“In that case, I’d watch my back,” Uriel said, and the road vanished in a bright flare of sun off the pavement.
CHAPTER
9
Let me get this straight,” Leo said. We were parked off the side of the highway on a tiny sliver of mud that the signs optimistically called a “Scenic View” and I called a view of the ass-end of wintertime in Minnesota. “Owen’s in bed with one of the Fallen, and you’re leaving for Kansas City because a psychic came to you in a dream.”
I nodded. Leo tilted his head back and let out the most pained sigh I had ever heard. “Okay, let’s get through this fast because I think our welcome here in the Little Hell House on the Prairie is wearing thin.” He patted down his jacket. “Jesus, I wish I could still smoke. Nothing like killing myself slowly to bring things into perspective.”
“Dying sucks,” I agreed.
“Listen,” Leo said. “I’m not a jealous guy. I don’t need all your secrets. But a dead serial killer from seventy years ago . . . even if he is one of the souls that took a powder from Tartarus, how is he your problem now?”
I looked out over the snow to the highway, letting the glare disguise the lie on my face. “He’s a bad person, he should be in Tartarus with the rest of the dead bad people, and it’s my fault he’s free to wander the Midwest. I let Lilith trick me into opening Tartarus. I let her kill you. It’s my fault so forgive me if I want to set one tiny part of it right.”
Leo let a long line of cars go by before he spoke. “It’s not your fault,” he said. “None of it. But I understand why you have to go.”
I turned back to him and let him pull me into his arms against the wind. “I don’t have to go,” I whispered. “We’re supposed to stick together. Owen clearly has it out for you.”
“Owen is an ass who thinks that because he’s got a badass friend, that makes him an actual badass,” Leo said. “I can handle Owen. Just come back in one piece.” He held me at arm’s length and looked me in the eye. “I can be without you, but I need you, Ava. And if you need me, I’ll be there.” He dropped my arms and took my hand. “Get back in the car with me. I’m from New York and I’m still freezing my nuts off in this hellhole.”
“I’ll be a minute,” I said, giving his hand a squeeze. He would come along if I asked. Of course he would. But I couldn’t ask. The Walking Man was mine. My ghost. My sin.
My unfinished business.
Even by my standards, I was driving to Kansas City based on sketchy information. A dream about a man who’d been dead for seventy years and the name of a city. I didn’t even know if I was going to the Kansas City in Kansas or Missouri.
I drove south, sticking to the speed limit until it got to be around midnight, then started looking for a motel. Getting pulled over would end this adventure quick—I’d lost all my fake driver’s licenses when I broke with Gary and besides, Viv had probably stolen this car once already before we took it from her.
It’s not impossible to get around without an identity—not as easy as it was in the days before everything was computerized— but it still works if you follow the basic rules of the unseen and undocumented: use cash, don’t leave a paper trail, and stay in places where folks are invested in not asking questions.
The motel I found might as well have had HOOKER HEAVEN written across the front of it. Half a dozen tractor trailers roosted out front, a few girls darting between the cabs that gleamed under the arthritic neon that glowed from the highway sign. Rooms by the hour, nobody making eye contact, and not a state trooper in sight.
I locked Viv’s car, not that anyone would be interested in her piece-of-shit land boat, and paid for a night from a desk clerk whose red beehive was so shellacked it looked like it could deflect bullets. She mumbled around her cigarette at me about how the rooms were no smoking, where the ice machine was located, and that my room had cable TV.
“You working?” she said finally, sliding a key on a sticky plastic fob shaped like a heart across the desk. I just stared at her. Even in the dead of winter, not many girls plied their trade in dirty jeans, muddy boots, and a heavy winter coat they’d bought at an army surplus store. Even the most strung-out tweaker in the lot had combed her hair more recently than I had.
“What then? You a hit man?” She laughed, which turned into hacking, which turned into her spitting something into a tissue tucked into the sleeve of her flowery housecoat.
