by Dick Francis
They did, however, follow up on the references I’d given them: my tutor at the university and Stallworthy himself.
The gruff old trainer told me he’d said my character and behavior were satisfactory. Thanks a lot, I thought. Jim laughed. “He doesn’t want you to leave and take Sarah’s Future with you. It’s a wonder he didn’t call you a loudmouthed troublemaker!”
There was a letter from my tutor:Dear Benedict,
I enclose a photocopy of a reference I have sent
to an institution called Weatherbys, that has
something to do with horse racing, I believe.
His testimonial in full read:Benedict Juliard is likely to have gained a creditable degree in Mathematics with Accounting, though not a brilliant one. He took very little part in student activities during his three years at University, as it seems he was exclusively interested in horses. There are no adverse reports of his character and behavior.
Shit, I thought. Oh, well.
Much to my astonishment, I also received a letter from Sir Vivian Durridge:My dear Benedict,
I am delighted to have seen over the past three years that you have had the opportunity to ride successfully as an amateur on your father’s horse, Sarah’s Future. I am sure that he has told you he enlisted my help in making you face- the fact that you were not cut out for rising to the top three in the steeplechase jockeys’ list. Looking back, I see that I was unnecessarily brutal in accusing you of drug taking, as I knew perfectly well at the time that with your sort of character you did not, but on that particular morning it seemed to me—and I regret it—that it was the only thing that would disturb you so badly that you would do as your father wanted, which was to go to university.
I have now heard from a friend of mine at Weatherbys that you have applied to them for a job. I enclose a photocopy of a letter I have written to them, and I hope that in some way this may straighten things between us.
Yours sincerely,
Vivian Durridge
His enclosure read:
To whom it may concern:
Benedict Juliard rode my horses as a sixteen-and seventeen-year-old amateur jockey. I found him completely trustworthy in every respect and would give him my unqualified endorsement in any position he applied for.
I sat down, the pages shaking in my hands. Vivian Durridge was about the last person I would ever have applied to for a thumbs-up.
I had vaguely been looking for a safe place to keep my birth certificate, so as not to lose it while I moved from lodgings to lodgings. I knew I wouldn’t lose the marriage photographs so I decided to put my birth certificate behind my father and Polly, and as I’d been doing that when Vivian Durridge’s remarkable letter arrived, I folded his pages into the frame, too.
Three days later the mail brought an envelope bearing the Weatherbys logo, a miniature representation of a stallion standing under an oak tree, from a painting by George Stubbs.
I was cravenly afraid of opening it. It would begin We regret ...
Well, it had to be faced.
I opened the envelope, and the letter began We are pleased ...
Pleased.
That evening my father telephoned. “Is it true you’ve got yourself a job at Weatherbys?”
“Yes. How do you know?”
“Why didn’t you ask for my help?”
“I didn’t think of it.”
“I despair of you, Ben.” He didn’t, though, sound particularly annoyed.
He had been talking to one of the Weatherby cousins at a dinner in the City, he said. The web of insider chat in the City far outdid the Internet.
I asked if I could move Sarah’s Future from Devon.
“Find a trainer.”
“Thanks.”
Spencer Stallworthy grumbled. Jim shrugged: life always moved on. I parted from them with gratitude and vanned my chestnut pal to a new home.
Weatherbys took me into their racing operations department, which handled entries, runners, weights, riders, the draw: all the details of every race run in Britain, amounting to about a thousand transactions most days and up to three thousand at busy times.
All this computer speed took place in airy light expanses of desks and floor space, and in the calm quietness so impressive on my first visit. I’d thought that at a couple of days over twenty-one I might be at a disadvantage from youth, but I found at once that the whole staff were young, and enjoyed what they were doing. Within a month I couldn’t imagine working anywhere else.
Every so often my own name cropped up, both whenever I was actually racing, but also in the next-door department of racing administration, which dealt with records of owners. It became a sort of running joke—“Hey, Juliard, if you race that nag again at Fontwell, he’ll suffer a 7-lb. penalty,” or “Hey, Juliard, you carried overweight at Ludlow. Cut down on the plum duff!”
Sarah’s Future, as far as I could tell, enjoyed the exchange of the soft air of Devon for the brisker winds of farther north. He still acknowledged my morning arrivals with much head nodding and blow breathing down his wide black nostrils, and he seemed to think it normal that I should embrace his neck and tell him he was a great fella, and mean it.
Those who say there can be a true fusing of animal/ human consciousness are probably deluding themselves, but after several intimate years of speed together, that chestnut and I were probably as near to brothers as interspecies relationships could get.
One Saturday, about a year after I’d started at Weatherbys, the horse and I lined up at Towcester for an uneventful three-mile ’chase, my father’s inconspicuous colors of gold and gray made even less discernible by a persistent drizzle.
