by Ellen Wood
For once speech failed Charlotte Travice, and she sat gazing at her sister. Her equanimity had received several shocks that evening; but none had been like this. She had seen but little of this David Dundyke; but, a vision of remembrance rose before her of an inferior, common young man, carrying coal-scuttles upstairs in his shirt-sleeves, who could not speak a word grammatically.
“Are you really mad, Betsey?”
“I feared you would not like it, Charlotte; and I know I can’t expect to be as you are. But we shall be more than a hundred miles apart, so that it need not annoy you.”
Betsey had unconsciously put the matter in the right light. It was not because Mr. Dundyke was unfit to be Betsey’s husband, but because he was unfit to be her brother-in-law, that the matter so grated on the ear of Charlotte.
“I cannot expect much better, Charlotte; I have not been educated as you have. Perhaps if I had been — —”
“But the man is utterly beneath you!” burst forth Charlotte. “He is a common man. He used — if I am not mistaken — to black the boots and shoes for the house at night, and carry up the coal before he went out in the morning!”
“But not as a servant, Charlotte; only to save work for his mother. Just as I helped with the rooms and waited, you know. He does it all still. They were very respectable once; but Mr. Dundyke died, and she had to struggle on, and she took this house in Upper Stamford-street. You have heard her tell mamma of it many a time.”
“You can’t think of marrying him, Betsey? You are something of a lady, at any rate; and he —— cannot so much as speak like a Christian.”
“He is very steady and industrious; he will be sure to get on,” murmured Betsey. “Some of the clerks in the house he is in get a great deal of money.”
“What house is it?” snapped Charlotte, beginning to feel cross again. “A public-house? — an eating-house?”
“It is a tea-house,” said Betsey, mildly. “They are large wholesale tea-dealers; whole shiploads of tea come consigned to them from China. He went into it first of all as errand-boy, and — —”
“You need not have told that, I think.”
“And has got on by attention and perseverance to be a clerk. He is twenty-two now.”
“If he gets on to be a partner — if he gets on to be sole proprietor — you cannot separate him from himself!” shrieked Charlotte. “Look here, Betsey; sooner than you should marry that low man, I’ll have you to live with me. You can make yourself useful.”
“Thank you kindly, Charlotte, all the same; but I could not come to you. You see, you and I do not get on together. It is my fault, I know, being so inferior; but I can’t help it. Besides, I have promised David Dundyke.”
Charlotte looked at her. “You do not mean to tell me that you have any love for this David Dundyke?”
Another bright blush, and Betsey cast down her pretty blue eyes. “We have seen so much of each other, Charlotte,” she said, in a tone of apology; “he brings the books home nearly every evening now, instead of doing them out.”
“Well, I shan’t stop with you,” concluded Charlotte, moving to the door. “I’m afraid to stop, for I truly believe you are going on for Bedlam. And you’d better make haste, if you want to do anything to yourself. Supper will be ready directly.”
“One moment, Charlotte,” said Betsey, detaining her— “I want to say only a word. They were speaking downstairs this evening of a family of the name of Hughes — a Mr. Edward Hughes, and some sisters.”
“Well?” cried Charlotte.
“I think they are related to Mrs. Dundyke. She has relatives in Westerbury of that name; she has mentioned it several times since you came down. One or two of the sisters are dressmakers.”
“Pleasant!” ejaculated Charlotte. “Are they intimate?”
“Not at all. I don’t think they have met for years, and I am sure they never correspond. But when you were all speaking of the Hughes’s to-night, I thought it must be the same. I did not like to say so.”
“And it’s well you did not,” was Charlotte’s comment. “Those Hughes people have not been in good odour in Westerbury since last December.”
She went downstairs in a thoughtful mood, her brain at work upon the question of whether Betsey could be in her right mind. The revelation regarding Mr. David Dundyke caused her really to doubt it. She, Charlotte Travice, had a sufficiently correct taste — to give her her due — and it would have been simply impossible to her to have associated herself for life with anyone not possessing, outwardly at any rate, the attributes of a gentleman.
CHAPTER IX.
