A figure appeared in front of me, blocking my view of the stage. I looked up into a dark face framed by snarling jaws. The jaguar’s golden glass eyes rode above the man’s face, as if the dead animal were staring at me, too. The man reached a square, dark hand out to me.
I shook my head.
The hand stayed, pale palm up, waiting.
I shook my head again. “No, thanks anyway.”
Dallas leaned around Edward, across the table, having to nearly crawl on it to get close to me. It stretched her body in a long line, her long ponytail pooling on the stone. Olaf’s hand hovered over that spill of hair, and the look on his face was strange enough to distract me from everything else. Her voice made me look at her face instead of Olaf’s. “They need someone your size and body type to round out the brides. Someone with long hair.” She was smiling. “Nothing bad is going to happen.” She gave me a cheerful smile that made her look even younger.
The man leaned over me and I could smell the fur and . . . him. Not sweat, just his scent, and that made my stomach contract, made me have to concentrate on holding my shields, because the part of me that was tied to Richard and his beast wanted to respond, wanted to spill outward and wallow in that scent. The animal impulses, true animal impulses, always threw me.
The man’s voice was thickly accented, and sounded unsuited to whispering. It was a voice for shouting orders. “Do nothing that you do not wish to do, but please come to our temple.”
Maybe it was the please or the accent or the absolute seriousness in his face but I believed. I still might not have gone with him, but Edward leaned into me, and said, “Tourist, think tourist.” He didn’t say, “Play along, Anita. Remember, we’re undercover,” because with a shapeshifter this close he’d hear anything that was said at the table. But Edward had said enough. I was a tourist. A tourist would go.
I gave the man my left hand and let him pull me to my feet. His hand was very warm. Some lycanthropes seem to adopt their alter ego’s body temperature. Even Richard’s skin grew warmer near the full moon, but that couldn’t be it tonight. We were only days away from the dark of the moon, as far from the shining fullness that called the beasts as we could get. The man was just warm. Too hot for fur.
The priest in his feathers encouraged the audience to applaud as the last reluctant bride, me, joined the grouping around the nearly naked man. The werejaguar stood me on the side with the giggling blond. The smell of beer was strong enough that I knew the giggling wasn’t just nervousness. Perfect.
I looked past the man, doing my best to ignore him, to the two women on the other side. The tall one with all the hair was swaying slightly on her spike heels. Her skirt was leather, and the blouse looked like a red camisole. The other woman was that solid that some people call fat, but it isn’t. She was square and wore a loose black shirt over black pants. She caught my eye, and we shared a moment of discomfort. Audience participation was great as long as the audience wants to participate.
“These are your brides,” the priest said, “your reward. Enjoy them.”
The solid woman and I both took a step back as if it were choreographed. The blonde and the tall one with all the hair melted into his arms, cuddling and laughing. The man played to them, but it was their hands that wandered over his body. He was very careful where he touched them. I thought at first it was just fear of being sued, but there was a stiffness, a tightening of his body when their hands wandered over his bare buttocks that said he wasn’t having as good a time as it looked. From the audience you’d have never noticed. He came away from them with orange-red lipstick like a wound on his pale skin and pale pink like a patch of glitter down his face.
He reached out to us, and both of us shook our heads. We took another step back, and a step closer together. Solidarity. She offered me her hand, not to shake, but to hold, and I realized she was scared, not just nervous. I was neither, just not happy. She whispered, “I’m Ramona.” I gave her my name, and what seemed to matter more, held her hand. I felt like Mommy on the first day of school when the bullies are waiting.
The priest’s voice came. “You are his last meal, his last caress. Do not deny him.”
Ramona’s face changed, grew soft. Her hand fell away from mine. The fear was gone. I called, softly, “Ramona.” But she moved forward as if she never heard me. She moved into the man’s arms. He kissed her with more tenderness than he’d shown the other two. She kissed him back, with a passion and a strength that made anything the other two had done seem pale and watered down. The other two women had gone to their knees on either side, either because they couldn’t stand upright anymore, or the better to run their hands over both the man and the new woman. It looked like a mild version of a pornographic four-way.
