by Lexi Whitlow
“Jesus, Mom,” I moan. I close my eyes hard and try to open them again. I don’t add anything because there’s nothing to add. She’s thinking more about my TV appearances than she is about whether or not I might have brain damage.
“Evelyn,” my father says. “She doesn’t know what she’s doing. The plastic surgeon will take care of the scar. Plus, it could be good for the campaign. The scar would remind people of what she went through. Our brave girl. We can spin it just like we did this story. The attack—out of nowhere.”
“Yes, spin it. I’m sure you will,” I growl.
“We’ll have to, won’t we, Avery?” My mother’s voice is thin and angry. The tiny amount of concern that was there before is gone now. “Your appearance is important for the campaign. The scar, though, that won’t look good on camera.”
"Sorry, Mom, I'll try to quit getting mugged," I reply sarcastically. The pain in my head throbs in time to each word. I glance again at the man in the corner. Everything is foggy, and that one eye won’t come open.
“You need to be safer,” my mother says icily. There’s something wrong with her voice, like she’s even more distant from all of this than usual. Gone are all traces of worry. “And you need to have security.”
I lift my hand again and trace my fingers lightly over my eye. Bruised. Swollen. I groan and try to roll away from my mother’s voice, but it’s everywhere.
“Stop touching it,” my mother hisses.
“Evelyn—” my father starts. But he doesn’t say anything else.
“This was bound to happen eventually,” my mother continues. “With you refusing security guards and any kind of protection.”
“I left with him. He was going to walk me home. He seemed nice.” I say the words flatly. “I didn’t know.”
“We’re going to make sure it doesn’t happen again, Avery. We don’t want to see you like this.” She tries to reach a hand out to my arm to be comforting, but I pull away.
I hate how I am with my parents. I feel like I’m thirteen, railing against everything they say. I shouldn’t have to defend my choices, and at twenty-five, I shouldn’t be forced to be a part of their career. Yet, here I am. Trapped. I lash out the only way I know how.
“No, you want to see me on TV, with no scar. You made that perfectly clear.”
“Being a Thomas comes with certain responsibilities. We’re an old family name. Your forefathers helped found this country. I’m a four-star general, and your mother is a senator of this state. You have public appearances and—”
“So I should stay safe and sound and scar-free? Just sit up in my apartment and brush my hair five hundred times a night?”
The man in the corner laughs again, though I can hear he’s trying to hide it. I smile weakly.
“Now that you mention it, you could use a touch up around your face. I like it best when you have blond highlights. The red around your face doesn’t look great on camera.” My mother attempts to touch my hair, but I swat her hand away.
My father sighs. “You’re our wild card, Avery. And this campaign doesn’t need a wild card. There are rumors about you in the tabloids. That you’re going home with men all the time. Is that true?”
“No,” I say, my voice short. “I used to go on a lot of dates, but it’s all a bunch of dumb, boring assholes—”
“If you had a respectable boyfriend like that Gary fellow,” my father starts, “maybe this wouldn’t have happened.”
“All I need is a man to protect me,” I say. “Gary wanted to work for you. Not be with me.”
“What about the guy before that?” My mother touches me again, and this time, I let her. She smoothes my hair.
“He wasn’t into me either.” My eyelids are heavy. Images in my mind all blur together. I don’t want to rehash that particular fiasco, not right now.
“We’ll make sure it doesn’t happen again,” my father says. “And then we’ll find a man for you. Someone who is comfortable with the Thomas family name. Someone who respects it.” He pats me on my arm, but I can tell his mind is somewhere else. Spinning the news. Reliving his glory days in the military. Anywhere but here, with me.
Tears sting my eyes, and I turn away from them, burying my head in the scratchy hospital pillow.
The guy in the corner clears his throat, like he’s uncomfortable with my parents’ bullshit. Anyone would be.
I open one eye and look at him again.
He looks familiar, but I can't place why. Like a painting of a photograph of someone I once saw, a long time ago.
