“I’m your girl,” I said. “I hate giving autographs just as much as the next person.” Jennifer laughed.
“Fine,” she said as her laugh subsided. “Thanks a lot, Audra.” Jennifer secured the folders in her arms and wandered off from me, heading over to a table in the lobby to set up her room key distribution.
My gaze drifted for a moment until it settled on the latest guest to walk through the hotel door. She was slim and elegant, her light reddish auburn hair waving in slight curls, bouncing like she was straight out of a shampoo commercial. This girl wore a simple sundress, easy and breezy, cut to her mid-thigh and showing off her long pale stems. She had big black sunglasses over her eyes and a wide grin on her face and as soon as she entered the lobby, all the people around looked her way and ceased talking for just a split second. This young woman, with alabaster skin and just the slightest hint of freckles on her nose, pulled the attention of everyone around.
I watched as Jennifer ran up to her and had a quick conversation with her, handed over her key and room number, exchanged more words with her, and then pointed her up toward me. I felt frozen as I watched both Jennifer as this girl look in my direction. The girl thanked Jennifer with a smile, clutched her key, and then gracefully walked through the lobby in my direction.
I took a deep breath. I mean, like I’d said to Jennifer, I wasn’t a starstruck person. But this woman, she was just amazing. There was something glowing about her. Something touched. She had an aura. I felt twinkling.
“Hi,” she said, daintily removing her sunglasses from her eyes and holding them in her lithe hand. “My name is Kelsie.”
“I’m Audra,” I said, feeling like I couldn’t move my feet. I must have looked absolutely frightened and intimidated there behind the desk.
“Nice to meet you,” said Kelsie. “Jennifer tells me you can help me out.”
“Me?” I said, feeling starstruck. Feeling like I said I wouldn’t feel. “Um, sure! Yeah, I can help.” I really didn’t care that Kelsie was an actress. That hardly crossed my mind as I spoke to her. What really got me was how pretty she was, how regal. I mean, upon meeting her there in that all too familiar hotel lobby, I was totally smitten by this girl. She may have been the most beautiful woman I’d ever met in person and I instantly felt my heart throb.
“Amazing,” affirmed Kelsie with a smile. “I’ve heard a lot about the beaches around here and I’m looking to find something kind of private. You know, a place where I can go lay out without being noticed or bothered or anything like that.”
“Yeah,” I said, slowly nodding. “I understand.”
“I mean, I’m willing to go to public places,” she continued. “But just, maybe, off the beaten path or something, a beach where if I wear a big floppy hat and sunglasses I probably won’t be recognized.”
“I know of a few places,” I said.
“Maybe we can go together,” said Kelsie, eyes brightening. “Are you a beach girl?”
“Well,” I said, feeling shy. “Yeah, I mean, I sorta am. I really do love the Lake.”
“Great!” said Kelsie. “I’m always down with making new friends.”
“I’m here a lot during the day, though,” I lamented, feeling all the highs and lows that come along with being invited to hang out with a girl like Kelsie, only to realize that it would be difficult to do so. “I mean, I’m the main person at this desk.”
“I’m sure you have some time off,” smiled Kelsie. “We’re going to be filming a lot as well so maybe we can coordinate our schedules or something. Cool?”
“Yeah,” I said absently. “Yeah, cool.” I hung there, starring at her dumbly, silent and unsure what to say next.
“It was nice meeting you, Audra,” she said with a curl on her lip. Kelsie slipped her sunglasses back on her face. “I hope we have a nice six weeks together.”
“Yeah,” I said again. “Totally. Thanks for staying at the Hotel Champlain.” Kelsie laughed demurely. She could tell I was on a different planet.
“Hey Audra,” she said, leaning in and lowering her voice to a whisper. “Look, I’m not all that intimidating. I know it can be weird having a Hollywood celebrity around. Have you seen any of my movies?”
“Well, um, no,” I admitted sheepishly. “No, I don’t really like most big budget Hollywood movies.” This gave Kelsie a tickle, causing her to laugh.
“Oh God,” she said. “I get it. I love movies but some of them are just… yuck!”
