by Alta Hensley
“I’m going to take you right here. I have very little self-control.”
That prospect didn’t sound half bad to me, but suddenly we heard voices and a dog barking, and the sound hovered all around us. The spell was broken.
Embarrassment heated my cheeks, both from being more aggressive than I had ever been and from my public displays of affection. I would have had sex with Axel right then and there if it weren’t for the damn dog. Fuck being a virgin. “This isn’t like me at all. But there’s something about you—”
“There’s something about us,” Axel interrupted softly. “Why don’t we take a break? I think I should probably take you home… for now. Otherwise it’s going to be pretty hard to respect that virgin card of yours.”
The drive to Felicity’s apartment was quieter than I would have liked. I met Axel’s gaze several times during the drive. He had the most alluring eyes. With each look, the fire blazed between us.
I reached over and touched his cheek. “Thank you,” I said. “For being understanding with me.”
“I’ve never been good with this whole courting thing.” Axel blew out a breath, thrust his fingers through his disheveled hair, and cast me an enticing smile. “You make me feel… different. You make me want to be a better man.” He let out a low laugh. “Just don’t tell anyone that. I have a reputation.”
At the front door of the apartment, I stopped and turned to face Axel. “I had a really nice time.” He gave an easy nod, his brown-eyed gaze scanning my face. “It was fun,” I added. “Well, not fun, exactly. More like… a million other physical sensations. I’ve never felt this way before. It’s so confusing, but in a good way. Does that make any sense?”
Axel laughed and stepped closer to me, slid a hand beneath my hair, and pressed his lips to my forehead. When he spoke, his voice was a husky rumble that seared me to the bone. “I know exactly how you feel.”
“I don’t want you to leave,” I admitted. I fiddled with the simple silver chain around his neck, staring at the satiny skin beneath it. “I have a feeling things are going to move quickly between us.”
“That’s completely up to you. I have the same feeling, but I don’t want to make you do anything you are uncomfortable with. Agreeing to fully give yourself to me is a huge step. I don’t take the matter lightly. When you do, is something I’m going to allow you to dictate. My libido may disagree, but I want this to be all you.”
A faint smile tugged at my mouth, and I glanced up at Axel through my lashes. “How I feel right now… things are going to move quickly. My libido is in cahoots with yours.”
“You better go inside,” Axel whispered intensely. “Before I change my mind about letting you have the control.”
Filled with a feminine power I’d never experienced, I tugged him against me and caught his mouth in a long-lasting, blazing kiss. “Goodbye, Axel.”
6
All To Fucking See
Quinn
It was almost implausible to me what a whirlwind of emotions the past few days had been. Coming to terms with my feelings, my sexual desires, and my choice to be with Axel made my head spin.
I had told Harrison everything that had happened, and that Axel and I were more than just friends or a means to a book deal. Although shocked at first, Harrison laughed and teased me about being in love. He warned me to take it slow and remain somewhat guarded, but also encouraged me to explore my feelings about the possibility of being in a relationship. He also had informed me that I was not allowed to give up on the book deal. That this was my life, my future, and I had a career to think about. A lustful encounter with Axel Rye was not worth giving up everything for.
I almost jumped for joy when I heard my phone ring and saw Axel’s name on the screen. I answered it with a huge smile and tried to hide a squeal that threatened to escape my lips. This was ridiculous. Truly ridiculous.
“Hi, Axel.”
“Hey.” His voice sounded soft, seductive. “Sorry I’m calling so late. My night went later than I thought. I couldn’t stop thinking about us. I honestly don’t like being apart from you.”
“I feel exactly the same.” I clutched the phone, as if it were his hand. Cheesy yes, but it’s still what I did. “I feel like I’m walking on air. I’m really happy.” I hoped I didn’t seem too honest, but I didn’t want to hold back how much I liked him. I sucked at game playing anyway.
“I’m really happy, too,” he said. “It’s almost scary how happy I am right now.”
I sat down on my bed. “I’m glad you called. I wanted to talk about your career.”