If he was in a painting, he’d be in a military painting. Well over six feet tall, broad, built like a tank, each line of him indicating precision and physical perfection. His stormy blue eyes are the thing I notice most, even looking at him, blearily, through my one good eye. They’re distant and cold, but there’s an echo of something kind and patient. His deep brown hair is cropped close, not quite military regulation but almost. And the stubble on his chin indicates he’s not on active duty. But I’d recognize a Marine anywhere, even with a concussion.
“Who the fuck is that?” I force the words out, and it feels like my mouth is filled with cotton and sand. “Who the fuck are you?”
“Language,” my mother replies automatically. I’m not looking at her, but I can tell she’s flipping through emails on her phone.
“Your mother was against it,” my father says. “Very much so.”
The man in the corner sighs.
“Still am,” my mother says. “But the papers like a good redemption story, and your father found one for us. It’s good to show the media we’re protecting you after your brush with danger, Avery.”
“Seven years in the Marines, out on honorable discharge for an injury. He’ll be your new bodyguard. No refusing it after this, Avery. He needs the money. His mother helped us for years. So we’re helping him.”
“How Christian of you,” I say. The man’s face starts to come into clearer focus. My heart skips a beat and then pounds hard. The blood rushes to my face all at once.
The man grins, and my memory pours back in. Warm evenings out on my parents’ roof, the sweet taste of pot and cheap wine. The bitter, angry taste of disappointment that stayed with me the entire summer I lived in Vancouver.
Fuck. Him.
And he’s been here the whole time, listening to my whiny, bitchy ranting.
I turn bright pink. I can feel it in my cheeks.
“I think you must remember Maddox Bryant, Avery. Your father will go on and on about how we promised him a job and how we’re helping him out. But I know you do remember him. He left right after you graduated, didn’t he?”
I purse my lips. “Yeah, I remember him."
Maddox nods at me, but says nothing. The grin vanishes as quickly as it came, but his eyes remain locked on me. That cold gaze flickers over my body quickly, and a jolt like lightning sears through me. I can’t help it. It’s just a reaction.
“He’s been back from Afghanistan for a few months. Injured leg. He’s still stronger than any other man we interviewed. And he needs the job. Don’t you son?”
“Yes sir. I do.” His voice seems to fill the room. Deeper and richer than it was when we were in school together.
“He's going to be your bodyguard," my mother says.
“I don’t need a damn bodyguard,” I say flatly. “I just won’t leave my apartment again. Like I’ve said a thousand times, I don’t want to be part of your shitty political game.”
“You’re part of this game whether you like it or not,” says my father. “And Maddox here is making sure you keep playing. He’s going to be a somewhat unconventional employee in that regard.”
“He’s not just tasked with stopping bad things happening to you,” says my mother, enjoying this way more than she should. “He’s going to make sure you show up on time, properly dressed, freshly showered, and appropriately sober. For everything we need.”
A wave of deep sadness washes over me. I haven’t fel
t this low in years. They have me where they want me — and this time, I can’t refuse. There are pictures of my injury everywhere, no doubt. I need security. And with this redemption story they’re selling — they need Maddox too.
Fuck.
My heart sinks.
I can't find the words to express what I think about being treated like I'm ten. But in my mind I find the response that I can't say.
I’d like to see him try.
Chapter 3
Maddox
The hospital is a fucked-up place to be.
I’ve spent too many nights in hospitals in the past year. On leave, holding my mother’s hand. That’s one story I won’t be telling Avery.
My mom is sick. Your parents are helping. They talked me into this damn job even though I don’t want to be here.
And later, looking up at the ceiling while my stitches healed, hiding the screws and plates in my leg.
My bionic leg. That’s what my mom calls it. She thinks it’s funny that we were sick at the same time. She still is. But thanks to that godawful asshole, General Thomas, her brain tumor has stopped growing. Her speech is normal. She can lift a spoon and feed herself.
