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by David M. Jacobs


  They’re a little bit more, but none of them are by any means chubby. They seem to have longer arms, but not a lot of fat or muscle or anything. They’re kind of pretty in a strange way.

  Is this just an empty room with the little tables, or…?

  I think that there’s machines. There’s some machines in the back. And there’s something like a cabinet or something. It’s the best way I can describe it. It looks like it probably contains things. Up like along one wall. There’s not a lot of stuff, other than the babies.

  Does anyone say anything to you?

  Well, they asked me something like, “Do you like the babies?” or “These are the babies,” or something like that about the babies. And I said that I felt that they scared me a little bit, that they didn’t look right or something.

  (Barbara Archer, 21, 1988)

  Usually the aliens’ communication about the nursery is vague and emotionless, but often they will try to convey the idea that the abductees are viewing a wondrous and triumphant thing. The aliens are often proud and excited. It seems that they want to share their excitement with the abductee. One of the reasons for this might be to make the abductee feel that she has been a part of the grand scheme and should feel proud of herself. She may be told that some of the babies “are hers” and therefore she is made to believe that she has been helpful in their plan. But this might also be to make her more psychologically bonded to the babies so that her state of mind will be optimally in tune with the babies for closer contact.

  Touching and Holding

  Child presentations involve more than viewing. Abductees are also required to touch, hold, or hug these offspring. Although abductees will see more babies than any other age group of Being, they are also often presented with young children and even adolescents. Apparently it is absolutely essential for the child to have human contact. Although the aliens prefer that the humans give nurturing, loving contact, any physical contact seems to suffice.

  Typically, the aliens bring the abductee into the child-presentation room. It might be the nursery or a different room with bright lights. Beings are already in it. The abductee stands or sits down on a bench or chair. The Beings who brought her in are behind her. Then a “female” Being approaches her. She is holding a baby. The woman senses the communication: “Isn’t this a nice baby? Isn’t this a beautiful baby? Wouldn’t you like to hold the baby? Hold the baby!” The female Being extends her arms with the baby in it toward the woman, and the abductee takes it. She holds the baby to her chest with the baby’s head resting on her arm or shoulder. If the abductee resists, she may be given a “reason” to force her to hold the baby. One woman was told that the baby would get sick if she did not hold it, and that it would develop a rash or some other sickness if she held the baby away from her body. Therefore she had to hold the baby against her skin for as long as possible. The baby may be naked, or it may be wrapped in a “blanket.” It is usually very small, but it can be an older and larger baby as well. Women describe the small baby as being very light in weight but with a heavy head. The woman sits with the baby, or she may get up and walk around with it. The aliens stare intently at her and the baby.

  The woman hears another directive: “Nurse the baby.” “Put the baby to your breast and feed the baby.” The woman says, “But I do not have any milk.” The response is, “Put the baby to your breast and nurse the baby!” Saying “No” is futile. If she resists, the aliens will put the baby to her breast anyway. It cups its mouth on her nipple. It has a very weak sucking reflex. In many instances, the woman may be surprised to find that she is lactating and that her breasts are engorged. When that happens the baby will partially drain the breast. Often, however, nursing the baby is futile but seems to satisfy the watchful aliens nonetheless.

  Unlike many women, Jill Pinzarro found the baby-holding experience pleasant, and she did not look closely at the baby’s physical features.

  I see someone coming toward me with a baby.

  And do they say something to you then?

  No, they just give it to me.

  And what do you want to do with it?

  I don’t… just to hold it.

  Is this a big baby, or…?

  It’s a little baby, about two and a half months old. Yeah, about that. Maybe a little bit older, younger.

  Is this baby wearing anything?

  It is when they come toward me. It’s wrapped in something.

  Do you like this baby, is it a nice baby? What is your feeling toward it?

  I like this baby.

  Is the baby an active baby, or not active?

  It’s a quiet baby.

  Is it asleep, or is it awake?

  It’s, hmm… it’s awake. It’s just not very, it’s kind of dopey. Not dopey, not dumb, but just passive.

  Is it responsive to you, or not?

  I get the feeling that it kind of likes being held.

  Does this look like a healthy baby, or…?

  Yeah, it seems like a reasonable baby.

  Can you tell me what color hair it has?

  Light, not much. Brown, but not dark. Fuzzy. Not much hair.

  Can you tell me about its skin?

  I’m not experiencing it so much in terms of visual things, because I feel the need to hold it, so I’m not really pulling it away and looking at it, I’m thinking about it. So I’m having a hard time with a visual impression.

