by JL Davis
“Soon. I want to show you something first.” I reach into my sweater and pull the collar out and snap it behind my neck. Alex’s eyebrows go up in surprise. I slowly lift my sweater and stop for a moment, for effect, and wink at him. He has a playful glint in his eyes. The dim light’s reflection make his eyes almost look like they’re in flames. I slowly walk a bit closer and lower the sweater back down and decide to start with my jeans. The sweater comes to my mid-thigh and he can get the full effect of the outfit at once.
His hands clench on the arm of the chair. “You’re killing me.”
“That’s the point. I want you to want me.”
“I do want you. I want to know what’s under that sweater.”
I step out of my heels and slowly shimmy out of my jeans. I slip the heels back on because they complete the outfit and I know he likes them. I can now hear his shallow breathing. I know he’s getting aroused with the anticipation. I haven’t fallen and I’m so grateful. I look down into his hungry eyes as I slowly walk behind him and bend down, kissing his neck.
“Don’t turn around.”
“Okay,” he whispers.
I take the sweater off and try to walk sexily back around to him. The look on his face makes it all worth it. He sucks in a deep breath. “Holy fuck, Jessa! You look so fucking sexy.”
His words make me feel so good inside. I know my boobs are small and I don’t have a rock-hard stomach, but his reaction makes me feel sexy. I smile shyly and whisper, “Thank you.”
“Did you buy this for me?”
“I did today. I wanted to do something special for you. I can tell how hard you’ve been trying to overcome your issues so I planned this all out as a celebration.”
“I love it. You look amazing. I’ll do even better if I’ll be rewarded like this.”
“That can be arranged. Now what are you going to do with me?”
“I just want to look at you for a minute. Fuck! Are those crotchless panties, too? Turn around.” His voice is deep, when he says it. He’s so excited. It’s adorable. I do a little turn for him, smiling as I’m wrapped in his arms.
“Can you wear this when you clean the house?” His hands start roaming over my body.
“Hell no. I will not,” I laugh and smack his shoulder.
* * *
He lowers me onto the bed and takes his clothes off a hell of a lot faster than I had. If I were wearing panties they’d be soaked by now. Since I’m not I can feel the wetness between my legs. I smile when he picks up the handcuffs and dangles them from his finger. I wanted this for so long. I’m excited to have my control taken away and him have all the power over me to do as he pleases. Not knowing what’s going to happen has my heart racing in my chest.
Kneeling on the bed, he threads the cuffs through one bar of the headboard. He lifts one of my wrists and closes the cuff around it, then the other wrist. I pull against them gently. The fuzziness makes them not entirely uncomfortable.
“Are you okay? Are they too tight?” he asks.
“They’re fine. Now what are you going to do with me?”
“How about I just show you.”
Not being able to move my arms is hard. I want to touch him so badly. I want to grip his strong arms and leave scratches down his back. Instead, I grip the rails on the headboard and arch into him, thrust for thrust.
“Jessa, you look so sexy like this beneath me,” he grunts, bringing his hand up to my face, caressing my cheek softly then running his fingers down the collar and the strip down my stomach. He lets my wrists go and I instantly cling to him, running my hands all over him, his chest, his forearms and his shoulders. I’m holding on for dear life as he drives inside of me. I’m close and I sense that he is, too. He has lowered himself onto his elbows and kisses me urgently. I’m gasping for breath. I feel my insides begin to spasm.
“Give it to me. Let me feel you around me, Jessa,” he grunts. That’s all it takes and I’m screaming his name over and over. Alex yells a guttural “Fuck” and collapses on top of me, breathing into my neck. We’re both completely sated as we try to catch our breath.
* * *
Alex doesn’t have to leave for Tennessee until two, so we have the day to spend together. I can’t go because I need to study my notes for a test on Tuesday. Since I’m not going he wants to make the most of our day together.