I fucking hate that man. And he’s tasked me with taking care of Avery.
I thought I was done protecting people for good. I left the military with my honorable discharge papers, and I hadn’t intended on returning to any job that had me interacting with people, guns, or sand. I’ve had enough of all three.
But when a man shows up out of the blue with a hundred thousand dollars and a cure for your mother’s cancer, you start rearranging things in your mind when it comes to what you will and won’t do.
I just didn’t think it would be so jarring to see Avery. Even in her hospital bed, I can tell she’s the woman I always thought she was going to be. Full of fire and sass and self-righteous rage. It’s all currently directed at her parents, but she can use her particular brand of crazy for good when and where she needs to.
I watch. I remain silent. Sit in the corner. Bring coffee. Do all the things I’m supposed to do. I fill the lengthy list of requirements that I was given, and I do them all over the course of three days while Avery’s injuries are assessed. She’s wheeled back and forth for x-rays and a new round of stitches. Each morning, her one eye is brighter, as they taper her off of the painkillers. On the fourth morning, she opens the second eye. Bloodshot still, but as blue as the open sky. As sharp and accusing as a cat’s.
She still refuses to speak to me.
No hello. No thank you when I place a lukewarm coffee in her hand. No, ‘Hey, Maddox. How was Afghanistan?’
I’m well aware she’s angry. More at her parents for even getting her a bodyguard in the first place. I can’t imagine that she’s still angry at me for running off. Maybe she is. Who the fuck knows with that woman?
In silent moments, when her parents are at some meeting or another, I sit in the corner and look out of the window at the cars passing on the Golden Gate Bridge. I don’t look at Avery, except when she’s sleeping.
When I do watch her, I don’t like the thoughts I have. They’re not regulation thoughts. Not thoughts I’m supposed to even consider, according to my contract with the Thomases.
But these are the thoughts I have, in no particular order.
Her hair, somehow, is redder. Her lips, fuller. Her eyes are even more penetrating, and her cheekbones more defined. Her body, even under the hospital gown, is ripe and round, with wide hips and a teasing ass, and a pair of perfect breasts. Beneath her gown, I imagine her skin is pale, freckles golden. Her nipples, a pale pink. I’m not entirely sure—but that’s my best guess.
We only kissed. But I find myself thinking like I did when I spent those summer nights on her roof. What she would look like with her legs wrapped around my waist. If she would taste as good as she smelled—like warm ginger and rich spice. If she would feel like fire and heat if she were in my arms.
On the fourth day, I can’t help myself. After her parents relieve me, I walk back to my hotel room, images of Avery filling my mind. I barely make it into the room before my cock is so hard that it aches. I strip and step into a cold shower, but it only makes it worse.
So I give in. I close my eyes and think of her shirt falling off one shoulder, her nipples hard beneath her light pink dress, the one she used to wear after she changed out of her school uniform. I go back to an old fantasy—lifting her skirt, pulling her panties to the side, and sliding my cock inside of her on her roof, while her parents had dinner below. I think of her warmth, her heat, pulsing around me. Legs shaking. And I come, groaning, hot ropes of it against the wall of the hotel shower.
After that I sleep like the dead. Better than I did in all the years I served our country.
When I return to the hospital room the next day, her parents leave for yet another meeting. And Avery finally speaks to me, looking at me with that clear, blue gaze.
“You’re taking me home this evening. They have an apartment for you across the street from mine. I heard Mom on the phone with some furniture company. They’re moving shit in. Hope you like blue. Evelyn isn’t terribly creative when it comes to interior decorating.”
“I don’t mind blue,” I say. I give her a crooked grin. I can’t help thinking about the hotel shower. Nothing will come of that fantasy. I made sure of that seven years ago when I left. It was the same fantasy that kept me sane for years in Afghanistan. Maybe it’ll keep me sane when I’m dealing with Avery herself.
Avery nods, satisfied. She turns her gaze to the dreary hospital window. “You’re getting a fat paycheck. That’s why you’re here, isn’t it?”
