“What’s going on here?” she demanded. Her voice was still stern and volume slightly elevated, but she was no longer shouting. She threw a quick glance to her left at the little girl who was slowly but steadily increasing the distance between herself and them. She was already to the street and showing no sign of stopping. Throwing a sideways gaze back on Sheriff Carmichael, she called out over her shoulder, “Merrie! Stop!”
She threw another fleeting glance to the left. The child continued on, having trudged across Evergreen Lane as if she hadn’t heard a thing. Still focused on the sheriff and keeping her sidearm trained on him, Constance demanded again, “Dammit, Skip, tell me what the hell is going on here!”
“DROP YOUR WEAPON!” a new voice suddenly came from her right. “NOW, Special Agent Mandalay!”
Constance slowly shifted her eyes and turned her head just enough to see Deputy Broderick. He was only a few feet away with his own weapon trained on her, having come up from a position behind. Apparently, the fact that she was wearing a vest hadn’t escaped him as the muzzle of his pistol was pointed straight at her head. At this distance, unless he was the worst shot on the planet he wasn’t likely to miss.
“You aren’t going to shoot a federal agent,” she said, fully cognizant of the fact that the comment sounded like dialogue from a cheesy movie. It was the kind of thing the main character’s two-dimensional sidekick always said to the villain right before getting riddled with bullets and becoming a martyr to be avenged with rocket launchers and air strikes. But then to Constance the whole past three days had seemed to play out like a bad movie. Why break the streak now?
“Yeah, sugar,” Sheriff Carmichael grunted as he stood up a little straighter and grimaced again. “He will if he has to, but that’s not where any of us want this to go. Just hand over your weapon and we can get on with what needs to be done.”
“I don’t think so,” she barked.
“Dammit, Constance,” he grumbled. “You can have it back in a few minutes. I just need to show you something first.”
“That little girl...” she started.
“I know,” he interrupted her. “That’s exactly what I need to show you. Now if you aren’t gonna hand that thing over, at least holster it, okay? We’re all on the same side here. Nobody needs to be getting shot.”
Constance glanced between Sheriff Carmichael and Deputy Broderick. She was in a stalemate and she knew it, but she wasn’t about to relinquish her weapon. At least he’d offered the second option, but that didn’t fix anything as long as Broderick was pointing his firearm at her. Ben’s words were still echoing through her brain on an endless loop as she searched for a way out of this.
Skip stared back at Constance. Her resolve must have been obvious in her expression because he sighed. “Goddammit you’re stubborn…” He directed his attention to the deputy. “Broderick… Stand down.”
“But, Skip…” the deputy started.
“Stand down,” he repeated, cutting him off.
Deputy Broderick hesitated for a moment, then lowered his weapon and slid it into his belt holster. Constance tossed her gaze back and forth between the two of them.
“Hands behind your head,” she ordered the deputy.
“Do what she says,” Skip told him.
Mandalay divided her attentions between them while he complied.
“There,” Sheriff Carmichael said, directing himself to her. “How about you put yours away too.”
Constance carefully stepped back and turned so that they were both in her line of sight. “Where’s Deputy Johnson?” she demanded.
Skip snorted. “If I had to guess, he’s sitting at a desk back at the office where I sent him about nine last night. Probably has his feet up while he’s drinking a hot cup of coffee,” he replied.
“The office?” she spat. “He was supposed to be watchi–”
He cut her off. “No need in all of us freezing our asses off, young lady.”
“But you were supposed to be watching the outside of the house.”
“We were. Did you see anyone come in?”
“That’s not the–”
“Dammit, Constance,” he retorted, cutting her off again. “Just put your damn pistol away and I’ll give you whatever answers I have. I promise.”
She mulled it over, staring back at both of them as a rising surge of wind whipped her hair around her face. It moaned dolefully through the trees before tapering off to nothing.
“Why should I believe that? You haven’t exactly been forthcoming with me so far.”
“I think you just saw my reason for that.”
She continued to stare at him but didn’t reply.
After several heartbeats he appealed, “We really don’t have a whole lot of time. Merrie is going to be waiting.”
Every ounce of training Constance had told her to cuff them both, then call the Missouri Highway Patrol for backup, then her SAC, and then just sit on this until it could all be sorted out. She’d been lied to, physically attacked, and on the wrong end of a gun, and those were just the high points. She was sure there could be plenty more charges filed without even cracking the spine on a law book.
But that was her training. Her instinct was telling her something completely different. It was being entirely contradictory, and she couldn’t follow both of them. Not simultaneously. She had to make a choice between brain and gut. She knew it was a coin toss. She also knew there was much more at stake than who got the ball.
Going with her brain would be the safe bet. But then there was that little girl, trudging half-dressed through the snow, and somehow she knew that’s what this was really all about. Following her gut might well be the option that would bring some sense to all of this.
“Constance, if you want answers, put the gun away. But I’m telling you now, I don’t have time for this. No matter what, in about one minute I’m going to walk to my car and go do what I have to do. You can either come with me, or you can shoot me. Honestly, I’m kinda hoping for option number one.”
“What is it you have to do, Skip?”
