Other than lip gloss, which I was going to chew off those soft, full lips, she’d left off the makeup. I was glad, I didn’t like the taste of that shit anyway, and I planned on doing a lot of face kissing and jaw nibbling. She’d piled that wild hair of hers up, but enough of the fiery curls had rebelled and were resting like little cork screws against her neck. I was going to enjoy losing my hands in that soft mass later. Shit, I wanted to eat her up now.
I walked to the foot of the stairs, my gaze eating her up as she descended like fucking Cinderella arriving at the ball. She halted when she was eye level with me. The slightest trembling smile on her mouth and the knowledge in her eyes revealed that she knew what she was doing to me. She enjoyed bringing me to my fucking knees. As I inhaled her tantalizing scent, I wrapped an arm around her waist and jerked her to me. She gasped, her hands coming up to rest against my chest.
“Fuck, you’re beautiful,” I growled, kissing her. My libido went into full fucking alert.
“You’ve been fighting this for so long,” Audra whispered against my mouth when we parted slightly.
“And now I can’t get enough.” My hands dropped to her waist. She was so tiny, and yet all woman. If I’d wanted to I could easily have crushed her.
“Where have you been all my life?” she asked, looking deeply into my eyes. “I’ve been attracted to you from the start. This whole thing is so weird, Hawk.”
“Yeah, it is babe. Just take it one day at a time.”
She smiled as if she knew a secret that I didn’t. “Is that what you’re going to do?”
“The way I live my life, I take it one minute at a time. Things have a way of not working out the way you expect them to. People have a way of disappointing you.” We’d both gone through that particular hell. “You ready to go?”
“Is this a date?” Audra asked teasingly.
“Fuck, no, I don’t date.”
“Then what is it?”
“Whatever you want it to be, babe. After the shit that’s gone down, I think you deserve a quiet evening and nice dinner.”
“And then what?”
She batted those fucking long lashes at me and I found myself grinning. “What do you think happens?”
“I want to hear you say the words, Hawk.” Her husky tone affected me but not nearly as much as the feel of her hand cupping my dick over my jeans. I found myself thrusting into her. She squeezed. I clenched my teeth and groaned.
When I couldn’t stand it anymore I reached down and grabbed her around the wrist. Instead of pulling her away I pressed her hand tight, moving it up and down and relieving some of the ache in my dick. “Baby, there’s nothing I’d like more than to strip you down and fuck you raw.” I pulled her bottom lip between my teeth and chewed on it a little. “I’ll leave it up to you what you want to do first.” I wanted to make it clear that either way, she was getting fucked.
As if on cue her belly rolled with sounds of emptiness. We both laughed and pulled apart. “Maybe you should feed me first. I have a feeling I’ll need my strength.”
“Let’s go then.” I took her by the hand.
Chapter 24
Audra
I glanced down at my empty plate, surprised that I’d eaten the whole steak. Granted, it was a small filet mignon, but I wasn’t a big red meat eater. It had been cooked to perfection and was too tasty to waste. I did, however, leave half my baked potato, which Hawk wasted no time in helping himself to. When he noticed it going ignored he simply reached over with his fork, speared it, and dropped it onto his empty plate.
The atmosphere of the brightly lit restaurant was quiet and almost intimate. When we’d first arrived there we’d been taken to a table in the corner which allowed us to observe the whole room. I couldn’t help but notice that Hawk was very observant of what was going on, but that was usual for him. The man was always on guard, ready to react if he needed to.
We ate our meal in silence, giving each other an occasional glance. Hawk’s looks were dark and intense, as if he was looking into my soul for answers. Every time I caught him looking at me I grew warm inside, squeezing my legs together to relieve the constant itch there. It was amazing how fast and hard my body responded to him. All those years of thinking Dane was what I wanted paled with what I felt from just one look from Hawk.
Great. I saw our waitress walking over, a young twenty something woman wearing a uniform that was two sizes too small and showing too much cleavage, in my opinion, anyway. She’d found every reason that she could think of to keep returning to our table. What she wanted was clear in the brown lust-filled eyes that ate Hawk up. Her nipples looked like tiny headlights and were directed right at him. I rolled my eyes, glancing at Hawk and catching his smirk. The man knew what he did to women, and as far as I was concerned, his acceptance of her flirting only encouraged her.
“Would anyone like dessert?” she reached our table and asked.
Hawk’s gaze never left mine. “My dessert is sitting right across from me.”
Well, at least that was something. I caught my breath, glancing up in time to see the waitress’s expression go from intense interest in him to confused perusal of me. I wanted to laugh. It was obvious she was looking for a reason that he might prefer me over her. Was she one of his ex’s?
“Nothing for me, thanks.”
Her goo-goo eyes moved back to Hawk. “Sure I can’t tempt you with something?” Her voice was dripping with obvious innuendo, and when she licked her lips I lost my cool.
