by Bella Grant
“I’ve loved you since the day we met,” she confessed. “Even if I didn’t understand it then, I did, and I thought you’d never feel the same way.”
He let out a loud sigh. “Julian was right. We need to work on our communication.” He hugged her tightly, then pushed her off him and repositioned her so she was lying against the headrest.
“What are you doing?” she asked when he peeled the blankets back and pulled up her nightgown.
“The doctor said your shoulders and jaw would need time to heal, so no sex until he says it’s okay… But that doesn’t mean I can’t show my wife, in other ways, how much I love her.” With that said, he slid between her thighs and pulled her legs to rest on his shoulders.
“Oh… um.” She sighed as his mouth covered her mound and he showed her how much attention he could give her.
She loved him. Everything would be alright. She would keep him on his toes, and he would keep her from flying off into the night sky.
EPILOGUE
“Take it easy, Bella.” Antonio gave her a sharp look as she danced toward him. The Chicago Art Institute buzzed with celebrities, politicians, and other socialites gathering for a good cause. Isabella couldn’t contain the excitement of seeing so many Hollywood stars in one place. When she mentioned she’d never met an actor before, Antonio had walked her right up to Tom Hanks and Rita Wilson. He had to hold her upright, she shook so hard. But as he knew she would, she held her grace long enough to make a polite introduction and carry on a short conversation.
“I can’t believe you didn’t warn me!” she had scolded him after they’d said their goodbyes and headed toward another gallery. He winked and laughed in response.
“I am perfectly fine, Antonio. Stop being such a worry wart!” Isabella took the glass of champagne he had been holding for her while she made a trip to the restroom.
“The doctor said you were well enough to attend tonight’s function, but he didn’t say anything about dancing and flittering about as you are.” Antonio raised his eyebrows, almost begging her to disagree. He had allowed her to attend the function with the terms that should she give him any trouble whatsoever, they would head straight for the car and head back to the hotel.
“Yes, yes.” She waved a carefree hand in the air. “Where did your sister run off to?” She searched the room.
“She’s over there, talking with Prince Ian Thames.” Antonio pointed to a corner of the room where Carmen was having what looked like an intimate conversation with the prince. Her hand rested on his arm while he smiled and carried on the conversation. The big brother in him wanted to march over there, throw her hand off him, and let the prince know what sort of behavior was appropriate for his little sister, but then she smiled. Not the fake, plastic smile she saved for the public and their parents, but a warm engaging smile, and he couldn’t interfere. Yet.
“I’ve never heard of him.” Isabella took a step in their direction before Antonio pulled her back to his side.
“He’s from a small island off the coast of Scotland. Technically, I believe his country is under British rule, but his family has maintained a steady presence in the country.” He could tell she was listening because she had tilted her head so he could speak directly into her left ear. The damage to her right ear was still healing.
“He’s very large, isn’t he?” she pointed out.
Antonio looked down at his princess. “Bella, I am more than a whole head taller than you. Don’t look so concerned for Carmen.”
“Yes, but you’re different. You aren’t so… large.” She put her hands out to the sides to express the broadness of Prince Ian’s back.
“Are you trying to tell me I should spend more time in the gym, love?”
She gave him a coy grin over her shoulder and made it quite plain she was inspecting his physique. “Well…” She didn’t have a chance to finish her bait, as he quickly pinched her hip.
“Ah, my brat is back, I see.” He laughed, pulling her to his chest and wrapping his arms around her. He pressed his lips to her ear. “Perhaps my brat is in need of a spanking?” His hands slid down her dress until they rested on the curve of her round backside.
She blushed beautifully and shook her head. “I’m not sure the doctor would approve,” she threw at him, teasing him about how often he reminded her of the physician’s orders for her to rest.
“To hell with the doctor,” he growled and grabbed her hand in his, marching toward the exit.
With her champagne glass in hand, she let him half drag her from the room, laughing. “Antonio, it’s early.”
He gave her a heated look over his shoulder without missing a step. As they passed a waiter, Isabella managed to put her glass on his tray without spilling it and sped up to keep in line with her husband.
“What about your sister?” she asked once they were outside on the steps beside one of the iconic lions that remained perched on the museum steps. The summer breeze whipped through her hair, sending the locks flying behind her.
Antonio looked back at the entrance as though he had forgotten her. “She’ll be fine. Julian is with her tonight. I’ll send him a message. I have more important things to do than babysit my little sister.”
“Oh? What’s that, my prince?”
Before his driver could come around the car to open the door, Antonio yanked it open and held a hand out to her to assist her. “Get in and you’ll find out, my loving brat.” His smile warmed her. Slipping her hand in his, she let him guide her into the car.
They drove down the street to spend their last evening in Chicago in their hotel room, in each other’s arms, and forever in each other’s hearts.
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HEAL ME
(A Billionaire BAD BOY Romance)
By
Bella Grant
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Bill
I’d been sitting in this damn office for an hour. I thought therapists were supposed to be, you know, considerate of feelings and all that shit. Why had I been waiting so long, then, huh? I was so bored that I was reading a magazine article. Some dumb-fuck was talking about how his money got him everything he ever dreamed of, and Now you can, too! For just ninety-nine million dollars!
