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by Padgett Powell


  It will have a canvas water bag hanging by the stream.

  I want a pot of beans. Underground beans. What are those beans in Maine that look like cows?

  Got me there. I want a hammock and a rifle.

  Indian servant ladies.

  What?

  Indian servant ladies.

  I have never seen “Indian ladies” in a phrase. I have never seen “servant ladies” in a phrase. It’s like butler Huns, or something.

  Well, I’ll not say squaws. I don’t want squaws. I want a helpmeet with dark skin to tend the beans, that is all, in this heavenly camp we can be in without getting out of these chairs.

  I want a Campeche chair, in the camp.

  You know Peter Patout’s Campeche chair worth a half million dollars was stolen in New Orleans and he got it back?

  I do know that.

  I had the GERD all last night.

  I want a breeze in the camp. The leaves to blow into the stream and flash the silver undersides of the cottonwood, and the Indian servant ladies’ hair to move beautifully in the sun, and the flannel shirts to be the right shirts to be wearing in the wind, and a new-car smell in the camp without a new car in the camp.

  I am tired.

  I’m tired too, Helen.

  I wish Helen hadn’t been tired.

  She wasn’t tired.

  I know. Don’t be insensitive.

  I am too tired to any longer not be insensitive. It takes a lot of energy to be sensitive.

  That may be the lesson of civilization.

  &

  The lesson of civilization is that sooner or later we will fuck everything up, is it not?

  Roll tide.

  I’d like to get worked up about that, since it’s useless to get worked up about that.

  Tecumseh was a chief, and Mr. and Mrs. Sherman named their blue-eyed baby boy Tecumseh, and after wiping out Georgia single-handedly without finding any Indians in his path he went out West and found some Indians to wipe out. William Tecumseh Sherman. Doesn’t that just chap some ass?

  When did you become Wounded Knee?

  I am large, in the spirit.

  I want a newspaper but I don’t really want to read it.

  We might want to wrap fish or something, litter box.

  It’s Friday, someone should suit up get a paper and some liquor and we’d be all set.

  I was in a house trailer one time, part of a party of drunks visiting another party of drunks, and the trailer hosts were called Bill and Dick and I was there partying for a good while before I realized that Bill was a woman. She was thin and had curly hair like a Marx brother, and was quiet, maybe I am thinking of Harpo—which one had the angelic white hair? And this Bill leaned forward to get a drink off the coffee table and her shirt opened a bit and I saw tiny wizened breasts and as a result started paying more attention and it developed that her name was Billie Mae or something like that and they just called her Bill. Theretofore I had been desperate trying to figure out if the rust stains on Dick’s T-shirt were rust or shit.

  You were partying, dude.

  Indeed I was.

  I have never heard wizened used before in speech.

  I have never used it before. It is the right word, I think. Her hair was not white, it was very soft-looking and curly, maybe Harpo is not the one I want, which one had brown hair? I had been sitting there trying to figure out how this effeminate queer was accepted by these trailer drunks this way when this whole Billie Mae revelation exploded on me, and these poor little tits, and the shitty shirt everyone was comfortable with, and realizing then that this Dick dude in the shitty shirt was wont to mount little Bill with her curls and little titties.

  Frightening. You were having a hardcore intro to boozing.

  I was.

  It has stood you in good stead.

  It made me Army strong. It made me be all I could be.

  &

  Take me down to funky town if ever you were going to. Dude.

  Tell me about it.

  I’ve about had it.

  Me too.

  I’m done.

  The battle is over.

  Not lost, or won, but over.

  Amen. Take me to funky town.

  Can’t you see that, at the gates, or there waiting for Charon to tie up and watching that dog closely—is Cerberus on the boat, by the way?—saying, “Take me down to Funky Town, my man.”

  I ’magine he has heard some interesting disclaimers and directives.

  Would I be naive though in thinking that “Take me down to Funky Town” might be a first?

  I’d risk it.

  What about “I missed you, Charon, you poo poo train.”

  Bold.

  &

  After the main thrust of an activity or a venture, should one continue to give it ghost thrusts?

  As a dog does?

  I suppose.

  Well, the air thrust is funny, so I suppose one should do it if one is prepared to look like a dog humping air. For the comedic benefit it confers.

  But the ghost thrust is otherwise worthless, you think? Not likely to sire anything?

  What enterprise do you have in mind?