He drew back from Ramona, laying a second kiss on her forehead as if she were a child. She stayed unmoving, eyes closed, face slack. It was illegal to force anyone to do anything against their will by use of magic. I looked at Ramona’s empty face, waiting, waiting for what came next, all decision, all choice, washed away. If I’d been myself tonight instead of whoever the hell I was supposed to be, I’d have called them on it. I should still turn them in to the cops. But truthfully, unless they did worse, I wasn’t going to turn them in if the Master of the City could help us solve the mutilation murders. If the murders stopped, a few mind-games could be overlooked.
There was a time when I wouldn’t have tolerated it, when I wouldn’t have looked the other way for any reason. They say everyone has their price. Once I thought I was the exception to the rule, but if it was a choice of letting this nice woman be made to do some things she didn’t want to do, or seeing another crime scene, another survivor, they could have the woman. Not have in the true sense of the word, but to my knowledge mind-magic by a human servant wasn’t permanent. Of course, until tonight I hadn’t known a human servant could do mind-rape. I really didn’t know how much danger this woman was in, and yet . . . and yet I would risk her, as long as nothing worse happened. If they told her to strip, all bets were off. I had rules, limits. They just weren’t the same ones they’d been four years ago, or two years, or a year ago. The fact that I let them mind-rape her and didn’t complain, bothered me, but not enough.
The blonde woman leaned into the man and bit his butt, not hard but enough to make him jump. His back was to the audience, so I was probably the only one who saw the anger that showed for just a moment in that handsome face.
The priest stayed on his side of the stage, as if he didn’t want to distract from the show, but I knew he’d turned his attention to me. The full force of him was like pressure against my skin.
His voice. “A most reluctant bride to leave him lonely in his hour of need.” I felt his power and now that power was wedded to the words. When he said, “need,” I felt need. My body tightened with it, but I could ignore it. I knew I could stand there and be unmoved, that he could do his worst and I could stand against it. But no human could have done it. Anita Blake, vamp executioner, could stand firm, but Anita Lee, undercover party-goer, well . . . If I just stood there, the game was up. At the very least they’d know I wasn’t an ordinary tourist. Times like these are one of the reasons I hate undercover work.
I ignored the priest’s rich voice and just walked toward the man. He was having trouble keeping the blonde’s hand out of the front of his G-string. The other woman knelt in a pool of her own dark hair, hanging on his leg, one hand playing with the side strap of the G-string. Only Ramona stood there, face blank, hands at her sides, waiting for orders. But the priest was concentrating all his energies on me. She was safe until he finished with me.
The dark-haired woman got the strap to slide over the smooth bone of his hip, and the blonde used it as a chance to plunge her hand under the cloth. His eyes closed, head going back, body reacting automatically, even as his hand grabbed her hand and tried to pull her hand out of his pants. Apparently, she was hanging on, not hurting him exactly, but not letting go.
I doubted
the club would have tolerated this level of abuse if the performer had been a woman and the audience member a man. Some forms of sexist double standards do not work in a man’s favor. A woman, they would have rushed on stage and saved her, but he was a man, and he was on his own.
I touched Ramona’s shoulders and moved her to one side like she was furniture. She moved where I put her, eyes still closed. Made me feel worse that she was that pliant. But one problem at a time. I put my hand on top of his and moved his hand away from the blonde’s wrist. His hand didn’t move at first, then he looked at me, really looked at me. His eyes were large, a soft pure gray with a circle of black around the iris like someone had used the same eye pencil to trace his eyes that they’d used on the sweep of eyebrow and dark lashes. Strange eyes. But whatever he saw in my eyes seemed to reassure him because he let go of the blonde. There’s a nerve in the arm about three fingers down from the bend of the elbow. If you hit it right, it’s pretty painful. I dug my fingers into her flesh, as if I’d find that nerve and drag it to the surface. I was pissed, and I wanted to hurt her. I succeeded.