Saying you got everything you wanted in life was a load of shit. I would know, because I have money. Lots of it. I’ll let you in on a secret about wealth: when you have money, you’re gonna spend it just because you can. I’ve spent my fair share of days overseas, lounging in the nude with two hookers I had hired the night before. I’ve snorted cocaine off hookers, yes. I once traveled on a yacht, and I paid for it out-of-pocket just because I could. I’ve done so many things that are cliché, things normal people would only dream of, if they even knew those things existed. But. But. Let me tell you one thing I never got in life.
I’ve never had a woman who gave a shit about me. Not even my mother, though she was the one who finally convinced me to be here. Yeah, they like my money—and, hell, I’d even say that I’m easy on the eyes. I stand about five-foot-nine, not terribly short but certainly not tall. My hair is salt and pepper. My eyes, bright green, distract people from the gray in my hair. I like to think of myself as a ‘refined gentleman,’ which basically means I’m pretty old. Over forty-five.
That’s why you couldn’t stop him from grabbing you by the neck, I thought. Nonsense. He was a coward. Came at you from behind, Bill. What could you really do but give in? I thought to myself, accustomed to my crazy internal dialogue.
“Being robbed can impact ya more than ya think,” my mom had said. “I read it in this self-help book.” Her voice was rattling and weak. She was smoking too much again. “Ya gotta see someone, Billy,” she had urged.
I told myself that her begging voice had convinced me to seek help. But truly,
I knew when to throw in the towel. During any business negotiations, the point at which I’d lost and they’d won was always clear to me. Sadly, as much as I fucking hated it, I had lost. That night had robbed me of more than just my money. It robbed me of a piece of my manhood that I couldn’t seem to grab back. Every damn business deal since then had been a crock of shit. I lost my cool because I lost my confidence.
And the nightmares. Those nightmares. I pictured it every night: walking back to my hotel from the financial district. I’d rented a room to get away from my fiancée—whom I was not cheating on, as much as she accused me of it. The mugger had grabbed me by the throat from behind. He was tall and bigger than me, and I am no shrimp. I’ve been muscular my entire life, but especially so since I’d been hitting the gym a lot recently. I wanted to avoid the weight gain that hits most people in their forties.
He had squeezed. “Here’s the deal. I have a gun, and you have a wallet. You go to the ATM, and the gun won’t go off. You fuck with me, and you’ll be poor and dead. Hear that, you son of a bitch?” he’d rasped into my ear.
Even through my fear, I had felt a spike of anger rush over me. Who the hell did this guy think he was? Didn’t he know ‘Billy the Billionaire,’ a self-made man from a lower-middle class family in Yonkers? Didn’t he know that I packed the punches in life, and people like him cleaned my damn shoes—for a very good price, of course, because I value labor. I respect hard work and the people who’ve earned their money. I had no respect for him, even in that moment.
But I had respect for my beating heart and my life. And, God, I admit it: I was scared shitless. I wanted to live. My life ran through my head, and all that jazz. The thought of not having it changed me in many ways. But this change was, by far, overshadowed by the knowledge that at any moment, another stranger could come out of the shadows and take it all away from me.
Back to the robbery, though. I’ve never seen so many people out on the street in my life. Yeah, it was nighttime, but it didn’t explain their sheer ignorance. None of them paid much attention to the situation. Some averted their eyes, and some stared. I had heard of the bystander effect in one of my undergraduate classes, but I never actually thought it existed. Unfortunately for me, I had to find out the hard way. It indeed existed, all the way to the ATM one block north.
He had put the gun to my head as I unloaded my money. When the machine wouldn’t dispense any more money—because there was no more—he was as confused as he was excited.
“That means you got more, don’t it?” he asked. I could tell from his voice that he must have been in his mid-twenties.
He lowered the gun as if in awe. I took this as my chance. As it turns out, the gun wasn’t loaded. It was all for show. Lucky for me, all he could do was use the gun to beat me over the head again and again. He turned me over, and by that point, I was nearly unconscious. He kept beating me until someone finally called the police.
In court, he told them that the rage and fury he had vented upon me was frustration—frustration from being homeless, from losing his job. I was the face of everything he had ever hated. I didn’t feel an ounce of pity for the man, and only regretted that they couldn’t put him away for longer. As his handcuffs shook, he looked at me, his eyes cold and empty. His was the face that could have been my demise. A face I haven’t been able to get out of my head since. Which is why I had finally made the appointment to see the therapist.
Well, that was the main reason. There were many, actually. I wasn’t entirely sure I would ever get over my ex-wife, Sophia, much to the chagrin of my fiancée, Fiona.
“You’re not over Sophia, are you?” Fiona had said to me on more than one occasion.
I’d spun around in my office chair. The day had gone by slowly, and I felt disconnected. “Huh?”
Fiona had found a large photo of Sophia under my bed wearing nothing but some very sexy lingerie. “You have to get rid of this right now!” Fiona cried.
I followed her to the kitchen. She handed me the picture and pointed to the garbage chute.