  Well, I was thinking of us. Sitting here. I think we have asserted ourselves and that now maybe we are ghost thrusting.

  We hardly asserted ourselves.

  Of course. But we had our say.

  We had our say.

  What is left? For someone—one’s daughter is the most acute vision—to come in and see our effects, our toys, books, how many or few shoes we had, observe how worn or not worn or pitiful they are (in my old man’s case it was about nine or seven pairs of Hush Puppies identical except in their pastel colors), put it all in boxes, locate the will, call some people. Feel sad. Go on her way.

  Doesn’t it seem that there used to be more to it?

  How so?

  Maybe, more to people? So that a passing had a larger moment?

  I suppose even now there is the occasional grandee. You saw Kennedy.

  I mean on a private plane, though.

  I know what you mean.

  You, for example, you even wrote some of the books this daughter will handle. What is she to do with them?

  She should put them with the others and be done and they be gone. I was a sad sack, end of chapter. I like that. I’d like a drink.

  I would too. We can at least not be maudlin on top of everything else.

  Let’s air hump to the store and repair our spirits.

  My little red shorts is already down.

  &

  We are not yet dead.

  Not yet.

  At some point we will stop joking about it and become afraid.

  We do not have the inner resources that would allow us not to be afraid.

  Nor the wit to say that we are in the antechamber to heaven.

  We will be in the wheelchair circle, where we said we would never be.

  That expression where the mouth is frozen open—is that what is called a “rictus”? Is that Latin? Does it refer to that expression only after death? What is it called when one is in the wheelchair circle still alive enough to drool?

  Dude. Slow down.

  I was getting worked up.

  I could tell.

  My Latin was now like sixty years ago. Caesar did not do rictus.

  Caesar got out neatly before the wheelchair circle.

  I cannot see older civilizations having had wheelchair circles, somehow. What did they do with the old folks too afraid to die?

  They stoned them. They never let them collect in corrals, high-profit corrals that offer dignity.

  We really are going to be afraid and we really are going to also refuse to die and we will give away the free dignity and purchase the other expensive dignity. I have known this since I could not even put my dog down. Fortunately he was eaten a little bit by a cougar.

  That was a stroke of luck.

  You are telling me.

  About the Author
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  PADGETT POWELL is the author of five novels, including The Interrogative Mood and Edisto, which was nominated for the National Book Award. His writing has appeared in The New Yorker, Harper’s, Little Star, and The Paris Review, and he has received a Whiting Writers’ Award and the Rome Fellowship in Literature from the American Academy of Arts and Letters. He lives in Gainesville, Florida, where he teaches writing at MFA@FLA, the writing program of the University of Florida.

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  ALSO BY PADGETT POWELL

  Edisto

  A Woman Named Drown

  Typical

  Edisto Revisited

  Aliens of Affection

  Mrs. Hollingsworth’s Men

  The Interrogative Mood

  Credits

  Cover design by Alison Forner

  Cover photograph by Redpath Chautauqua Collection, University of Iowa Libraries, Iowa City, Iowa

  Copyright

  First published as You + I in 2011 by Serpent’s Tail, an imprint of Profile Books Ltd, London.

  Portions of this book appeared in Harper’s, Little Star, McSweeney’s, Subtropics, and Unsaid, and on NarrativeMagazine.com.

  YOU & ME. Copyright © 2011, 2012 by Padgett Powell. All rights reserved under International and Pan-American Copyright Conventions. By payment of the required fees, you have been granted the nonexclusive, nontransferable right to access and read the text of this ebook on-screen. No part of this text may be reproduced, transmitted, downloaded, decompiled, reverse-engineered, or stored in or introduced into any information storage and retrieval system, in any form or by any means, whether electronic or mechanical, now known or hereinafter invented, without the express written permission of HarperCollins ebooks.

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  Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

  Powell, Padgett.

  You & me : a novel / by Padgett Powell. — 1st ed.

  p. cm.

  ISBN 978-0-06-212613-9

  1. Beckett, Samuel, 1906–1989. En attendant Godot.—Parodies, imitations, etc. 2. Middle-aged men—Fiction. 3. Experimental fiction. I. Title. II. Title: You and me.

  PS3566.O8328Y68 2012

  813’.54—dc23

  2012009520

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  Epub Edition © AUGUST 2012 ISBN: 9780062126153

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