He won’t tell me what we’re doing. He’s being all secretive and cute. I hear him go out to the garage a few times, but never see what he is doing. When I asked him, and asked if he needed help he tells me no and to just relax. So, that’s what I’m doing. I’m catching up on my poor neglected book. It used to take me no time to read a whole book. Now, with work, school and my awesome boyfriend, I can’t find much time.
“Okay. I think I have everything ready. Do you need anything before we go?”
I laugh. “Um, if I knew what we were doing, I could probably answer that.”
“Oh. Well that is true, I guess.” He briefly hesitates and looks to the ceiling. “I’m not sure what to tell you, exactly.”
“How about if I need nice clothes, comfy clothes, maybe tennis shoes?”
“Yes. You need tennis shoes. You do have some here, right?” His face falls. It’s like his plans may be ruined.
“I have my tennis shoes upstairs.”
“Perfect. Grab them and put on those sexy yoga things you wear.”
“My yoga pants and a tank?”
“Yes, those. Hurry.”
“Okay. Okay. I’m going,” I giggle. He is so excited. I love this side of him. The carefree man without a trouble in the world.
About an hour’s drive later, we pull up at the state park. It’s known for great hiking, biking, fishing, ATV trails and has a nice picnic area and gorgeous views of the countryside. I’ve only been here once and that was when I was a child. I’m not much of an outdoorsy girl.
“How about some outdoor time today? I love it here. I always come when I need to be alone and want to think.” He looks up at the clouds.
“Sounds fun. I haven’t been here since I was a little girl. My dad brought me fishing here once. Right over there,” I say, pointing to the dock about hundred yards away. It makes me a little sad. I did have some nice times with my dad. I’ll never understand why he left.
“We aren’t fishing today. We’re going to make new memories, happy ones, together.” He slides across the seat, grabbing the nape of my neck, and pulls me in for a kiss on the cheek.
He slides back over quickly and hops out of the truck. I’m smiling at his child like behavior. He has come a long way in such a short time. I’m falling more in love with him each day. I didn’t even think that was possible. My thoughts are interrupted as he opens my door for me. He offers me his hand to help me out. “Come on,” he says, offering me his hand and helping me out. “I thought we could hike up Pinnacle Mountain and have a picnic at the top or wherever we decide to stop.” He must have noticed my eyes about fall out of my head as I looked to the top of the mountain. I don’t know if I could make it all the way to the top my first time but I do love a challenge.
Alex grabs a backpack out of the bed of the truck. He hands it to me and I almost drop it. It’s a little heavy.
He laughs. “Sorry, wrong one,” he says taking it and handing me the other backpack. I smile at him and crinkle my nose. It’s not near as heavy as the one he’s carrying.
“Are there rocks in yours?”
“No. It’s our lunch and a few bottled waters. Yours has a blanket.”
By the time we finally make it half way I’m out of breath, I’m hungry, I’m sweaty and I’m getting cranky. It’s almost one and I need a break. Alex must see me struggling to keep up with him because he stops and sets his backpack down. He takes mine from me and I collapse on the hard rocks, panting.
“Are you okay? You’re making that sound, the one right before I make you cum. like.” If it weren’t for the smile on his face right now, I’d want to throat punch him. I must
say, he is in his element right now. I need to work out. Maybe I can join him at the gym sometime. I’d love to watch him lifting weights, seeing his muscles contracting. I need to think of something else, only I can’t. He’s taking his sweaty t-shirt off.
I groan, “Are you trying to kill me?”
“Huh?” He looks oblivious to what his body does to me.
I let out a long breath. “I can hardly breathe and you’re stripping in front of me.”
He looks down at his chest and smiles. “Well, do you want me to have a heat stroke?” He takes out two waters and hands me one. I watch as he opens his and pours half of it over his head and tips his head, then guzzles the rest. I watch the water roll down his body and it’s so freaking sexy. I was already hot from the hike, but now I’m a totally different kind of hot.
“Damn you! Stop it!”
“What is wrong with you?” He seems confused by my actions.
