“Thanks,” he answered inside of a laugh. “I certainly don’t need someone that skinny teaching me anything about a strongest man competition.”
“Well, I am going to start my workout now, but if you need me, you’ll know where to find me.” I flashed him my sexiest smile before I walked by him.
It was all that I could do to not look back and see if his eyes were following me, to gauge his reaction to what I would have considered a crazy stunt. Even though it didn’t bother anyone else but Tyler, it had still taken a lot for me to do something like that, especially when he was dripping with sweat and looking better to me now than any man I had ever seen. There was something about the sweat, or perhaps it was the pheromones that were being released through his workout that made me even more attracted to his delectable body.
Although, it hadn’t started out like this at all. In fact, I hadn’t even known he was going to the gym. Of course, I was curious, seeing as how he was up bright and early at four-thirty in the morning, getting dressed and running out of the house quicker than I could even get my clothes on.
When I finally made it out, I saw that he was running down the street. Of course he runs to wherever he is going.
Lucky for me, I had a car and a fairly good field of vision, since the street that the beach house was at the end of was fairly long. So, I waited to see which way he turned before starting up my car and following him that way.
Since I was sure he had probably paid my car absolutely no mind, I figured he wouldn’t even know to recognize it if I started following him.
I was right. I had kept a safe distance, but still, he seemed to be oblivious to the possibility that he was not traveling alone.
When he got to the gym, which I figured was where he was going, I waited in my car for a little while and tried to close my eyes for a few moments while in the parking lot before I made my way inside to find him.
The building was huge and open twenty-four hours, but by this point, I figured unless he was conducting interesting business inside of the gym, which was unlikely for the amount of people who were there, it would probably be okay to make myself known.
After all, there was nothing juicy, especially for someone like Tyler, to get up at all hours of the night to feed what I was sure by now was an addiction to his own reflection.
When I had made the decision to follow him though, I wasn’t sure what I would find. Part of me hoped that I would catch him doing something really illegal and I could send his pompous ass to jail for a long, long time. But after yesterday, part of me was happy that he was just going to the gym, a place where he would have bragged about going at that time in the morning, if I had only asked.
As much as I hated to admit it, yesterday at the amusement park was just a little bit more special because he was there. I actually felt like we were bonding.
My father and I were able to talk and really become close, like we were before my mother died, but it didn’t take me long to realize that Tyler was also a big part of that. I had a lot of fun with him too and therefore, when I had gone up to him, in all of his virile glory, there was a part of me that was even more content to find out that he wasn’t making any crazy deals or doing anything illegal inside the gym either.
For once in probably the entire span of time that I had known him, immense, slightly unnatural dedication aside, Tyler was being normal to me. It was then that I realized he really did have a hobby that did not include boning anything.
Granted, when I looked at him, with his bulging muscles tensing and flexing as he lifted far too many weights for one human being to be able to stand all by themselves, I was sure that one hobby did quite a bit to help out the pursuit and inspiration for another. But it was nice to see him perusing something that did not directly relate to Tyler eventually getting completely naked.
As I watched him, hopefully unseen for as long as I was standing there, I saw that instead of just talking about his dedication, he was actually showcasing it. Plus, he got extra points in my book for doing it at an ungodly hour.
That’s when I realized, once again, that he wasn’t so bad.
The terrible person that I had experienced, after a lot of drinks that night in the water was completely gone and replaced once again by the debonair man that I thought I truly understood.
Of course, I didn’t do anything dumb, like forget how he made me feel, but I did see a different side to him that I liked.
If nothing else, it made me believe that there truly might be something good lurking in the recesses of this man’s psyche and I wanted to find out more about what exactly was there.
So, that night when he finally arrived home, I made my way over to his room and knocked on his door.
I was sure that he was in there, but my knock was returned with silence at first.
“Come on, Tyler,” I insisted, unable to hide what was on my mind, “I’ve had a pretty crappy day and seeing you was the best part of it.”
“Come the fuck in!” he retorted, seeming as though he was also angry.
When I made my way into the room, he was sitting on his bed with his headphones jammed into his ears.
“Hi,” I said awkwardly, before I shrugged as though I had made my concern for my day a little worse than it really was. Perhaps I had gone a bit overboard, seeing as how nothing really happened, so much as I allowed my own head to take over. Yet, it was this house, more than anything that drove me crazy. I didn’t want to admit it, but I couldn’t seem to resist the idea that this house, for my family, was just bad luck.
He popped the headphones out of his ears and turned off the music that was still blaring through them.
“So, what’s up?” he asked in a slightly angry manner.
I narrowed my eyes and moved closer to him, but did not say a word about how I was feeling. Instead I asked, “I’m sorry, are you okay?”
He narrowed his eyes and spat. “Just because you’re fucking miserable doesn’t mean you have to come in here and pretend I feel just as bad as you.
His words were loud and abrasive, which made me quake with fear and pull back. I bit my lip and tried not to say anything that I first thought of. “I came here for help,” I finally answered. “But I only said something to you, because you seem…” I shrugged before I was able to find the right word, “Tense?”
