The black straps that held the new knife down along my spine showed a little at the shoulders, but more across the back. The hilt was hidden under my hair, but I wouldn’t be taking the jacket off.
“Why didn’t you wear this last night?” Richard asked.
“The pants suit seemed more appropriate.”
He stared at me, eyes roving over my body more than my face. He shook his head. “For seeing someone you’re not going to sleep with, that is a very sexy outfit.”
I had never planned on Richard seeing the dress, at least not on the night I wore it for Jean-Claude. I wasn’t sure what to say, but I’d try. “I trust myself with Jean-Claude more than I trust myself with you, so he gets the short skirt and you don’t.” That was the truth.
“You’re saying I don’t get the sexy outfit because I’m so irresistible?”
“Something like that.”
“If I ran my hands up your legs, would I find panty hose or garters?” He looked so solemn, hurt. With everything else going down, I shouldn’t have had to worry about my boyfriend’s hurt feelings, but there it was. Life goes on, even if you’re ass deep in alligators.
“Panty hose,” I said.
“Will Jean-Claude find out what kind of hose you’re wearing?”
“He could ask, like you did,” I said.
“You know that’s not what I meant,” he said.
I sighed. “I don’t know how to make this easier on you, Richard. If there’s anything that would make you feel more secure about this, ask.”
To his credit, he didn’t ask me not to go. I think he knew he wouldn’t like the answer. “Come here,” he said and held out his hand to me.
I walked over to him and took his outstretched hand. He sat me on his lap, legs sideways like you’d sit on Santa. He encircled me with one arm, then laid his other hand on my thigh. “Promise me you won’t sleep with him tonight.”
“With assassins ready to jump out of the woodwork, I think that’s a safe bet,” I said.
“Don’t joke, Anita, please.”
I smoothed my hand through his hair. He looked so serious, so hurt. “I’ve said no for a very long time, Richard. Why should you be worried about tonight?”
“The dress,” he said.
“I admit it’s short, but . . .”
He smoothed his hand up my thigh until it vanished under the skirt. He rested his hand just below the lace of the teddy. “You’re wearing lingerie, for God’s sake; you never wear lingerie.”
I would have explained about everything matching, but somehow I didn’t think that would be comforting. “Okay, I won’t sleep with him tonight. I hadn’t planned on it to begin with.”
“Promise me you’ll come back and sleep with me.” He smiled when he said it.
I smiled back and slid off his lap. “You’d have to shift first. I’d have to see your beast. Or so you keep telling me.”
“I could shift when you get back.”
“Could you take human form again quickly enough to do us any good tonight?”
He smiled. “I’m strong enough to be Ulfric, Anita. One of the things I can do is change form almost at will. I don’t pass out when I change back to human form like most shapeshifters.”
“Handy,” I said.
He smiled. “Come back tonight, and I’ll change for you. Sylvie’s right. I have to accept what I am.”
“Part of that is trying it out on me, huh?”
He nodded. “I think so.”
Staring into his solemn eyes, I knew that if he changed for me tonight and I couldn’t deal with it, it would destroy something inside of him. I hoped I was up to it. “When I come back tonight, I’ll watch you shift.”
He looked grim as if he expected that I’d run screaming. “Kiss me, and get out of here,” he said.
I kissed him, and he licked his lips. “Lipstick.” He kissed me again. “But underneath I can still taste you.”
“Hmmm,” I said. I stared down at him and almost didn’t want to go. Almost. The doorbell rang, and I jumped. Richard didn’t, as if he’d heard it before I had.
“Be careful. I wish I could be with you.”
“There’ll be media all over the place,” I said. “Wouldn’t do to get your picture taken with a bunch of monsters. It might blow your cover.”
“I’d blow my cover if it would keep you safe.”
He loved teaching, yet I believed him. He’d come out of the closet for me. “Thanks, but Edward’s right. I’d be so worried about keeping you alive, I wouldn’t be taking good care of myself.”
“You don’t worry about Jean-Claude?”
I shrugged. “He can take care of himself. Besides, he’s already dead.”