No one on the stands seemed afterwards to be sharply clear what happened. From my point of view we were rising cleanly in a well-judged takeoff to a big black open ditch fence coming up the hill towards the straight. Another horse tripped and crashed into us, knocking Sarah’s Future completely off balance. He had jumped that fence expertly several times over the past years: neither he nor I was expecting disaster. His feet were knocked sideways. He landed in a heap, throwing me off forwards. I connected with the ground in one of those crunching collisions that tells you at once that you’ve broken a bone without being sure which bone. I heard it snap. I rolled, tucking my head in to save it from the hooves of the runners behind me. The remainder of the field of half-ton horses clattered over my head as I lay winded and anxious on the slippery grass with blades of it in my mouth and up my nose, and dislodging my goggles after an uncontrollable slide.
The clamor of the contest faded away towards the next fence. Two horses and two jockeys weren’t going to be worrying about that. The horse that had crashed into Sarah’s Future scrambled to its unsteady feet and trotted off as if dazed, and his unseated rider bent over me with “Are you all right, mate?” as his best effort at an apology.
I gripped his hand to haul myself to my feet and found that the bone I’d broken was somewhere in my left shoulder.
Sarah’s Future, also on his feet, was trying to walk but succeeding only in hobbling around in a circle. He couldn’t put any weight on one of his forelegs. A groundsman caught him by the bridle and held him.
In hopeless love for the horse I walked over to him and tried to will it not to be true, not to be possible that after so long this closest of companionships should have so suddenly come to the edge of a precipice.
I knew, as every rider of any experience knew, that there was nothing to be done. Sarah’s Future, like Sarah herself, was going to eternity in my hands.
I wept. I couldn’t help it. It looked like the rain. The horse had broken his near foreleg. His jockey, his left collarbone.
The horse died.
The jockey lived.
Ten
My father had discontinued the insurance of Sarah’s Future when I went to work for Weatherbys; partly, he’d said, because the horse was getting old and lessening in value and partly, punctiliously, so that if the horse were killed, Weatherb
ys would not have to pay up.
He would hear no apologies when I telephoned him. He briefly said, “Bad luck.”
When I went back to work two days after Towcester the man who had originally interviewed me drew up a chair at my desk and said, “We used to insure that horse of yours, of course.”
I explained why my father had let the insurance lapse.
“I didn’t come to talk to you about your loss,” the Weatherbys man said, “though you do have all my sympathy. And is your arm all right? I came to ask you whether you would be interested in transferring yourself from here into our insurance services department, to work there from now on.”
The insurance department, mainly one long room walled by books, more books and files and more files, was inhabited also by two men in their twenties. One was leaving the firm. Would I like his place?
Yes, I would.
Promotion struck the Juliards twice in one week. Another internal upheaval shuffled the cards in the government, and when the hurt feelings settled, my father had moved sideways and upwards to the Cabinet as minister for agriculture, fisheries and food.
I congratulated him.
“I would have preferred secretary of state for defense.”
“Better luck next time,” I said flippantly.
My father’s resigned sigh came down the wire. “I suppose you’ve never heard of Hudson Hurst?”
“No.”
“If you think I’m going up fast, he’s going up faster. He beat me to Defense. He’s currently the can-do-no-wrong flavor of the year with the prime minister.”
“How’s Polly?” I asked.
“You’re incorrigible.”
“I’m sure the jellied eels and the brontosaurus burgers will be safe in your hands.”
There were for once no agricultural crises looming, and both he and I spent the autumn of that year rooting ourselves comfortably in new realms.
Not a great deal to my surprise I took to insurance with energy: it not only satisfied my inclination to numbers and probabilities, but I got sent out fairly often on verification trips, to see, for instance, if the polo ponies I was asked to set a premium for actually existed.
As Evan, my co-worker and boss in the insurance department, preferred office work and computers, I did more and more of the legwork, and it seemed to be a useful arrangement all around, as I knew what good stables looked like and fast developed a nose and an instinct for the preparatory arrangements for a ripoff. Preventing insurance fraud at the planning stage became a game like chess: you could see the moves ahead and could put the knights where they would zigzag sideways for the chop.
A great advantage, it transpired, was my youth. I might not look seventeen anymore, but often at twenty-two I wasn’t taken seriously enough. A mistake.
In the normal everyday honestly intentioned work of the department, Evan (twenty-nine) and I handled bona fide policies on every sort of horse and need, from the chance of infertility in a stallion to barrenness in a mare.
We also arranged cover for stable yards, all buildings, personal accident, public liability, fire, theft and measles. Anything for everyone. As agents, we kept underwriters busy.
I did abominably miss my days’ early mornings on Sarah’s Future, but as dawn grew later and colder towards winter, I would have found, as I had the previous year, that only weekends gave me much scope.
As for riding in races, I was lucky in that: the Northamptonshire trainer who’d taken the chestnut phoned me one day to say an owner of his, a farmer, wanted a free jockey—in other words, an amateur—for a runner he thought had no chance.
Why run it, I thought? I happily took the ride and plugged away, and the horse finished third. Delighted, the farmer put me up again, and although I never actually won for him, I got handed around to his friends like a box of chocolates, and cantered down to a start somewhere most Saturdays.
It wasn’t the same without Sarah’s Future, but I wasn’t ready to try to replace him, even if I could have afforded it. One day, I thought. Perhaps. When I’d paid off the installments on a car.