DISPLEASING EYES.
The wedding day of Mr. William Arkell and Miss Travice dawned. All had gone well, and was going on well towards completion. You who have learnt to like Mildred Arkell, may probably have been in hopes that some impediment might arise to frustrate the wedding — that the bride, after all, might be Mildred, not Charlotte. But it is in the chronicles of romance chiefly that this sort of poetical justice takes place. Weddings are not frustrated in real life; and when I told you at the beginning that this was a story of real life, I told you the truth. The day dawned — one of the finest the close of April has ever seen — and the wedding party went to church to the marriage, and came home again when it was over.
It was quite a noted wedding for those quiet days, and guests were bidden to it from far and near. That the bride looked charmingly lovely was indisputable, and they called William Arkell a lucky fellow.
A guest at the breakfast-table, but not in the church, was Mildred Arkell. She had wholly declined to be the bridesmaid; but it was next to impossible for her to decline to be at the breakfast. Put the case to yourselves, as Mildred had put it to herself in that past March night, that now seemed to be so long ago. Her resolve to pass over the affliction in silence; to bear, and make no sign, involved its consequences — and they were, that social life must go on just as usual, and she must visit at her uncle’s as before. Worse than any other thought to Mildred, was the one, that the terrible blow to her might become known. She shrank with all the reticence of a pure-minded girl from the baring of her heart to others — shrank from it with a shivering dread — and Mildred felt that she would far rather die, than see her love suspected for one, who, as it now turned out, had never loved her. So she buried her misery within her, and went to Mr. Arkell’s as before, not quite so frequently perhaps, but sufficiently so to excite no observation. She had joined in the plans and preparations for the wedding; had helped to fix upon the bride’s attire, simply because she could not help herself. How she had borne it, and suppressed within her heart its own agony, she never knew. Charlotte’s keen bright eyes would at times be fixed on hers, as if they could read her soul’s secret; perhaps they did. William’s rather seemed to shun her. But she had gone through it all, and borne it bravely; and none suspected how cruel was the ordeal.
And here was Mildred at the wedding-breakfast! There had been no escape for it. Peter went to church, but Mrs. Dan and Mildred arrived for breakfast only. Mildred, regarded and loved almost as a daughter of the house, had the place of honour assigned her next to William Arkell, his bride being on his other hand. None forgot how chaste and pretty Mildred looked that day; paler it may have been than usual, but that’s expected at a wedding. She wore a delicate pearl-grey silk, and her gentle face, with its sweet, sad eyes, had never been pleasanter to look upon. “A little longer! a little longer!” she kept murmuring to her own rebellions heart. “May God help me to bear!”
Perhaps the one who felt the most out of place at that breakfast-table, was our young friend, Miss Betsey Travice. Miss Betsey had never assisted at a scene of gaiety in her life — or, as she called it, grandeur; and perhaps she wished it over nearly as fervently as another was doing. She wore a new shining silk of maize colour, the gift of Mrs. Arkell — for maize was then in full fashion for bridesmaids — and Betsey felt particularly stiff and ashamed in it. What if the young gentleman on her left, who seemed t
o partake rather freely of the different wines, and to be a rollicking sort of youth, should upset something on her beautiful dress! Betsey dared not think of the catastrophe, and she astonished him by suddenly asking him if he’d please to move his glasses to the other side.
For answer, he turned his eyes full upon her, and she started. Very peculiar eyes they were, round and black, showing a great deal of the white, and that had a yellow tinge. His face was sallow, but otherwise his features were rather fine. It was not the colour of the eyes, however, that startled Betsey Travice, but their expression. A very peculiar expression, which made her recoil from him, and it took its seat firmly thenceforth in her memory. A talkative, agreeable sort of youth he seemed in manner, not as old by a year or two, Betsey thought, as herself; but, somehow, she formed a dislike to him — or rather to his eyes.
“I beg your pardon — I did not catch what you asked me.”
“Oh, if you please, sir,” meekly stammered Betsey, “I asked if you would mind moving the wine glasses to the other side; all three of them are full.”