Richard shook his head. “You don’t really believe that anymore.”
“No, he’s dead, Richard. That I know. Whatever keeps him alive is a form of necromancy, different than my own powers, but still magic.”
“You can say it, but in your heart you don’t believe it.”
I shrugged again. “Maybe not, but it’s still the truth.”
There was a knock on the door. Edward said, “Your date’s here.”
“I’m coming. Now I have to fix my lipstick all over again.”
He wiped fingers across his mouth, coming away with crimson stains. “At least I’ll be able to tell if you’ve been kissing him. This stuff will show up like blood on his white shirt.”
I didn’t argue. Jean-Claude always wore black and white. I’d only seen him in one shirt that wasn’t white. It had been black. I reapplied the lipstick and put it in the beaded black purse on the dresser. The purse was too small even for the Firestar. I did have a Derringer, but except at close quarters, it was pretty worthless. With an assassin I might not want to get that close. Edward had a solution. He’d loaned me his Seecamps .32 autoloader. It was about the same size as a small .25, only a little wider than my own hand, and I had a small hand. It was a very nice gun, and for the caliber and the size, I’d never seen better. I wanted one. Edward informed me that he’d had to wait nearly a year for the gun to come in. It was pretty much a custom order. Otherwise, he’d have made it a gift. Fine, I’d order my own—if I survived the night. If I didn’t, well, I wouldn’t be ordering anything.
I’d managed not to think too much about that. I’d concentrated on dressing, putting the weapons in place, Richard, anything but that I was putting myself out as bait for someone good enough to earn 500,000 dollars a pop. I was having to trust that Edward would keep me alive. Because though Edward would have stopped the limo and fired only when he could see my face, most hit men wouldn’t. Most professionals prefer to take you out from a nice, safe distance. A high-powered rifle could be yards or even miles away. Not much I, or even Edward, could do about that. I knew nothing about explosives. I was going to have to depend on Edward to take care of any bombs. I was putting myself in Edward’s hands tonight, trusting him like I’d never trusted anyone before. Scary thought, that.
I checked the purse again; ID, lipstick, money, gun. I’d have normally carried a small travel hairbrush, but there wasn’t room. I could live with messy hair for one night.
The thought made me check my hair in the mirror and run a brush through it one last time. I had to admit that it looked great. It was one of my best features. Even Ronnie couldn’t improve on it. It was all natural curl. Even tonight I’d shoved hair goop in it after my shower and let it dry naturally. I’d had a woman get angry with me once in California because I wouldn’t tell her where I’d gotten my hair permed. She wouldn’t believe it was natural.
I slipped the purse over my shoulders so the thin strap went across my chest. It blended with the dress well enough that it looked almost as good with it as without. But the purse rode at my ribs, just a little lower than my shoulder holster. I tried drawing the gun a couple of times, and it wasn’t too bad. Not as good as a holster, but what was? I slipped the jacket on and checked myself in the mirror for the umpteenth time. Neither the kniv
es nor the gun showed. Great. I slipped my cross on last. I made sure the cross was inside the dress, then put a small piece of masking tape over it. This way I kept my cross, but it didn’t spill out of my clothes and glow at Jean-Claude. I picked up the brush again and put it down without using it.
I was stalling. It wasn’t just the assassin I was afraid of. I was dreading the moment Richard and Jean-Claude met tonight. I wasn’t sure how they were going to react, and I wasn’t up to an emotional confrontation. I rarely was.
I took a deep breath and went for the door. Richard followed me. It was his house. I couldn’t ask him to hide in the bedroom.
Jean-Claude stood by the television, peering at the shelves of videos, as if studying the titles. He was tall and slender, though not as tall as Richard. He wore black pants and a short black jacket, cut just at the waist like my own. He had on high, leather boots that covered nearly his entire leg, the soft leather tops were held in place by black straps with small silver buckles. His black hair spilled over his shoulders, inches longer than when I first met him.