“Am I invisible?” I snapped. She dragged her gaze away from Hawk, showing surprise at my bitchy outburst. “Or are you that stupid? Can’t you see that we’re−” I motioned from Hawk to me and back again, “Together? You can stand there all you want and make a fool of yourself, but I’m the only pussy he’s getting into tonight.”
The girl’s brows lifted, her eyes grew round, and her face turned beet red. She could only blink and stare at me like an idiot. Maybe I had been invisible up to that point. As she was clearly at a loss for words, I turned my glare on Hawk. The whole thing was his fault. The amusement in his eyes pissed me off and I kicked him beneath the table, which only made his grin bigger. Finally, the waitress walked off with less of a swing in her step.
“Is she one of your ex’s?”
“A wanna be ex.”
“Nice. Maybe you can move on to her when you’re done with me.”
His expression sobered. “She’ll be old and gray by then.” His comment took the fire right out of me. “Come here.”
I blinked, wondering what he’d do if I ignored him, scooting over anyway because it was exactly where I wanted to be. “Okay, now what?” I asked, locking eyes with him.
“We need to talk.”
It was what I’d been expecting. My gaze fell to his smooth lips, wishing that he’d kiss me. “And we couldn’t do that with me over there?”
“I wanted you close in case you need persuading,” he explained with a sexy grin.
The glimmer in his eye held me spellbound. I was used to seeing them dark and cold. “Is this about our, ah situation?” He nodded. “I know you’ve said that I belong to you, but I’m not sure what that means. Is it just something you said in the heat of the moment, or−”
“Right up until the moment you picked out Dominick’s face I was going to turn your ass loose. I couldn’t wait to get you the fuck out of my life. I didn’t like what you were doing to me. I wanted you too fast, too hard, all the fucking time. Sonya had cured me of letting my emotions get involved with my dick. It was easier fucking without all that other shit, sticking to the kind of women who expected me to be a bastard.”
“I’m not like those other women, Hawk,” I reminded him softly.
“You think I didn’t fucking know that the moment I laid eyes on you? Yet still I wanted you, so fucking bad that I just took you. I treated you like the women I was used to.””
“I didn’t complain.”
“Yeah. I noticed.”
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��You got to me, too,” I said, meaning it. “Tell me what it means to be owned by you.”
“It’s simple, babe. You’re mine and I’m yours. I claim you in front of my brothers, so they all know you’re not to be messed with. I take care of you. As my woman you’ll gain the respect of the club and be protected.”
“Is that what an old lady is?” He nodded, and I knew he was watching my reaction carefully. “Why? You don’t love me.”
“I want you, babe. I don’t know what I feel for you exactly, but I want you with me. You have to decide what you want to do. Nothing is guaranteed. If you want to leave I’ll help you get to where you want to go.”
“You’d miss me,” I teased, a little sad that he’d let me go if I wanted to leave.
“Yeah, I fucking would. Look, you’ve seen what kind of life we live. It’s full of danger and chaos, but it’s what we thrive on. We don’t live by the same rules and laws that you’re used to. Most of us have businesses and homes outside the club, but some of the shit we do isn’t legal, and things can get ugly fast. If you decide to stay you’d become part of that life, and there’s no going back, Audra. If you’re in, you’re in all the fucking way.”
I thought about what Hawk was saying. I wanted to stay with him. The difference between us was that my heart was involved, while it was only physical for him. Either that or he just couldn’t bring himself to admit how he really felt. Sonya had hurt him so badly that maybe he was beyond repair. No, that sad thought left my mind right away. He’d finally kissed me, hadn’t he?
“You don’t have to decide now. In a couple days we’re going to Last Hope. There’s a place there were biker clubs meet up to reconnect and do a little recreational fighting. It will give you a chance to see more of what MCs are all about.”
“You mean besides killing?” His eyes darkened, and I knew that I’d said the wrong thing. I quickly made amends by saying, “I’d like that, Hawk.”
“Good. You ready to go home?”
Home. Yes, I acknowledged with a slight nod. Before I could move away, Hawk slid his hand around the back of my neck and pulled me in for a hard kiss. I opened my mouth so our tongues could connect, tasting his heat and wanting more. His touch, his kiss, fired me up faster than I could keep up with. I knew what awaited me when we got home, and I was eager to get to it. My insides were turning to liquid fire as he made love to my mouth with his, ending the kiss by drawing my bottom lip into his mouth and sucking on it.
Without warning I felt his hand between my legs. “What are you doing?” I gasped.
“Just checking to see if you’re wet for me.”
The tickle of his fingers caused me to open my legs more as he inched his way toward my pussy. “I’ve been wet for you all evening.”
“Fuck, babe—” His finger moved aside the thin strip covering my mound and slipped inside with ease.