I looked back at the row of doors to the rooms. A girl spilled out of one, screaming and hitting another girl with her shoe. The second girl, possibly the longest-suffering person on the planet, tried to help her friend’s drunk ass back to a rusty SUV where their pimp, a skinny kid with hair even redder than the clerk’s, waited. I was never getting any sleep in this place.
“You can help me with something,” I said to the clerk, who was still waiting for me to laugh at her joke.
“Help’s not free, missy,” she barked.
“I’m not asking for free,” I said. “That kid out there, the one who looks like Ron Weasley’s redneck brother—he holding?”
She exhaled, jamming her cigarette into an ashtray shaped like a big-mouth fish with its gullet hanging open to accept burning butts. “Depends what you need to get right, honey,” she said. “And don’t think you’re shooting up in the rooms. I ain’t cleaning up after another one of you skinny bitches can’t get her mix right and OD’s on the toilet.”
“I just need something to help me sleep,” I said. “Percocet, oxy, whatever.”
She tossed her head, hair not moving an inch. “Go talk to him. Name’s Ronnie.”
Ronnie thrashed when I knocked on his window. I presented two twenties between my fingers and pointed to the motel office. “Lady in there said you could help me.”
“Come on,” Ronnie muttered, clearly not talking to me. He swung out of the truck and screamed in the direction of the office. “Damn, Mom! You’re blowin’ up my spot! What if she’s a cop or something?”
“She ain’t a cop!” the clerk screamed back. “You don’t want my help, then move out and do your business somewhere other than my motel, dumb-ass!”
I nodded in agreement with the clerk. “I’m not a cop,” I said to Ronnie. “I just need to sleep.”
Ronnie grumbled, fishing in his pocket for a Ziploc bag of pill bottles. “Forty’ll get you four,” he said. “You want a Xanax? House discount kind of a thing.”
“Why not,” I said. Ronnie counted out my pills, grumbling as he did.
“You got a mother?”
I shook my head. “Not anymore.”
“You’re lucky,” he said. “Mine is constantly up my ass.”
“Sounds uncomfortable,” I said, and went to my room. I chased the four Percocets with some filmy water from the tap and lay back on the bed, after I put down a few towels. No way was I taking this trip on that bedspread.
After a few minutes everything got soft around the edges and that cotton-wool-cloud feeling wrapped around my brain. I tried to focus on Jacob as I drifted off, hoping that I hadn’t just fallen for some sick metaphysical joke, and that I wasn’t trapping myself in the sort of dream you don’t wake up from.
CHAPTER
10
KANSAS, HIGHWAY 21
MARCH 1951
Ride the highways long enough and you lose all sense of time. Days turn into weeks turn into months. One exit after another, one mile compounds on the next until there’s nothing except the lines in the center of the pavement and the horizon beyond. You can chase it, but you’ll never catch it.
I’d been riding this particular stretch for a few weeks. I hadn’t gotten to that place yet, where you feel like you’ll cease to exist if you stop rolling along, but I could feel it creeping up with every mile, every cup of sour coffee, and every lumpy motel mattress.
I’d tried to escape him a dozen times. Really tried, and the farthest I’d ever made it was across the road. As the ice turned to mud and then to tender green blooms, I stopped trying.
He’d never told me his name. The Walking Man rarely talked, but sometimes, as we watched the miles roll by, he’d place his heavy hand over mine, on my shoulder, on my cheek. And I fought to keep still and not scream, because when you scream and panic, the predator looking you in the eye opens its jaws and eats you.
He made more of those things like Lady. At least as many bodies as my escape attempts. I always prayed that Tanner was coming behind us, cleaning up the mess. He’d followed me, that much was for sure, and I saw him once outside a diner in Oklahoma City. He looked so sad, so desperate, and my voice welled up in my throat to scream at him to get away, get away before he was killed.
