by Ray Gorham
Kyle closed his own eyes and exhaled noisily, the adrenaline draining from his body and leaving him tired, especially after a poor night’s rest. He reflected back to the same time last year. Mid-morning he would be at work, maybe out directing repairs or a new power installation, often in areas not too far from where he currently was. He’d driven this road many times for work or to visit his parents, an easy and scenic four-hour drive on a Friday after school, with most of the sights flying by too quickly to be seen or appreciated. He knew where all the public restrooms were along the way, had stopped for fuel at many of the gas stations, and felt like he could almost do the trip with his eyes closed. In all that time he’d never considered walking it, at least not before September.
Garfield let out a loud snort and jerked his head. Kyle glanced down sympathetically. “Hope there’s a horse heaven my friend, cause you’ve sure earned the right to get in.” The horse’s eyes were open, and he lifted his head and looked around, panicked. Kyle tried to gently force the animal’s head down, but Garfield resisted, fighting against Kyle’s pressure, becoming more and more stressed. Then Garfield tried to scramble to his feet. “What’s…” Kyle began, then heard the growl of the bear again, close.
Kyle leapt to his feet and spun around, drawing his pistol as Garfield thrashed on the ground, his hooves pawing for traction on the asphalt road. The bear was coming from out of the trees a few yards downstream on their side of the river. Kyle fired two quick shots at the animal, then heard the chamber click empty. With the bear just a few feet away, Kyle ejected the magazine and pulled a second one from his pocket, jamming it in quickly, something Sean had insisted the militia members practice until it became second nature. The magazine clicked in, and Kyle worked the action to chamber a round as he skirted around the back of the car, the bear now just steps away, the sound of its claws on the road making Kyle’s blood freeze in his veins.
The bear let out a high-pitched roar as it lunged towards Kyle. Kyle spun and fired into the animal just as it struck him and knocked him backwards onto the ground, then landed on top of him, knocking the air from his lungs. The bear reared back and took a swipe at Kyle’s head with a giant paw, which Kyle was barely able to dodge. The animal, now astride Kyle, had him pinned to the ground as it roared in pain and fury. Kyle shot again as he struggled for breath, virtually pressing the muzzle of his gun against the bear’s chest before pulling the trigger, but it only seemed to make the animal angrier. The bear lunged forward, its jaws gaping wide and aimed for Kyle’s throat. Kyle stuck his left arm in front of his face, and the bear clamped down on it, twisting hard to the side. Kyle fired again but was jerked by the bear, causing him to miss his mark. The agony of the bear’s teeth clamped tightly on his forearm sent unbelievable jolts of pain through Kyle’s whole body.
Kyle screamed when he caught his breath, momentarily startling the animal. With the bear caught off guard, Kyle ignored the pain and used his arm, which was still in the Bear’s mouth, to steady the animal’s head above him while he jabbed the gun against the throat of the animal. He knew he had only a few seconds before the animal overpowered him, and having no desire to be a part of the beast’s food chain, Kyle pulled the trigger in rapid succession, angling the barrel so that the bullets would travel upwards into the animal’s skull.
On the third second shot the animal stiffened, its jaws briefly clenching tighter on Kyle’s arm, then falling slack as the bear slumped forward, landing hard on top of Kyle. Kyle gasped as the full weight of the bear, warm and musky, pressed him flat against the highway. Its fur pressed against Kyle’s face and smelled like an old rug that had been left in the backyard for a summer. Kyle worked his right hand free and fired one more shot into the animal, still fearing it might somehow revive and succeed in separating his head from his shoulders.
Finally confident the bear was, in fact, dead, Kyle lay his gun down and began extracting himself from under the animal. He grabbed the bear’s furry head with his left hand and attempted to pull it to the side, but sharp jolts of pain ran through his arm and forced him to let go. Realizing he only had the use of one arm, Kyle pushed with his good arm while thrusting up with his right leg, rocking the bear’s carcass and sliding out a little each time he rocked the animal.
