In the Face of Darkness

by Sarah Dell

We drove until we found a small dive bar. Matthias walked in a minute after I did so that no one would think we were there together. The seat I chose was at the end of the bar where I would have the best view of the other patrons. Matthias sat at a table in the corner of the bar as far from me as the small room would allow. I could feel his eyes on me. I knew I needed to hurry so he could get some sleep. I wished he hadn’t come with me; I wished I didn’t have to feed, but wishing didn’t change anything.

  Just then a man sat down in the stool next to me. “What’s a pretty thing like you doing in a place like this” the man said. He looked like he was in his early to mid-thirties, but it was hard to tell with the thick blond beard. He wasn’t the victim I usually went for, but he would do.

  “Just looking for a little fun” I said.

  “I’ve got a rig outside; we could have some fun in there” the man said.

  “Sounds perfect” I smiled. It was perfect. Better the back of a rig then in a dark alley.

  “After you” he said. I stood and walked towards the door with his hand on my back leading me. I wanted to move away from the man, but I needed this. The funny thing was that the man thought he was in control.

  The man’s rig was purple with flames painted on it. The inside was littered with fast food cartons. I sat on the bed and he sat next to me. “My name is…”

  “I don’t need to know your name” I interrupted him. I didn’t need to remember his name for years to come.

  “Just thought you might want to get to know each other” he ran a hand up my arm and I felt revulsion well up inside me.

  “No” I just wanted to get this over with. I took his head in my hands and forced him down on the bed with me on top of him. I turned his head as I felt my canines lengthen to their full size. I sank my teeth into the soft skin above his pulse points. He cried out for a moment before the pheromones took effect and sent his mind to what Tino called the “happy place”. Then the blood from his veins filled my mouth. I drank quickly and I took as much as he could spare before I withdrew my teeth and kissed the twin wounds to make them heal instantly. Vampires didn’t need to kill. In fact, the pheromones and the healing agent in our saliva made it very easy for us to not kill. It was the Queen who had decreed that every vampire had to kill. Killing seemed to shut off the part of our brains that still made us human. I imagined that it made us easier to control.

  I left the man to sleep it off, the pheromones and his mind would make up a desirable memory. As I left I wondered how many humans had memories of a romantic encounter that was actually an encounter with a vampire. I saw that Matthias was waiting for me in the car when I climbed out of the rig.

  “That didn’t take long” Matthias said as I took the passenger’s seat in the car.

  “It never does” I wished he would let me drive so he could get some sleep, he looked like he was about to drop, but I knew after what he had just seen me do he needed to drive. We didn’t speak for the rest of the trip back to his grandmother’s house. I let myself revel in the warm glowing feeling that a feeding always gave me. We arrived back at the house late into the morning.

  “Can I trust you to stay down here?” Matthias asked mockingly.

  “I’m not going anywhere” I told him. He nodded before he went up to his room to sleep. I couldn’t have slept if I had needed to. Then I heard footsteps on the stairs. I smelled her before I saw her.

  “Oh, I forgot you were down here” Megan said. She looked beautiful in her blue silk night gown and robe.

  “Shouldn’t you be sleeping?” I asked.

  “Probably, but I can’t sleep. I was going to make some chamomile tea. Would you like some?” she asked.

  “Thank you for offering, but I can’t…” I trailed off.

  “Oh, sorry I forgot” she said. “Would you keep me company?” she asked. “Sure” I said and I followed her into the kitchen.

  “I’ve never met a vampire before” she said.

  “Are you afraid of me?” I asked.

  “Should I be?” she asked.

  “Probably” I said.

  “You fed on someone tonight?” she asked.

  “Yes I did” I said.

  “What’s it like being a vampire? Feeding on people?” she asked.

  “Messy” I said.

  “Right” she said.

  “What’s it like being pregnant?” I asked.

  “How did you know?” she asked.

  “Your blood flow increases when you’re pregnant. I can smell it” I told her.

  “Oh, I haven’t even told Bryce” she said.

  “I won’t say anything” I said.

  “So what do I smell like?” She asked.

  “Sweet, like vanilla” I said. I left the fact that the smell made me look at her like a cupcake. “Probably means it’s a girl”.

  “A girl… I always wanted a girl” she smiled.

  “Me too” I said. Before I’d become a vampire I had dreamed of having a little girl. I had even thought of names, but that didn’t matter anymore.

  “Can you…?” She asked.

  “No, I can’t have children” I let that statement set in.

  “Oh, that’s kind of sad. But you get to live forever” she said.

  “No one lives forever” I said. “I don’t think Matthias or your Gran would want you to talk to me” I said.

  “I’m not a child, I do what I want” she said. “I find you interesting. You look so young, yet your eyes seem old” she said. “I want to know everything about you”.

  “What do you want to know first?” I asked. It was nice to talk to someone who didn’t hate me because of what I was.

  “How did you become a vampire?” She asked.

  “A vampire named Endora saved me from a fire by turning me into a vampire” I told her.

  “But, if you can control water why couldn’t you just put out the fire?” she asked.

  “I didn’t know about my powers then” I told her.

  “But, they were still there so you would think it would have been a reflex or something” she said, and she had a good point. I wondered why my powers didn’t work the night of the fire. I tried to remember what had happened that night, but all I could remember was the heat and the screaming. The next thing I remembered was waking up with Endora standing over me.

  “I don’t remember much about that night” I told her.

  “Endora, the one who made you a vampire, do you like her?” She asked.

  “She has been nice to me” I said.

  “But you ran away from her” she said.

  “Matthias is taking me to the Island because I’m dangerous” I told her.

  “You don’t look dangerous” she said.

  “I am” I told her.

  “You just look like a teenage girl” she said. “How old are you?” she asked

  “I was seventeen when I was turned” I said.

  “Do you ever wish that you weren’t a vampire?” she asked.

  “If I weren’t a vampire then I would be dead” I said.

  “Is there anything you like about being a vampire?” she asked.

  “The not having to sleep doesn’t suck, but you should get some sleep” I said.

  “Yes, I guess I should” she said.