She gave a small scream, her hand opened, and I was able to move her arm back, fingers digging into the nerve. She didn’t struggle, just whimpered and stared up at me with large unfocused eyes, but the pain was chasing the liquor away. If I kept it up long enough, I could have sobered her up in, oh, fifteen minutes or so, if she didn’t pass out first.
I spoke low, but my voice carried. The stage had great acoustics. “My turn.”
The tall Hispanic woman crawled away from the man, scuttling in her tight skirt until she fell flat on her face. You have to be pretty drunk to fall from a crawling position. She got to one elbow, and her voice came thick, but panicked. “He’s yours.”
I drew the blonde a few steps farther away from the man, and slowly let go of her arm. I told her, “Stay.” She cradled her arm against her body, huddling over it. The look she gave me was not friendly, but she didn’t mouth off. I think she was afraid of me. I wasn’t having a great night. First, I let the nice lady be mind-raped, then I terrorized drunken tourists. I would have said, how could the night get worse, but worse was waiting. I looked back at the nearly naked man and didn’t know what to do with him.
I walked back over to him because I couldn’t figure a graceful way off stage. I’d probably blown my cover as a tourist, but Edward had let me bring a gun and knives into the club. In fact, we were all loaded for bear or vampire or whatever. The bouncers, unless they were idiots, had to have seen some of the weapons. I was just not supposed to be a vamp executioner, but I’ve never played victim well. I should never have come on stage, but too late now.
The man and I stood facing each other, his back still to the audience. He leaned into me, breath warm against my hair. He whispered, “My hero, thank you.”
I nodded, and that small movement brushed my thick hair against his face. My mouth was dry, and it was hard to swallow. My heart was suddenly beating too hard, too fast, as if I’d been running. It was a ridiculous reaction to a strange man. I was horribly aware of how close he was, how little he was wearing, and how my hands just hung at my sides because to move at all would mean to brush against him. What was the matter with me? I had not been noticing men this badly in St. Louis. Was there something in the air in New Mexico, or was it just lack of oxygen from the elevation?
He rubbed his face against my hair, whispered, “I am César.” That small movement put the curve of his jaw, the skin of his neck next to my face. There was a trace of the women’s perfume mixing along his face, overlaying the clean scent of his skin, but underneath it all was a sharper scent. It was the smell of warmer flesh than human, slightly musky, so rich it was almost a damp smell, as if you could bathe in the scent like water, but the water would be hot, hot as blood, hotter. The scent was so strong that I swayed, and for a second I could feel the brush of fur against my face like rough piled velvet. The sensory memory poured through me, and overwhelmed all my careful control. The power poured upward in a spill of heat along my skin. I’d managed to cut the direct links to the boys so that I was alone in my own skin, but the marks were still there, coming to the surface at odd moments, like this one. Shapeshifters always recognize each other. Their beasts always know, and though I had no beast of my own, I had a piece of Richard’s. That piece reacted to César. If I’d been expecting it, I might have been able to prevent it, but it was too late now. It wasn’t dangerous, just a spill of heat, pulsing along my skin, a dance of energy that didn’t belong to me.
César had jerked back from me as if I’d burned him, then he smiled. It was a knowing smile like we shared a secret. He wasn’t the first shapeshifter to mistake me for one of them. To my knowledge I was one of only two humans in the world that had this close a tie to a shapeshifter. The other man’s tie was to a weretiger, not a werewolf, but the problems were similar. We were both part of a vampire’s triumvirate, and neither of us seemed happy.
César’s hands went to either side of my face, hesitating just above my skin. I knew he was feeling the push of that otherworldly energy like a veil that had to be pushed aside to touch. Except he didn’t. He spilled his own power into his hands, so that he held me in a pulsing shell of warmth. It made me close my eyes, and he hadn’t even touched me yet, not with his hands.
