fortnight ago which had been torpedoed, but everyone saved. These two seemed stolidly unconcerned.
There were also the paying passengers, ‘business-men, diplomats and professors and people of pre-war opulence,’ as was later reported in the press. Among these were Mr. and Mrs. Fondle and their party from North Yorkshire, expecting to board the S.S. City of Benares at once.
But the train had been slow and they had been obliged to sit with their elite group of children in one of the sheds on the quay. And, later, their supper was the same as the children’s. Veronica Fondle picke
d at the slices of National Wholemeal bread—pale grey—a little grey pie, some wet grey cabbage and a dollop of ‘instant potato’ called Pom.
The Fondles did not seem to be hungry. They leaned back from the communal bench and smoked black cigarettes with gold tips. Mrs. Fondle patted the seat next to her and said, ‘Not long now, Terence.’ The poorer children raced about and screamed and shouted like a flock of autumn starlings suddenly wheeling, like smoke, out of sight of the dormitory sheds. Terry said, ‘There’s not one of them older than ten.’
‘Oh, I wouldn’t say that, Terry. Terry you must stop saying “Wan”. You are travelling with us.’
He could think of no answer. He could not bear her face or her voice. After a time he took a last bite into the so-called tart (Apricot, but it was marrow jam) and said, “One” and she said, ‘Much better.’
‘Can I get a message home? I’ve got the priest’s number. It’s only one and twopence.’
‘Oh, I don’t think we want to unsettle them.’
‘Well, I’ll write, then, Mrs. Fondle. I promised. She give me the stamp for it.’
‘Gave,’ said Mrs. Fondle. She and Harold Fondle then disappeared.
Terry wrote his letter and went to find a post-box, with no success. It was bed-time apparently now and they were sent to a place full of bunks. Two big, plain, confident girls—twins—were to sleep below him. They looked to be eleven at most, but large and commanding. ‘You an escort?’ one asked. ‘You’re no evacuee. Not your age.’
‘I’m not quite fourteen.’
‘D’you not want to stay and fight then?’
‘I don’t know about that. Do you?’
‘We’re girls,’ they said ‘It would just to be in Munitions. I don’t want to make bombs for anyone. There must be kids like us, over there.’
In the night he heard one of the girls crying and her sister’s head rose up like a vision beside his face on the bunk above. ‘Our dad and mam’s dead in the raid. Faery’s weak. I’m her twin sister.’