“The king still dies, Nell,” Myrddin said. “I can no longer see his face, but the Gwynedd crest is bloody on the ground every time, just like at the ford.”
Nell turned to him, wrapped her arms around his waist, and put her face into his chest. “We’re doing everything we can. If King Arthur goes to meet Edgar, it’s out of our hands.”
“We are so close—not only to saving the king but to winning this war,” Myrddin said. “I refuse to back down now.”
Nell breathed deeply and squeezed Myrddin once more. “It’s time we started for Buellt. How soon can we leave?”
“I would have liked to have left this morning,” Myrddin said. “The last thing I want is to be late to the castle or the church.”
“I share your concern, but you can’t ride today,” Cedric said from behind them.
Myrddin swung around, pulling Nell with him. Cedric stood framed in the doorway to the chapel.
“You shouldn’t be up—” Nell cut herself off. Telling Cedric he shouldn’t be up and around two days after a sword sliced through his leg was just as effective as saying it to Myrddin.
“And why is that?” Myrddin said.
“Because it would do you no good to arrive at Buellt Castle when Edgar is not there. You don’t want to spend two days waiting for him under the eyes of Agravaine.”
“How do you know this?” Myrddin said.
“Edgar has just sent me word that he intends to leave Wigmore tomorrow, at the head of a host of men, break his journey at Buellt, where he will see to the status of the garrison and confer with Agravaine, and then journey on to Brecon after hearing mass on Sunday.”
“And his men?” Nell said. “What of them?” The combined forces of Agravaine and Edgar would be considerable, more than enough to counter the men that King Arthur might be able to collect once he reached Powys.
“Likely, he will leave the majority of them with Agravaine, to bolster his numbers and prevent King Arthur from besieging Buellt Castle,” Cedric said. “Both sides are wary of each other now. They see the end game and are maneuvering their forces to strike at the most opportune time.”
“As are you,” Nell said.
Cedric canted his head at her, an amused glint in his eye, but he didn’t answer. Instead he turned to Myrddin. “I trust your horse is undamaged from his stint in my stables?”
“Yes, my lord,” Myrddin said. Nell had been there when he’d located Cadfarch, and Myrddin had been very pleased. “He’s an old friend.”
“Always the best kind to have at your back,” Cedric said.
Nell didn’t know how to interpret that, since even if Cedric was their friend (not yet determined), he certainly wasn’t an ‘old’ one. Meanwhile, Cedric turned on his heel and departed.
As he disappeared down the corridor, heading for the stairs, Nell shook her head. “I can’t read him.”
“Neither can I,” Myrddin said. “I wouldn’t want to cross him.”
“Do we know what we’re doing?”
“No,” he said. “We don’t.”
* * * * *
Myrddin found Huw in an open space between the stables and the smithy. The wall and buildings sheltered it from the worst of the wind, and the ground, although frozen, was clear of snow. Huw had grown to manhood in this castle after King Arthur’s defeats earlier in the decade. In the last day, he’d fallen into old patterns, willing to take up where he’d left off to the point of holding a dull sword to face down a boy of similar age to him.
Unlike Huw, the boy was not yet a knight. By the look in his eye and the determined set of his jaw, he was ready to put Huw back into the place he thought Huw belonged.
But Huw, for all that he was young, had earned his title and was equally determined to show it. As they fought, Myrddin recalled another castle and a different fight, this one overseen by the captain of Arthur’s guard, a man long dead but much revered. Those first months Myrddin had lived among Arthur’s court, the captain had taken Myrddin under his wing. Even now, he could hear the man’s words:
‘A man is divided into four quarters,’ he’d said, gesturing to Myrddin with the point of his sword. ‘Every attack you make should draw your opponent's defenses to a new quarter, degrading his ability to counter you. At the same time, your opponent will be trying to attack you in the same way, and you must parry his blows. Remember that, and that we slash, not thrust, unless it is for the final blow when you force the point of your sword through a man’s mail.’