I opened my mouth to tell him not to touch me, but as I drew breath to speak his hands touched my face. I wasn’t ready. He pushed his power into mine. It hit like a jolt of electricity, raising the small hairs on my body, tightening places low on my body, raising gooseflesh in a wash down my skin. The power flowed towards César like a flower turning towards the sun. I couldn’t stop it. The best I could do was ride the power instead of letting it ride me.
He bent his face towards me, still cradling my face between his hands. I put my own hands on top of his as if I was going to hold on. Power poured from his mouth as he hovered over my lips. The power ran through my body and spilled out of half-parted lips like a hot wind. Our mouths met and the power flowed into each of us, mingling as it brushed like two great cats rubbing furred sides along each other’s bodies. The warmth grew to heat, until it almost hurt to stay tied to his lips, as if any second now our flesh would burn into each other, melting through skin, muscle, bone, until we fell into the center of each other like molten metal cutting through layers of silk.
The energy had turned sexual, as it usually did . . . for me. Embarrassing but true. We drew back from the kiss at the same time, blinking at each other like sleepwalkers awakened too early. He gave a nervous laugh and leaned into me as if to kiss me again, but I put a hand on his chest, and held him away. I could feel his heart thudding against my palm. I could suddenly feel the blood racing in his body. My eyes were drawn to the big pulse in his throat. I watched that rapid rise and fall in the side of his neck as if it were some sort of jewel, something to watch sparkle and glitter in the lights. My mouth was suddenly dry, and it wasn’t sex. I actually stepped into him, pressed my body down the front of his, brought my face close to his neck and that jumping beat of life. I wanted to go down on that soft skin, sink teeth into his flesh, taste what lay beneath. I knew with a knowledge that was not mine that his blood would be hotter than a human’s. Not warm but hot, a scalding rush of life to warm cold flesh.
I had to close my eyes, turn my head, step away with my hands over my eyes. I had no direct link to either of the men, but I held their power in me. Richard’s burning warmth, and Jean-Claude’s cold hunger. For a space of heartbeats I had wanted to feed on César. This when I had walled up the marks, boarded them up, chained them, locked them with everything I had. When the marks were open between the three of us, the desires that ran through me, the things that I thought, were too horrible or maybe just too alien. Not for the first time I wondered what piece of me each of them held in their bodies. What dark desire or strange urge did I leave behind? If I ever talked to either of them again, maybe I’d ask, or then again, maybe I wouldn’t.
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p; I felt someone hovering close. I shook my head. “Don’t touch me.”
“Let us get backstage, then I can apologize.” It was the priest’s voice.
I lowered my hands and found him standing beside me. He held out his hand to me. I didn’t touch him. “We meant no harm.” I laid my left hand in his and found his skin quiet. There was nothing but human warmth and the solid feel of him. He led me towards an area to the far left of the stage. César was already there with the three other women.
The werejaguars were there like guards, and it seemed to have made the blonde and the one with all the hair brave again. They were pawing César, and he was kissing Ramona, who was kissing him back with enthusiasm.
The priest led me towards them, and I hung back. I whispered, “I can’t.” I meant that I couldn’t touch César again so soon. I didn’t trust myself, and I didn’t want to have to say it out loud. I didn’t have to. The priest seemed to understand.
He leaned close. “Please, just stand near them. No one will touch you.”
I don’t know why I believed him, but I did. I stood near the near-orgy, trying not to look as uncomfortable as I felt. Then a large white screen came down out of the ceiling, and before it was solidly in place, the priest drew me to one side. A woman my size with hair my length appeared and moved towards the mini-orgy. I watched her join the group, and a jaguar dragged the blonde out. A woman that matched the blonde came to take her place. They replaced everyone, even César, with actors, who did a shadow orgy against the white screen, thrown large for the audience. The actresses matched all the women chosen, at least for a shadow play. Which is what Dallas had meant when she said they needed someone my size with long hair to complete the brides.
The actors weren’t really doing anything, but it must have looked awful from the audience’s point of view. Clothes flew and the women were topless. I wondered if the shadows looked as topless as the real thing.
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