“How would you like it if I took my shirt off and poured water over my head right now?”
“I’d like it a lot, actually. Want me to help you?” He’s smiling again. He kisses me and I open for him. Our tongues tie and I moan in his mouth, running my hands over his slick chest. I pull away and he looks sad. It’s fake. He’s even poking his lip out like a child.
“We’re in public and I’m starving.”
“Me, too,” he says, trying to reach for me again.
“Feed me. I need food.” I clarify so he doesn’t try again. I feel like I could pass out at any moment. It’s partly from the hike and lack of food today, but also from him. He gets me so worked up, so quickly.
Alex grabs my backpack and lays the blanket on the flattest area he can find and begins setting out our lunch. He has brought meats, cheeses, crackers and grapes and pulls out two more waters. I frown at him. He’d better not waste another bottle. Well, I guess he didn’t waste the first one. It sure looked good on him.
“Earth to Jessa. Are you going to join me?”
He has it all set up for us. I shake my head and walk over sitting on the blanket. “This is really sweet of you, Alex.”
“You bring it out in me. I never thought I could be this happy. There were moments I was happy with Lizzy. It was mainly in the beginning, when we first started dating. She was my first love, but that love was nothing compared to the love I feel for you. I love you so much.”
“I’m so in love with you, too, Alex. I thought I was in love with Tyler but I think it was more being comfortable. I’ve never felt this way, ever, with anyone. You’re my first true love.”
“I want to be your last.” He leans in and stares into my eyes then kisses me gently.
“I want that, too. I can see myself being with you forever, Alex. You make me so happy. I was having a rough few months and you came into my life so unexpectedly at just the right time. You’re my savior.”
“No. I think I could say the same thing about you. I would probably be stuck at home, still stuck in my feelings, and still living in the past. I now want to look to the future and you’re in it.”
Those words have me in tears. I jump in his lap, causing him to laugh as he catches me. I cover his face in kisses. We’re both so sweaty and still in public. Someone could come walking by at any minute and that’s the only reason we are both still clothed, except for his missing shirt. I want him so badly. It’s a long walk back down too. I consider it, but I know the minute we get naked we would be caught. The wait will make it so much better, but his hardness below me, pushing into my ass, is killing me. I get up and sit beside him trying to calm myself and we enjoy our picnic and the beautiful view.
Chapter Sixteen
This day has been simply amazing. On the drive back to Alex’s, all I can think about is the conversation we had during our picnic. I am so happy that Alex feels the same as I do. I have so much love for him. He’s everything I’ve ever wanted and didn’t even know it. To be loved and cherished by such a wonderful, broken man has its challenges, but I think we’re getting past all of that now.
We make it back to his house with only a couple of hours before he has to leave for Tennessee I wish I could go, but I need to study. Alex understands and will be coming back tonight, since I can’t. We walk into the bathroom and take our sweaty clothes off and take a shower together. He washes my hair for me and I’m in heaven. I close my eyes and lean into his chest as he massages the shampoo into my hair. He brings me under the water and rinses it out. When I open my eyes, he’s looking at me with such love in his eyes. We don’t speak. So much has been said today, we are just in the moment now. I put some shampoo in my hand and begin massaging it into his hair. He closes his eyes and I can see how relaxed he is. He doesn’t look sad. He looks content and it’s me that makes him feel this way.
After our shower, we dry off and are in our towels. Alex packs a few things he needs for work and I go downstairs for some water. I think I may be a bit dehydrated. I guzzle the bottle as Alex walks into the kitchen, still in his towel, and wraps me in his arms.
“I wish you could come with me.”
“Me, too. You’ll be back tonight, though. I’ll make it up to you then.”
“How about you start now.” He lifts me and my towel falls to the floor. I wrap my legs around his waist as he carries me into the living room, his own towel falling on the way. I feel him pressing at my entrance. I want him so badly. He sets me on my feet near the couch and turns me so I’m facing away from him. He leans in and kisses the back of my neck bending me forward over the cushions. He runs his fingertips lightly down my back causing me to shiver. He steps between my legs and uses one to spread me farther for him.
