by Naomi Niles
“Let me wash you,” I nodded as he traced up and down my back with the bar of soap for a few moments and sucked my breath in a few deep gulps. He moved down my legs and stroked them gently as he soaped them up and slid his hands back up to my thighs. I felt every nerve in my body responding and leaned my head back as he released my body for some more soap. Once he stroked my stomach and up over my swollen breasts I moaned and arched into him. Aidan soaped me up as he ran his fingers back and forth over my nipples and I felt like dropping to the ground.
“Oh, goodness. That feels good,” I whispered as he kept touching me and my legs pulsed with that pressure all over again. I didn’t know if this would make me shake or not but I relaxed against him as he hardened against my back and closed my eyes.
Aidan squeezed me and slipped a hand back over my tummy and into the soft curls between my legs as I whimpered. His fingers pushed against me and stroked me as I slipped my arms behind me and around his neck. He whispered my name as he moved his hand over me and found a spot that made me jerk against him. “Oh, oh, oh.” His finger stroked, and his other hand cupped my breast as he tugged gently on my nipple and I felt something start to break inside of me.
“That’s a girl,” He soothed me as he pressed harder and held me still. “Come for me.” I closed my eyes and rode the feeling before I exploded and stilled against him as stars burst behind my eyes. My body had feelings everywhere, and I cried out as I gripped him tightly and felt his lips on my neck. “So beautiful. I’ll never forget this, Elsa.”
I felt my body continue to pulse as he kept touching me and I shivered under the cooling water. “Is it always like that?”
“I hope so.” Aidan shut off the shower, and I turned to him as he pulled me close to him. “I always want you to feel that good. I always want you to give me everything like you just did.” His mouth found mine as I froze and allowed him to manipulate my lips with his soft mouth. There was a gentle urgency to this kiss, and I felt his tongue sliding against my lower lip before I parted my mouth. My thighs were still reacting to what had just happened, and I wrapped my arms tightly around his neck as he drove his tongue into my mouth and massaged mine as we moaned together.
I felt him slide the door and his voice telling me to hold on tight as he carried me out of the bathroom. I was soaking wet, and I wrapped my arms and legs around him as he took me carefully into the hotel room. Our lips never stopped meeting in long, clumsy kisses as he dropped me to the mattress and held me close as he covered his body with mine.
Aidan murmured my name as he pulled back to kiss my face, my jaw. He moved back to my swollen lips and kissed me breathless again before he moved his lips over my neck, and I wondered if he was going to bite me. He just sucked and nibbled gently, and I closed my eyes. I felt myself fall back as he cupped my breasts with his hands and kissed one of them while he teased the other. I watched as he sucked me between his lips and felt desire rush me all over again.
I felt overwhelmed as he sucked and kissed me for several moments as he brought me close to another explosion. I was scared of the force, but I also knew that I was craving it as I felt teeth drag gently across my pink nipples. “Aidan,” I moaned as he moved to the other one to make me feel just as good there. “This is so much better than I thought it would be.”
“It’s not finished. I am going to worship you,” Aidan promised me in a gruff voice as he started to kiss down my tummy. I watched with wide eyes as he moved down and gasped. Was he going to kiss me there? I’d never heard of such a thing, and I shivered as he kissed my inner thighs before stroking me with his tongue. “You’re so sweet. I love that I’m the first one tasting you this way.” I knew that I was still sensitive before, and I closed my eyes as my hips began to respond to his skillful mouth. I was close to another release before I felt him pull away and stare into my eyes. “I want to be inside of you, Elsa. I know that it’s your first time, and you’ll never get it back, but I want it to be me.”
“I want you to be my first,” I told him in a trembling voice as he swallowed thickly and looked my body over. “I want to do that again.”
He kissed my mouth again as I tasted something sweet and salty on his lips before pulling away to stare at him. “Is that what I taste like?” He nodded. “What do you taste like?”