“And you are afraid of your dress,” he said, good-naturedly, doing what she requested. “Such accidents do happen to me sometimes, for I have a trick of throwing my arms about.”
But, in spite of the good nature so evident on the surface, there was a hidden vein of satire apparent to Betsey’s ear. She blushed violently, fearing she had done something dreadfully incongruous. “I wonder who he is?” she thought; amidst the many names of guests she had not caught his.
Later, when all had left, save the Arkell family, and the bride and bridegroom were some miles on their honeymoon tour, Betsey ventured to put the question to Mildred — Who was the gentleman who had sat next to her at breakfast?
Poor Mildred could not recollect. The breakfast was to her one scene of confused remembrance, and she knew nothing save that she and William Arkell sat side by side.
“I don’t remember where you sat,” she was obliged to confess to Betsey.
“Nearly opposite to you, Miss Arkell. He had great black eyes, and he talked loud.”
“Oh, that was Ben Carr,” interrupted Peter; “he did sit next to you. He is Squire Carr’s grandson. Did you see an old gentleman with a good deal of white hair, at the end of the table, near my mother?”
“Yes, I did,” said Betsey; “I thought what beautiful hair it was.”
“That was Squire Carr. I wonder, by the way, what brought Ben at the breakfast. Aunt,” added Peter, turning to Mrs. Arkell; “did you invite Benjamin Carr?”
“No, Peter, Benjamin was not invited,” was the reply. “Squire Carr and his son were invited, but John declined. I don’t much think he likes going out.”
“Afraid of being put to the expense of a coat,” interrupted Peter.
There was a general laugh, John Carr’s propensity to closeness in expenditure was well known. Mrs. Arkell resumed —
“So when John Carr declined, your uncle asked for his eldest son, young Valentine, to come with the squire; it seems, however, the squire brought Benjamin instead.”
“Report runs that the squire favours his younger grandson more than he does his elder,” remarked Peter. “For that matter, I don’t know who does like young Valentine; I don’t, he is too mean-spirited. Why did you wish to know who it was, Miss Betsey?”
“Not for anything in particular, sir. What curious eyes he has got!”
It was late when Mrs. Dan and her children went home. The evening had been a quiet one; in no way different from the usual evenings at Mr. Arkell’s. Mildred had borne up bravely, and been cheerful as the rest.
But, oh! the tension it had been to every nerve of her frame, every fibre of her heart! Not until she was shut up in the quiet of her own room, did she know the strain it had been. She took her pretty dress off, threw a shawl on her shoulders, and sat down; her brain battling with its misery, her hands pressed upon her throbbing temples.
How long she thus sat she could not tell. I believe — I honestly and truly believe — that no sorrow the world knows, can be of a nature more cruel than was Mildred’s that night; certainly none could be more intensely felt. “How can I bear it?” she moaned, “how can I bear it? To see them come back here in their wedded happiness, and have to witness it, and live. Perhaps — after a time, if God will help me, I shall be — —”
“What on earth are you doing, Mildred?”
She started from her chair with a scream. So entirely had she believed herself secure from interruption, that in the first confused moments it seemed as if her thoughts and anguish had been laid bare. Mrs. Dan stood there in her night-dress, a candle in her hand.
“You were moaning, Mildred. Are you ill?”
“I — I am quite well, mamma,” stammered Mildred, her words confused, and her face a fiery red. “Do you want anything?”
“But how is it you are not undressed? I had been in bed ever so long.”
“I suppose I had fallen into a train of thought, and let the time slip away,” answered Mildred, beginning to undo her hair in a heap, as if to make up for the lost time. “Why have you come out of your bed, mamma?”
“Child, I don’t feel myself, and I thought I’d come and call you. It is well, as it happens, that you are not undressed, for I think I should like a cup of tea made. If I drink it very hot, it may take away the pain.”
“Where is the pain?” asked Mildred, beginning to put up her hair again, as hurriedly as she had undone it.
“I scarcely know where it is; I feel ill all over. The fact is, I never ought to go to these festivities,” added Mrs. Dan, hastening back to her own room. “They are sure to upset me.”
