by Zoey Parker
Gio felt a clammy chill ripple over his upper body, and he realized that his silk shirt was soaked with perspiration from all the activity upstairs. He pulled off his tie, tossed it onto his couch, and stripped off his shirt, making a mental note to take it to the dry cleaner tomorrow. Then he walked back up to the second floor, took off the rest of his clothes, and stepped into the shower in the master bathroom, turning the water temperature up as high as he could without scalding himself.
As he stood under the pulsing jets of water and soaped himself up, he wished he'd been born into a different family. Yes, the wealth and privilege he came from had certainly furnished his Special Room and his hedonistic lifestyle, but at what cost? He still had to keep most of his nighttime activities a secret in order to maintain the respect of the other mafiosi.
Growing up, Gio had often sneered at average guys, with their piddling incomes and shitty day jobs. But tonight he felt like they had more freedom than he ever would. These days, who cared if a plumber or a stock broker was into paddles and riding crops? They could do their work, make their money, and then make plenty of time to do whatever they wanted to after hours without anyone giving a fuck.
Gio was stuck being a Mancini 24 hours a day, 365 days a year, always on call in service of the family.
No, not just any Mancini. Worse. The son of the Mancini. The sole heir to the whole crooked fucking mess, with so many eyes and expectations on him that he sometimes felt like he was buried under ten tons of concrete, like some of the bodies he'd helped dispose of.
But what if his new FBI pet could help him get away from all that?
The thought flashed through Gio's mind suddenly, taking him by surprise. Carla had started this whole thing by infiltrating the Mancinis to collect enough evidence to bring the whole family down. Now that he and Carla were bound to each other through the threat of mutually-assured destruction, perhaps both of them could end up getting what they wanted.
It was a risk, certainly. If anyone found out, Gio would be killed—even his relationship to Mario wouldn't save him. Still, he was already taking that chance just by hiding Carla's true identity from the other Mancinis, wasn't he? And Gio had heard of plenty of made guys who'd turned state's evidence and disappeared into the Witness Protection program. If Gio played it smart, he could escape from his violent legacy and concentrate all of his free time on training lovely new subs...
Except he realized he didn't particularly want new subs. What he really wanted was Carla. She was unlike any slave he'd ever had before, and he wanted to keep her, to explore her delicious submission in a thousand different contexts and locales.
And once both he and Carla were free of the Mancinis, he'd have no power over her anymore. She could erase her topless photo from his phone, or kick him out of Witness Protection and let every mafia family in America descend on him like hungry piranhas.
The daydream suddenly seemed silly, and it quickly deflated in his mind. He knew he couldn't possibly betray his own father like that. He'd been raised to believe that blood was everything and that anyone who was disloyal to his family would burn in hell forever.
Plus, as much as he hated Mario, he knew that he owed everything he had in life to his father. In his heart, Gio still had trouble believing that he'd ever amount to anything without Mario.
As he got out of the shower and dried himself off, Gio let go of the tantalizing fantasy of freedom, and instead focused on the best ways to enjoy his newfound control over Carla while he still could.
He'd let her off easy, and he'd respected the safe word. This time.
The next time might be an entirely different matter.
Chapter 17
Carla
Carla stood in front of her bathroom mirror, using a makeup wipe to remove her smudged eyeliner. As she did, she tried to sort out her wildly-conflicting emotions following her visit to Gio. It didn’t help that her ass was still stinging, and she knew she wouldn't be able to sit down easily for quite some time.
The residual fear from before their encounter still flapped madly in her chest like a trapped bat. She'd been sure that the safe words he assigned her would be ignored in favor of Gio's cruel pleasures. She'd been almost as certain that he'd torture and maim her, and that “playing” with him would end with her death.
So why had he obeyed the limits of the safe word? And why had he left her alive, when it would have made much more sense for him to get all the amusement he could out of her in a single night before silencing her forever?
She was relieved to have been proven wrong on both counts, but her curiosity wouldn't stop nagging at her.
He'd choked her, sure. He'd spanked her with his belt and bossed her around. But all in all, she'd gotten off lightly compared to a lot of things that Doms did to their subs—even under normal circumstances—and she knew it.
Could it be that Gio was genuinely interested in pursuing a traditional, long term Dom-sub relationship with her? Much of Carla's research on the S&M community had indicated that such relationships were based on mutual trust, so that might explain why Gio had been careful to respect the stated boundaries, especially during their first session.
Besides, if Gio really had convinced himself that he could continue to control this situation over an extended period of time, it truly demonstrated how inflated his ego was. That could be useful in tripping him up later on.
Then again, Carla also couldn't entirely dismiss the idea that this entire encounter had been nothing more than an elaborate mind game to lull her into a false sense of security, so he could exercise his sadism to its fullest extent next time when she least expected it.
These thoughts ran around in endless and exhausting circles as she wiped off her lipstick. She didn't know what to believe.
Worse still, she didn't know how to feel.
She'd initially approached the whole situation prepared to loathe it on every level. She'd expected to feel nothing but anger and contempt for Gio as he did whatever he wanted to her. She thought she'd have to pretend to go along with it even though she was repulsed.