“All in good time,” his voice sounded strained, and he kissed me again.
Aidan got something from his bag and returned to me on the bed before he looked into my eyes. “I am going to be gentle, but this will hurt for a bit, Elsa. Tell me if you want me to stop.”
His mouth covered mine again with deep soft kisses as he parted my legs with one hand. I heard something tearing and kept touching his tongue with mine as fingers stroked me again. One slipped inside of me, and I cried out with the sensation. Aidan pulled away and looked down at us as my eyes followed his gaze. “I’ll go slow for you, baby. I’ll take care of you.” I was mesmerized as he slid closer and then pressed just inside of me as his finger had, only bigger. He seemed to be struggling as he moved a little deeper and I gripped his neck with my arms to pull him closer. “You’re so wet for me. This will feel good once I’m in there.”
“Do it,” I urged him against his mouth as he moved slowly and steadily into me as the pain combined with an incredible pleasure. Something seemed to tear, and I held onto him tighter as he stilled and gave me a minute.
“There we go. It’ll be better soon.”
I breathed deeply before a sudden rush of desire filled my body and I slid one hand down his back. Aidan looked at me and slowly started to pull back and then push back inside as my moans turned to pleas for him to make love to me. Aidan moved slow as I scraped my nails against him and memorized the feeling of him stretching and filling me. Once I was crying out with every movement, he started to move harder, and I rocked against him as I felt everything happening to me inside. I paid attention as my body gripped him and then burst again as he let out a ragged moan. “Elsa, oh God. Elsa.” Aidan thrust hard and stilled as I held him inside of me and in my arms.
He kissed me as I wept softly in his arms for a beautiful first time. I knew that it was the best one that ever was and I loved the feeling in my body as I both kept going and recovering all at once. Aidan held me tight and kissed my face and my mouth as he skied me if I was okay over and over.
“That was so good, Aidan. That was everything that I wanted.” I promised him as I kissed him with hunger in my mouth. I wanted to kiss him all night, but eventually, I grew sleepy, and he dried me off before he carried me to the dry bed and held me in his arms as I drifted off safe in his arms. I thanked him as I snuggled against his marred chest and tried to memorize everything about him so that I would never forget about this day.
CHAPTER 20
Aidan
I woke up before Elsa and just stared at her in my arms. She looked so peaceful, and I slid the sheet down to take in her body even as I felt guilty. Her pale skin was delicate where she was strong, and I remembered how she’d tasted the night before as my body hungered for more. I silently told myself to calm down as I let my eyes drift down to her thighs.
I hadn’t been with a woman with natural hair in quite some time since it was more the style now to be bare, but I loved touching her. It was like a gift in there once I parted her and found her sensitive spot with my fingers and my tongue. I remembered how hard she came in the shower for the first time in her life, to the best of my knowledge and how much it had rocked me to my very core. I wanted more, but I was scared of drawing her in any closer. I knew that she’d given herself to me with her heart and body and that it wasn’t a decision taken lightly, and it troubled me as I looked at her.
With just a few years between us, I knew that it was more like a lifetime. I had been through so much horror and tragedy, and I bore the scars inside and out. Elsa, on the other hand, was just starting out and likely wanted the simple things in life having been raised that way. I couldn’t give her any kind of future with my di
sease and the impending diagnosis, and I rolled onto my back.
I looked around the room. It was just your average hotel room exactly like a hundred others I’d stayed in before, alone as well as with someone else. It was never like this room, and I’d never felt such peace before. I felt like I was home and I knew that we’d be leaving for another state and eventually another room. There was just something about this moment that I enjoyed before I let the guilt set in.