“I’m sorry,” I said, slumping my shoulders. “I’m not trying to be offensive. I just don’t watch a lot of movies. And though I’ve heard your name before, I don’t really know who you are… if that makes any sense.”
“Perfect sense,” smiled Kelsie. “Audra, that’s perfect.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah,” she affirmed. “Keep that attitude. I’ll catch you later.” Kelsie pursed her lips and turned from me, walking around the desk and looking down to the key in her hand. I couldn’t believe I had acted like such an idiot in front of her. Not only was I probably drooling over her, I also told her that I wasn’t even a fan. Two strikes there. If Jake had seen me act that way, he’d definitely have some things to say. ‘You should have just told her you liked her movies,’ or ‘gush over her and pretend you’re a super fan.’ But I couldn’t. I was crippled by the wonderful air about her.
We didn’t get pretty girls like her around Champlain too often. And as a young and unattached woman myself, I felt a revived sense of excitement building inside of me over the chance of getting to know Kelsie. She represented possibility to me and that feeling was incredibly potent. It gave me a renewed hope.
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An Excerpt From: Freestyle Flirting
A Lesbian Romance
I had a perfect kick off the blocks and I was flying. Just cutting through the water with minimal drag, almost as though I were being pulled by some otherworldly force. When you’re this driven, this pumped up, this focused on meeting your goal, it’s hard not to immediately enter that wonderful state of flow. You’re doing exactly what your body should be doing and it rewards you for it. For me, that’s competitive swimming. It gave me purpose in a sometimes purposeless seeming world. It gave me solace when life handed down misfortune and difficulty. My veins ran with water. I felt more like myself when I was in the pool than when I was walking on terra firma.
All I could hear were those muffled underwater acoustics, all I could see was the rippled refraction in front of me. One arm up, one arm guiding my body along, then the switch, my legs seamlessly kicking up and down as I coursed through that clear water. It was a meditation of sorts for me. I could shut my brain off, I could forget all the negativity in my life, and I could just become the liquid. Although outside of the pool I knew the audience was cheering and all the other competitors were together echoing a cacophony of splashes, here underwater there was a certain quietude that inspired intense focus and a righted spirit within me. This was my happy place.
My name is Marie Mullally and I’m a swimmer. It’s what I do best. It’s what I’ve done for the majority of my 25 years on this planet and I hope that it can be a part of my life forever. It’s my passion and it’s my calling. And as you watch me break through the water of this 50 meter long pool, in the lead yet still conglomerated with a pack of other young female swimmers much like myself, you must know how important this race is. This is the 400 meter freestyle, my event, and the top qualifiers of this race join Team USA for this year’s Summer Olympics in Rio. So, you know, it’s a pretty big deal.
As I reached one end of the pool, I dropped my head down and flipped, pressing my feet firmly against the wall and giving myself a fierce push, allowing me to jet through the water like a dolphin, kicking my legs in unison. After that turn, I could tell I was in the lead from a quick glance out of the corners of my goggles. I always had quick turns, but I would sometimes slow as I returned to my stroke. Amber, the girl in the lane next to me and my chief competition, had slo
wer turns but when she returned to form her stroke was monstrous and I knew it wouldn’t be long before she caught up with me.
I had qualified for this meet at Nationals, along with plenty of other swimmers all vying for those coveted few spots on the Olympic team. The Olympic Trials were nerve wracking, of course, but I had been here before. It was 4 years ago that I had been in this same position, swimming my tail off, pushing myself to the limit, trying to make the USA Olympic swim team. And in fact, I did make that team. I should have competed in the 2012 Summer Olympics. You should have seen me there on television, competing with the best from all around the world. But the uncertainty of life doesn’t always comply with your dreams.
Soon after I won my spot on the team, my parents both died in a car accident. It would be an understatement to say that it was terrible. When your parents both die and you’re still in college, only 21 years old, life just feels so weird. I’m an only child, so as next of kin I had a lot of responsibility to manage their estate. I had to give up my spot on the team and, honestly, I just didn’t feel like swimming. My heart was broken. My life felt like it was in disarray. I needed to figure some stuff out.
