“Where in the world did you find this?” she asked. “I love it. I’m pretty sure it’s my new favorite button,” she told me as she grabbed her vest from the back of the chair next to us and pinned it to it. “Thank you so much. I can’t wait to wear it at work. You have no clue how many times a day someone makes that dumb joke to me. Maybe the button will make them think twice.” She gave me another hug and a kiss.
“You really like it that much?” I asked her.
“Yes, silly. I love it. You know how I am about my buttons. I love this one because it’s personal and thoughtful. Oh, and because it’s from you.”
Even though she seemed happy and thankful, I couldn’t help but feel stupid about the fact that I’d given it to her at all. Instead of making me happy that I’d given her a gift, I just felt like an idiot. Alexa had never done anything to act like a materialistic person, and I knew she wasn’t, but that wasn’t the point.
“I don’t know,” I started. “I guess I feel like I should have gotten you something better. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me, and if I buy you a gift, it should be better than a three-dollar button,” I exclaimed, taking a step back and looking down at the floor.
“Where is this coming from Nick?” Alexa asked, surprised at the way I was acting. I knew she didn’t care about the price. She seemed to actually like the button a lot. “I want you to stop thinking that way. I love the button a lot,” she said as she grabbed my shirt and pulled me back towards her. Her hands began to wander, running over my chest and causing my muscles to tense up under her touch. “It was very sweet,” she told me, running her hands up to my face, letting her fingers skip over my stubble.
“I don’t know, Alexa. I just can’t get over the feeling that I’m not good enough for you,” I blurted out. As surprised as she looked, I was even more surprised that I said what I’d been feeling out loud. Alexa’s eyes were wide, and the expression on her face made it seem like I’d just hurt her badly.
“What would make you say something like that to me?” she asked with her eyebrows furrowed at me, visibly upset by what I’d said.
“Well, it’s just that you’re so,” I began, not sure where I was actually going before I opened my mouth. The thing was, I never even meant to say what I said. Yeah, those were my thoughts but I sure as hell never intended to let her know about it. Now I was even more worried because she’d know how fucked up my way of thinking was. “You’re so perfect,” I continued. “You’re so beautiful and sexy and just perfect while I’m pretty much a nobody. I have no clue what I even have to offer you.”
When I looked up at her, she had the saddest look in her eyes that I’d ever seen. I knew right then and there that I shouldn’t have said anything.
“Nick, I don’t ever want you to think that way. Believe me, I am far from perfect. As for you, don’t ever refer to yourself as a nobody. The time that we’ve spent together since we met has been nothing short of amazing. You’re one of the sweetest men I’ve ever met.”
Alexa pulled me in closer to her, getting rid of any space between the two of us. She wanted to make sure I understood what her feelings were.
“You’re so fun to be around,” she continued. “You’re so funny. You keep me laughing all the time. You are a gorgeous man. You make me happier than anyone has made me in a long time. I love the things you say to me. I love the things you do to me. I love the way you touch me.”
From out of nowhere, she grabbed my hand and put it between her legs. I took the hint and started rubbing her through the sweatpants she had on. She leaned into, giving me a soft kiss before moving her mouth to my ear.
“I love you, Nick,” she whispered.
Time seemed to stand still as I heard those words come out of her mouth. My mind raced, and I thought that my heart actually stopped until I realized that I could hear it pounding in my chest.
My chest tightened, and my stomach felt like it was twisted into knots. My head was spinning as I stared at her, unable to respond. I watched as Alexa inhaled, waiting for some kind of reply from me.
I could tell that she was getting nervous. I was sure she thought that she couldn’t take back what she said.
“You do?” Yeah, those were the two words I managed to choke out of my mouth. Alexa smiled a bit and nodded her head up and down. “I love you so much,” was my response to her as I began kissing her neck lightly, allowing the happiness of the moment and the joy in her words take over.
I grabbed Alexa and lifted her off the counter and to the floor. Taking her by the hand, I led her into her bedroom where I laid her down on the bed and pulled her sweatpants and panties right off of her body.
She sat up and took off her top. She hadn’t been wearing a bra, so her breasts jiggled with her movements. I couldn’t look away from her as I was reminded once again just how lucky I was. I looked her up and down, making sure to pause and get a better look at my favorite parts of her body.
Eventually, I met her gaze, and we began to kiss with me leaning into her, ensuring that she was going to lie back down on the bed.
My kisses were all over the place. They began on her sweet, soft, succulent lips before making their way to her neck and then down to her collarbone.
Her body shook slightly as I kissed her there, having recently learned that it was her favorite place to get kisses. Alexa whispered my name as I moved my hand to her inner thigh, caressing it gently. I wanted to tease her for a bit, much in the same way that she teased me during our first night together.
I wanted the anticipation to build. I wanted to make sure she was as wet as she could be before I made my next move. I wanted to hear her begging me for my cock. I wanted to listen to her telling me that she loved me over and over again.