  Can you get a visual impression as it’s just handed to you?

  Well, then it’s kind of covered so it’s hard. It’s… I think it’s a male, Caucasian.

  Does it have light skin, or dark skin, within the Caucasian range?

  Fair. Quite fair. I think it’s very fair, as a matter of fact. Almost like no ultraviolet light for this guy. But I’m having a very hard time seeing it.

  Now, do you hold this baby for a while?

  Um-hum.

  Does it just lie there? Does it put its arms around you?

  It’s too little for arms-around stuff….

  Do you know sort of what the baby is thinking, or do you feel a bond with the baby in a mental way, in other words?

  I feel as if it’s very important to the baby that it has this contact, and I’m very happy to do it for it. I feel that it really needs that. If you want to call that… it’s like it’s soaking up the experience of being held. That’s what I think.

  Do you sit there with the baby the whole time, or do you stand up with it also?

  Hmm… I carry it around, yes. I feel as if it needs the rhythm.

  Is there anybody else in the room with you now?

  A couple of little people. There might be somebody else that’s not a little person. Not the tall guy either, but maybe, more like the tall guy than the little people. And not a guy, in a way. Has a different aura. I can’t see, though. Just a feeling. I’d say it was the nursemaid.

  Is this the one who handed you the baby?

  Yeah, that’s right, and it is a taller person. It’s an “it” that approaches a “she,” as the tall guy is an “it” that approaches a “he.”

  How can you tell that?

  I don’t know. I have a… there’s some indication of responsible concern. It has… it’s a nanny, only not… but it has that slightly protecting feeling. Not maternal, but that’s why I get the impression of femaleness. It has a sort of hovering. Sort of an anxious, hovering quality, slightly. Not like worry, just monitoring carefully….

  Can you hear any communication from her?

  Hmm… I don’t know if it’s from this person or from the little people.

  What are you hearing, or receiving?

  “Baby needs to be nurtured.” It’s very important, and they can’t do it. It needs it from me. They can’t give it what it needs completely. It’s sort of a species-specific need, I guess. I don’t know. I don’t know why I know this. I don’t feel like somebody’s standing up there and saying it, I just understand that….

  Okay, you hold the baby for a while, you w
alk around with the baby, and what happens then?

  The nursemaid takes the baby, the nanny. I can tell the baby really [liked it]…. I don’t know why, I don’t see what difference it would make, but it was good….

  So they take the baby away, and what happens next?

  I feel a loss, in a way, which is funny because I’m not really a baby person and I only wanted one child, but I feel a connection. I guess it needs so much, I don’t know. And I could satisfy its needs. I guess I feel a little bonded in a way because I have bonded to a baby. Not anything like the bonding that I had with my daughter, but that baby got under my skin a little….

  (Jill Pinzarro, 32, 1980)

  For many abductees, seeing the features of the baby can be traumatic and frightening. Many women do not want to see the baby. They may claim at first that they only saw the top of the baby’s head. Others say they held the baby so close to them that they did not get a good look at it. But in fact they do see the baby. It has a very large head for its body. It has large eyes with some white showing. Even for a baby it has small ears, a small nose, a small mouth with thin lips, and a pointed chin. Its body is long and thin. Its hands and fingers are long and thin. Its pale-white or grayish skin is almost translucent. Its hair may be within the normal spectrum of hair colors, but very often it is “white” and is usually described as sparse and thin. The baby is not chubby with baby fat. It does not look like a baby alien, nor does it look like a baby human.

  Abductees universally state that the baby does not have the normal human reactions of a human infant. It is almost always listless. It does not respond to touch as a normal baby would. It does not squirm; it does not have a grasping reflex with its hands. It is lifeless, yet it is not dead. Most women think that there is something terribly wrong with the baby. They feel that they must hold the baby to help it survive. After holding the baby for a while, women report that the baby seems “better.” It appears to have a bit more energy or to be thriving slightly.

  The baby does not communicate with the woman as a normal baby would. She may speak to the baby as a mother would to her child, but the baby does not respond by vocalization or by movement. Yet the baby’s eyes may have a hypnotic quality to them. Some women say that they are unable to stop gazing into the baby’s eyes, which hold a fascination for abductees far more than an ordinary infant’s eyes. Some women say that the baby appears to be a “wise baby,” that it has some sort of “knowledge”—that it can “communicate” on an almost mystical level.