He barked a laugh before he answered, “Yeah, so, what’s it to ya?”
I smiled, feeling almost like I had won the lottery, getting him to admit that he was feeling like anything less than god of the universe. “I’m concerned.”
“Well, don’t be. I’m fucking wonderful,” he answered, now with an even more abrasive tone.
“I don’t think that’s true…” I answered carefully, stepping towards him.
“What the hell?” he exclaimed. “Get away from me! What is it with you? One minute you’re happy and the next minute, you’re seven days fucking rain.” He glared at me with a serious expression that gave me the impression he actually wanted to know the answer to the question that he was about to ask. “So, why do you hate this place anyway?”
Well, that was definitely an improvement. Even though I wanted to tell him how I felt and what I was feeling, I wasn’t sure if I would really be able to form my concerns into words. There was just so much to explain.
So in lieu of trying to explain a situation and a sense of loss that I still didn’t completely understand, I just shook my head and mumbled, “Never mind,” before I turned to leave the room.
Out of the corner of my eye, I saw that he was glaring at me as he huffed, “I’m just trying to be fucking nice.”
The moment I walked out of his door, I lamented it. Maybe I really do need someone to talk to, I thought before I waited a moment.
Should I ask him if I could come back? I wondered, but hated myself for even thinking about it. He doesn’t really care, so why would you want to encourage him? It is only going to make things worse.
Yet, before I could completely c
onvince myself of this, I was making my way back over to the opened door and readying myself to knock.
You’re going to regret this, I told myself, but for whatever reason, I knew that I needed to tell someone what I was going through, or else I would go insane.
Tyler’s not the best option in the world for anything, I thought as I rapped my fist against the door gently and looked over at him, secretly hoping that he wouldn’t just curse me off before telling me that I had to leave. But he is the best chance I’ve got!
Chapter Twenty-Two
Tyler
“What do you want?” I asked, raising my eyes to her. “I’m not a fucking therapist, you know. You can’t just expect me to put up with you going in and out. If you come in, you’re here to stay.”
“I know, I’m sorry,” she answered, “It’s just really hard for me.”
I cringed as I thought, See? This is exactly the kind of shit I was trying to avoid! Nonetheless, I continued to look up and stare at the beautiful blond woman who was insisting that she was worried about me instead of begging to hop on my dick and take it for the ride of her life.
I don’t need this, I thought to myself, but I heard my voice say, “Yeah, I get it.”
I watched as Ashley paused for a moment before she smiled and made her way back inside.
I stared at her while she hovered by the door before I demanded, “Well, what are you waiting for? If we’re going to have an intimate conversation, we might as well be intimate.” I smiled at her in a way that was supposed to be suggestive, but she rolled her eyes and caused me to fear she was going to change her mind about telling me. So I quickly sat up and said in a smooth, understanding tone, “Listen, Ashley, I meant what I said. I really want to know what your deal is with this place.” I made my eyes wide as I tried to seem extremely convincing. “Please…I’m here to help.”
That’s bullshit… I thought, but didn’t entirely believe it, which made me feel even worse. And to make matters even more dire, not only is she getting me to ask questions that I shouldn’t want to know the answer to, she is making me actually care enough to want to help. Why the fuck should I care the reasons behind her hate for this beach house? But I did care nonetheless.
In truth, today was a pretty shitty day for me as well. It wasn’t anything anyone did or said, but more about what I had thought about the whole day.
Therefore, I couldn’t help but want a little human connection. Since Ashley was giving me that connection, I figured I would listen to her problems. Maybe it would distract me from my own.
It was a stupid thought, brought on by the stupid amusement park, but I couldn’t seem to get the thoughts out of my head. The more I tried to ignore them, the more they seemed to keep pummeling me. It was awful and weak. I wanted no part of it, but as I continued to look at Ashley’s expression, I found, to my dismay, that I was actually considering telling her about what it was that made me so upset.
I watched as Ashley contemplated my offer, before she moved over to me and sat her perfectly shaped ass right down on the bed and I felt a ping of attraction. My eyes easily made their way down to her cleavage and I wondered what it would take to get her to take her top off for me.
Be tactical, I thought before I answered seriously while going for broke, “So, what is it, Ashley…Why does this particular house seem to bring out such horrific memories?”
“It’s not that the memories are bad,” she sighed, leaning back against the wall on the other side of my bed. “It’s the fact that I won’t…make anymore?” She stopped and shook her head, as though re-thinking telling me any of this. “Forget it! It’s too heavy for right now.” She smiled then, trying to feign positivity, before she added in an encouraging manner, “What happened to you today?”
I snorted a laugh and answered callously, “You think that your story is heavy. Fuck your story.”
“Oh yeah?” Instead of being offended, she seemed far more intrigued. “Then what is it? What has been on your mind today?”