After numerous attempts, he finally rolled free from under the animal, panting for air and covered in blood. Kyle crawled away from the bear and lay on the road, cradling his left arm while carefully moving each of the fingers on his left hand to see if they still worked. Finding them functional, he carefully removed his jacket and rolled up his shirtsleeve, revealing a series of puncture wounds on the top and bottom of his arm as well as some deep gouges on his left shoulder.
Garfield had somehow gotten to his feet during the struggle and was breathing hard and wheezing, having staggered away from the bear and towards the river, his legs, like a newborn animal trying to negotiate his first steps, barely strong enough to hold him up. “Be careful, old boy,” Kyle called out as the injured animal descended the bank to the water.
The horse slipped on a boulder and dropped to his front knees, letting out a pitiful moan as he fought unsuccessfully to regain his footing. Kyle stood up, found himself similarly shaky-legged, and slowly made his way to the horse. “Just wait, Garfield,” he implored as he bent to stroke the animal’s head, then descended the slope to the river. Blood covered his hands, arms, and face, and he washed it off before taking a drink, then cupped his hands and scooped some water from the river. He retraced his steps back to the wounded animal and trickled the water onto the horse’s tongue.
Garfield responded to the cold liquid, lapping at it as best he could. Kyle repeated the process until Garfield no longer responded to the water, and he rolled over onto his less injured side and laid his head on the ground, resuming his slow, rhythmic breathing. Kyle walked back to the saddle on the ground and fished out an old undershirt, wrapping it tightly around his arm in an attempt to stem the bleeding. He doctored his various wounds, then followed the trail of blood on the highway back to the dying animal.
Garfield lay immobile on the ground, his chest no longer moving, his limbs still. Kyle rubbed the horse’s nose. “I’m so sorry, friend,” he said as he dropped beside him. “I’m so, so, sorry.” He gazed at the animal in silence, Garfield’s mane fluttering in the wind the only movement.
Kyle returned to where he’d set the saddle and stared down at it. All of his possessions were attached to it, along with some deer meat and a few other food items his father had sent. The next town was over five miles away, with an unknown number of homes along the way. He plopped down, leaned back against the saddle, and reloaded the magazines for his pistol, now uncomfortably short on ammo. He had his backpack, but somewhere along the way, he was going to have to find someone willing to trade a saddle for a duffle bag or, better yet, a bicycle, and hopefully a few other supplies to help him get home. He rested for a long time until, somewhat recovered, he stood up, grabbed the saddle by the horn, hefted it onto his back with a grunt, and once again began the journey home on foot.
CHAPTER 47
Monday, March 19th
Deer Creek, MT
David opened the door and leaned outside. “Mom, Grace says that dinner is ready. You should come in now.”
Jennifer looked at David, her face betraying the mixture of emotions she was experiencing.
“No sign of dad?” he asked, knowing what was on her mind.
She shook her head. “Nothing. I’ve been watching for the last two hours, and still nothing.”
“He’ll be okay. He made it from Texas; he can make it from Idaho.”
Jennifer swallowed, though the lump in her throat made it difficult. “You’re sure dad told Frank he would be home on the sixteenth?”
“Yes, Mom. You’ve already asked me that multiple times. And I’m sure. He’ll probably be home tomorrow. He’s on horseback, so, you know, it’s tough to predict how long the trip will take.”
“Thanks
, David,” Jennifer said with a half-hearted smile. “I should be the one reassuring you, not the other way around.”
“Let’s go eat. It’s spaghetti. Grace used some more of her food storage stuff. It looks like real food, but she says the sauce is from powder, and we don’t have mushrooms, or cheese,” he thought a couple seconds, “or real hamburger, or butter, or peppers, or…”
“I get it David. It’s not like real spaghetti.”
He nodded with a grin. “Well, it isn’t, but it still looks and smells pretty good, especially compared to all the wheat and bean stuff we eat most of the time.”