But nothing happened. That was the Walking Man’s real power—you could be a wailing wreck inside your own head but strangely, when he was close nothing really seemed to matter except the next mile, the next set of headlights flagged down, the next brutalized body that began to twitch and moan after the last of the life had fluttered away into the warm currents drifting in the wake of passing trucks. A thrall, but something far stronger than the kind warlocks could weave with spells and far more precise than the warm, woozy intoxication of vamp venom. Sometimes, when he was away from me for a scant few hours, I started to think about what he was, how he could do this to me when I wasn’t even human, what he was trying to do over and over by making those things that would infect others like him.
Once, just as the snow was melting, I ran from him and the silent miles we shared on the driverless bus and stood on the train tracks, feeling the oncoming rumble of the Wichita line through the soles of my feet. I spread my arms when the screaming whistle filled up my ears and I waited, overjoyed, for it to be over.
But he’d grabbed me, slammed me into the half-thawed mud and gravel next to the track, wrapped those giant hands around my throat, and let me think for a second that I’d still managed it, that he’d kill me and I’d finally be able to escape.
Then he’d taken a deep breath and stroked his muddy hand down my face. “Why can you not understand that we are the same thing?” he purred in that strange flat voice. “Both creatures carved from unnatural clay. Why can you not see this is where you belong, not with Hell’s dogs? Why can you not accept me and help me?”
I screamed then, and kept screaming until I vomited.
That was the last time I tried to escape. I complied, I sat by him, I watched the highway until my eyes burned. The only thing I wouldn’t do was help him. I wouldn’t lure the cars into stopping and I wouldn’t try to help his creations find other human beings to feed on.
His rage was towering, especially when the epidemic he’d envisioned never started. I knew the forces against us were getting stronger as he got bolder and more desperate. One time, it was a family, two kids and parents, who stopped and he turned them all out into the night to feed. That time, dozens were affected and he shook the newspapers from the next day in my face, then picked me up and spun me around like we were newly married.
That lasted until the next morning, when an enormous grain elevator fire covered the front page with a picture of smoke and burned, twisted bodies that covered my hands in ink as the Walking Man raged and shouted on the shoulder of the road.
I said a silent thanks to Don and whoever was helping him. I prayed they’d never find us, because the Walking Man would hurt him and twist him so violently before he died his soul would just be a ruined thing screaming into the afterlife.
Then, it was spring and the green was so violent it covered everything in a haze of pollen and new life. And the next time Tanner found us, parked by the side of the road with our fake broken-down car, he had brought a companion of his own.
She was tall and slender, redheaded with the wide cheekbones and a narrow chin that gave her face a catlike cast. She hurt him, the Walking Man. He reeled like he’d run into a wall, like he hadn’t moved since Jacob had hit him with the spell, back in the camps.
The Walking Man’s wooden face shifted when this happened, and I saw the evil spirit living inside, the dubbyuk Jacob had spoken of.
“Ava!” Tanner shouted, holding out his hand. “Come to me, right now!”
I could have moved, but I didn’t. I didn’t want to be there; I wanted this nightmare to end so badly that I couldn’t believe it was actually over.
“Ava!” Tanner shouted again. His friend’s face twisted in concern, sweat working down her temples, her willowy body bending at the invisible wind stirred up by her fight against the Walking Man.
“If she’s gone, you can’t help her and I can’t hold him off much longer!” she shouted.
“She’s not gone!” Tanner screamed. “Ava! Move!”
A truck horn sounded from down the highway, and that snapped me into motion. I ran toward Tanner. The Walking Man screamed and grabbed for me, snatching my wrist and arresting my flight. I felt the joint pop, but his grip loosened as Tanner’s friend redoubled her efforts, blood starting to trickle from her nostrils.
I swung around as the truck drew even with us, and struggled with all of my might. I’d pretty much stopped eating, and I was weak as the little bird he always claimed I was.
With the last of my strength, I yanked, he pulled in the opposite direction . . . and then I leaned toward him and let go.
He stumbled back, right into the path of the truck. His body hit the grille and was sucked under the wheels. The air brakes pumped, the truck jackknifed, and the scent of burning rubber filled my nostrils.
