Every semester was a new opportunity for me to make lasting friendships with new people. Unfortunately, the friendships only lasted while they had classes with me. I don't care if my college friends were only my friends to know how to do the homework. I enjoyed every second of it. Feeling needed by them made me feel a part of society; something I never experienced before in my life at that time. The friendship they offered in return while I was there is more than sufficient payment for my services as an unofficial tutor.
I met my first girlfriend, Sara, in college. Sara gives college that special memory. It gives me that special feeling that will stay recorded in my mind forever. If I hadn't gone to college, I would never have experienced the superficial and magical feeling of love. I will look back at my college years as a wonderful time.
I am still sitting on the floor thinking about what is happening to me. I tried to mentally prepare for this moment. I knew my parents were not going to be with me forever. Since I was a young child, my parents always told me that they were not going to last forever. They advised me to go to college and get a college degree in order to be set for life. The time of their death came, and it feels too painful. I burst into tears on the floor lying down. No matter how much mental preparation I went through to make this moment less painful, it didn't work.
My life has been a very fortunate one. I was showered with love from my parents. Not many people share my experience. My parents loved me so much that when my father proposed if I would rather have birthday parties with my friends or have new expensive video games as my birthday present, I chose the expensive video games. I didn't need to search for love in other people. My parents gave me the love I needed and beyond. The marvelous things in my life overweigh any of my life's negatives. Chicken pox, no girlfriends, panic attacks, and my parents' fighting are nothing compared to the beautiful things my parents provided me with.
Now, my life is over. There is nobody who loves me. I am an alien with no purpose on Earth. I always felt like an alien, but unlike before, I don't have my loving parents. I don't care about life anymore. I don't care what happens to Sara and Chad or Jessica and Richard. Whether their relationships succeed or not is not of importance to me anymore. At the end of the day, the students I tutor don't need me either. I can easily be replaced with another tutor.
Ironically, I kept telling everyone to stop believing in fairy tales. Turns out I was the one living the longest fairy tale ever. I have been living a life of fantasy for the past 28 years of my life. My fairy tale is over. I am no longer needed in society. Reality has finally come to my life. My life will be reduced to tutoring and back home forever. This is how my life will end.
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