“My career? Last I checked, I didn’t exactly have a career.”
“Okay, maybe not a career exactly, but you’re famous. How’s it going to look if you’re dating someone? Won’t it cramp your style? Isn’t your playboy lifestyle part of what makes you cool?”
Axel laughed. “Cramp my style? No, it won’t, and I don’t care if it does.”
“What about if it gets out that I’m just a boring girl next door? No fame, no glitz and glamour. You’re in demand at every club, bar, and big event. You don’t think it will make you look… fake?”
Axel was silent for a moment. “I’m genuine. Everything I do is honest. I put myself out there. If people don’t like that, I really don’t care. I’m not going to change the way I act, the decisions I make, or my feelings for you, because of this bizarre notoriety. I’m not going to pretend I’m single because of an image I should uphold.”
“I just don’t want to get in the way of what you do. I understand what you do for a living—”
“It’s a job, and only a job. I’m not going to let it get in the way of us. Understood?”
The truth was I wasn’t entirely sure I could handle this. I knew how other women, especially Jillian and Axel’s groupies, acted around Axel. The thought of watching other girls throw themselves all over him made me sick to my stomach.
I took a calming breath. “Understood.”
“In case there’s any doubt, I wasn’t planning on keeping you a secret. I’m going to be proud to have you on my arm.”
I felt my pulse speed up. The reality of it all started to sink in. This was really happening. I was the girlfriend of the famous Axel Rye. “Okay. I just want you to know I’m not that needy girl. I can let you be in the spotlight but still be there when you’re all done.”
“That’s not what I want,” he said. “If anyone is going to be that needy person, it’s going to be me. In case you haven’t noticed, I just can’t get enough of you.”
Axel’s words sent a wave of warmth through my body. I felt the exact same way, although Axel didn’t seem frightened by it. I, on the other hand, was petrified. This seemed too good to be true.
“You have to stop melting my heart,” I whispered.
“Why?” Axel suddenly sounded serious. “I say what I feel, and I want you to always do the same. Don’t ever hold anything back. Honesty is all we have. We need to be free with what we feel.”
“Okay.” I loved how Axel made me feel so open, and I wasn’t going to think about the book deal and let it ruin this moment. I couldn’t. I just couldn’t. “Can I tell you what I’m feeling right now?”
“Always.”
I took a deep breath and nibbled at my bottom lip. “I want to be with you right now, and kiss you all over.”
I heard Axel’s breath hitch. “You’re making it very hard for me not to hop in my car, pick you up, and keep you with me always.”
I giggled. “Sweet dreams, Axel.”
“My dreams will be of you.”
I held the phone to my heart for a while after we’d hung up and wondered how I could go another moment without Axel in my life.
Quinn
True to his word, Axel didn’t keep our relationship a secret. As soon as he saw me at work, Axel was all over me. He walked behind the bar and wrapped his arms around my waist, kissing my neck.
Axel obviously felt comfortable with his dominance and power. H
e knew he could pretty much do anything at this club, and he had no problem showing affection to me. Axel didn’t hold back a thing. He could hardly keep his hands off my body.
“Axel, my boss isn’t going to like you behind here. I need to finish my shift before you get me fired.”
“Your boss isn’t going to say a thing, and you know it.”
I playfully tried to push him away. “You are so bad. Do rules not apply to you?”
“I don’t like sharing you. I’m selfish. I want you all to myself,” Axel explained, intertwining his fingers with mine. “Is it quitting time yet?”
“I thought you had a job to do? Aren’t you supposed to be mingling with all the club-goers and getting them to buy off you?” I inquired somewhat timidly. I hoped Axel enjoyed our flirtations as much as I did, but I did hate mentioning him dealing drugs. But I also knew it was part of his life and I needed to get used to it.
“I’m mingling with the staff. Much more than I ever have before,” Axel declared, glancing up at me suggestively as he continued playing with my hand behind the bar. I couldn’t help but smile at that as I looked up from our restless hands to gaze at Axel flirtatiously. I felt a shudder run through me when I saw the predatory look in his eyes.