I had grown up in Ann Arbor, Michigan and went to school at the University of Michigan so I wasn’t far from home when it all happened. It was gut wrenching to be in that big house all alone, so I sold my parents’ home and moved into an on-campus dorm my senior year. I basically purged everything. I couldn’t stand to look at any of the items in that house that reminded me of my childhood and my parents. I let my family and friends come through and take what they wanted. Everything else, I just donated or tossed. Before I knew it, I had removed most physical items from my life, so much so that I could live out of a single backpack if I wanted.
And I did. After graduating from school, I headed to South East Asia for a while and bummed around, trying to make sense of everything that had happened to me. It felt like I was living someone else’s life. There I was, my parents dead, my Olympic dreams smashed, feeling more alone than I’d ever felt before. But that around the world trip taught me something hugely important. It taught me how to rely on myself. It taught me to trust in the unknown, to keep moving, to keep swimming even if the current is against me.
Upon my return to the States, I headed to Chicago, got my own place, joined up with the Lakeshore Aquatics Club, and tried to get my life back on track. I knew that I could qualify for the Olympic Trials again if I pushed myself, if I trained harder than I’d ever trained before, and if I trusted in the unknown mysteries of this weird world. And I was right.
Another flip-turn, feet against the wall, and then the sound of a bell. I was on the bell lap, meaning I only had two lengths to go and I was still in the lead. It was invigorating and it made me swim even harder. Turning my head to take a breath, I saw Amber there alongside me, keeping pace. I don’t know when it happened exactly but the two of us had become rivals somewhere along the way. We had trained together at U of M, once friends but now enemies. I hated it. I didn’t want any more negativity in my life. But I couldn’t control Amber or her attitude toward me. Although she had actually gone to the Olympics 4 years ago, and won the Bronze in the 400 meter free, she still harbored some weird jealousy toward me. I think, despite her wins, she knew I was better than her. She was desperate to prove otherwise.
Yet another flip and we were on the final 50 meter length. The entire field of swimmers in our heat came together for one last push, each one of us determined to make the cut and head down to South America. I don’t think I’d ever pushed so hard for anything in my life. Arm over arm, breathing to the left and breathing to the right, I felt as though nothing could stop me. My heart was throbbing, it all came down to this final lap and this final length. As I sped through the water, I could see the white tile wall nearing and once I was within striking distance I reached out, stretching my body as far as I could, my fingertips touching the wall to stop my time.
I bobbed out of the water, quickly looking left and right to see the other swimmers pop up as well, just as I had, trying to figure out where I had landed. Pushing my goggles up onto my swim cap, I gazed up at the results board, opening my mouth and trying to exercise a kink out of my jaw. My eyes went wide as the reality hit me. I smacked the water hard and began laughing.
“Yeah!” I shouted out, smacking the water once more, my legs kicking underwater to keep me afloat.
Turning my gaze, I saw Amber celebrating as well. She was hooting and thrusting her fist into the air, her goggles gripped tightly in her hand. After a moment of rejoicing, Amber turned to me and gave me a snide grin. She fluttered over to the buoys that separated our lanes and reached her hand over to shake.
“Good job, teammate,” said Amber. I reluctantly took her hand and shook.
“Likewise Amber,” I said. “Congrats.”
“That’s how it’s going to go in Rio as well,” she said, motioning up to the results board. “Me first, you second.”
“If you say so,” I said, pulling my hand back. As Amber had said, she finished first in our race and I was a close second. But I didn’t care about the order. That fact was that I had made it. I had qualified. Nothing Amber would say could spoil it for me. I was heading to the Olympics. And for real this time.
“Welcome to the Canham Natatorium,” said Mitch Wagner. Mitch was our head coach for Team USA, an older man in his 60s, his body wiry and tight for a man his age, with thinning white hair and wire-framed glasses hanging down his nose. He was a bit of a legend in the swimming world. Mitch had won multiple Golds for Team USA when he was a young swimmer and since then he had been a revered coach responsible for even more Olympic medals and national championships for the swimmers he trained.