Jennifer stepped inside, and David followed her to the kitchen. A big pot on the table was filled with spaghetti and sauce that had been stirred together. Carol, Grace, Emma and Spencer were already seated, with Spencer eyeing the food ravenously.
“Looks good, doesn’t it, Spence?” Jennifer said as she sat down.
Spencer nodded, keeping his eyes locked on the food. “I love spaghetti,” he muttered.
Grace smiled. “I’m glad to hear that little Spencer,” she said. “I’ll have to make it more. I’ve been trying to pace our food use, but we’ll be able to start growing a garden again soon, so maybe I don’t have to hold back as much.”
“That would be nice, wouldn’t it?” Jennifer said.
Spencer nodded, still focused on the food.
Grace offered a blessing, then they began to eat. Jennifer watched as her children attacked the food and felt a pang of guilt cut through her as they devoured the meal, so obviously hungry, yet so rarely complaining. Jennifer picked at the food on her plate. She was as hungry as the rest, but her stomach was too tied in knots to eat much. “Slow down, David,” she said. “You should try tasting it a little bit before you swallow.”
“David swallowed and kept shoveling. “Sorry, but this is real good, and I’m pretty hungry.”
Jennifer returned the smile, but inwardly she wanted to cry. Her kids were all skinny and dirty, as well as smelly, if the truth was told. And their father was missing. It all tore at her heart every time she thought about it.
Jennifer had just taken a mouthful when Carol spoke up. “Did anyone hear the big news today?” she asked as she looked expectantly around the table. No one answered, so she went on. “I was checking on Craig Reider’s daughter this morning, she’s been sick, and anyways, she told me that her uncle is getting married.”
“Who’s her uncle,” Emma asked, looking up from her food.
“It’s Sean, from the militia, isn’t it?” David said, looking at Carol.
Carol nodded. “It is Sean, and he’s engaged.”
“Who’s he marrying?” Jennifer asked, only half listening to the conversation but still curious about the answer. “Someone from Clinton? I don’t think there’s anyone in Deer Creek, is there?”
Carol shook her head. “It’s not Clinton, and it’s not Deer Creek. She’s from Wyoming.”
Jennifer’s jaw dropped. “You mean he’s marrying Rose?”
Carol nodded and grinned widely. “That’s what I mean. Apparently he asked her last night, and she said yes.”
“I didn’t even know they were dating,” Jennifer said, before taking another forkful of food.
“How do you even date around here? It’s not like you can go to a movie, or a restaurant or anything.” David wiped the corner of his mouth with the back of his hand. “I did see them talking a few times. How long has she been here?”
“It’s been about a month,” Jennifer said, doing the math in her head. “She got here a couple of weeks after your dad left.”
“Don’t you have to know each other for a long time before you can get married?” Emma asked, scraping the last bit of food into her mouth.
“There aren’t any rules, Emma,” David said. “If you knew anything about love, you’d know that.”
“Like you know anything about it,” Emma shot back. “Or are you still in love with Amy?”
David went red in the face and stared daggers at his sister. “Just shut up, Emma,” he said as she laughed at him.
“Kids,” Jennifer said, raising her hands. “No fighting at the table, or anywhere else for that matter. Just cut it out. And David’s right. There aren’t any rules for falling in love.”
David gave Emma a smirk, which she just ignored. “So why do people get married, anyway?” Emma asked.
“Because they love each other,” Spencer said, joining the conversation.
“But they already love each other. They don’t need to be married to do that. Do they, Mom?”
Jennifer shook her head. “Of course not, sweetie. I love you and your brothers, and we’re not married.”
“So why do people get married?” Emma asked her mother, curious.
“Ahh, I guess, it’s just more of a tradition, than anything.” Jennifer stammered, looking around the table for help with the question. “It’s just what we do.”
Grace raised her hand. “Mind if I chime in?”
Jennifer nodded, grateful for the help.
Grace addressed Emma directly. “Do you plan to get married someday?”
Emma shrugged. “I suppose. That’s what we do, isn’t it?”