  It is so important to the aliens for the woman to touch the baby— and to want to touch the baby—that they will do anything to instill a bond between the woman and the baby to facilitate that touch. But child-bonding is difficult. The woman does not have a familiar connection to the baby. The woman does not feel like its mother—she has not carried it for nine months and “given birth” in the conventional sense. Furthermore, the baby does not look fully human, and it might just as easily repel a woman as attract her to it.

  The aliens try to facilitate child-bonding in four ways. First, they try to instill in the woman the idea that the baby is a “nice” baby, a “beautiful” baby, a “good” baby. It is as if the very act of saying it can make the woman believe it. In fact, many women, because of the extraordinary qualities of the situation, feel that they want to hold the baby. The communication serves to reinforce what they already feel. When they do not want to hold the baby, the message makes them less hesitant.

  The second manner in which the aliens encourage women to hold babies is related to envisioning procedures, making the women visually aware that the baby looks “normal.” Women report that they were told the baby was beautiful and when they looked at the baby, it was beautiful—at least that is what they were then seeing. They know, however, that the baby is at the very least “different-looking” and perhaps frightening. The fear is bypassed in favor of the aesthetically pleasing and less-frightening image placed in their minds. Sometimes the abductee will be horrified at how the baby looks and will watch it change into another visage before her eyes.

  The third way that the aliens bond the woman to the baby is to tell her that the baby is her baby—and there is reason to believe that this may very well be true. Women report that they feel a genuine bond between them and the baby. The baby’s hair might be the same color as theirs—red, for instance—or they might instantly recognize in some other way that the baby is theirs. This might be another sort of mind manipulation, but enough evidence exists to suggest that women are being shown babies that are the products of their eggs. Knowing this increases their desire to hold the baby. They want to love it and nurture it. They can become extremely depressed and anxious when the baby is taken away. They want the baby to stay with them, and taking it away can cause severe stress.

  The last and even more bizarre method of ensuring the bonding between mother and child is also the rarest: the dummy birth. There have been reports, for example, of aliens arranging a “delivery.” The aliens take the abductee into a room and place her on a table. The aliens communicate to her that she is about to have a baby, and she realizes that she has been placed in a “birthing” position. Suddenly she can “see” herself giving birth in a movielike image in her mind. Sometimes she “views” another woman giving birth. She can see the head and shoulders of a baby coming out. It is a neat, uncomplicated, painless, and generally bloodless birth. While she is “seeing” these images, she is puzzled about what is going on. She was not pregnant before and she knows that she is not giving birth now. After the image of the birth stops, the aliens suddenly produce a baby from between her legs. Usually the baby that is “delivered” is not a newborn. The Beings are happy. They say, “Isn’t this a beautiful baby? Isn’t this a beautiful baby? Here is your baby. Hold your baby.” They place the baby in her arms. The woman holds the baby, but she is puzzled about what has just happened. It is as if the aliens think that the form of the act of birth has as powerful a bonding effect on the woman as does an actual birth. (This procedure should not be confused with the primary fetal extraction procedures, wherein abductees report that a fetus has actually been removed. It is also possible that this might be an envisioning procedure.)

  The fact that baby presentations do not occur during each abduction suggests that it is not crucial for the offspring to have ongoing contact with their mothers. Any human contact may be sufficient. When Melissa Bucknell refused to hold the baby, instead of forcibly holding her arms up to cradle the baby, the aliens simply gave it to her brother, who had been abducted with her, and he held the baby.

  In 1988 Barbara Archer found herself in a baby-presentation situation in which the aliens compelled her to feed the child.

  And then they told me that I could hold one. And they sort of pointed me toward this one baby. And I think that it was a girl baby.

  Was this one of the more active ones, or less active?

  She seemed fairly alert, and she wasn’t terribly active. She wasn’t kicking or anything. So they asked me if I wanted to pick her up. I felt kind of scared to pick her up at first, but the nurse woman handed her to me. I kind of liked holding her, but I was so afraid, she was so fragile-looking.

  Was she heavy?

  No, she wasn’t very heavy at all.

  Do they want you to hold her in a certain way, or just hold her?

  Well, at first they let me hold her the way I want to, and just sort of… she had big eyes, but they weren’t like theirs, they weren’t really ugly.

  Could you see whites in the eyes?

  I think so. I don’t really remember, but I think so. I think there are, if any, though, just a little bit. They were sort of shaped like theirs, but not as big and ugly.

  Are her eyes open, I guess?

  Yes.

  Does she just sort of look around?

  Yes. She’s just kind of hanging out, or whatever.

  I guess what I’m asking is whether the baby looks at your eyes also, or…?

  Well
, she sort of looks at me, I mean, she doesn’t…

 

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