“So fucking beautiful.” He slowly runs a finger through my wetness causing me to gasp. “You have no idea how beautiful you are, do you?”
I don’t answer him. I’ve never considered myself very pretty. I’ve always seen myself as average. I feel him press himself into my wetness the slightest bit and stop. “I love you, Jessa. I think you’re beautiful inside and out. You make me a better person, the person I’m beginning to believe you deserve.”
“I love you, so much. You’re everything I’ve ever wanted. Please Alex. I want you so bad. Please.” I push backwards hard and he’s buried inside me. Being bent over like this has to be my new favorite position. I feel all of him so deep inside me. After a few more thrusts, I’m gone. I’m a quivering mess and Alex slows and grips my hips. He’s trying to gain control, but fails as he reaches his climax and a loud moan coming from deep within. I collapse on the couch and Alex joins me with a few tissues, so I don’t have any issues on his couch. Some people would hate his OCD ways, but I love them, especially since I have it, too. Maybe not as bad as him, though.
“That was so good,” I pant.
“You’re so good,” he says, kissing my forehead. As good as it was, something feels off suddenly. I’m not sure what it is. I guess knowing Alex will be leaving very soon has me a bit off, but something doesn’t seem right.
“What’s wrong?”
“I’m not sure. I just have a weird feeling is all.”
“Well that’s not good after what amazing feelings we just shared.”
“I know. Maybe it’s just knowing you’re leaving me,” I pout, snuggling into his side.
“I’ll be back tonight. Maybe about ten or eleven. I need to just look over the job and sign a few papers and I’ll hurry back here, to you.”
“You want me to stay while you’re gone?”
“Yes. If you want to?”
“Okay. Sure,” I smile.
Alex gets dressed and then grabs his briefcase as we walk to the door to the garage. He looks so good in his button up and jeans. His arms fill out every shirt he owns. I’m still not used to so much muscle.
Alex skims his finger down the buttons of the shirt of his I’m wearing. “I like you in my shirts,” he says.
“I like wearing them. They’re the perfect night shirts for me.”
“I like you in no
thing,” he says, leaning in for a kiss before he leaves. It crosses my mind to say fuck it and go with him, but I do need to study. This will give me alone time to concentrate and have no distractions.
“I love you and I’ll text you on my way home. There’s some food in the fridge, if you get hungry.”
“I love you, too.” He kisses me once more before walking out the door. That weird feeling still lingering. I’m sure everything will be fine.
I watch him drive away from the living room window. After he’s out of sight I sigh and look around the quiet house. It still feels weird to be here without him, but I am comfortable being here alone. I grab my notes from my backpack and sit on the couch with a blanket. It smells like him. That then makes me think of what we just did on this couch, his loving words and how he knows my body better than I do. My mind is wondering when I should be studying. Maybe I need a snack. I go to the fridge and get the leftover grapes from our picnic and sit back down. I read my notes for a couple of hours and am already sick of it. I should have gone with him. I could have read the notes on the way there and while he was working. What was I thinking, damn it?
I walk to the window and look out at the beautiful flowers just past the porch. There are a few beautiful butterflies flying around them. Even seeing all the beauty around me I can’t shake the eerie feeling I have in the pit of my stomach. I decide to text Brittany. She should be off work in about an hour. Maybe we could go have dinner and I can shake this feeling.
Hey bitch! Are you almost off work?
I am hoe. What are you doing? You’d better not say my uncle either.
Nah that was hours ago. He had to run to Tennessee to check that job.
Oh, yeah. I forgot. I’ve been swamped today.
I wanted to see if you wanted to get dinner. I’m sick of studying?
Ok. Yeah, I can do that. I should be finished here in about thirty minutes. Where are you?
Thanks! I’m at Alex’s.