It had been a lesson Myrddin had heeded. Despite Huw’s hesitation at the battle at Garth Celyn, it was one he’d learned well too.
“I will miss the boy.” As was his custom, Cedric had silently come up behind Myrddin in a manner Myrddin found disconcerting. Then again, it seemed to be his way and an extension of his desire to hide what he was thinking and feeling at all times. As a Saxon lord, this ability had undoubtedly stood him in good stead.
“Thank you for giving him leave to find me,” Myrddin said. “It isn’t every lord who would have done so.”
“It was either that or find him gone one day, the imperative of his birth overcoming his allegiance to me,” Cedric said. “It would have cost him more than needful to have refused him.”
Huw parried another blow. Then, in a quick movement, he upended his opponent to pin him to the ground. Watching with Myrddin, Cedric gave a snort of satisfaction. “As I said, I will miss him.”
“I will do my best to ensure that you never find yourselves on opposite sides of a fight,” Myrddin said. “If I can protect him from that, I will.”
“When I was sixteen, I saw my father cut down in front of me. There will be worse things for him in this life than having to fight in a battle not of his choosing.”
Huw left the ring of boys and men, stripping off his tunic as he walked away. Steam rose from his torso. Even in the cold and snow, his young blood ran hot from the fight.
Cedric glanced at him once more and then turned to Myrddin. “Come. I have something to show you.”
Myrddin followed Cedric into the great hall, both walking with identical stiff right legs, though Myrddin told himself his was the more limber, and then up the stairs to Cedric’s office. Like the chapel, it had one window with glass in it, which in this case looked northwest. Snow had built up along the window ledge and ice coated the inside edges of the glass. Black clouds lay ominously low on the horizon, threatening more snow. Cedric’s steward sat at a desk near the fire. Upon Cedric’s entrance, he stood, bowed to Cedric, and left.
Myrddin faced Cedric across his desk, expectant but not expecting anything. Cedric reached up to a shelf above his head and brought down a box. Setting it on his desk, he opened it. Several cloth bundles nestled inside. Cedric chose one and unwrapped it, revealing a gold cross. Myrddin stared at it, speechless, for it was a match to the one he wore.
Wordlessly, Myrddin lifted his own cross over his head and laid it on the table beside the box.
“Your cross fell on your chest during the fight beside the river, and I noted it,” Cedric said. “Where did you get it?”
“From my mother,” Myrddin said. “She died at my birth, under the protection of one Madoc, a household knight of Lord Cai, King Arthur’s half-brother.”
“But Madoc was not your father.”
“No.” Myrddin’s stomach lurched at the thought. “At least, he never claimed me, for all that he allowed me house room until I became a man.” Myrddin paused. “And yours?” He almost didn’t want to know.
“My mother died when I was two. She left this cross for me, her eldest son,” Cedric said.
Myrddin absorbed his news, wondering and uncertain. There was no doubt the crosses were brothers, made by the same goldsmith and likely purchased together.
“There’s more you should know.” Cedric watched Myrddin carefully as he spoke, while Myrddin endeavored to copy him—to give nothing away of what he was thinking. “This cross was a gift to my mother from her sister, Juliana, when Juliana was near death.”
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“Juliana had it made?” Myrddin kept his eyes fixed on the matching crosses, recalling what King Arthur had said: that Myrddin’s mother had been a lady-in-waiting to Juliana for a time before Myrddin’s birth.
Cedric shook his head. “Juliana’s husband had it made for her. He gave it to her the Christmas before he died.”
Myrddin’s head came up at that. Together, yet unspeaking, he and Cedric contemplated the import of his words. Juliana’s husband had been Ambrosius, uncle to King Arthur and ruler of Wales after the death of Vortigern.
Myrddin ran his finger along the intricate carvings on the cross. Celtic in appearance, the crosspieces flared at the tips. “How is it that you came to me?”
The cross lay on the table, not answering. Shaking his head at all he didn’t know, about his father and everything else, Myrddin picked it up and hung it around his neck, tucking it under his shirt as usual.