She was sweet and innocent, and I knew that she would give me everything that she had to offer. It showed in her eyes and her smile, and I cursed myself inwardly as I realized what I’d done. I’d taken her innocence, her first time and she would always remember me for that. Elsa might sleep with a handful more guys if that, which was a thought that bothered me more than I cared to admit. I didn’t ever want anyone to touch her again even though I had nothing real to offer her. I had no future to give to her apart from this adventure that we were on together that had changed since last night. It had taken a drastic turn, and I hardened as I heard her moan in her sleep. Fuck if her sweet sounds didn’t get my body started the way no other woman ever had. I had never been into virgins before, and apart from Melissa and another girl in high school, I hadn’t been with any. I was into casual before this, and a first timer didn’t interest me as much as fulfilling my own needs did.
Last night was something I’d never experienced, even with the other virgins. I’d loved Melissa as much as a guy in high school could but our first time was clumsy and something that we both laughed about as time went on. Last night was all about Elsa and how she felt. I wanted to be gentle and passionate with her, and I’d never focused on a woman’s needs like I did hers. The way she looked in the shower as she fell against me as her body shook violently would always be in my memory, and I looked down at the tented sheet as I slowly pushed myself up and went into the bathroom with a longing look at her beautiful bare body. I closed the door and locked it before I turned to the toilet and started stroking myself to work these feelings out of my system. I needed to come but more than that, I needed Elsa. I needed her support and her arms around me. I needed her love.
I had messed up sleeping with her last night, and I started to move my hand angrily as I felt the pressure rising. I shot into the toilet for the most part, but some of it scattered on the floor as I moaned her name softly. I washed up and cleaned up my mess before I ran my hands through my hair that was starting to look more on the tousled side than I’d prefer. I always kept it cut short as a habit, but now it didn’t matter anymore. I felt relief from the orgasm, but it was so empty in comparison to last night when I came inside of Elsa. I was wearing a condom since I always did but I longed to be bare and wild inside of her as I filled her with my seed. I hadn’t thought about a baby for quite some time, but I did with her for a fleeting moment.
Yeah, like that could happen. I grabbed the clothes that I’d brought into the bathroom the night before and pulled them on before I shoved the key into my pocket to go and grab some coffee from the lobby.
Elsa was still sleeping, and I pulled the door closed quietly before I started the short walk over there. There were a few couples and some families in the small area seated at the tables and eating as they talked about their plans today and met the others around them. I waited in the small line quietly before I fixed a cup of coffee with cream and sugar since I knew Elsa liked it that way. I fixed a waffle with some strawberries and whipped cream for the topping before I glanced at a man that was looking at me with an intent gaze. “You’re in the service.” His voice was full and without any doubt as I nodded.
“Yes, sir.” He looked at the skin on my arm for a long moment before I stood straighter. “I was in Afghanistan most recently.”
“I served my whole life in the Marines. Things have a changed a lot since then, for better or worse. I feel for the youngsters that go in these days, but you’re here. Make the most of your life.” His words chilled me, and I weakly smiled. “Thank you for your service.’
“Thanks,” I mumbled before I left the lobby and headed back to my room. I unlocked the door and pushed it open as I walked inside to see her with her eyes closed as her mouth rounded in an o. Holy shit. Elsa was touching herself, and she didn’t know that I was here yet, and I set the plate down quietly as I watched her. God, she hadn’t heard anything, and I listened to the soft sound of her moans and bit my lip. Elsa yelped and opened her eyes to see me as a deep flush covered her skin.
“I didn’t know you were there,” Elsa said as she pulled the sheet up around her shoulders and hid her body.
“I went for some coffee. I got you a waffle too. You were sleeping so peacefully.” Her eyes darted all around the room as she looked anywhere but at me, and I knew that she was having the morning after jitters. I’d been there, but she was so awkward with her gestures since she’d been caught red-handed masturbating. I didn’t want it to be like this between us, but I didn’t know what to say to make her feel better. “I can go get some orange juice and champagne for Mimosas before we check out if you want me to.” I knew that it would relax her, and Elsa looked relieved at the idea. “Yeah?”