I thought about this for a second, disgusted at how much I actually wanted to tell her what it was I was thinking. However, my first reaction was to tell her, in no uncertain terms to fuck off; that I wouldn’t tell her my problems if my life depended on it. But before I could open my mouth and ruin my otherwise glorious chances, I had a thought.
I stopped and allowed my emotions, for the first time in a long time, to get the best of me. “It’s…my dad,” I answered carefully. “The man who screwed my mother to make me…” I shook my head and made sure the door was closed. In case the two newlyweds decided to come home, they wouldn’t hear what I was divulging. “Literally the worst fucking decision that man ever made.”
I saw her eyes grow even more concerned for me as she answered, “That’s terrible, Tyler. Why would you say something like that?”
I sighed and tried to control myself before I answered, far easier than I had meant to, in a way that almost scared me, “Well, the short version is that if he had never created me, he probably would still be alive.”
I saw her eyebrows raise, but she didn’t seem nearly as alarmed as I thought she would be. It took her a moment to recover though and when she did, her voice was far more understanding than I knew I deserved. “Well Tyler, I would feel a lot better if you told me the long version.” With that, she gave a reassuring smile and patted my leg with her hand.
The feel of her skin touching mine made me even more excited, despite the pain of the past that I had now willingly opened myself up to. I sighed, not wanting to have this conversation, but realizing that I probably didn’t have much of a choice, now that she likely thought I blew his brains out because he waited up to punish me when I came home past curfew or something stupid like that. I only wished it was that simple.
“All right,” I answered, feeling as though the words were far too simple for everything that I was feeling, along with everything that I was about to divulge. “Growing up, I didn’t really have any kind of fucking father figure. My mother swore up and down that he was a bastard and had left the two of us the moment he found out that she was knocked up, never to be heard from again. My grandmother took care of us when I was little, because my mother wasn’t really good for anything except screwing people and I suppose my grandmother felt bad for me. Who the fuck knows?”
I felt myself grow nervous as I realized that I had never actually spoken this story out loud before. “Then, when I was five, my grandmother died and left everything she had in the world, being well-off thanks to my grandfather, to my mother, so that she could take care of me. It was a lucky break for her and at least she had the decency not to spend it all in one place, but she also didn’t work very much. Therefore, while we had the house, which was going to shit because my mom didn’t know the first thing about fixing it, we still had to be fairly sparing about what we did. Then, she married again, when I was ten and that guy taught me a little bit about how to work on a house and be a good provider.” I shrugged, feeling as though I had nothing to hide anymore, since I was already explaining my most coveted secret to her. “I fucking liked him. He was a hard ass, but he was what I needed at the time.”
As I spoke, I watched Ashley as she took it all in. I wasn’t sure how much she could relate, but I was sure that on some level, she felt like we were connecting. For all the lies I had told women to get them into bed with me, I had never told any of them the truth except Ashley, so I thought we were connecting a little bit too.
“However, that marriage didn’t last long. Once again, my mother said that he walked out on us.” I shrugged and allowed my voice to drop to a pitch that enticed Ashley to read between the lines. “She sure got a shit-ton of money from that deal though, which leads me to wonder.”
“Do you think that your mother left him and took his money?” Ashley whispered, as though she thought there might actually be someone there to hear.
I shrugged. I wasn’t sure why exactly, but I didn’t want to completely give my mother away. E
ven though I knew she deserved it, I couldn’t quite bring myself to be as cold as she was. Plus, if this conversation went south, I didn’t exactly want to implicate my mother in a scam of taking men for all they were worth, considering the relationship we were all currently bonded to. My mother was as dumb as rocks, but sneaky as any woman I had ever met, which was nice when I saw that she was actually having a good time at the amusement park. I had the thought that just maybe, she was going to stick around with this guy for a little while.
That would be bad news and awkward for Ashley and I once I finally got her in bed, but besides that, it might not be such a bad deal.
“Anyway,” I continued, “after that dude left, a man claiming to be my father showed up on our porch. My mother kicked him out, but I was curious and so, I tracked him down. Long story short, my mother never told him about me. She just left him after she found out that he had knocked her up and chose to spite him instead of become a legitimate family.” I shrugged. “Now you know why I think commitment is a crock of shit. It was pounded into me since birth. When I found all of this out, I began hanging out with him again. I didn’t tell my mom. I figured it would just lead to trouble…” I stopped then and sighed, wondering seriously if I would be able to make it through this conversation without breaking down.
“Are you okay?” Ashley asked again, this time moving closer to me, so that I could feel her comforting vibes against my skin. It wasn’t much of a comfort, per se, but her closeness certainly did make me horny. Almost as though she figured this out, she scooted a little away from me, looked me in the eyes and asked seriously, “Then what happened?”
I shrugged, staving off the sense of emotion that was surrounding me. I certainly didn’t want to feel the way that I was feeling, since I knew what it was going to lead to, but I was also aware that Ashley probably wasn’t going to let this go. So I answered, “Nothing happened…At least with my mom. She never found out,” then, I lowered my voice and my eyes as I said in a tormented tone, “That is until…”
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