Instead, once she found herself caught up in the moment with Gio, she had given herself over to it with hardly any resistance. Surrendering complete control of herself to someone else, even someone she despised, had felt oddly freeing. How could that be?
Carla's entire adult life often seemed to her like a never-ending rat's maze of decisions made under tremendous pressure, with the ephemeral promise of “career success” at its center. What did that success even mean to her anymore? A promotion? A medal? The respect and admiration of her peers?
Carla didn't even know anymore. All she knew was that every moment of her career had felt like a struggle for control of her own emotions and actions, since she knew how closely both were scrutinized by the men who worked with her.
This had been the first time she'd truly let go of all that since she joined the Bureau. And instead of feeling terrifying like she'd expected, it had felt like a massive weight lifted from her shoulders.
There had been pain, yes, and humiliation, but with them had come a clarity and focus she couldn't have prepared herself for. For a few moments, she didn't have to worry about keeping up the appearance of attorney Carolyn Aspen, or even Agent Carla Esposito. She'd just been a woman stripped of all identity, all ego and pretense, cuffed to a post and flogged until her entire sense of self narrowed in focus to consist solely of her next breath and her ability to obey.
Carla looked at herself in the mirror and shuddered. She wasn't comfortable learning these things about herself.
Whatever, Carla thought, shaking her head. You want to explore these urges and what they mean? You can do that. Go see a shrink, do some more research, find a nice dungeon, invest in a leather corset, anything you want. But first, you need to focus on nailing this hoodlum to the wall. Nothing else matters.
Her cell phone rang, and she picked it up to look at the caller ID. Part of her dreaded the idea that it might be Gio calling
her back for another round in the attic, while a deeper and more shameful part of her was slightly disappointed to see Don's name and number on the small screen.
She accepted the call. “Hello?”
“Shit fire an' save matches, Carla! Where the holy hell have you been all night?” Don asked. “I've been callin' and callin', and no answer!”
Carla inwardly cursed herself for not checking the phone when she got back. “Sorry, Don,” she replied. “I went out for a long walk, and I forgot to take my phone with me.”
“Well, I hope you enjoyed the fresh air an' exercise, 'cause you damn near scared me to death,” Don said. “Never leave your phone behind again, gal, understand? I thought them goons had figured you out, put you in cement shoes, an' dumped you in the river.”
“Nope, they seem pretty clueless about me so far,” Carla reassured him. She hated herself for making Don worry, especially since she knew she'd have to leave her phone behind the next time Gio summoned her too. She'd just have to pray Don didn't decide to call while she was out again.
“That's good news, at least,” Don grudgingly admitted. “You found anything yet that we could use to take 'em down?”
“Still working on that,” Carla said.
“Huh. Well, now that I know you're alive, I reckon I'll let you get some rest...”
“Don?” she said timidly. She didn't know why, but she suddenly felt like she wanted to hear his comforting drawl and country-fried idioms more than anything else in the world. The reality they represented seemed like it was a million miles away from Gio and his room full of bizarre implements.
“Yeah, darlin'?”
“Can you...stay on the phone and talk to me about your family for a little while?” she asked.
“Lurlene an' the kids?” Don answered, confused. “You've never asked about 'em before. Why now?”
“Please?” Carla insisted. “I'd just...like to hear about something normal right now. Anything that's not this case.”
“All right,” Don said. “If it means that much to you. Let's see...well, Althea just turned seventeen last week, an' she's about to start applyin' to colleges. I keep tellin' her she's got the grades for the Ivy Leagues, but she says she wants to go to Texas A&M like her daddy. 'Gender Studies,' can you beat that? I told her, 'There's men an' there's women, so what's to study?' An' Lurlene, heh, she don't wanna get bogged down with the whole empty nest syndrome like when Ben left for the Army, so she's already lookin' into gettin' a realtor's license...”
Carla kept listening to the folksy twang of Don's voice until the sun started to come up.
Chapter 18
Gio
Mario snapped his fingers in front of Gio's face impatiently. “Hey! Are you fuckin' listening to me, or what?”
Gio blinked, waving Gio's hand away. “Yeah, Papa, sure, I heard you.”
In fact, Gio had completely tuned out from his father's latest lecture. Instead, he'd been savoring the sweet memory of Carla's expression when their eyes met during the moment of climax—scared, awed, utterly powerless, like a rabbit caught in the gaze of a hungry snake—and he'd just started thinking about what he'd do to her during their next session when Mario had interrupted his reverie.
From the look on Mario's face, it was clear that he didn't believe Gio at all. “See, you coglione, this is exactly what I'm talkin' about,” he observed, rolling his eyes. He reached into the top drawer of his desk, withdrew a large Cuban cigar, and neatly trimmed the tip with a letter opener before lighting it and taking a puff.
Gio tried not to cough as the thick blue smoke settled in the air around his face, but he couldn't keep his eyes from stinging and watering. He'd always hated the smell of his father's cigars. Mario often bragged about their quality and expense, but to Gio, it just stank like exhaust from a garbage truck—and it brought back too many memories of stern lectures in Mario's study, like the one he was enduring now.
