“Not everyone gave their consent,” I object.
“That’s true,” the professor concedes. “In a way the Superintendent cheated. Himself. He didn’t ask at random, his probing was selective. He didn’t ask the mother. He didn’t ask me. He didn’t ask people who could … stop him.”
“But you knew,” I say. “You were in the know, like everyone. Why didn’t you go and see him?”
“I wanted him to come to me,” he answers unhesitatingly. My incisive question has dissipated the thin veil of equanimity behind which the professor’s prolix indignation had momentarily concealed itself, and again his chin trembles and his eyes harden over. “To see if he had it in him. Had I gone to see him, it would’ve been a sign of weakness.”
He stands there staring at me, his lower jaw jutting slightly and open, fists clenched, neck tense. I ought to go on with my half-hearted inquisition but I can’t, because I’m already far away—in the window seat I’ve booked on the 4.50 La Verde coach to Rosario, staring at my own reflection in the glass against the black of the invisible fields; on the 7.15 Chevallier to Buenos Aires, the sun still floating like a balloon just above the rectilinear horizon of the pampas and shining high above the Retiro coach terminal when I’m reunited with my wife and son. I’m not here any more, I’ve finished, I’m on my way back, I think, cupping my hands over my closed eyelids. I light a cigarette and look at the professor.
“What did you play?” I ask him.
TIME TO GET MOVING. Since I told Guido, with tacit permission to broadcast it, the News has already been round town several times. At first Celia did what she could to hold back the rising tide of visitors, adducing my delicate state of health; but as my health improved and my excuse weakened, at the risk of sounding rude and coming in for criticism, she was forced to give in. Auntie Porota and Auntie Chesi, Vicente and Vicentito, Alfredo Sacamata senior, Don Eugenio Casarico, the loathsome pharmacist Mendonca, who furiously I refuse to see, and many others I don’t know or only by sight introduce themselves, I worked for Señora Delia, she helped me, she gave me, I was so sorry to hear about your … My visitors insist on referring to “your father”, your “dear grandmother”, and suddenly their faces, once perfectly camouflaged in mine, shine brightly through my features; people’s eyes overflow with tears, their hands with presents and their mouths with stories that display an alarming tendency to morph into cloned versions of the heroic struggle of a town to wrest from the despicable clutches of the police two heroic inhabitants, whose praises they sing for the benefit of their no-less-heroic descendant. I entreat Celia with my eyes to chuck them out as soon as possible and pretend to be asleep but it only makes matters worse; when word gets out that I’ve woken up, they flock in in droves. What a good thing I concealed it from the outset—I tell myself, my hacker’s instinct didn’t let me down. I’m not a sponge, I can’t absorb so much remorse. They can settle any pending accounts of conscience with the priest, I didn’t come this far to be a catalyst for collective catharsis. Collective but not mass catharsis, I note a few days later when I step out into the street. Dr Alexander crosses the road to avoid me, a young man driving a dazzling four-by-four I’ve never seen before eyes me grimly and turns out to be one of Rosas Paz’s grandchildren, Batata Sacamata has vanished from the table at Los Tocayos, whose other members Guido has kept away from my sickbed with the promise that I’d drop in as soon as I was better. Nene Larrieu comes and goes, filling the constantly emptying glasses and emptying the constantly filling ashtrays.
“I’m not saying what you did was wrong,” Don León insists. “But in a way you did abuse our good faith. I reckon if you’d’ve been open about it from the start, without hiding anything from us …”
“Ezcurra never said anything,” murmurs Iturraspe still in the grips of delayed shock. “In all the years we … The best-kept secret in Malihuel. We didn’t know he had a son then. If we’d known, that you … you were, or rather that he, and you … Your Papá. If we’d known you then, and … But we didn’t know,” he concludes eventually.
“Nor did I,” is the only thing I seem to be able to reply.