He turned at last, as if he hadn’t known we were standing there. I made a small involuntary gasp as he faced me. His shirt was red, a pure, clear crimson that blazed inside his open jacket. The collar was high, held in place by three antique jet beads. The shirt gaped open below the collar, showing a large oval of his chest. The cross-shaped burn scar on his chest showed in the circle of red cloth as if it were framed for viewing. The circle of bare skin ended just above the black pants, where the shirt was safely tucked away.
The shirt looked splendiferous against his pale skin, the black wavy hair, his midnight blue eyes. I closed my gaping mouth, and said, “Spiffy, very spiffy.”
He smiled. “Ah, ma petite, always the perfect thing to say.” He glided across the carpet in his nifty boots, and I found myself wanting him to take the jacket off. I wanted to see his hair spill over that shirt, black over red. I knew it would look wonderful.
Richard came up behind me. He didn’t touch me, but I could feel him standing there. A warm, unhappy presence at my back. I couldn’t blame him. Jean-Claude looked like an advertisement for Wet Dreams “R” Us. I couldn’t blame anyone for being jealous.
Jean-Claude stood in front of me, close enough that I could have reached out and touched him. I stood between the two of them, and the symbolism wasn’t lost on any of us.
“Where’s Edward?” I managed to ask. My voice sounded almost normal. Good for me.
“He is checking the car. I believe for incendiary devices,” Jean-Claude said with a small smile.
My stomach clenched tight. Someone really wanted me dead by midnight tonight. Edward was sweeping the car for bombs. Even for me, it didn’t seem quite real.
“Ma petite, are you well?” Jean-Claude took my hand in his. “Your hand is cold.”
“Nice complaint, coming from you,” Richard said.
Jean-Claude looked over my shoulder at Richard. “It was not a complaint but an observation.”
His hand was warm, and I knew that he had stolen that warmth from someone. Oh, they’d been willing enough. There were always people willing to donate to the Master of the City. But still, he was a blood sucking corpse, no matter what he looked like. Staring up at him, I realized part of me didn’t buy that anymore. Or maybe I just didn’t care anymore. Damn.
He raised my hand slowly to his lips, eyes watching not me but Richard. I drew my hand out of his. He looked at me. “If you want to kiss my hand, fine, but don’t do it just to get on Richard’s nerves.”
“My apologies, ma petite. You are quite right.” He looked past me to Richard. “My apologies to you as well, Monsieur Zeeman. We are in a . . . ticklish position. It would be childish to make it worse with game playing.”
I didn’t have to see Richard’s face to know he was frowning.
Edward came in and saved us. We could all shut up and leave. Hopefully.
“The car’s clean,” he said.
“Glad to hear it,” I said.
Edward was dressed for the evening. A brown leather coat hung to his ankles and moved like something alive as he came into the room. The coat hung strangely heavy in places. He’d shown me some of his toys that were positioned here and there. I knew there was a garotte hidden in the stiff white collar of his shirt. A garotte was a little too up-and-close even for me.
His eyes flicked to the two men in my life, but all he said was, “I’ll follow the limo. Don’t look around for me tonight, Anita. I’ll be there, but we don’t want the hitter alerted to the fact that you’ve got a bodyguard.”
“A second bodyguard,” Jean-Claude said. “Your, how do you say, hitter will know I will be by her side.”
Edward nodded. “Yeah, if they hit the limo, you’ll be there. They’ll have to plan on taking you out, too, which means it’s got to be serious firepower.”
“I am both a deterrent and an invitation to up the stakes, is that it?” Jean-Claude asked.
Edward looked at him like the vampire had finally done something interesting. Edward didn’t meet his eyes though. I was the only human I knew that could meet the Master’s eyes and not be bespelled. Being a necromancer had its uses. “Exactly.” He said it like he hadn’t expected the vampire to grasp the situation. But if there was one thing Jean-Claude was good at, it was surviving.
“Shall we go then, ma petite? The party awaits us.” He made a sweeping motion with his arms, directing me towards the door but not taking my hand. He glanced at Richard, then at me. He was behaving himself terribly well. Jean-Claude was a world-class pain in the ass. It wasn’t like him to be a good boy.