“Throw it away!” Fiona demanded. She watched as I reluctantly threw it in the trash.
I usually did as she asked; I think I care about her even though she’s a pain in my ass most of the time. She was the nosiest person I have ever known.
“And that kid of yours with his ‘collecting’ habit. I can’t do it anymore,” she’d wailed one night after discovering that Zach had started collecting skulls.
“Do you know that he calls me ‘Crow’?” Fiona asked, showing me an entry in his journal.
“You shouldn’t have been reading his journal,” I’d said dryly, returning to my morning paper.
“It’s not fair. He’s never going to like me! Ever. No matter what I do. I even tried making cookies,” Fiona replied, gesturing to the broken molten tragedies that she’d tried to bake. I nibbled on one, but I wasn’t able to make out what kind of a cookie it was supposed to be.
I cleared my throat and put my paper down, gazing knowingly at her. “I’ll take you shopping and make it all better.”
Her demeanor changed instantly. “You’re the best, baby! Can we go now? I’ll get my coat.”
Fiona had a shopping addiction. I, luckily, had the money to supply her habit, but I was quickly tiring of it.
Last time I checked, Sophia was dating some guy named Eric. Zach would say. “Eric took us out. It was nice of him.”
And I would answer: “He took you out and was nice to you? What a bastard.”
The first time Zach mentioned Sophia’s new boyfriend, I had choked. This was beginning to happen during my business meetings, too. Last meeting, I choked when someone challenged me. This weird feeling of dread came over me. The lights were distant, and I had a flashback. That feeling of powerlessness. A chokehold around my neck. Any tension morphed into that hold, and no action could stop the feeling.
I was snapped out of my reverie when someone walked into the office and looked around—a squirrely young guy. He slammed the door. I jumped.
“Is… is Katie Warren here?” he said to no one in particular.
I looked around the room, trying to figure out if he was talking to the receptionist or me. Her chair was empty. Go figure. I grunted and put the magazine up to my face, then even closer, trying to lose sight of him.
“I’m out of my medicine!” he cried loudly. Tears streamed down his face.
I grunted again, nearly licking the magazine now.
The receptionist scuttled over to the desk.
“Mr. William Carson?” she called out of the booth. I got up quickly, grateful to escape into the office. “You can go on in. First door on your left,” she said.
As I gripped my briefcase and opened the door, I heard the receptionist say, “The psychiatrist isn’t in, and Katie has a client. Can we help you?”
“Fuck,” the man shouted in response.
When I walked into the consulting room, a woman had her back turned to the door as she fumbled behind her desk.
“That guy out there. The crazy one. He one of your patients or something?” I mumbled. “He’s got a foul mouth, but at least he uses the right words.” I chuckled.
“I can’t share that kind of information with you, sir,” she said in a matter-of-fact kind of voice. She spun her chair around.
I’d always heard of people saying that ’their jaw dropped’ when they saw a person, but mine actually did. Sitting there—all five-foot-three-inches of her, or thereabouts—was a woman who was the spitting image of my Sophia. A young Sophia. The same sharp cheekbones. Full, soft lips. Big, brown, expressive eyes. The kind that saw through your shit. She had short hair, curly and thick. Though she hid most of her face with big black glasses, there was no mistaking that she was Sophia’s doppelganger.
I took a seat, trying to steady my legs.
“So you’re...” She paused, squinting at my name.
“William Carson.”
She left her desk and came to sit down across from m
e on one of her pleather chairs. “It’s very nice to meet you.”
I furrowed my eyebrows and said, “You mean to tell me you don’t know who I am?”
Her face must have been made of stone. She had absolutely no reaction, just a pleasant demeanor. It stunned me. I could usually see the darkest shades in the most classic of creatures.
“You know. Billy the Billionaire?” I said, my voice faltering in a way I did not approve of. Get yourself together, Billy. You gonna let this nobody tell you you’re not a somebody?
I stood and straightened. I towered over her, especially while she was sitting on her chair. “Why would I trust a shrink who can’t even use Google?”
“Please, Mr. Carson, sit down. I do not Google my clients before I meet them,” she explained calmly.
She certainly didn’t have Sophia’s personality. I raked my hands through my hair and took a seat.
“Why’s that? Don’t you wanna know about your competition?”
She tilted her head. “Competition?”
“Yeah. You’re in a business, right? I’m your client, but I might as well be the competition. If you can’t crack this egg, you’re not going to get paid,” I said slyly. I had regained my power.
“I’m in the business of helping. As such, there will be no egg cracking,” she replied with a warm, bright smile. Sophia’s smile. I tried not to melt. I was uncomfortable. I couldn’t meet her eyes. The lights were brighter now. I felt the familiar sensation of panic start to wash over me.
“Are you all right?” she asked in her soft voice.
Her voice brought me back down to earth. I shifted in my chair. “Yeah. I just need some water.”
She fetched me some water in a paper cup. As her hand brushed mine, electricity jolted through me. I glanced up at her. Our eyes met, and she quickly averted hers. She took her seat across from me, her voice far more professional than before.