From her neck, I moved down her body, kissing my way down. When I reached her tits, I took a moment to lick and suck on them. I made sure to take my time, enjoying every second of what I was doing.
I loved the feeling of her skin. I loved the way her nipple got hard every time I ran my tongue around it. I loved the way her entire body arched up when I lightly nibbled on her sensitive skin.
“Take me, Nick,” she moaned into my ear, her fingers grabbing onto my hair as I continued to suck and lick on her nipples.
I could tell that Alexa was getting close to her breaking point. She wanted me. She needed me badly. I thought back to what she’d said to me just a few minutes before. She loved me. Damn, it felt so good to hear her say those words.
Listening to her moan my name and beg for me to take her made me happy. I loved the effect I had on her. The way she wanted me was amazing. I knew it would never get old. Every single time I was with her, it still surprised me. It also excited me and made me rock hard.
I moved from her breasts and made my way down to her stomach, running my tongue along her soft, smooth skin. I kept moving south to her pelvis and towards the inner parts of her legs.
She groaned, almost growling at me. The sound was filled with raw desire. I was getting a kick out of teasing her and hearing how much she wanted me inside of her.
Sliding down, I knelt down on the floor next to the bed. With my arms wrapped under her thighs, I pulled her to the edge. Her pussy was just inches from my face, her lips shiny and glistening with her wetness, her clit was perfectly pink and swollen with desire.
I wasn’t ready to stop teasing her just yet, so I took a single finger and ran it up and down across her pussy, allowing it to lightly touch her clit for only a moment. Alexa made a gasping sound when I touched her there while she pulled my hair, trying to direct my face towards her wetness. To give her a little taste of what was to come, I slid my finger down inside of her slit and slipped it inside of her.
She was so wet that it slid right in. As I massaged her insides, I could feel her muscles tensing around my finger. It was a feeling I could never get enough of.
With my finger still inside of her, I lowered my head and flicked at her clit with my tongue, looking up a
t her to watch what her reaction would be.
She had her eyes closed tightly while her body wiggled around. I nibbled on her clit before sucking it into my mouth and biting on it. It was something I’d done before, and it always drove her crazy.
At the same time, I kept working my finger in and out of her. As I could feel her getting closer, I slid another finger into her pussy.
I was all over her, sucking her clit, keeping my fingers busy inside her and using my free hand to caress and pinch at her nipple.
She loved being touched, and as her breathing started to get heavier and more shallow, I realized she was getting close. Pulling my fingers out of her, I spread her legs apart and pulled her even closer to me.
I dipped my tongue inside of her beautiful womanhood before making long strokes upward towards her clit. Alexa gasped at the sensation, and within seconds, she was cumming all over my face.
Although her legs were shaking, she arched her back and brought her pussy up to my face, leading me to dive back in for more as she wrapped her legs around my neck. I could feel her orgasm through her legs as she shivered and shook. I continued licking her pussy, lapping up as much of her sweet juices as I could.
I couldn’t get enough of the way she tasted. I loved it. I continued licking and sucking as she came over and over, each orgasm seeming to be more intense than the last.
When Alexa couldn’t take it anymore, she squeezed her legs tighter around my neck and did everything she could to push my head away.
She always got extra sensitive after she came a few times. I got in one last lick as she cried out in a combination of ecstasy and agony.
She may have gotten off really well, but I wasn’t even close to done with her yet. Alexa was still breathing heavily as I crawled up onto her, straddling her and kissing her neck.
She reached down, yanking at my pants, already wanting more of what I had to offer her. My cock sprang to attention as she tried everything she could to get me out of my clothes. I finally decided to help her so I stood up and undressed as fast as I could.
As soon as I crawled back on top of her, she wrapped her legs around my waist, pulling me into her. She was so slick from what I’d been doing to her that I was able to slip into her easily.
I could never get enough of how she felt when her tight pussy grabbed onto my dick. She felt amazing as I slowly pushed myself into her before pumping in and out of her. Alexa moaned as I picked up speed.
“I love you,” I told her, looking into her eyes as I moved in and out of her. The words lit a passion in me. I didn’t want to just tell her. I wanted her to feel just how much I loved her, so I began thrusting even deeper. “I love you,” I said again.
“I love you too,” Alexa said with a whimper, barely able to get the words out between moans of pleasure.
I loved the way the words sounded coming out of her mouth. As I picked up speed, I delivered the last few thrusts I had in me as I released into her. My moan was deep and primal.
I pushed her down into the mattress while her legs squeezed around me before I collapsed to her side. We both laid there, neither one of us able to catch our breath.
Sexually, I believed that Alexa and I were meant for one another. We fit together like a glove, and I’d never experienced such passion with anyone else.
Up until that point, the day Alexa said she loved me was easily the best day of my life. Of course, every day felt like that to me.
Whenever I thought it couldn’t get any better, she would surprise me and prove me wrong.