She nodded. I suggested that she take a shower when I was gone since she had really only gotten wet last night and her hair was a beautiful mess of curls. I explained that there were soap and shampoo and everything she needed in the little bottles, and she gave me a small smile as I left with the car keys this time.
I wanted to jump right back into bed for round two when I saw her under the covers. I couldn’t see the action, but her face had given Elsa away, and I felt aroused at the idea of her wanting that first thing this morning. I headed to the nearest grocery store and picked up the drink supplies and a bottle of Hennessey for tonight when I needed to relax.
It was telling when the cashier openly flirted with me and offered to share my morning drinks with me, and I felt nothing. I merely thanked her and headed back to the car, in a hurry to see Elsa again.
She was in the bathroom combing her hair, and I peeked in as I walked past the cracked door. Elsa was dressed in some tight jeans and a pretty green button up shirt and she looked gorgeous. Elsa blushed as she looked at me and I held up the bags. The waffle had been bitten into, and I smiled as I shook my head. She needed to eat something so she wouldn’t be a mess later on since he just wanted her to relax some and be her funny self. Elsa looked at me as I pulled out a carton of orange juice and a cheap bottle of champagne with curiosity in her eyes. “Want to freshen up your breakfast? They have a lot of stuff there to choose from.”
“I’d like to see it.” She smiled. I offered her a sip of my coffee to see if she liked it.
We walked over to the lobby, and I was relieved to see it a little less crowded this much later. I showed Elsa how to make the waffles and explained some of the other choices as an older woman watched us. She fixed a cup of coffee with a smile on her face and looked at me as she sipped it. “Perfect.”
Elsa put a few things on a plate, and I grabbed something for myself before we went back to the room and settled at the table. “So where are we going today?”
“We are visiting my ex-fiancée Melissa today. I ended things badly with her back then, and I just want to fix it before I go back on duty. She was one of my best friends and got a bad ending with me.” I pulled out the bottle and popped it as her eyes widened, and she scooted back. I chuckled and poured it into the travel cup that I’d purchased for her along with a healthy amount of orange juice. “She deserves to know the truth.” I hadn’t told her then that I was suffering from Post-Traumatic Stress and that I couldn’t deal with a relationship when I was too scared to be close to her, much less anybody else. I was too caught up in my nightmares and obsession with loud noises and my need to hide. Melissa didn’t need that, but she also needed a better explanation for my past actions. She also deserved the truth to what I was dealing with right now and that my days were numbered.
A part of me thought that Elsa d
eserved the truth too.
I watched as she sipped the mimosa and smiled. “This is delicious.”
“I’d stick to two at the most. Champagne catches up to you, but you seemed like you’d like it better than beer.” When she asked if I was having any, I shook my head. “I’m driving. I have to keep you safe.” Her eyes met mine as she took a bite of her cream cheese Danish and slowly chewed. She looked lost but happy, and he hoped the latter was most of what she was feeling. “I always want you safe, Elsa.”
“I know,” she responded as she broke off a piece of muffin and sipped her coffee.
I took another shower before packing up to go and found her giggling in the room in front of the televising after I’d finished. The champagne was taking effect. “Is that still your first?” I asked her as she nodded. “What’s so funny, Elsa?”
“These news people. Their acting so stupid when the one's last night were serious about what was happening in the world. Why do people watch this?” Elsa asked as I sat down beside her.
“People life to laugh, as you are. They like to be distracted from reality and just enjoy their mornings sometimes.” I was honest since I’d spent a few years doing that through sex and drinking. I tried not to notice the white lace strap of her camisole underneath the shirt that she wore. “What else did you watch last night?”
“There was this show with this man and woman. He was biting her neck, and they were doing it. I didn’t know that television showed so much,” her voice was earnest as she spoke and I looked at her as she met my eyes. “I didn’t know that it was really like that.”
“It isn’t always like that. It’s another distraction for people through the screen or perhaps a book. This world is all about escapism, Elsa. Do you want that?” I asked her as she licked her lips and made me hard all over again.