“There’s something I need to tell you …”—Licho joins in the conversation—“… you know how it is, someone or other says I saw Ezcurra in such-and-such a place and the story catches on and gets passed on by word of mouth and you try persuading people otherwise then, you know how stories get better and better with the telling and they get to a point where they’re perfect and nobody can add anything to them and they repeat it word for word, even the one who started the ball rolling,” he blurts out in one breath and slumps backs in defeat.
“Anyway”—Don León goes on the offensive again and everyone out of habit goes quiet to listen to him—“you have to be from hereabouts to understand these things. It’s easy for someone from outside …”
Out of the corner of my eye I see the colour rising in Guido’s face and race to head him off.
“Both my parents and all four grandparents are from Malihuel. I was conceived here and baptised here. I spent every summer of my childhood here, with the best friends I’ve ever had. My father died here and is buried here—or submerged if you prefer—and my grandmother’s heart was broken here with grief. Malihuel made me and Malihuel unmade me. What outside are you talking about?”
“Yes but what I’m saying’s different. Coming here to visit isn’t the same as … Besides, it’s not as if those two actually were your father and grandmother. You yourself said that …”
This time I don’t get there in time.
“Why don’t you shut up?” Guido spits at him. A spectral silence falls over the bar. Even the hands on the clock seem to be waiting.
“What did you say?” Don León stares at him in disbelief.
“Why—Don’t—You—Shut—Up?” Guido articulates with offensive clarity. “Do you think we’re going to sit here straight-faced all our lives listening to you spouting garbage? Don’t you think we might be fed up of always having to listen to the same old bloody shite? Eh?”
Don León looks at all of us. Blank, impassive faces that give his potential indignation no purchase whatsoever. His chin trembles slightly as he answers:
“All right, Guido. Apologies. No offense intended.”
“And you wanted me to tell you from the start,” I rib him later on, when he gives me a lift to his Mamá’s. He smiles in profile, without saying a word. He’s glad, but not just for me. The table in Los Tocayos has just changed hands.
“BEFORE YOU GO DEAR BOY”—Professor Gagliardi intercepts me—“I have something for you. I’ve been working on it for twenty years. I began when I realised that everyone in town knew what happened and bore their share of the responsibility. But to claim they were all guilty like that, across the board, is almost like saying no one was, which is why I set out to establish, as far as I could, how and how far each of Malihuel’s inhabitants played a part in this tragedy, what they did or didn’t do, what they said, and how they acted before, during and after the events. This is the result,” he says advancing towards me, with a bulky, black-and-white marbled folder in hand. “I’d feel honoured if you’d accept it. It will tell you everything you want to know about the people who killed your father and grandmother, and many other things besides. All the basenesses committed in the last decades of the life of our town, including those the law would punish were it applied, and the petty daily crimes that fall outside its scope are recorded in them. If you really intend to put it all down in a book, I daresay you’ll find them to be of great help, perhaps indispensible.”
I open it. The title page reads: A Record of Iniquities in Malihuel. Then came the dossiers in alphabetical order, by inhabitant. One of the first was Dr Alexander’s, running to page after page, covered from margin to margin in handwriting tiny and tight at first, but becoming progressively more expansive over the years, with its anarchic variations of ink type and colour. I start reading, taking advantage of the professor excusing himself to go
to the bathroom.