I had no clue how anything would top that day. All I knew was that I loved her, and she loved me. They weren’t just words. She really meant what she’d said. We loved each other, and nothing was going to take that from me. Ever.
I’d kill someone before I’d ever let that happen.
11
Nick
As winter turned into spring and spring started to make way for summer, Alexa and I did nothing but grow closer and closer to one another. By the time June rolled around, we’d been together officially for just about six months.
“You know, June is my anniversary at work, right?” she asked me.
“No, I didn’t know that. Are they gonna throw you a party or something?”
“Yeah, right. Those cheapskates? I’d be surprised if the owners threw birthday parties for their own kids,” she joked. “I do have some good news, though.”
“What’s that?”
“When my work anniversary gets here, I’ll qualify for the top-tier vacation schedule.”
“What does that mean?”
“It means my vacation days will be maxed. I’ll have a total of twenty vacation days to use for the year on top of my personal days.”
“That’s awesome. Congratulations.”
“Thanks! I thought that we should probably put the vacation days to good use. We should get out of here and go do something.”
The two of us discussed at length what kinds of things we’d like to do. We didn’t have a particular idea in mind, but we both liked a lot of the same things. We both loved nature and wanted to be outdoors. After some research, we found some cabins in Ely that looked like they’d be good to spend some time at.
Her store was going through inventory and other important things so it was going to be a few weeks before she could use any of her time off but that gave us a little bit of time to plan.
Neither of us had a ton of extra money, but when we put it together, we were able to rent a cabin for the summer. It wouldn’t be ours all summer, we had no way to be able to afford that.
Instead, the rental was a shared cabin. We’d have access to it on the first week of every month.
Even though we both loved the outdoors, neither of us had ever rented a cabin before. Hell, I’d never even been camping.
Foster homes don’t really take you out to do a lot of things like that. Since it was going to be a new experience for us, we were both very excited. The cabin itself was very secluded. It was located deep in the woods. There were neighbors for miles.
There was also no television and no cell phone reception. It would just be Alexa and me with no interruptions and no distractions. That was what I liked the most about it.
No matter how much time I spent with her, I always wanted more. It never seemed like I was able to get enough of her. The last thing I wanted to do was smother her, but at the same time, I hated every second we were apart.
I never said anything when Alexa would spend the day shopping with Kim or when she wanted to set up double dates with her friends. I didn’t want to be the kind of guy who complained about stuff like that, even though I didn’t like to share her.
I wanted to have her all to myself. She was my girl, and I valued the time we spent together.
Alexa got to see a side of me that I kept hidden from the outside world. She got to see a side of me that I never let anyone else see, not even Curtis.
Over the months that we’d been together, I found myself opening up to her more than I ever imagined I would. I opened up about some parts of my past, but not about anything significant.
There were still some things I wasn’t comfortable talking about.
I stuck to partial truths as opposed to outright lies. I gave bits and pieces of my history that actually happened, but I either gave them to her out of context, or I completely left out the more painful parts.
Even though I didn’t want her to know how shitty my life had been, I hated having to lie to her. I wanted to be able to tell her about all the things that had happened to me as well as what I’d done and where I’d been for five years before I met her. It drove me insane to have to lie to her on a daily basis but what else was I supposed to do?
I had everything that I wanted. I had the love of my dream girl. I had a good job that paid the bills. Even though it wasn’t the best, I had a place of my own. I was happy for the first time in my life, and I wasn’t going to fuck it all up by telling Alexa about a past that I wished
I could forget.
What would be the point of saying anything?
The past is over, and it’s best to leave it in the rearview mirror. The things that had happened to me. The things that I’d done. They were all over. There was no going back and changing anything so why would it make sense to dwell on them. I was focused on the future, and to me, that future was all about Alexa and me.
That girl was my life. If I hadn’t met her, I had no clue where I’d be. I had no idea who’d I’d be. Just thinking about that scared me and I didn’t want to find out the answers to those questions.
I was waiting impatiently inside of Alexa’s apartment, waiting for her to come home from work. I paced back and forth and time seemed to move incredibly slowly.
It was something I seemed to do a lot, primarily when I was either nervous or excited. I couldn’t sit still. I needed to keep moving. I was definitely excited.
While I waited, I packed a bag for each of us so we were ready to leave for our week in the cabin. I didn’t have to pack a whole lot. I packed some clothes, although I didn’t plan on either one of us wearing them all that often.
In my mind, ahead of us was a week full of sex with food in between. Alexa had mentioned that she wouldn’t mind going on a hike since we’d be out in the woods. It was something I’d never done, and it sounded cool so I agreed.
I made sure we both had the right clothes for that adventure. As I was zipping up my duffel bag, I heard the front door closing. My girl was finally there.
“Nick? Are you here?” she yelled out from the living room.
“Yeah, I’m in the bedroom,” I replied.
12
Alexa
I walked in and was surprised to see that he had everything packed and ready for the trip.
“You didn’t have to do all this,” I said. “I would have helped you when I got here.”
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