“Come with me and you’ll see.”
She stared back at him and sighed. This was crazy. She needed to just arrest him and his deputy and be done with it. That would be proper procedure. Then again, it would have also been proper procedure for the bureau to send her up here with backup and a complete file on this case to begin with. There was nothing SOP about any of this.
“I must be insane…” she finally muttered.
Against her better judgment, Constance slowly and carefully held her arms out to the sides and then just as carefully slipped the Sig Sauer back into her belt rig.
“That’s better,” the sheriff grunted, lowering his hands and touching his fingertips to his bloody lip, then pulling them away and giving them a quick inspection. “Lovely,” he mumbled, then looked at her and asked. “How’s your head?”
“It hurts like hell,” Constance said, looking at him in earnest. “Tell me what’s going on, Skip…”
He pointed off in the direction the little girl had gone. She looked and saw the trail through the snow, but no sign of Merrie.
“I should probably just show you,” he said, then started ambling across the yard toward the street. There was an obvious pained hitch in his gait. As he passed her he added, “Come on. My car is just around the corner.”
THREE blocks from the house on Evergreen Lane, Sheriff Carmichael lazily cranked the steering wheel and brought the cruiser into a wide arc around the corner. He and Constance had been riding in relative silence for the small handful of minutes it had taken to traverse the distance, neither of them speaking a word. The only real sounds to join them were the tires against snowy pavement and the drone of warm air pushing out of the vents.
The heat felt good to Constance. Although both the tense excitement and the physical altercation had set her blood moving, she still felt frozen to the core. Too much time immobile in that deep-freeze of a house had taken a toll.
While she had brushed off before climbing into the cruiser, she hadn’t been able to free herself of all the snow she had picked up while rolling about on the ground. Now, here in the warmth of the car, it was melting. Her hair was damp, even downright wet in some spots. So were the knees and seat of her jeans. She desperately wanted to strip down and soak in a hot bath. She especially wanted to get out of the Kevlar vest. But neither of those things would be happening anytime soon, and she knew it.
Skip finally broke the silence. “Almost there.”
Spinning the steering wheel, he took the cruiser through another languid turn. As he straightened the vehicle and continued rolling forward, the headlights fell in a bright swath across a small figure standing motionless in the middle of the street. He slowed more and angled off to the side. Eventually they came to a halt next to the curb several yards in front of the little girl.
He cranked the shift lever into park and then flipped on the light bar. A swath of red and blue flickered into the night, falling across the still motionless figure standing in the street. Each strobe highlighted the blood, dirt, and wounds that marred her. Carmichael reached to the dash and poked a button. A clunk sounded behind them as the trunk release popped.
With a quick glance at the digital clock on the console he grunted, “We’re running a bit late.”
“What do you mean?” Constance asked.
“I don’t have much by way of an explanation,” he said, looking over at her. “I just know that this is exactly where I found her in nineteen seventy-five. And it’s where I’ve found her every Christmas morning for the past eight years. But I’m usually here a bit earlier. It’s better that way.”
“Why?”
“She doesn’t have much time.”
“What’s happening here?” Constance whispered.
“I don’t know,” he replied. “I’ve been hopin’ for eight years now that someone could tell me…” He paused for a moment, then said, “You can get out if you want, but stay next to the car. Don’t go near her. I’m serious.”
“Why?”
“Because she’s my responsibility. That’s all I have time to explain right now.”
With that, he climbed out of the vehicle and walked around to the back where he lifted the trunk lid. A moment later he slammed it closed and trundled back around, a blanket tucked under his arm.
Constance popped her door and stepped out onto the street after he had passed. Questions were dancing on the end of her tongue, but when she opened her mouth, the music stopped and she couldn’t seem to give them voice. Instead she wandered a few steps forward and stood next to the front of the cruiser as she’d been instructed, watching as Sheriff Carmichael knelt down on the snowy pavement and wrapped the blanket around the little girl. The child continued to stare blankly into space as he bundled her in the thick fabric. Hooking his arms around and hugging her close so that her head lay against his shoulder, he hefted her up, then stood. The weariness of both age and exhaustion were apparent in his struggle as he rose to his feet. The lingering pain of Constance’s hammer-handed punch was still showing in his gait as he turned and began walking back to the car.
Constance could see his lips moving as he drew closer. She swiveled slowly in place, following him with her bewildered gaze as he headed toward the back door of the cruiser. She was finally able to hear what he was saying as he trundled past her. He was whispering, voice cracking with the repressed emotion of an old wound, freshly opened.
“It’s okay, Merrie,” he soothed. “You’re safe now, sweetheart. You’re safe… He can’t hurt you anymore… I promise…”
CHAPTER 27
CONSTANCE reached up and absently pushed a damp shock of hair from her face while she stared out the windshield of the police cruiser. Her eyes were burning as the warm air from the vent caused them to dry, but she couldn’t stop staring. The faint reflection of a disheveled woman gazed back at her from the inside of the glass. It looked horrifyingly old.