Alexander, Albino. Self-styled doctor, though, to my knowledge, no one has ever examined his original certificate. Visits town sporadically until 1964, when his predecessor, Dr Arturo Rocamora, decides to retire and sells him the practice and telephone line. The first measure Malihuel’s brand-new principal medic introduces is to remove the two afternoons of free care that Dr Rocamora had instituted for the less-well-off members of our community; “I don’t want to take customers away from my esteemed colleague, Dr Lugozzi,” he has been heard to comment cynically on the matter in the Yacht Club bar. He also puts up the percentage that specialists will have to pay for the use of his surgery from twenty per cent to thirty per cent, driving several of them to discontinue their visits and forcing the townspeople to travel to neighbouring towns for care. In collusion with the pharmacist, Mauro Mendonca, for a percentage cut, he devotes himself to overmedicating and/or always prescribing the most expensive medication in the vade mecum, a procedure known in medical and pharmacological circles as “ana-ana”, or “fifty-fifty”; the samples he receives from medical reps also end up on Mendonca’s shelves, after the “free-sample” stamp has been erased (see File No 1,002—Mendonca, Mauro). Subsequent disagreements over the actual amounts owed eventually bring about the breakdown of the incipient partnership and lead to the current situation, in which the pharmacist diagnoses and prescribes independently and Dr Alexander almost exclusively prescribes drugs that are only available in Toro Mocho or Fuguet. In the first decade of his practice, he is directly or indirectly responsible for the following cases of malpractice: 1965—Don Timoteo Fernandes, deceased as a result of the administration of corticosteroids for the treatment of what at the second autopsy (conducted in Rosario at the family’s request) was diagnosed as herpes zoster (shingles) of the trigeminal nerve, an ailment that our local healer, Doña Agripina Morales, is in the habit of curing by the simple application of Chinese ink on a brush. Don Timoteo’s family chose, on completion of the due process, to come to an out-of-court settlement, reached on 15/3/66, making them moral accessories to any deaths or disabilities suffered by Dr Alexander’s patients after that date (see Files Nos 782 & 783—Fernandes, Diego Hermes; and Fernandes, Dora Zalaberry de). 1966—Don César Enciso Vera, total loss of vision in left eye and partial loss in right, due to the administration of free samples of insulin with adulterated expiry dates; 1967 …
In 1974, upon Dr Armendáriz’s resignation (apparently after threats made by a purported parapolice group relating to his ruling on the case of some so-called guerrillas gunned down by the police; the absence of any such groups in the area around that date leads us to the conjecture that the calls were made by Dr Alexander himself, or at least at his instigation) he takes over as police doctor; years later he does likewise with the judiciary (a marriage of convenience that does little to favour the transparency of trials). Dr Alexander’s methods in his dual role are characterised by his unusual consistency—in twenty-two years not one of his reports has ever even partially questioned the official version of events. It goes without saying that Dr Alexander has always tailored his reports to the needs of the police or the judicial authorities (a procedure with a whiff of scandal about it during Superintendent Major Ariel Greco’s infamous leadership—1977-1983—who directly dictated to Dr Alexander the contents of autopsies that were never even performed), or to the litigant favoured by them, eg the trial over the death of two farm workers in a collapsed silo on the La Primera Argentina Estancia in the vicinity of Elordi—his ‘providential’ discovery of traces of alcohol in their blood deprived the families of due compensation.
Kidnapping and subsequent death and disappearance of Darío Z Ezcurra—On 25th February 1977, in circumstances known to all—and I mean all—in this town of Malihuel, the abduction of the young journalist and respected inhabitant took place (see Files Nos 271 & 272, Ezcurra, Darío Z; and Ezcurra, Delia Alvarado de). From the start of the ‘general inquiry’ by chief of police Armando J Neri, Dr Alexander proved to be one of the most enthusiastic …
Illegal abortions—During the 1980s he practised illegal abortions on the following young ladies (and ladies) of Malihuel: 1) Valle, Ana Obregón; a maid in the household and commercial establishment of the Sacamata family, any male members of said family being held responsible; operation paid for with money from said family, later deducted monthly from wages of said maid (see Sacamata, Alfredo senior and Sacamata, Alfredo junior; Files Nos 2017 & 2018 respectively; and Valle, Ana Obregón, File No 2126); 2) Anunciata, Herminia; high-school student …
Its being midnight 27th April … glaucoma … refusing to tend Gervasio Lafalla, temporary farmhand (see File No …) … clearly unnecessary Caesarean section … septicaemia … reuse of disposable material … refusal to tend a patient contaminated with the virus … premature birth … chronic medicamentosa … difference in the calibre of the bullet … alleged indecent assault case dismissed … amphetamines … diuretics … antidepressants …
I snap the folder shut when I hear him coming back.
