“Nay. I amnae letting ye go until ye understand ma reaction. It wasnae anything ye did. I love yer playfulness and yer desire for me. I am just truly sorry for treating ye so roughly. I didna show ye the respect that is due ma wife.”
“I dinna understand. Didna ye like what we just did? I thought ye enjoyed it. Ye seemed to.” Siùsan trailed off. She was swallowing back tears. She had just had the two most physically astonishing experiences of her life. She had thought they were closer than ever, but her husband seemed to regret it all.
“Leannan, that is the problem. I liked it far too much. I was much too rough with ye. It was only yer second time. I was not gentle the first time and now this time I-”
He could not bring himself to use such a dirty word as fuck in front of his wife. He wished he knew what to say to reassure her that she had done nothing wrong.
“Callum, I dinna understand at all. One moment ye seemed to be so enjoying what we were doing and now ye regret it. I dinna understand what I did wrong. Why do ye regret making love to me again?”
“Because I didna make love to ye!” He nearly yelled with exasperation. He saw the confusion in Siùsan’s eyes. Behind that was a deep hurt, and he realized that she thought he was rejecting her once again. She did not have the experience to understand the different ways that a couple could come together. He knew that he had to be honest. “Siùsan, I love ye, and we shared something strong and passionate, but I wouldnae call what we did making love. I fucked ye. I fucked ma wife.” Callum hung his head in shame and shook it. “I treated ye no better than a whore. I took ye against a tree, damn it. I wanted only to stick ma cock in ye until I came. I wanted to make ye come as hard as I could. I wanted to toss yer skirts and tup ye until neither of us could see straight. I fucked ye.” He finished on a whisper. He could not bring himself to look at Siùsan.
Needless to say, the sound of her laughter and the shaking of her body came as a shock. His head jerked up as he looked at her.
“That’s what upset ye so much? Ye thought ye’d mistreated me. What if I told ye I liked that as much as what we did the first time? What if I told ye I hope ye fuck me again and again just as much as I want to make love to ye for the rest of our lives? What if I told ye that I want to fuck again right now since I enjoyed it so much? I dinna want to be treated like some cold noblewoman whose husband does his duty by her and then seeks his pleasure elsewhere, seeks to fuck someone else.”
Callum could not believe his ears. He stared in shock at Siùsan. He was not sure what stunned him more, her repeated use of such a crass word or that she wanted to repeat their coupling over and over. She wanted to do it again right now. He shook his head to clear his mind and looked at her. She stood there grinning like the cat that got into the cream.
“Ye really arenae bothered by how I just took ye?” He found he was rather awestruck by his little wife who barely came to the center of his chest. He thought he should treat her only with delicacy and reverence now that they were wed. Apparently, she did not mind that but wanted it rough just as much.
“I wasnae bothered until ye pulled away. I felt ashamed of being so brazen and taunting ye. I thought ye thought I was acting like a whore.”
“And I was afraid ye would think I had treated ye like a whore.”
“Ma braw mon, cannae we have it both ways? Making love and tupping?”
“Aye. That we can. We can do it anyway that we want. What we do is between us. As long as ye are enjoying it, we can do it however we desire. If ye dinna like something, ye have only to tell me, and we will stop.”
“Vera well, but I havenae disliked anything we have done yet.” Siùsan’s cheeks turned a dark red, but she forced herself to look up at Callum before she whispered, “Can we do it again like I said? Or is it too soon?”
Callum’s cock went from partially aroused to rock hard in the beat of his heart. He could not comprehend how he was ready to go yet again after the last two times. Even in his green youth, when he first discovered his hand and then women, he had not been able to go so many rounds so quickly and so hard. He was ready to thrust into her when he finally came to his senses.
“Leannan, ye are going to be vera sore tomorrow. We have a long ride ahead of us, and I have used ye too roughly tonight. I fear that ye will be in a great deal of pain tomorrow.”
“If I am going to be sore anyway, what does it matter if we do it once more?” She cocked one eyebrow.