Alas! it was not the festivity that had “upset” Mrs. Dan; but that her time was come. Another hour, and she was so much worse, that Peter had to be aroused from his bed, and go for their doctor. Mrs. Daniel Arkell was in danger.
It may be deemed unfeeling, in some measure, to say it, but it was the best thing that could have happened for Mildred. It took her out of her own thoughts — away from herself. There was so much to do, even in that first night, which was only the commencement; and it all fell on Mildred. Peter, with his timid heart, and unpractised hands, was utterly useless in a sick room, as book-worms in general are; and their one servant, Ann, a young, inexperienced, awkward girl, was nearly as much so. Mustard poultices had to be got, steaming hot flannels, and many other things. Before Mildred had made ready one thing, another called for her. It was well it was so!
At seven o’clock, Peter started for his uncle’s, and told the news there. Mr. Arkell went up directly; Mrs. Arkell a little later. Mrs. Dan’s danger had become imminent then, and Mr. Arkell went himself, and brought back a physician.
Later in the morning, Mildred was called downstairs to the sitting-room. Betsey Travice was standing there. The girl came forward, a pleading light in her earnest eye.
“Oh, Miss Arkell! if you will only please to let me! I have come to ask to help you.”
“To help me!” mechanically repeated Mildred.
“I am so good a nurse; I am indeed! Poor papa died suddenly, but I nursed mamma all through her last long illness; there was only me to do everything, and she used to say that I was as handy as if I had learnt it in the hospitals. Let me try and help you!”
“You are very, very kind,” said Mildred, feeling inclined to accept the offer as freely as it was made, for she knew that she should require assistance if the present state of things continued. “How came you to think of it?”
“When Mrs. Arkell came home to breakfast this morning, she said how everything lay upon you, and that you would never be able to do it. I believe she was thinking of sending Tring; but I took courage to tell her what a good nurse I was, and to beg her to let me come. I said — if you will not think it presuming of me, Miss Arkell — that Mrs. Daniel was my Godmother, and I thought it gave me a sort of right to wait upon her.”
Mildred, undemonstrative Mildred, stooped down in a sudden impulse, and k
issed the gentle face. “I shall be very glad of you, Betsey. Will you stay now?”
There was no need of further words. Betsey’s bonnet and shawl were off in a moment, and she stood ready in her soft, black, noiseless dress.
“Please to put me to do anything there is to do, Miss Arkell. Anything, you know. I am handy in the kitchen. I do any sort of rough work as handily as I can nurse. And perhaps your servant will lend me an apron.”
Three days only; three days of sharp, quick illness, and Mrs. Daniel Arkell’s last hour arrived. Betsey Travice had not boasted unwarrantably, for a better, more patient, ay, or more skilful nurse never entered a sick chamber. She really was of the utmost use and comfort, and Mildred righteously believed that Heaven had been working out its own ends in sending her just at that time to Westerbury.
It was somewhat singular that Betsey Travice should again be brought into the presence of the young gentleman to whose eyes she had taken so unaccountable a dislike. On that last day, when the final scene was near at hand, the maid came to the dying chamber, saying that Miss Arkell was wanted below; a messenger had come over from Mr. John Carr, and was asking to see her in person.
“I cannot go down now,” was Mildred’s answer; “you might have known that, Ann.”
“I did know it, miss, and I said it; that is, I said I didn’t think you could. But he wouldn’t take no denial; he said Mr. Carr had told him not.”
Giving herself no trouble as to who the “he” might be, Mildred whispered to Betsey Travice to go down for her, and mention the state of things.
Excessively to Betsey’s discomfiture, she found herself confronted by the gentleman of the curious eyes, who held out his hand familiarly.
His errand was nothing particular, after all; but his father had expressly ordered him to see Miss Arkell, and convey to her personally his sympathy and inquiries as to her mother’s state. For the news of Mrs. Dan’s danger had travelled to Squire Carr’s, and urgent business at home had alone prevented John Carr’s coming over in person. As it was, he sent his son Ben.