I had rationalized my liking for speed. Taking intoxicating risks was normal in growing up. Warrior genes were inbred: it was necessary to fight the birch fences and the ski slopes, perhaps, in lieu of war.
Nearing Christmas, my father said we’d been invited to a reception at No. 10 Downing Street—himself, Polly and I—for the customary jolly given by the current prime minister to the members of his Cabinet and their families.
Polly wore a reasonable dress and my father hired a chauffeur, and the Juliards in good formation walked through the famous front door.
Staff greeted my father as one who belonged there. Polly had been through the portals before, but I couldn’t help but feel awed as I trod through the crimson-walled entrance hall over the black-and-white squared floor and through into the inner hall and up the historic staircase in a river of other guests. The brilliant yellow staircase wall, going up around a central well, was hung with portraits of all the past prime ministers; and I knew from the friendly way he looked at them that my father would try his best to join them one of these days.
Never mind that there were about twenty other Cabinet ministers with the same dream, let alone all the “shadow” ministers in the opposition: one never got to hang on that wall without ambition.
The reception was chattering away in the large formal area upstairs known as the pillared drawing room. (It had pillars. Two.)
We were greeted sweetly by Mrs. Prime Minister—her husband was bound to arrive shortly—and were wafted onwards to trays of filled glasses and tiny Christmassy mince pies surrounded with holly.
I no longer asked annoyingly for Diet Coke. I drank the prime ministerial champagne and liked it.
I knew almost no one, of course, even by sight. Polly kept me in tow for a while, though her husband had drifted away as if on wheels, greeting and laughing and making no enemies. Polly could identify all the Cabinet after eighteen months with my father, but knew none of them—as Orinda would have done—as “daaahling.”
The prime minister did arrive (he was bound to, after all) and my father saw to it that the great man shook Polly’s hand with warm recognition and mine with at least a show of interest.
“You win races, don’t you?” he asked, brow furrowed.
“Er ... sometimes,” I said weakly.
He nodded. “Your father’s proud of you.”
I did, I suppose, look astounded. The prime minister, a gently rounded man with a steel handshake, gave me an ironic smile as he passed to the next group, and my father didn’t know whether or not to call him a liar.
Dearest Polly squeezed my arm. “George doesn’t say he’s proud of you. He just certainly sounds it.”
“That makes us equal.”
“You really are a dear boy, Benedict.”
“And I love you, too,” I said.
My father’s attention had purposefully wandered. “You see that man over there?”
There were about twenty men “over there.”
Polly said, “Do you mean that one with flat white hair and circular eyes? The Home Secretary?”
“Yes, dearest. But I meant the one he’s talking to. The one who’s looking presidential and suitable for high office. He’s Hudson Hurst.”
Polly shook her head. “Surely not. Hudson Hurst has an oiled black ponytail and one of those silly little black mustache-and-beard combinations that frame a man’s mouth and distract you from what he’s saying.”
“Not anymore.” My father smiled, but not with joy. “Someone must have persuaded Hudson Hurst that the topiary work was a political no-no. He’s cut off the hair and shaved off the beard. What you see now are the unadorned petulant lips of the defense secretary, God help us all.”
Five minutes later my father was putting a seemingly affectionate hand on the defense secretary’s shoulder and saying, “My dear Hud, have you met my wife and my son?”
Love thine enemies ..
.
I hated politics.
“Hud” had a damp, cold handclasp that I supposed he couldn’t help, and if he had lately had an oiled black ponytail and a black mustache-beard mouth-circling combination, they had very likely been dyed. His present hair color was the dark-lightly-flecked-with-gray that a passing girlfriend had told me couldn’t be faked, and he’d had a cut in a swept-back and duck-tailed style straight from the films of James Bond. Distinguished. Impressive, one had to admit. It inspired trust.
My father’s own mat of natural dark, close curls was cut to display to advantage the handsome outline of his skull. Expert stuff. Ah well.
Hudson Hurst was overpoweringly pleasant to Polly. Smile and smile, I thought, remembering Hoopwestern: smile and smile and shake the hands and win the votes. He flicked me a glance, but I wasn’t important.
Sweet Mrs. Prime Minister appeared at my elbow and asked if I was having a good time.
“Oh, yes. Splendid, thank you.”
“You look a bit lost. Come with me.” She led me across to the far side of the big room and stopped beside a sharply dressed woman who reminded me strongly of Orinda. “Jill, dear, this is George Juliard’s son. Do look after him.”
Jill gave me a comprehensive head-to-toe and stared at Mrs. Prime Minister’s retreating back without enthusiasm.
“I’m really sorry,” I said, “I don’t know your name.”
“Vinicheck. Education.”
“Minister of?”
Her grim lips twitched. “Certainly.”
She was joined by another woman in the simplest and best of current fashion: another Orinda-clone. Secretary of state for social security.
She said bluntly, “Where does your mother get her clothes?”
I followed her gaze across the room and saw Polly talking unselfconsciously to the man with flat white hair and circular eyes: the home secretary. Polly’s clothes, as always, had nothing to do with popular opinion but very clearly revealed her individual character.