“I wouldnae make it worse for ye.”
“Will ye make time to bring me to the stream to bathe in the morning? I imagine the cool water will do wonders for me.”
“Of course. If that would make ye feel better, I will take ye there.”
“Then it is settled. We have a solution to ma soreness, so let us not wait any longer.” If he had not been aroused again, he might have marveled at her practicality. Siùsan crossed her arms which thrust her breasts up and almost over the neckline of her gown. Callum could not take his eyes off them. He knew how full and round they were from when he balanced them in his hands and his mouth devoured them. “Once when I stumbled upon a maid and guardsman in the passageway near the storerooms, I saw them coupling. I hadnae understood what they were doing at the time as she wasna facing him. Now I think I ken. He was behind her and had her skirts lifted. I could see his plaid was gathered between them. I saw much the same with Robert and the maid.” Siùsan paused to take a breath before plunging on. “Is that something we can try? Is that a way that ye like it?” She hated being reminded that Callum had been with other women, but she was curious, and she was committed to keeping him to herself alone.
Callum moved slowly towards her. He nodded his head. Siùsan turned around and pulled her skirts up to present her backside to him. Callum pulled his leine up and fisted his cock. Siùsan looked over her shoulder and swallowed hard as she watched him stroke himself. She reached forward and ran her fingers through her wet seam. Callum nodded his head as he watched her. He moved behind her. He caught her hand and lifted her fingers to his mouth. He licked each finger then sucked them into his mouth.
“The sweetest honey I have ever tasted.” He took his cock in his hand and rubbed it between her bottom cheeks. “Lass, do ye ken how some men couple with a woman to avoid bairns and the pox?” She shook her head. “A mon can take a woman here.” He pressed the tip of his cock against her tight rosebud. “This is how I avoided siring any bastards. Ye are the only woman I ever spilled inside.”
“Did ye enjoy taking women that way? Is that how--” She was not sure that she could bring herself to mention another woman while they were being so intimate, but she had to know. “Is that how ye used to take Elizabeth? Did ye only couple with her this way?”
Callum stiffened and paused. She had asked an honest question, and she deserved an honest answer. He took a deep breath before responding.
“I took her this way most of the time. She accepted that I wouldnae risk having a bastard. I did couple with her in the more traditional way but always pulled out the moment I felt ma release coming.” Siùsan looked over her shoulder at Callum, but he could not meet her gaze.
“Do ye want to take me that way? Not because ye fear siring a bastard or to avoid disease but because ye like how it feels?”
Callum could not believe his ears. This night had taught him a great deal about his wife’s personality. She had always been far more adventurous in their love play than he could have ever imagined, even from their very first day together on the beach. In general, he realized, she was curious and adventurous, strong willed and stubborn. Her timidity came only when she felt vulnerable to rejection. Now, she seemed to also be very accepting of how men and women could come together. He risked looking up at her and saw that she genuinely wanted to know and seemed eager for his answer.
“Aye, one day.” He choked out. He watched her nod her head and then she turned away. She bent forward and pulled her bottom cheeks apart, presenting the dark rosebud to him. When he made no move to enter
her, she wiggled her hips from side to side. Callum was still stroking himself, he noticed, and watching her present herself to him made him curse in his head, but he would not take her that way tonight. She most definitely was not ready for that.
“I willna tup ye that way tonight, Siùsan. Ye areane ready for that, and I would use oil to make it easier and less painful the first time.” He stepped closer and nudged his tip into her wet folds. “I will take ye this way though.” He slid all the way into her and wrapped his good arm around her. The feel of her body sucking him into her hot, smooth depths made him forget about the throbbing in his broken arm. She moaned as he filled her to his hilt. He paused and let her adjust to yet a new position and new sensations. She pushed her hips back against him and wiggled them again. Callum growled and eased almost all the way out of her. He pushed gently into her, aware that she was probably already feeling sore from their last two joinings.