I glanced at Richard. “Go on. If we kiss good-bye, it’ll smear your lipstick again.”
“You are wearing quite enough of her lipstick already, Richard,” Jean-Claude said. For the first time tonight, I heard that warm edge of jealousy.
Richard took two steps forward, and the tension level in the room soared. “I could kiss her good night again, if that would make you happy.”
“Stop it, both of you,” I said.
“By all means,” Jean-Claude said. “She is mine for the rest of the evening. I can afford to be generous.”
Richard’s hands balled into fists. The first trickle of power oozed through the room.
“I’m leaving now.” I made for the door and didn’t look back. Jean-Claude caught up with me before I reached the door. He reached for the doorknob first, and then released it, letting me get it.
“I do forget your penchant for doors,” he said.
“I don’t,” Richard said softly.
I turned and looked at him standing there in his jeans, his T-shirt molded to the muscles of his arms and chest. He was still barefoot, his hair a wavy mass around his face. If I’d been staying here, we could have cuddled on the couch in front of one of his favorite movies. We were beginning to have our favorite movies, songs, sayings that were ours. Maybe a moonlight walk. His night vision was almost as good as my own. Maybe later we could finish what we’d started before the meeting.
Jean-Claude slid his fingers through mine, drawing my attention to him. I stared up into those blue, blue eyes like a sky before a storm, or seawater where the rocks lie deep and cold. I could touch those three black buttons and see if they were really antique beads. My gaze traveled downward to the pale glimpse of his chest. I knew that the cross-shaped burn scar was a rough slickness to the touch. Looking at him made my chest tight. He was so beautiful. Would my body always feel the pull of him, like a sunflower turning towards the light? Maybe. But standing there holding his hand, I realized it wasn’t enough.
Jean-Claude and I could have had a glorious affair, but I could see spending my life with Richard. Was love enough? Even if Richard killed for self-preservation, could he really accept my body count? Could I accept his beast, or would I be as horrified by it as he was himself? Jean-Claude accepted me lock, stock, and gun. But I didn’t accept him. Just because we both looked at the world through dark
glasses, didn’t mean I liked it.
I sighed, and it wasn’t a happy sound. If this was the last time I ever saw Richard, I should have jumped his body and given him a kiss he would never forget, but I couldn’t do it. Holding Jean-Claude’s hand, I couldn’t do it. It would have been cruel to all of us.
“Bye, Richard,” I said.
“Be careful,” he said. He sounded so alone.
“Louie and you are going to the movies tonight, right?” I asked.
He nodded. “He should be here soon.”
“Good.” I opened my mouth to say more, but didn’t. There was nothing to say. I was going with Jean-Claude. Nothing I said would change that.
“I’ll wait up for you,” Richard said.
“I wish you wouldn’t.”
“I know.”
I left, walking a little too fast out to the waiting limo. It was white. “Well, isn’t this shiny and bright,” I said.
“I thought black looked too much like a hearse,” Jean-Claude said.
Edward had come out also. He closed the door behind us. “I’ll be there when you need me, Anita.”
I met his eyes. “I know you will.”
He gave the briefest of smiles. “But just in case, watch your back like a son of a bitch.”
I smiled. “Don’t I always?”
He glanced at the vampire standing by the open limo door. “Not as well as I thought you did.” Edward walked into the darkness towards his waiting car before I could think of a reply. It was just as well. He was right. The monsters had finally gotten me. Seducing me was almost as good as killing me, and nearly as crippling.
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THE name of the club, Danse Macabre, blazed in red neon letters nearly eight feet high. The letters were curved and flowed at an angle like some giant hand had just finished writing them. The club was housed in an old brewery warehouse. The place had stood on the Riverfront, boarded up and abandoned for years. It had been the only eyesore in a line of chic restaurants, dance clubs, and bars. Most of them were owned by vampires. The Riverfront was also known as The District, or Blood Square, though not in polite vampire company. For some reason, the nickname bugged them. Who knew why?
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