I was already quite familiar with Canham. This was our main facility when I went to U of M, a pool I had swam in uncountable times, and it would be Team USA’s transient training home as we awaited the Summer Games. I took a deep breath and smiled. I felt like I was back home.
“I know we’ve got a handful of Wolverines here with us,” said Mitch. “And we want to thank the University of Michigan for graciously lending us Canham as we prepare for Rio.”
“Go Blue!” a number of swimmers chanted, myself included, proud of our University lineage. We all sat in the bleachers, both the men and the women together, while the coaches, about a dozen or so of them, stood down on the deck of the pool with Mitch leading the presentation.
“Of course,” said Mitch with a grin. “We’ll be in Ann Arbor about a month until we all fly down to Rio. I know a number of you have done this before but for the neophytes, let me just say that we expect you to follow everything your coaches say. Your charge for the next few weeks is to train. You’re all in impeccable shape but we’re going to take even that up a notch, so be prepared to work. We’ll have a taper in the week before the Games, but until then you’re going to work your asses off.”
Mitch looked down to his clipboard and adjusted his glasses.
“Let me introduce our coaches,” he said. “I’ll start with the men.”
Mitch began to introduce the men’s coaching staff and I let my eyes go down the line standing there before me. I recognized most of them, knowing them by name as I had often competed against clubs they coached. The people together in this natatorium were the best swimmers and coaches in the country. It was an honor for each and every one of us to be included on the 2016 team and nobody took it lightly. As my eyes assayed each coach, I was suddenly hit with a surprise. Standing amongst the women’s coaches was a young woman, probably no older than her early 30s, dark hair back in a ponytail, a very Eastern European looking face, Russian maybe, standing at attention with straight shoulders, holding a clipboard of her own. I had seen her before but I didn’t know her name. She was striking, her burnt sienna hair, certainly dyed, contrasted against her pale skin. She wore a tight Team USA polo shirt and black spandex shorts revealing her long white muscular legs.
I felt instantly smitten.
I was confused by the feelings, this weird attraction something that I couldn’t quite describe. It smacked me across the face, knocking me unaware, inspiring a strange longing in my heart to figure out who this coach was even before Mitch announced her.
“Now the women,” said Mitch, again referencing his clipboard. “First up, please let me introduce Dasha Belenko,” he said, motioning his hand toward the very same beautiful coach I had my eyes on. “Dasha Belenko,” I thought to myself. I did know her. I just didn’t recognize her. “You’ll probably know Dasha from her Olympic appearance in 2004 in which she brought the Silver home for the USA in the 200 meter butterfly. Dasha comes from a long line of swimmers, her father having competed for the Soviets in the 70s and 80s. But we won’t hold that against her,” said Mitch with a wry grin, inspiring a swift laugh out of the swimmers. Dasha herself smiled and looked down.
“My heart beats red, white, and blue,” said Dasha. “Though you might also catch me rooting for my countrymen of Ukraine, as long as no Americans are racing in the heat.” Dasha had no accent at all and it was obvious she was raised in the States.
“Dasha will be coaching butterfly and free,” said Mitch. “She’s stern but fair. We’re very happy to have her here.” After a short round of applause for Dasha, Mitch continued on to the other coaches. But I couldn’t take my eyes off of Dasha. I found her intensely gorgeous. There was something severe about her bone structure, beautiful and sculpted, and she had the firm body of a swimmer, tight and muscled and top heavy. I was so mad at myself for looking on to my coach like she were just some pretty girl I saw on the street, thinking those saucy thoughts about her, imagining what she might look like in the showers, but I really couldn’t help myself. Dasha was pretty and I was attracted to her.
I had really only had one serious girlfriend since moving to Chicago and that relationship didn’t last more than a year. With my focus on swimming and my minor obsession with self-sufficiency, it was kind of difficult to hold down a relationship. I figured that there was no need searching for anything and I should instead just let it happen. Well, apart from that one relationship, it wasn’t just happening. And I had to admit that my life did feel a bit lonely. Still, I knew that you couldn’t really and fully give your love to another if you didn’t first really and fully love yourself and, well, I still had some emotional stuff to work through that made it difficult at times to see past myself.
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