Siùsan was not in the mood to wait. She had waited her entire life to find someone who would care about her and want her for herself. She had waited weeks for Callum to realize her value to him, and he had awoken her passions time and again. She was relieved to finally have a means to fully satisfy them both. She reached behind her and pulled her bottom cheeks apart again. She bent further forward and thrust her hips up. Callum’s fingers dug into her hips as he used both hands to hold her in place. He could not even feel the pain in his injured shoulder and arm. All he could feel was his cock plunging deeper and deeper into the woman that he craved.
“Callum, dinna hold back. Show me how ye like it. Show me.” She ground out her last words between her teeth as Callum picked up the pace and slammed into her. He leaned over her and whispered to her.
“Ye have the finest arse I have ever seen. Ye feel so good as I stick ma prick in ye. I want to feel ye come around me. I want to spill ma seed in ye and watch it spill out of ye. I can still taste yer honey on ma tongue. I am going to fuck ye until ye scream ma name, lass.”
“Callum, oh, Callum.” It became a chant, almost a mantra as she pressed her hips back against him over and over. He slammed into her from behind.
“Callum, fuck me. Fuck me harder. I canna stop. I am so close. I can feel it. So close. Harder, Callum. I want to feel yer cock in me. Callum!” She nearly screamed at the end as she felt her release seize her. Its strength almost brought her to her knees. It was only Callum’s grip that kept her from sinking to the ground. He thrust harder and faster. He slammed into her over and over again. He panted and growled as he took her. Finally, she felt him jerk harder and press his hips forward while he held her in place. She felt the jets of his seed as they sprayed her insides. She felt another short but strong release surge through her.
They stayed bent over as they tried to catch their breath. Callum slowly eased out of her. Siùsan whimpered.
“Oh, mo ghoal, I kenned I shouldnae have been so rough and that we shouldnae have done it again. I am sorry I hurt ye.” Callum knew she should have listened to his common sense, but he had enjoyed each of their couplings more than the last.
“I amnae in pain. Just the opposite. I havenae ever felt better. I just dinna want ye to pull out yet. Feeling ye slide into me is almost as good as the feel of finding ma release. I didna want it to end. I dinna like the feeling of being empty after having ye so deep inside me.”
Siùsan’s innocent and unassuming words filled Callum’s heart. Even when they were not being gentle with one another and it seemed like it was more about the passion than the love, Callum knew that she longed for their emotional connection as much as he did.
“I dinna like pulling out of ye either. I would stay joined to ye, as one, forever if we could.”
“So even in our moments of passion, ye still feel that way? It isnae just about rutting then?”
“Nay. I suppose it isnae. Perhaps it isnae just fucking after all. I canna just walk away from ye. I canna separate how I feel for ye in ma heart from how I feel for ye with ma body.”
“I dinna mind thinking of us rutting as we seem to have quite a passion for one another. But I also ken that I dinna just think of it as our bodies coming together. Ma feelings for ye are too interwoven with what we do.”
“Lass, ye are a wise one. I feel the same. There are times, clearly, when ma desire for ye is overwhelming. I canna hold back how much I want ye, but it is not just because I desire ye physically.”
“I suppose that just means we have found more than one way to make love. Sometimes it is urgent and overpowering and others it is more leisurely and affectionate,” she said philosophically.
Callum helped Siùsan right her gown once more. She picked up his sling and carefully helped him put his arm back into it. He wrapped his good arm around her and pulled her to his side as they walked quietly back to camp.
Chapter Twenty-One
The first person they encountered was Magnus who had watch. He simply nodded his head and smirked. Callum wanted to smack his brother when he felt Siùsan tense beside him, but when he looked down, she was giving Magnus the most innocent smile he had ever seen on her face. She waved to Magnus and kept moving forward. Callum nodded his head to Magnus and followed Siùsan into camp. Almost all the men had settled in to sleep. Siùsan knew they had been travelling for days just as she had, and she knew they had travelled in the same rain she had. While she had travelled in relative calm once she had put a healthy distance between her and Castle Dunbeath, she knew that Callum must have been a holy terror to travel with if what she had seen from the tree was any indicator. The men were surely relieved to have a night of sleep knowing they would be returning home in the moring.
