Damn it, I had enough to worry about without having to juggle male egos.
“You’re frowning again,” Micah said.
I shook my head. “It’s nothing. Let’s get this over with.”
“Why do you sound less than thrilled?”
I had my door open and turned back around to say, “We’re here to rescue Damian. I don’t know what shape he’s going to be in. Why would I be thrilled?”
“I know you’re worried about your friend, but are you sure that that’s really what’s bothering you?”
I frowned at him. “What are you talking about?”
“I’m nervous about meeting the Master of the City, too.”
It was almost like he’d read my mind. We didn’t know each other well enough for him to really read me, but . . . he was either telepathic, which I didn’t believe, or he could read me that well. I wasn’t sure which thought bothered me more.
I let out a breath and half slumped in the seat. “Yeah, I’m a little nervous about introducing you to Jean-Claude. He was cool about you in the abstract, even knowing that we’ve been together, but seeing you in the flesh . . .” I tried to think how to word it. “I don’t know how he’ll feel about that.”
“Will it make you feel any better if I promise to behave myself.”
“Maybe, if you can pull it off.”
“I can pull it off,” he said, giving me very serious eye contact. He certainly vibrated sincerity.
“Don’t take this wrong, Micah, but I’ve been disappointed pretty badly recently by the men in my life. It’s a little hard to trust that anyone can pull it off.”
He reached out to touch me, then let his hand fall back, as if something in my face hadn’t been friendly. “I’ll do my best tonight, Anita, that I can promise.”
I sighed. “I believe you.”
“But,” he said.
I had to smile. “Your intentions are good, my intentions are good, Jean-Claude’s intentions are probably good.” I shrugged. “You know what they say about good intentions.”
“My best is all I can offer,” he said.
“And it’s all I can ask, but let’s say I’m not exactly sure how to handle this. I’d barely gotten to where I could deal with Richard and Jean-Claude at the same time, and now here you are. I just don’t know.”
“I can go back to your house,” he said.
“No, Jean-Claude asked to meet you.”
Micah looked at me. “And that makes you nervous.”
I half-laughed. “Oh, yeah.”
“Why?”
“If Jean-Claude were having sex with someone else, I wouldn’t want to meet them.”
Micah shrugged. “Do you think he means me harm?”
“No,” I said, “no, nothing like that.” I tried to put it into words and couldn’t. Maybe it was just my lack of sophistication. How do you introduce boyfriend C to boyfriend A, after boyfriend A has been such a good sport, of late, about boyfriend B, who is no longer in the picture? Or maybe it was the way Jean-Claude had asked for him. “Bring your Nimir-Raj, ma petite, I would like to meet him.”
“Why?” I’d asked.
“Am I not entitled to meet the other man in your bed?”
It had made me blush. But here Micah was, and here we were outside the Circus. Jean-Claude was inside, waiting. I was actually more scared about introducing the two of them than I was worried about Damian. If Jean-Claude didn’t try and kill Micah, then I’d worry about Damian. I was ninety-nine percent sure that Jean-Claude wouldn’t start a fight. It was the last one percent that clenched my gut into a tight knot as we moved out into the darkness.
The two new bodyguards came up to flank me as I walked towards the back door. They were both over six feet, male, and radiated bodyguard badass. Other than that they were almost opposites. Cris (no h, it’s short for Cristiano) was mid-twenty-something, skin tanned a soft gold, eyes a pale shade of gray blue. His hair was that shade of pale brown that some people call blond. Bobby Lee was over forty, very short hair, gone white gray, eyebrows still black above startling blue eyes, like bits of water-blue sapphires. He had a neatly trimmed mustache and beard that were also black, with the first streaks of white and gray running through them.
Cris had no accent whatsoever, but Bobby Lee’s voice was thick as hominy, and twice as Southern.
Nathaniel tried to stand next to me, and Cris moved to keep him away. “He’s with me,” I said.
“We were ordered to keep you safe. I don’t know him.”