“THAT ONE, the one in the window,” Nene Larrieu had pointed out on one of my first evenings. “That’s where they’d play their famous games of chess. Used to spend the time talking actually, and when they remembered, one of them would move a piece now and again.”
“That’s what I mean,” Batata Sacamata had rudely interrupted. “I don’t know what the professor’s playing at, ’cause Neri and him they was always thick as thieves.”
“Sometimes when they put the board away they hadn’t moved a piece”—ignoring him, the waiter of Los Tocayos had gone on. “Someone once suggested they should be in the Guinness Book of Records as the world’s slowest players.”
“That’d’ve been you,” Iturraspe had cheerfully peached on him.
“The games could last for weeks. Tuesdays and Fridays, they’d get together. Religiously. Unless the Superintendent couldn’t make it. That Friday—the dog’s day as they call it—the professor waited in vain, with the board open and the pieces the way they’d left them at their last meeting. He said something to me but I can’t remember what. I wasn’t paying much attention ’cause it was only a few minutes since Ezcurrita’d left—they almost ran into each other. He confided to me that in three moves, four at most, he’d have the Superintendent in checkmate. But they never got to finish the game.”
“He could never forgive himself for that friendship,” Iturraspe’d said.
“I’M TIRED OF IT,” the professor says to me when I look up. “I don’t want to go on. It’s extraordinary what something like this can take out of you. I’d rather you have it and keep no copy myself, I don’t want to be tempted. You’ll be taking a weight off me if you take it with you, and at the same time you’ll make me feel that all that effort was worth something. There’s only one file that I’m afraid you’ll search for in vain—your grandfather’s. I hope you’ll understand.”
I thanked him for both gestures—the gift and the sleight of hand—with a shallow nod. Right then I planned to throw the monstrous mausoleum of moral misery out of the coach window, wrapped in the little jacket Auntie Chesi had knitted for my son with her dead husband’s wool. But my determination wilted and I ended up keeping it. I told myself it might be of use in the event of legal problems, that I’d keep it in the trunk room at home, in a double-seal bag (you only had to glance at the cover to sink into a profound depression for the rest of your day) and would give it to my lawyer as a keepsake; but to be honest, in the end it was a kind of reverence that stopped me getting rid of it. The extraordinary folder documented not only the dark side of the multiple existences batting about without rhyme or reason in this patch of the gringo pampas that’s so like any other it reminds you of the samples carried by travelling fabric salesmen; but also something more precious—the sterile sacrifice of a life that, rather than moving somewhere, had chosen to bury itself in this place in order to hate it the more. Professor Gagliardi’s soul had given itself to the most insidio
us and perhaps illicit of the passions known to man—cringing embarrassment at others (which is not to say he neglected his own; I’d be lying by omission if I forgot to mention File No 827, corresponding to Gagliardi, Benjamín F). This hefty tome, this promiscuous cohabitation of police dossier and small-town gossip, was also the melancholy testament to a life devoted to moral mortification.
“A COUPLE OF KILOMETRES out of town down the Fuguet road there’s a place on your left with the branches of a ceiba sticking out of a little patch of young willows. That’s the best place to stop because the hard shoulder’s wider, then you walk a few metres till you see a little footpath branching off that’s been worn by people walking through the weeds. Follow it till you come to a wire fence,” Ña Agripina the healer had told me, and following her instructions I find the place easily. There’s a girl there, kneeling, and she barely raises her head to glance at me over her shoulder before bowing it again. On the other side of the wire fence stretches a garbage dump, whose muddy ground is shared peacefully by some pigs and numerous mud-bellied gulls, and, at the far end of it, a shack shaded by Persian lilacs, where generations of Villalbas have been returning their legendary past drop by drop to the common anonymity of the poor. There Ezcurra’s body at least found a brief respite in the earth, a siesta rather than a sleep, his temporary grave. Beneath that mud he slept, until he was unearthed by the parents and grandparents (I don’t know how to measure the generations of pigs) of the ones now nosing around the garbage tip.
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