Home. Is that really where I want to go right now? I want to stay with Callum but before this, I had never realized how much I long to ken ma mother’s side of the family. If I go back with Callum now, will I ever have the chance to meet them?
Siùsan’s mental wonderings were cut short by the sound of someone snickering. She looked across the fire to see Tavish burying his face in the crook of his elbow as he leaned over his bent knees. His shoulders shook as he finally looked up. He snorted when he saw the two of them together.
“Ye’re wed finally? Aboot bluidy time if ye ask me. Enough dithering aboot to last a lifetime, if ye ask me.”
“I dinna remember asking ye. I’d thank ye to keep yer neb out of it. I dinna need ye insulting ma wife.” Callum relished the sound of calling Siùsan his wife. He wanted to shout it from the treetops to one and all. He looked down at Siùsan and saw that her cheeks were bright red. She did not react to Tavish’s comments with quite as much aplomb as she had Mangus’s smirks.
She pulled away from Callum and went to spread out his absconded plaid on the ground near her saddle. She rested her head against it and wrapped the plaid around her. There was clearly no room for Callum in her little nest.
Callum looked at his brother and scowled. He walked over to him and grabbed his leine at the shoulder. He pulled him away from the fire and turned him to face Callum.
“Did ye really have to humiliate her?”
“Doesnae she have a thick skin? She willna last long in our family if not.”
“Ye ken she does. Look at what she has tolerated so far. Do ye really need to compound how unwelcome she has felt by embarrassing her now that we are wed? If ye need a target for yer barbed comments, then make me the target not ma wife. She doesnae deserve it.”
Tavish stood with his hands on his hips and looked up at the twinkling stars.
“Aye. Ye’re right. She doesnae. She isnae Mairghread and used to ma sense of humor. I must remember that.” Tavish shook his head, properly chastened.
“Dinna be an arse come morning. Ye’ve done enough damage. Give me yer spare plaid.”
“Not warm enough in just yer leine? Good thing it comes to yer knees or yer arse’d be in the wind. She seems to have claimed ye and yer plaid. Why not snuggle up?”
“Ye put a wedge between us already.” Callum grumbled and gave Tavish
a shove back towards the fire and Tavish’s saddle bag. Tavish tossed it over to him and Callum laid it on the ground to pleat it. He then laid on top of it and belted it around his waist. “Thank ye, wee brother.”
Callum could not keep himself from taking a jab at Tavish. Not only was Tavish his younger brother, but he was also the shortest of the four brothers. Not by much, a hair’s breadth really, but just enough to be a source of teasing. He walked over to Siùsan. He wanted to check on her before he bedded down behind her. She might not be pleased with him, but he would still sleep near her to be sure she was safe. After knowing she had slept in trees for days and after the Gunn attack, he was not going to let her out of arms reach.
He reached down to pull the plaid higher on her shoulders, but her eyes popped open. She smiled at him and opened her arms to welcome him. He just stared.
“Dinna ye want to join me?” He could hear the uncertainty in her voice. She began to lower her arm and pull the plaid back when he practically dove under the cover next to her.
“I thought ye were upset and dinna want me to join ye. Ye rolled up so tightly that it didna look like there was much room for me.” He tucked her hair behind her ear and let his hand cup her cheek.
“Ye’re ma husband now, and we are newly wed. I wouldnae turn ye away. We may nae have a mattress, but yer bed will always be with me.” She grinned as she rubbed her leg against him.
“Ye vixen. What have I unleashed in ye?”
“I dinna ken,” she whispered as she ran her hand over his chest. “Wouldnae ye be more comfortable on yer back?”
“I’m most comfortable when I’m inside ye but since I cannae do that right now, I will settle for ye by ma side.”
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