Cedric studied Myrddin’s face and then scanned his clothes, his worn scabbard with its fine sword, and tattered cloak. “Who was your father, Myrddin?”
Myrddin shook his head.
“You really don’t know?” Cedric said.
“No,” Myrddin said. “Once I was grown, it no longer seemed to matter.”
“Has your king ever seen that cross?” Cedric said.
“No,” Myrddin said again. “Not that I’m aware.”
Cedric picked up his own cross. “You might show it to him. Sooner, rather than later.”
Chapter Eight
10 December 537 AD
Myrddin had Nell tucked against him under their blanket—fully clothed—with Huw sleeping not far away. They’d found shelter halfway to Buellt at a small castle whose owner swore allegiance to Cedric.
The place was primitive in the extreme, but it was warmer than outside. The threatened snow had turned into a whiteout in the higher elevations that rose between Brecon and Buellt. It was the difference of a few hundred feet, but it was enough to turn a snowstorm into a blizzard. Thus, they’d come all of five miles from Brecon in an entire day. They had only eight more miles to go, but it could have been eighty for all the difference it would have made. Nothing could have been more pathetic—or impossible.
Nell had lain quiet against Myrddin a long while, neither of them sleeping, just absorbing each other’s company and their growing closeness. She knew now that if nothing else in the entire world made sense, she was sure of him. She was no longer nervous or afraid that she was risking her heart. Better to risk it than not live the life she’d been given, even if it lasted only one more day.
“We’re going to have to ride on in the morning, no matter what,” she said. “Even if we lash ourselves together with rope.”
“I know,” Myrddin said. “And we’ll be losing Cedric’s men at Penrhiw.”
“I suppose, at the very least, they’re loud and good at plowing snow.” Nell laughed. But then she sobered and turned in Myrddin’s arms so she could see his expression. The small amount of light given off by the candle they’d not yet blown out made his face just visible. “If something goes awry in Buellt, you save yourself.”
Myrddin took her face in his hands and studied it. “Meaning what?”
“There’s so much here we don’t know or understand,” she said. “I’m afraid of what may happen. If you need to flee, you do it, even if it means leaving me behind.”
Myrddin shook his head. “I will not desert you. I’m no longer the unthinking warrior I once was.” Then his voice gentled, and he rested his forehead against hers. “I’m not afraid of dying, Nell. I’ve died in my dreams more times than I can count.”
“And I’ve died with you. As you. I don’t want to live in a world without you in it.” She reached up and stroked a stray hair off Myrddin’s forehead. “We need a place to meet if the worst happens, and we get separated. I need to know where I can find you.”
“Some place safe,” Myrddin said. “Some place that one of us can stay until the other one gets there.”
“A tavern?”
“In what village?” he said. “If this goes bad, the Saxons will control the coasts, the border, and be pushing inward.”
“Then an Abbey,” she said. “Cwmhir, where Arthur himself might be sleeping tonight.”
Myrddin nodded. “That’s a wise choice. The monks are loyal to Arthur and always will be. Wait there, no matter how long it takes for me to arrive.”
“And if you don’t find me?” A tear leaked from the corner of her eye. Myrddin wiped it away with his thumb.
“I will find you.” Myrddin brushed his lips across hers.
Unable to resist, she tightened her arms around his neck. “I want to see this through with you. I love you.”
“You do?” Myrddin pulled back.
She smiled through her tears. “For a man as old as the hills, you certainly are thick.”
Myrddin stroked a second, stray tear from her cheek. “It’s going to be all right. When next we see the king, all will be forgiven. He’ll give me land on which I can settle with my new wife, and I can retire from fighting forever.”
“Wife, is it?” she said. “A second ago you didn’t know how I felt about you!”
“Ah, Nell,” Myrddin said. “You are my world. Marry me. Say you will.”
“We may have no future—”
“All the more reason. Say you love me,” he said. “I need to hear it again.”
Nell buried her face in Myrddin’s shirt, her hands entwined in the cloth. “I love you, Myrddin.”