“It is, but marriage has been changed a lot since I was a little girl.” Grace looked around the table and smiled. “You probably don’t want me to bore you with my story…”
“Please, tell us,” Jennifer said. “It would be nice to hear about you and Chuck. Looking back, I wish we had spent more time with their grandparents, having them tell their stories. It’s a shame we found it so easy to just send the kids off to watch TV while the adults visited.”
Grace nodded in agreement. “You kids up for a story?”
David and Emma nodded. Spencer looked at his mom, hoping to be excused from the table. He was met with a stern look, so he closed his eyes and leaned back against his chair.
Grace laughed a little. “I’ll try not to drag it out too long, but maybe my story can help explain what I think about marriage. I grew up in a pretty small town in Southern Idaho, a town called Grace, just like me. It was almost as small as Deer Creek is, small enough that everyone knew everyone else. One summer in the early sixties, a boy shows up that I had never seen before, a Charles Turner from Cleveland, Ohio. In a little town, it’s pretty exciting when someone new comes around, especially when they’re as handsome as he was. I had just finished my junior year of high school, and back then, most girls thought about marriage instead of college, so I was pretty excited about Mr. Turner.”
“Was it love at first sight?” Emma asked, listening carefully.
“No,” Grace said, shaking her head slowly. “It wasn’t love at first sight. Love takes time to grow, but it was cute at first sight, at least for me.”
Spencer wrinkled his nose. “What’s cute at first sight?”
“Cute at first sight is what most people experience, but they call it love. I was definitely smitten with Charles. He seemed so wonderful to me, and I did think it was love at the time, but so did a lot of other girls, which didn’t make him very popular with the boys. Anyway, somehow I won the Charles lottery, and before I graduated from high school, we were engaged.”
“Oh, my,” Jennifer said. “You two didn’t waste any time, did you?”
Grace blushed a little. “By today’s standards, we didn’t, although Sean and Rose make us look sloth-like. But back then, we weren’t too far out of the norm, especially for small towns. And I might say, marriages back then lasted a lot longer than they do now, so it wasn’t bad.”
“Guess I’ll give you that. How long were the two of you married?” Jennifer asked.
“Fifty-two years,” Grace answered with glistening eyes. “Fifty-two wonderful years. And when we married, we both expected it would last. Divorce wasn’t really an option. I’m not saying it was a walk in the park. My dad was pretty upset about our romance. Charles was from far away, he was three years older than me, and he wasn’t of our faith, s
o my family tried really hard to discourage me.”
“Did you guys elope?” David asked, also drawn in by Grace’s experience.
“Oh, no. Nothing like that, though we did talk about it a couple of times. No, my dad realized my mind was made up, and he kind of liked Chuck anyway, so he convinced my mother that they should give us their blessing.”
“Did they come to your wedding?” Emma asked.
“Did they ever. We got married at the end of June, just after I graduated, and my parents planned the biggest wedding you could imagine. I thought they might do something little because I was being a bit of a rebel, marrying an outsider and all, but it was just the opposite. I think it was the biggest wedding Grace, Idaho had seen to that point.”
“If your parents weren’t real happy, why’d they do it? That doesn’t make sense.” David pulled his knees up close to his body and wrapped his arms around them to keep warm.
“I asked my dad that before our first daughter got married. He laughed and said it was to keep us on our toes.”
“Why did he want you on your toes?” Spencer asked, looking puzzled.
“It doesn’t really mean to be on my toes. He just wanted us to be thoughtful about it. He said he wanted everyone to know who had promised to take care of his daughter, and he wanted us to know that everyone knew. Said a marriage vow isn’t just to one person. I thought about that a lot as my own daughters married off, and it makes a lot of sense. You see, when people marry, it’s not just something you do on a whim because you like someone, though that’s what a lot of people seem to think. Marriage is a promise you make to the person you marry and, almost as important, to your community and the families, that the two of you have committed to supporting each other and your children.”