“I told you.” I closed my eyes and moaned, before reminding myself that we were in a public restaurant and sitting at a table with no table cloth. My eyes snapped open to see who might be witnessing our actions. “I thought we were going home.” I shuddered when he flicked across my clit. “Hawk—”
He growled, took my hand and pulled me with him out of the booth. The fact that he didn’t pay the bill didn’t surprise me since his club owned the restaurant, and no one stopped us as we made our way out the door. Hawk led me to his bike in fast strides, and I smiled, recognizing that he was a man on a mission. Once he got me settled on his bike, him on the seat with me facing him in the front, I realized we weren’t going to make it home.
“I can’t believe we’re going to do this here.”
“Believe it. When I want you Audra, I don’t wait. It doesn’t matter where or when.” He ripped the tiny scrap of my panties away and once again his finger was sinking into my pussy. “Your cunt is fucking ready for my dick.”
It was always ready for his dick, but I wasn’t going to tell him that. I watched him, speechless, as he quickly undid his jeans and took his cock out. My gaze moved around the parking lot with nervous anticipation, praying that no one appeared to witness my undoing, because I knew that I would be undone by the time Hawk finished with me. Then, without warning, without hesitation, Hawk grabbed my upper thighs and pulled me onto his ready shaft.
“Ooohh!” I cried out, and then bit down on my bottom lip to stop any further sounds from escaping. I threw my head back and thrust my hips forward, needing more. Hawk tilted my hips until he was bottomed out and I could feel him everywhere. His deep growl sounded like a wounded animal, and like an animal claiming his mate, he sank his teeth into my neck.
He didn’t waste any time in moving, shoving into my body with steady thrusts designed for only one pleasurable outcome. It was going to be fast and uncontrolled, and I could already feel my orgasm climbing. Every time Hawk plunged into my body he hit all the right angles until a tiny explosion blossomed in my core into one, earth-shattering climax. I came undone. Almost immediately I felt him follow.
He slammed his mouth down on mine as we peaked, released, and convulsed against each other helplessly. It wasn’t long before I was filled with his seed and slipping on the bike as it dribbled out of me. I tore my mouth from Hawk’s to catch my breath, clinging to him so that I wouldn’t fall to the ground. His breathing was harsh against my ear. Eventually our breathing calmed, and we relaxed.
“I was never going to make it home with your fucking cunt snug against my ass.” I moved back to meet his eyes, wondering how many other women he’d fucked on his bike. “The only other woman I’ve fucked on my bike was Sonya,” he said, reading my mind.
I’d had a feeling. “Will you tell me about her?” He leaned his forehead against mine, a deep sigh passing through his lips. “I need to know what I’m up against, Hawk.”
“Sonya is the past.”
“And she’s—”
He put a finger against my lips. “Not here and not now.”
I was disappointed, but I had to respect Hawk’s wishes to keep that part of his life private. Maybe as time passed and he began to realize that he could trust me, he’d tell me. That is, if I decided to stay with him. If it were a question of just being with Hawk, it would have been a no brainer, but he came with a club, and what that entailed was a different matter. I wasn’t sure I had what it takes to live in his world.
He effortlessly swung around onto the seat. I wrapped my arms around his middle and snuggled against his backside. The ride home went uneventfully. No vans following us, there weren’t any shoot outs, just a peaceful ride beneath a star-studded sky on a quiet, winding road. Being underdressed, I was thankful for Hawk’s bulk protecting me from the cool air. My hands and arms, however, were frozen by the time we pulled up to his home.
He reached back and helped me off his bike. “I won’t be long, babe.” He handed me a key. “Head on inside while I put my bike away.”
I leaned forward and brushed my lips across his in a tender kiss. “Okay.” His smile warmed me as I turned and headed for the door. My hand was on the doorknob when I heard the sound of his bike take off. I fumbled with the key.
I didn’t see the shadow move up quietly behind me.
As an arm come around my waist I opened my mouth to scream while at the same time a hand covered my nose and mouth. I didn’t know what was on the cloth, I only had time to acknowledge that it smelled sweet, unique, nothing like I’d ever smelled before, and then I was sinking into a black abyss where nothing else mattered.
Hawk
I pulled my bike into the garage, cut the engine, and sat there. I didn’t want to think about Sonya, but Rock was right. The bitch still had her claws in me, even ten years later. I pinched the bridge of my nose, trying not to think about the ton of shit that had gone down. She’d been pure evil, wrapped up in a seductress’ body and a beautiful face. If I’d looked beyond the package I would have seen the cold darkness in her eyes. She’d had no soul.
From the beginning she’d played me.
Her killer looks had won me over and made me blind to what she really was. I’d ignored my brother’s warnings that she was no good, too high and cocky over the thought that an older woman wanted me, and for more than just sex. I’d just been patched into the club, so I hadn’t been naive to club life, just to women and how their devious minds worked. Before Sonya, my experience had been limited to sweetbutts. There’d been no reason to go looking for civilian pussy with whores around giving it up freely.
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