“I should probably get back to work,” I said softly, reluctantly pulling my hand away from Axel’s. I needed to focus my attention back to pouring drinks before I slid under the counter out of view of others and did something decidedly inappropriate at work.
“Aren’t you done yet?” Axel whined, and I half-expected him to start pouting like a little boy. An incredibly sexy little boy.
“Soon,” I replied. Axel reached out and took my hand again, using his index finger to lightly trace patterns along my palm. “And then I’m all yours.”
“Can’t you just clock out early?” Axel suggested, sticking out his lower lip petulantly. How was it possible for anyone to look so adorable and deliciously dangerous at the same time? “I can pay you and the club whatever amount. I just want you now.” He had a mischievous glint to his eye, and I simply could not deny him anything with how cute he looked.
“I guess I could clock out,” I conceded. “I’m not of much help right now, anyway.” For some reason, I found it impossible to say no to Axel.
“Good,” Axel said, interrupting my wayward thoughts. “Because I want to introduce you to some more of my friends.”
“I thought you wanted me all to yourself?” I asked in confusion.
Axel followed me to the back room with a dominant presence, causing my heart to skip a beat. He slowly walked over to me and tugged me softly into his arms. He pulled away and placed a palm of his hand on each side of my face. Very closely, he examined my eyes. “I do,” Axel admitted, and I eyed him suspiciously as we walked to the timecard machine. “But I also want everyone to know you belong to me.”
“Are you sure? You don’t have to do that,” I asked, nervously licking my lips as I clocked out and took off my apron.
“Yes, I do,” he stated, reaching out to run his finger down the length of my arm. “I want everyone to know I’ve fallen hard.”
“Fallen?” I asked anxiously.
He leaned forward and pressed his lips against mine, effectively shutting me up. The kiss was chaste, less intimate than the gentle exploration of mouths we had exchanged the day before. Axel’s lips ruthlessly stroked my own, sending little jolts of pleasure through my body. I kissed him back, my lips parting slightly as I sighed in contentment. Kissing Axel Rye was quickly becoming a habit I had no intention of ever giving up. I moaned softly when I felt Axel’s tongue gently lapping at my lower lip, demanding entrance. Opening my mouth a bit wider, I eagerly anticipated the feel of Axel’s tongue slipping past my lips and into the warm confines of my mouth. But instead of deepening the kiss, Axel ended it. With one last gentle nip to my lower lip, he pulled back slightly, looking entirely too pleased with himself when I groaned in protest.
“Yes. Fallen,” he answered, his voice taking on a seductive quality that made my stomach do a little flip flop.
“Oh, yeah.” I sighed, grinning at him in satisfaction. “But just let the record show that technically, I’ve fallen harder.”
“Sounds like someone has a bit of a competitive streak,” Axel teased, returning my smile.
“I do. You should know that I never lose,” I replied confidently. I immensely enjoyed this little game and flirtation of ours. But I knew I needed to cool things down or I would demand for him to take me right then and there. But was that really a bad thing? Maybe not every girl’s dream was getting fucked and losing her virginity in the break room, but I was at the point of not caring anymore on how it happened. I was far past roses and soft words of endearment. Accepting his lifestyle still confused me. Even more so now that my feelings grew stronger by the moment, but one thing was very clear: I wanted Axel.
“Well then, maybe I should give you a challenge.” Axel leered at me suggestively, leaning in for another kiss.
I closed my eyes for a moment, searching my entire being for the courage for what I was about to do. “Challenge accepted.” I paused. “I want this moment. I want this moment to feel you.” I tentatively pressed my palm to his chest. “I want this moment to taste you.” I lowered my hand to the bulge in Axel’s pants. “I want this moment to feel your cock between my lips.” I quickly undid his zipper and button releasing his thickness from his confines. For the first time in my life, I allowed my passion to rule over my mind. I couldn’t believe I’d actually said the word “cock” out loud. Something was changing in me. Something was awakening.