She forced herself to blink then looked beyond the slanted glass. The snowy landscape ahead loomed in the headlights as they rolled along the street. However, as with each time before when she would try to stay focused on a distant point, whatever she locked onto would grow to fill the window, then slip past and disappear into their wake. Her eyes would always come back to the unpleasant reflection.
She closed her eyes and allowed her head to drift forward, dropping her chin against her chest. Reaching up with both hands, she massaged her scalp through tangles of damp hair.
She was somewhere in the early stages of an annoying headache. At first she assumed it was a product of the head butt she’d delivered, especially since there was a fresh knot on the back of her scalp, courtesy of Skip’s chin. While that had probably been partially responsible, the epicenter seemed to be a dull ache radiating through her ears and into her temples. It took some time for her to realize that her jaw was tightly clenched, and she was grinding her teeth—a side effect of too many caffeine pills mixed with the jitters that always followed an adrenalin dump from hell.
She forced herself to open her mouth, then took in a deep breath and tried to relax, but it was an exercise in futility. There was no way she could relax while her mind was still racing. Unfortunately, since it had no idea where it was racing to, it was doing little more than following itself around in a confusing circle, looking for an off ramp that didn’t seem to exist.
She needed a drink. Maybe two. Followed by twenty-four hours of uninterrupted sleep. Better yet, she needed someone to tell her that this was all just an exceptionally vivid nightmare and that she would be waking up very soon.
Constance puffed out her cheeks with a heavy sigh and dropped her arms back to her sides. Then she pushed herself up in the seat and started turning around to check on the little girl in the back. She’d lost count of how many times she had turned to look at her. She wondered silently how much of it was to check on the girl’s well being and how much was simply to see if she was really there.
Skip threw an understanding glance at her, just as he’d done each time before when she’d twisted around to look upon the girl. She gazed back at him for a moment, but said nothing. Right now, there didn’t seem to be any words that would make sense.
She shifted some more and completed her turn in the seat. Although it was dark in the back of the vehicle, there was enough ambient light for her to see. What met her eyes was pitiful and heartbreaking. It would have been so even if she didn’t know the circumstances behind it.
Better than fifteen minutes had passed since they had picked up the little girl, but almost nothing about her had changed.
She was still mute, and unmoving.
Although she absolutely had to be chilled all the way to the bone, she didn’t shiver. She didn’t tremble. She didn’t huddle into the blanket. She didn’t even cry. She simply sat there, her only visible movement being that which was forced upon her slight form by the jostling of the vehicle as it bumped along the road.
Her expression had remained constant as well, in that she really bore no expression at all. Her face was slack, relaxed in a way that reminded Constance of death. That morbid thought was bolstered by the fact that the child’s pallor was ashen, almost devoid of any color behind the smears of blood and dirt.
And that was the one thing that had changed. In fact, she seemed to be graying more with each passing minute.
Her eyes were unblinking as she gazed straight ahead from behind matted clumps of chestnut hair that had fallen across her sallow face. The glassy stare was the same one she’d worn inside the house. What Merrie saw with those eyes was something that only she knew, but Constance doubted it was anything good. She was also convinced that whatever it was, it lay somewhere beyond the confines of this world. She found herself wishing Rowan were here. This sort of thing was his forte. The seemingly fantastic and the paranormal were where his expertise dwelled. Even if it didn’t make sense to everyone else, he always seemed to accept it for what it
was and find a way to deal with it.
She desperately needed a way to deal with this.
Mandalay felt the vehicle starting to slow and then yaw a bit as it started into a turn. She braced herself and tossed a quick glance at Sheriff Carmichael, then twisted back around in her own seat and looked out through the windshield once again. For a brief instant, the sign for the Holly-Oak Assisted Living facility was framed in the headlights, then it quickly slipped sideways into the darkness as they turned into the entrance.
“Shouldn’t we be taking her to a hospital?” she asked.
“No,” Skip replied.
“But…”
“Trust me. I’ve been down this road before.”
Skip drove around to the back of the building, made a tight circle through the empty lot in order to turn around, and then pulled up close to the back door. As the vehicle rolled to a stop, flood lamps above the rear entrance sprang to life, spilling their brilliance outward and casting the passenger side of the cruiser in a stark light. After cranking the shift lever into park, Carmichael switched off the engine and dragged himself out from behind the wheel.
Before swinging the driver’s side door shut, he peered back in through the opening at Constance and said, “Get Merrie’s door for me, will you…”
Constance glanced quickly back over her shoulder at Merrie, then shouldered her own door open and climbed out into the cold wind. By the time she had levered it back closed, Skip had come around to her side, so she pulled the cruiser’s rear door open for him.
“We’re home,” he said to the girl as he pushed his frame in through the opening.
After unbuckling the seatbelt, he wrapped the loose folds of the blanket tighter, taking care to make sure Merrie was protected from the cold. Slipping his arms around her, he lifted up and carefully maneuvered her small form out of the seat.
Constance heard a sudden creak of hinges behind them and turned to see Martha pushing open the back door of the building. The woman shot her a curious look and then raised an eyebrow as if seeing her was a surprise, but other than that she seemed as if she had been waiting for them. A second later she turned and directed herself to the sheriff.
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