“Yes.” I leave the other stuff out. The stuff about my mom.
Avery snorts. “That’s what they do. Paying people to get what she wants. If only her constituents knew what she did on a regular basis.”
“They might forgive her anyway, since she’s helping pass laws they like.” I shrug. In my experience, especially with Avery’s parents, that’s how this shit works. If you’re rich and powerful, you can get anyone to do anything. If you’re a poor, injured vet with a sick mom, you’re the one grabbing coffee and guarding a girl who most definitely hates you.
“Shit’s fucked up, so fucked up it seems I need a bodyguard. Or my parents think I do,” she says, her voice distant and soft. She looks back at me. “But listen, here’s the deal—”
Right at that moment, Avery’s parents parade back in with several doctors.
“It’s been taking all day to get this hospital discharge completed,” Evelyn says.
“You were at a meeting, Mother,” Avery retorts, her eyes still locked on mine.
“I had my secretary on the phone, trying to get them to release you. Guess I need to get them to do it myself.” Evelyn glances at me and gives me a crisp smile. “Now, you know about not letting Avery out on her own for another few days, Maddox. We have the foundation dinner coming up, and she needs to be healed and prepped for that.”
“Yes, ma’am,” I say.
“And no funny business,” Evelyn adds.
Avery raises an eyebrow and opens her mouth to protest, but I shake my head at her. Best not to get into the particulars of my contract right here, right now. I know when a wounded soldier needs to get the hell out of dodge, and that’s what Avery looks like right now. She needs her own bed, her own apartment. Her parents in their own home, away from her.
“Maddox knows what he’s doing. He’s a good goddamn Marine, according to his commanding officer,” General Thomas says, above the din of doctors chatting with Avery and signing papers. “He’ll make sure that Avery complies with everything she’s supposed to do.”
I nod. I know Avery wants to rant at her parents right now, but I’m glad she doesn’t.
Unsurprisingly, Evelyn and Richard disappear back into their political world yet again. And I’m alone with Avery. I catch myself staring at her as the doctors and nurses clear out of the room.
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�Take a picture. It’ll last longer,” she says through gritted teeth.
I grin at her. I can’t help it. “Just making sure you’re behaving yourself.”
She rolls her eyes and moves to get off the bed. I step over and try to take her arm, but she pulls it away, just like she did with her parents. “I’m fine,” she says, looking up at me with those piercing blue eyes. “Step off. I need to get dressed, so actually, step off into the hallway.”
I drop my hands, my body buzzing like there’s a current of electricity running through me. I can’t help but focus on the image of her in that hospital gown. Her hands undoing the pale tan ribbons holding it together, her body naked beneath.
Back off, soldier, I think. I almost wish I had a cigarette, even though I quit years ago. I wonder if Avery quit, too.
“I’m ready.” I hear Avery’s voice on the other side of the door, and I step inside, taking the wheelchair by the door over to where she’s sitting on the bed. She swats my hand away again when I help her into the chair, but she’s silent again, like she was for the past half a week. She lets me take her down to the parking garage, apparently resigned to her fate.
She still hasn’t spoken when we pull out of the parking lot and onto the bustling street. There are signs for her mother’s campaign across the street, and I grumble as I turn. That’s why they had her here instead of in Berkeley, then. Right across from that big-ass campaign office. I roll my eyes.
The girl sitting next to me, arms crossed over her ample chest. She’s a pawn in her parents’ political game. And here I am, enabling them and their malignant narcissism. I think of my mom. She’s in an independent living facility now, all on the Thomases dime. Richard wanted me because I was trustworthy. So that’ll be my fucking job for the next five months.
“I’m not having you as my bodyguard. I don’t know what you think is going on here. But you can stay in your little apartment and collect your paycheck, but you won’t be doing anything with me.”
My stomach drops, but I just sit silent and let her rant. I sigh and look over at her quickly, but she’s started, and there’s no stopping her now.