“Look, both of you, we don’t have time for major introductions here. He’s one of my wereleopards, so are the two blonds. Micah’s the one with the ponytail, the two men with him his leopards.”
“Who’s the redhead?” Bobby Lee asked.
“Gil, he’s a werefox, and he’s under my protection, too.”
“They’re like walking cannon fodder,” Cris said.
I frowned up at him. “Most of this cannon fodder are friends, or more, to me. If the shit hits the fan and you save me at the expense of their lives, you will follow them.”
“Our orders are to keep you safe, ma’am, no one else,” Bobby Lee said.
I shook my head and drew Nathaniel into the crook of my arm. “What would Rafael do if you protected him but got his people slaughtered?”
They glanced at each other. Bobby Lee finally spoke. “It would depend on the situation.”
“Yeah, maybe, but I’m armed, and can take care of myself most of the time. I need backup, not interference.”
“We weren’t told to be backup,” Bobby Lee said.
“I know, but tonight there may be a certain amount of grandstanding. Jean-Claude won’t let me get hurt, but he might play with some of the others, even me. Don’t overreact, okay.”
“You’re making it so we can’t do our job,” Cris said.
I shrugged, hugging Nathaniel to me. “I appreciate you being here. I appreciate the help. I might be dead right now if Igor and Claudia hadn’t been with me. But there are people who I would risk my life to keep safe, and some of them are with me tonight. All I’m saying is keep cool, don’t overreact, don’t jump the gun.”
Again they looked at each other. I sighed. Bobby Lee was wearing a sleeveless jean jacket over his T-shirt. Cris wore a short-sleeved dress shirt and oversized black tank top untucked, sloppy over his khaki pants. It was too hot to wear a coat. But I was wearing a black silk shirt, open over a black tank top myself. I had my shirt tucked in, and the Firestar 9mm in a front draw across the front of all that black. Most people wouldn’t see it, black on black. But the long-sleeved shirt was hiding guns and knives. I was betting that Bobby Lee had at least one gun under his jacket, probably at the small of his back, because there was no bulge, no matter how slight, under either arm. It was hard to see the bulge under Cris’s left arm. He’d chosen a shirt with a lot of print on it, bright patterns to distract the eye, but a hot wind blew his shirt back, and I caught a glimpse of his shoulder holster. I couldn’t be sure what was under the untucked tank top, but I was betting at least one more gun, in front for a cross-draw, just like mine.
“You cannot shoot anyone tonight unless I say so, how’s that for clear?”
“We have our orders,” Bobby Lee said, “and they aren’t from you.”
“Then you can go back to Rafael and tell him I refused your help.”
Cris’s eyes widened a touch. Bobby Lee’s expression never changed. Those pretty blue eyes were as empty as glass, no one home. “Why are you so afraid of taking us inside?” he asked.
I sighed again and tried to put it into words they’d understand and I was willing to share. I couldn’t come up with anything, so I tried the truth. “I am about to introduce my Nimir-Raj to the Master of the City for the first time.”
“You fucking both of them?” Bobby Lee asked, and the phrase seemed wrong with that Scarlett O’Hara accent.
I started to protest, or bitch, but let it go. “Yeah, I am, and I’m a little worrie
d about how the introduction’s going to go.”
“You think the Master will try and kill your Nimir-Raj?” Cris asked.
“No, but he may want to play with him, and a vampire’s idea of fun and games can get a little odd.”
Bobby Lee laughed. “Odd, she says, odd.” He laughed again, and it sounded warm and deep and rumbly. The laughter filled his eyes, made them more real. “What she is trying to say, Cris, is that we are about to be entertained just like when the rats meet the hyenas. A show of force with no danger, but maybe a little discomfort.”
“Yeah, what he just said.”
Cris nodded. “So tonight isn’t real.”
“It’s real,” I said, “but it’s just not dangerous in any way you can protect me from.”
“We’re supposed to protect you, period,” Cris said.
Bobby Lee clamped him on the shoulder. “We can’t protect her from her own love life, Cris. We’re supposed to keep her body intact, not her heart.”