I fell, spent, the last of me wrung out.
When I got up, my two rescuers found nothing under the wheels of the truck, except a lot of blood—all the blood inside a person, Tanner would tell me later.
I didn’t let them take me anywhere. I closed the hood of the lure car and drove to the nearest bar. All through the summer, through the wheat harvest and the first snow and the gray, stubbled fields of a new year, I took a drink as often as I breathed, and I took everything else that was offered me too. Circular bruises blossomed and grew inside the crooks of my elbows and knees like I was doing target practice with syringes of morphine. Pills burned up my gut. All of it barely kept the nightmare of my time with the Walking Man at bay, but it did—barely.
Nobody picked me up off the road that time—eventually, the faces and the screams faded just enough that I could be awake for a while without wanting to stand in front of another train. Eventually, I sweated through the withdrawals, looked in a mirror long enough to cut my hair and paint over the circles under my eyes, scraped together money for a new dress and discovered that another spring was coming on.
Now it was summer. I’d had four years to straighten up and fly right. After that day I’d cleaned myself up and gotten on a bus back to Wichita. I’d found Gary, I’d taken the beating Gary had meted out. I’d taken all the scut collections work he’d given me. I’d played the dutiful servant.
And as I’d crisscrossed the country collecting on warlocks and conjurers looking for a little more power than their share, I’d kept an eye on the newspapers. I’d befriended reporters on the crime beat, cops in every state between Kansas and California. Medical examiners, emergency room doctors, even the guys who scrape roadkill off the highways.
Every so often—not more than one or two times a year—a body would come up, beaten and mutilated and marked. He’d gotten smarter about crossing state lines so it was harder to draw a line between kills. He’d gotten better at turning them into killing machines too, at making them hungrier and more aggressive.
And every time, I’d called Tanner and he’d put another pin in the map he kept in his office. As far as the state police were concerned, the Walking Man was a cold case. As far as anyone besides Tanner and I knew, he’d disappeared as mysteriously as he’d started murdering people.
Sometimes Tanner came with me to help put down the ravenous bodies that he left in his wake, and sometimes I was on my own. But we always managed before it spread out of control. Whether it was cutting the head off a mailman in Missouri or burning
down an entire trailer park full of his walking corpses in northern Texas, we kept the Walking Man’s gifts to us from spreading out into the world.
But now Tanner had left word for me instead of the other way around. I was up in Idaho, tracking down a warlock with a gift for transmutation and a propensity for using that gift to pass counterfeit bills and bad checks. To my way of thinking, Gary had only himself to blame when this particular specimen tried to weasel out of his deal.
I tried to let Tanner know where I was, and even though we lost touch for months at a time, we always found each other again. But he never called on me, never made me take a detour and help him and the other humans like him. Until a few weeks ago.
The state police barracks where Tanner worked had stood shiny and new behind a big parking lot with a big flag snapping in the hot wind. I shielded my eyes from the blowing grit blooming in the field across the road. The Depression might be behind us, but this was still the Dust Bowl.
“He ain’t here,” the cop working the desk said when I asked for Tanner. “Out on a call. Probably won’t be back until tomorrow.”
“Okay, can you tell me where?” I said. The cop looked me up and down.
“Why?” he asked. “You his side piece? Didn’t take him for the type.”
I reached into my purse. Next to my knife and lipstick and wallet was a banded collection of cards I’d accumulated in the last four years of my side job. I picked out one for Joan Cartwright, a stringer for a paper in Nebraska. She’d been smart and a hell of a drinker—I’d liked her. If you were pretending to be someone, it helped to be somebody who wasn’t repulsive.
I slid the card across to the desk cop and he raised an eyebrow. “Reporter, huh? Don’t see too many dames on the crime beat.”
“Well, now you’ve seen at least one,” I said brightly. “Detective Tanner agreed to be profiled for a feature I’m doing on state policing across state lines.”
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