“You can be a pretty bright kid sometimes, Gio,” Mario continued. “You ain't no genius, but you're still a damn sight smarter than a lot of the meatheads who hook up with our organization. You play your cards right, keep your pay-ups regular an' show some initiative, an' you could be a capo with your own crew by the time you hit thirty. Then underboss a few years later, an' after that, you could find yourself takin' over for me if—God forbid—anything should happen to me.
“But in order for you to start walkin' down that path, you gotta show you're dedicated,” Mario continued. “Focused. Responsible. Willing to make sacrifices, capice?”
“I am, Papa,” Gio insisted. “Ain't I always done what you told me to do?”
“I ain't talkin' about just followin' orders,” Mario growled. “A fuckin' trained chimp can do what it's told, but that don't mean it's got what it takes to run this family. You gotta show how committed you are, an' that means lettin' go of distractions that could get in the way.”
“What kinda distractions?” Gio asked. He tried to keep his voice casual, but he didn't like the direction this conversation was taking.
Mario gave him a don't-shit-a-shitter look. “You know exactly what I'm talkin' about, kid. You're really gonna make me say it? When I was just a few years older than you are now, Big Ed Colicchio got whacked by those crazy Russians comin' out of his weekly card game, an' I had to step up as boss. You would've been about five years old then, so you probably remember that for about two years after that, I barely even had a chance to see you an' your mother. That's how hard I was workin', makin' the moves that had to be made an' tryin' to show everyone I deserved their respect.
“You think I would've been able to accomplish the things I did—lead this family like I did—if I was spendin' my time dressin' up in faggy little leather outfits an' sneakin' out to spanking clubs, or whatever the fuck you do with your nights?” Mario finished, disgusted. “You think the guys under me would've respected me then, or do you think they'd have laughed their fuckin' asses off behind my back an' undermined me every chance they got until I ended up in three or four different dumpsters?”
“Come on, Papa, that just ain't fair,” Gio protested. “It's just a different kind of fucking, that's all. It ain't like I'm messing around with guys or nothin'!”
Mario sneered. “'Fair?' Fuck fair! I'm tryin' to tell you how it is. You don't drop this shit with the whips an' costumes an' stop actin' like a mezzo finocch', you ain't never gonna make it in this family. An' you're gonna be an embarrassment an' a liability to me personally.”
“I'm sorry, but I just don't see where this bullshit is comin' from,” Gio said, his voice raising. “How the fuck does what I do in my own goddamn bedroom affect you or anyone else, huh? Tell me that.”
“Because your cock's already makin' you disobey direct orders from the boss of your fuckin' family, Gio!” Mario erupted. He jabbed his cigar in Gio's direction angrily, causing chunks of thick grey ash to fall to the desktop between them. “I specifically told you—more than once—to keep it in your pants with what's-her-name, the fuckin' lawyer! An' last night, I gotta hear from Rizzo that you had her over to your place for a couple of hours around midnight. Rizzo says when she left, she was practically walkin' bow-legged an' she looked like she'd been roughed up.”
“You had Rizzo scopin' out my place?” Gio asked, dumbfounded. Rizzo was a low-level bodyguard and errand boy for the Mancinis.
“Yeah, I fuckin' did,” Mario shot back. “Because I wanted to make sure you were doin' as you were told, an' guess what? Big surprise, you fuckin' weren't. You were too busy disappointin' me instead by actin' like a spoiled, selfish little frocio instead.”
Mario sighed and stood up, brushing the ash off the desk. “Look. You want this life? Fine. You don't? Fuck off. But we got no room for fence-sitters in this fuckin' family.” He walked over to the liquor cabinet, opened it, and gestured to its contents. “So make yourself a drink or two, sit here, an' think it over until you're sure. I got some stuff I need to take care of. We can talk about your decision tomorr
ow. Just make sure it's the right one, 'cause I don't ever wanna have to have this conversation with you again, Gio. An' however this shakes out, I promise I ain't gonna. Understand?”
Gio nodded uneasily as his father left the room. He understood perfectly. After all these years, some part of him was still terrified of his father, convinced that he was only one transgression away from being permanently silenced like so many of Mario's enemies had been.
But that was silly. Gio was Mario's only son, and he'd always been told that there was nothing more important in life than the bond between family. So his fears were unrealistic.
Weren't they?
Gio went to the liquor cabinet, poured some scotch into a tumbler, and took it back to his father's desk. He sat in Mario's chair and sipped the drink. Any thoughts of his future in the Mancinis were drowned out by the anger in his heart.
He knew his father had always had a steady string of extramarital affairs, just like most men in his position. Did Mario honestly expect Gio to believe that he'd put those relationships on hold—that he had, in fact, “kept it in his pants”—when he first became boss? Mario might not have spent many of those evenings or weekends with his wife and son, but Gio was willing to bet that there were plenty of mistresses, strippers, and whores who'd seen quite a bit of him at that time.