“Oh,” Cris said, and he looked suddenly much younger—early twenties, at best.
Bobby Lee turned to me. “We’ll hang back tonight, unless you’re in real physical danger.”
“I’m glad we understand each other.”
His eyes went empty again, the smile still curving his lips. “Oh, we don’t understand each other at all, ma’am, I can almost guarantee that, but we’ll do what we’re told, until we decide not to.”
I didn’t exactly like the sound of that, but, looking into his empty blue eyes, I knew it was the best I was going to get.
48
THE STEPS LEADING down into the bowels of the Circus are wide enough for three small people to walk abreast, but the steps themselves are oddly spaced, as if whatever the steps were originally built for wasn’t two-legged, or at least wasn’t human sized.
We were following Ernie down the steps. The first time I’d met him he’d had one of those long hair cuts with the sides shaved. The sides had grown out, and he’d cut the rest, so he had a fairly standard short haircut, with a little more on top, so he could gel it into soft spikes, sort of executive punk. The short hair also left his neck bare so you could see two fang marks on the right side.
He wasn’t feeding Jean-Claude. I don’t think the Master of the City fed off humans anymore, not when he could have lycanthrope. But there were other vampires under the Circus, and they had to eat, too.
Micah walked beside me. Merle, Bobby Lee, and Cris had a disagreement about exactly where they were going to walk. They finally settled on Cris walking with Ernie ahead of us and Merle and Bobby Lee walking just behind us. Everyone else sort of trailed behind, including Caleb. None of the bodyguards seemed to give a shit if the others lived or died. I was pretty sure that the bodyguard thing was going to get on my nerves soon, like tonight.
The huge metal door at the end of the stairs was open, waiting. It was usually kept locked for security purposes. My stomach clenched so tight that it hurt. I just didn’t know how to handle this. Did I kiss Jean-Claude hello? Did I touch Micah in front of him? Oh, hell.
“Did you say something?” Micah asked.
“Not on purpose,” I said.
He looked a question at me, and that did it. I would behave like I always did. I would do exactly what I’d do if the other one wasn’t there. To do anything else was going to have us all walking on pins and needles. Besides, I’d been careful with Richard and Jean-Claude, and look where that ended up. I didn’t want the same mistakes again. Maybe we could make new ones.
49
THERE WERE SILVER drapes just inside the door. That was new. Ernie parted the drapes and led us into Jean-Claude’s living room. Once upon a time it had been black and white drapes, and a smaller area, but now it was white, silver, and gold. White drapes, silk and sheer, hung like a hallway that led into something that looked like a huge fairytale tent. The stone walls and ceiling that I knew were there, were hidden by yards and yards of gold and silver cloth. It was like standing in the middle of a jewel box. The coffee table had been painted gold and white and made to look antique, or maybe it was the real deal. A crystal bowl sat in the center of the table with a spill of white carnations and baby’s breath.
A huge white couch sat against the far drapes, so covered in silver and gold pillows that some of the pillows had fallen to the white carpeted floor. Two overstuffed chairs were in opposite corners, one gold, one silver, with white pillows on each.
The fireplace looked real, but I knew it wasn’t because it had been added later, but it was everything a fireplace should have been, except it was painted white. There was even a new marble mantel that was white with veins of silver and gold, ordered to match.
The only thing that hadn’t changed was the portrait above the fireplace. The first thing you saw was Julianna, sitting, dressed in silver and white, half-laughing, brown hair done in careful ringlets. Asher stood behind her in gold and white, his face still perfect, his gold hair in ringlets longer than hers, his mustache and Vandyke beard a blond so dark it was almost brown. Jean-Claude sat behind Julianna, the only one of the three not smiling, solemn, dressed in black and silver. He’d designed the room around the painting—silver and gold and white.
“Wow.” Caleb said it for us all.