“Marry me.” Myrddin threw off the blanket and got to his feet. He kicked at Huw who grunted and rolled over. “Right now.”
“Now?” she said. “How are we going to do that?”
“There’s a castle chaplain. We’ll wake him up.”
“I’m supposed to be a nun!”
Myrddin flapped a hand at her. “It’s a disguise. Everyone here knows that.”
She stared at him, her mouth agape, and then she laughed. “You’re crazed.”
“The king could die tomorrow; I could die tomorrow.” Myrddin reached down and shook Huw.
Huw opened one eye. “Wha—?”
“Get up,” Myrddin said. “Nell and I want to get married and we need you as a witness.”
Huw was instantly alert. “Excellent.” He popped up from his pallet and onto his feet, pulling on his boots a second later. “But wait.” He paused. “As King Arthur’s men, we are under interdict. The priest can’t bless you.”
“The chaplain’s is sympathetic,” Nell said. “If we ask him, he’ll do it anyway.”
“I know we’ve no contract—” Myrddin swung around to look at Nell, the first sign of hesitation in his eyes.
Nell laughed. “We’ve no money, Myrddin. No possessions other than what we stand up in. No family other than Huw. The priest will make it right.”
After rousing one of Huw’s squire-friends as witness, they filed into the chapel on the top floor of the keep.
“What’s this about a wedding?” The priest came into the room, buckling the belt to cinch his tunic at the waist and shrugging into his cloak of office.
“Nell and I would like you to bless our marriage,” Myrddin said.
The priest took in Nell’s loose hair and green dress which she’d worn under her habit. “Have you asked her father?”
Momentarily at a loss for words, Nell looked at Myrddin and then back to the priest. “My father is dead. No one is alive to gainsay us.”
The priest’s face turned very serious. “Do you have the king’s permission, my lord Myrddin?”
“King Arthur told me to find myself a wife, and he would give me land to support her in the new year,” Myrddin said, praying it was still true.
The priest nodded. “That’s very good. I will bless you, even if some will say that I can’t see to my parishioners in this fashion.”
“Those men are not Welsh,” Myrddin said. “Even the Bishop of St. Asaph refused to put out his candles. If it
matters to you, we can ask again for a blessing when the interdict is lifted.”
“If the interdict is lifted.” The priest grumbled under his breath and then said something about, “Upstart half-Saxon telling me how to do my job.”
Nell and Myrddin exchanged a look, and both smiled. The priest placed a cross about his neck, turned back to them, and lifted his hands to the heavens to begin his prayer. Myrddin moved his hands to Nell’s waist to pull her closer, bending to touch his forehead to hers.
After the priest finished speaking, Myrddin lifted the chain that held his mother’s cross and settled it around Nell’s neck. Surprised, she looked down at it, and then up into his eyes. “Myrddin—”
“Sshh.” He put a finger to her lips and then recited, “For as long as there’s wind in the mountains; for as long as there’s salt in the sea; for as long as rain falls on these green hills; I will stand with thee.” It was the native ritual with which they’d both grown up. “Nell ferch Morgan, I claim thee as my wife.”
Nell brought her hands up, one in each of his, and Myrddin clasped them to his chest. They stood close, breathing each other in, as the priest called down the blessing they wanted but didn’t need.
Chapter Nine
11 December 537 AD
The storm hadn’t lessened by dawn. Myrddin lay on his back, listening to the wind howling around the castle, not wanting to face the morning. The king couldn’t see the chasm opening at his feet, but Myrddin had already fallen into it and, with only ten hours between now and the rendezvous, there was no way he and Nell were going to get everything done that needed doing.
“It’s time,” Nell said from the doorway to their room. As they’d agreed, she wore her habit. That was going to be a surprise to the priest if he saw her before they left. “Huw’s got the horses ready.”
“I’m coming.” Now that Myrddin was awake, he noted the stamping of the two dozen horses in the castle bailey, just on the other side of the wall. “How did you sleep?”
“Did I sleep?” She smiled. “When this is over, they’ll be plenty of time for sleeping.”
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