Axel stood still, never making a move to stop me in my mission. I took this as a sign to continue on. I knelt down and softly placed his hardened cock on the base of my tongue and closed my lips tightly around him. Looking up into his eyes, I began to move my mouth up and down along his shaft. He never looked away. He never closed his eyes for a moment. He watched as I began my seduction. I tightened my lips, and worked my tongue in small circles along the entire length. His taste, his smell, and his delicious aura were everything I had imagined.
Axel reached for my hair to stop me. “Quinn,” he moaned.
I looked up into his eyes with his cock still in my mouth. I pulled it out enough to whisper, “Don’t, Axel. I’m not the innocent, naïve girl you see. I am a woman with desires, needs, and a hunger for you like nothing I could have imagined.” I lowered my mouth down to the base of his cock and slowly back to the tip. Removing his penis just enough to speak again, I rasped, “Let me pleasure you.”
Axel closed his eyes and threw his head back in euphoric surrender. I knew I had won this battle. I smiled wickedly at my success and continued my quest to please him like he had never experienced before. I wanted to show all those groupies before me a thing or two.
Suddenly the break-room door opened with a gust of loud music pouring in. A woman in a black dress and even blacker hair engulfing her pale face stood in the doorway. Dilated eyes were almost hidden by even darker circles underneath them. Scarlet lips worked their way into a smirk as she crossed her arms across her ample breasts.
“Oh, don’t mind me. Please continue on,” she offered with the most seductive voice I had ever heard.
Axel pulled away. “Jillian, what the fuck are you doing?”
I scrambled to my feet in shock and embarrassment as Axel quickly adjusted his pants.
“Well, obviously not nearly having as much fun as you. My, my, Axel. Just when I thought you were getting boring. Public play… I like. Care to share?”
“Get out of here,” Axel demanded as he marched toward the door.
The biting command stung me to the core. I had never heard Axel talk with such a demanding voice before. I had never seen Axel lose control of his temper like I saw now. Obviously, the woman had a negative effect on him.
“Don’t get mad, Axel. Well, unless you want to spank my naughty bottom,” Jillian giggled as she seductively licked her lips.
I stiffened my spine.
Axel moved with lightning speed until he glared down at Jillian’s small frame. “I said get out! I’m not in the mood for your fucked up junkie games.” Axel ushered Jillian out, slamming the door behind her, and turned to me. “I’m so sorry. When Jillian is high… well actually, that’s just Jillian. I’m sorry if she embarrassed you.”
I forced a fake smile. “It’s okay.”
“No, it’s not. But I don’t want to think about that crazy bitch anymore.”
I looked into his deep eyes and said nothing. I met his gaze and allowed for him to truly see my embarrassment of being caught in such an intimate act. When it came to this man, I had no reason to hide my feelings.
Axel pulled me into his arms harshly. He pressed my head to his chest with more force than I had ever experienced. “I won’t let it happen again. I’ll make sure I protect you from all the insanity of my life. I never want to be the cause of your heartache.” Without releasing his grip, he continued, “But I have to warn you that my image as this party bad boy tends to attract the mentally unstable people at times. I swear to you my loyalty, but being with me can be really hard on trust.”
I pulled from his strong embrace. “I trust you, Axel. I know you’d never hurt me.” I smiled. “Weren’t you going to introduce me to your friends?” I reminded him, leaning away from him as I grabbed my purse from the locker and prepared to leave.
“Don’t I at least get a kiss to hold me off?” Axel teased.
“Nope,” I replied casually, offering him a playful wink.
“Why not?” he complained, his puppy dog eyes pleading with me to stay.
Seductively, I wrapped my arms around Axel’s neck and moved my mouth until it was pressed up against his ear. “Because the next time you kiss me, I won’t want you to stop,” I whispered, feeling him shudder as my warm breath tickled his earlobe. And with that, I led Axel over to join his friends.