I’d seen Jean-Claude’s sense of style before, but every once in a while he’d amaze even me. Then I felt him coming towards us. I felt him coming and that wasn’t a good thing. I’d expected anger, jealousy, but what was moving towards me was simply lust, need. He could shield better than this. Was this my punishment, to be drowned in his lust? If so, he’d misjudged me, because it was just going to piss me off.
He pushed through white and silver drapes, and for a moment I couldn’t see where his clothes began and the cloth ended. He was wearing a silver frock coat with white edging, white buttons. His shirt was a spill of white froth, the pants, what I could see of them, were white, but the white leather boots covered almost all of his long legs. The leather looked soft, pettable, held in place with small silver buckles going from just above his ankles to his very upper thigh.
I stared because I couldn’t do anything else. Even if he hadn’t been projecting sex inside my head, he’d have made me think of it. His hair fell in loose curls nearly to his waist, a black glory on all that silver and white.
Bobby Lee said, “Well, aren’t you just pretty as a picture.”
Jean-Claude didn’t even look at him. He looked at me, and I was walking towards him across the so-soft carpet without a thought, except that I had to touch him.
He closed his eyes, held out his hand. “No, ma petite, do not come closer.”
I hesitated for a second, then started walking again. I could already smell his cologne, sweet, spicy. I wanted to run my hands through his hair, wrap the scent of him on my hands.
He stumbled back, half-tripping in the drapes. There was something like panic on his face. “Ma petite, I thought I could shield you from the ardeur, but I cannot.”
That did stop me. I had to frown at him. I couldn’t seem to think. That kept me where I was, almost close enough to touch him, but not quite. “What’s happening, Jean-Claude?”
“I have fed this night, but I have not fed the ardeur.”
“That’s what I’m feeling,” I said, “the ardeur.”
“Oui, I am shielding as hard as I can, yet you are picking up on it. That has never happened before.”
“Is it because I’ve got my own ardeur?”
“That is all that has changed, so yes, I believe so.”
“You’re not going to be in any shape to help with Damian, are you?”
He sighed and looked down. “I need to feed all my hungers, ma petite. I have not had this much difficulty with the ardeur in centuries. Something about sharing it with you has affected me. I did not know until I felt you enter the building that it had changed.”
“You mean your control is better farther away from me?”
He nodded.
“Wha
t the hell is this ‘ardoo-whatever’?” Bobby Lee asked.
I glanced back at him. “When we want to share, I’ll let you know.”
Bobby Lee raised his eyebrows at that, then made a small pushing motion. “You’re the boss, ma’am . . . for now.”
I let that slide and turned back to Jean-Claude. “What do we do?”
Nathaniel offered a suggestion. “Feed him.”
I looked back at him, and the look must have been enough, because he put his hands out empty, and went to stand by the fireplace. Everyone else had taken a seat, except for Gil, who was huddled beside one of the chairs on the floor, clutching a pillow.
I turned to Jean-Claude, and it was Micah’s voice that turned me back again. “I’ve seen Anita in the—” he changed whatever he was going to say—“grip of the ardeur, and this doesn’t look like it. She’s way too calm.”
Jean-Claude looked past me at him, seeing him, I think, for the first time, at least in person. His gaze traveled up and down his body, an assessing look, like he was thinking of buying or was trying to be deliberately insulting.
Micah either didn’t catch the insult or was proof against it, because he started walking towards us. He moved in a well of his own power, as if even here, surrounded by Jean-Claude’s things, he was supremely confident, totally at ease. He moved like a dancer, compact, graceful, strong. The sight of him tightened things low in my body. Jean-Claude made a small sound. I started to turn towards him, but it was too late, his shields shattered and the ardeur roared over me. My skin ran with heat, my breath stopped, my vision was gone in streamers of color. Jean-Claude’s need marched over me, through me, inside me. It screamed in my head, danced down my nerves, flowed through my veins. In that instant if he had asked anything, anything at all, I would have said yes.
My vision cleared and I found Jean-Claude on the floor, half-caught in a spill of draperies that he’d pulled from their hangers, so that he sat in a nest of white and silver. His face was almost slack with need, his eyes already a spill of blind blue fire.
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