by Jack Whyte
“I know you have said so, but do you really know someone who can take me there, to the exact place?”
Her hand still lay on my arm, which I held bent to support it, and now she squeezed the muscle of my forearm comfortingly, although the pressure almost stopped my heartbeat.
“It is all arranged. Meric, one of the local Druids, knows where to take you and what to show you. You will meet him tonight.”
“You invite Druids to dinner?”
She laughed. “Of course! They are people, just like us. They even eat the same food, so it is quite simple to entertain them, except that, most of the time, they entertain me. You will enjoy the Druids, Publius Varrus, I promise you.”
We started to walk along the lane, and the liquid song of a thrush suddenly reminded me of the confrontation I had had on the road with Nesca’s assassins. Luceiia must have been watching me closely, for she noticed my abrupt change of mood and asked me what was wrong.
“Nothing,” I answered. “The bird’s song reminded me of some trouble I had on the road, that’s all. It’s nothing for you to be concerned about.”
“It is if it concerns you.” Her voice was low and serious, and I turned to be able to see the expression on her face. And seeing it I decided, on an impulse, to confide in her.
“Well,” I admitted, “I will confess to a slight concern. It has to do with my reason for coming here.”
She frowned. “That sounds ominous. Tell me truly — what was your reason for coming? You have not mentioned one. Not that it would make any difference,” she hurried on. “I am only glad you came, but I sense a trouble in you now that has not been there since we met.”
I thought for a few seconds, then I asked her, “Do you know a man called Quinctilius Nesca?”
She glanced towards me, taking her eyes from the road ahead of her. When she answered me her tone was quiet and non-committal.
“Yes, but not well. I have met him once or twice. Why do you ask?”
“What kind of a man is he?”
She threw back her head, hard enough to toss her long, dark hair, and this time her tone was definitive. “He is completely odious. Fat and repulsive and disgusting. A banker. A money-lender. But that’s not what you mean, is it?” She pursed her lips delicately, and we walked on in silence for a few paces before she said, “Quinctilius Nesca is not a man whose company Caius would tolerate for long, nor would he ever seek him out. Where do you know him from?”
“I don’t.” I took a deep breath, wondering as I did so that I should be so open with this woman who, twenty-four hours ago, had been an unmet stranger. Then I began at the beginning and told her the whole story of Caesarius Claudius Seneca and our confrontation, together with its aftermath on the road from Colchester. She listened without interruption, and by the time I had finished we were back at the main entrance to the family quarters. She led me directly in to her cubiculum and nodded me to a seat, where I waited while she poured us both a cup of wine. I drank in silence while she mulled over what I had told her. Finally she spoke.
“All of this has happened since Caius left the country?”
“Yes. All within the past few months.”
“And you only ever saw this Seneca that one time?”
“That particular specimen of Seneca, yes. Once was enough.”
“Yes. I agree. But he shares his peculiar gifts for winning popularity with all his breed.” A pause. “How long ago, exactly?”
“Two months ago… three at the most.”
“And they are still looking for you?” She shook her head. “A pity about your limp.”
“Aye. And my grey hair.”
Another short pause, then, “You are still angry at Seneca, aren’t you?”
I took a sip of my wine. “Yes, I am.”
“Why?”
“Why not?”
“I can answer that,” she said. I was amazed at how she reminded me of her brother. He would have said exactly the same things to me, in the same tone of voice. “You won the fight. He was the loser. You did not suffer at his hands. Only at his tongue, and that you should have forgotten by this time. At least, you should have put it out of the forefront of your mind.”
“Luceiia,” I said, knowing she was correct, “you may be right.” I scratched at a sudden itch under my arm. “I probably should have. I just don’t seem to be capable of forgiving or forgetting either the man or the occasion.”
Her voice was insistent. “I ask you again. Why?”
“I don’t know why, Luceiia!” I heard a note of irritation coming into my own voice. “Pardon me, but that is the way he affects me. I have been asking questions about him. The man is notorious — infamous. And it seems the more I hear about him, the more I detest him. He offends everything I hold in esteem. I sometimes think…”
“Go on. Finish it.” Again her brother’s tones. “You sometimes think what?”
I shook my head. “I don’t know, it suddenly sounded foolish even to me. I was going to say that I sometimes think he’s the personification of everything that is rotten in the Empire, but that would be giving him too much importance. He’s simply an evil little man with too much power and too much money.”
Luceiia got up and crossed to the side table on which the wines rested. She picked up the jug again and replenished my cup.
“The Seneca family is immensely wealthy, Publius, and wealth is power. We Britannici have learned that about the Senecas to our cost over several generations. But an evil little man? You told me he was a great, hulking brute of a fellow!”
“He is. He’s big and strong, well muscled and in good shape. That’s not what I meant by ‘little’. I meant it more in the sense of mean and petty.”
She sat down again. “Never make that mistake, Publius. This man is not petty. No Seneca is petty. Mean, malicious, malevolent and cruel, yes, but not petty. And your thought was far from foolish. He and his whole clan are the personification of all that is sick in Rome. It has been bred into him. Unfortunately, as a family, they are far from unique. I have heard Caius say many times it is those very attributes you describe that have brought down our country and the Empire. All the corruption, all the vices, all the faults and all the weaknesses of Rome are centred in its so-called nobility, and the Seneca family is typical of its worst excesses. You have made a bad enemy there, I am afraid. You say he returned to Constantinople?” I nodded. “Good,” she said, emphatically. “Let us all hope he stays well away from Britain in the future. In any event, you are not likely to come face to face with Quinctilius Nesca around here.”
As she finished speaking, the major-domo came into the room and announced that we had only half an hour to be prepared to welcome our guests. Luceiia excused herself and left immediately, leaving me to make my way back to my quarters.
I walked slowly, thinking about the amazing depths I had discovered in this remarkable woman in so short a space of time, and as I walked I caught sight of my own reflection in the marble walls of the room I was passing through. I stopped and looked at myself, trying to raise my right eyebrow the way she and her brother raised theirs.
“That, my friend.” I said to my reflection, “is the woman you are going to have to learn to live without for the rest of your life. Forever. Unless you can find some miraculous way to win her.” But guilt squirmed in my belly with my lust and in my heart with my swelling love, and I refused to allow myself to contemplate what Caius’ reaction would be if he were ever to discover my presumptuousness in daring to dream about his baby sister.
Dinner that night was both a delight and a trial. I was “on parade” — under inspection as surely and as thoroughly as I had ever been under Caius’ command in the army. I fought my natural aversion to meeting strangers and tried with all my heart to be friendly and affable. To my surprise, I seemed to be successful, and I found myself enjoying the attention being lavished on me and responding to it in a way that I had never been capable of before.
Of course, it goes
without saying that I had Luceiia to thank for my new-found ease. She glowed that night with enthusiasm for everything I had ever done, it seemed. She led the dinner conversation with an infallible knack for making me and my opinions the centre of the evening and the standard against which all other opinions and experiences must be judged. And all through the long, formal meal I was aware of her presence, her shimmering beauty there at the opposite end of the table.
There were sixteen people seated there, and I have long since forgotten who they were, although I came to know all of them well in the years that followed. Only three people stand out in my memory, because they all stayed at the villa that night: Meric the Druid, who was far less outlandish and barbaric than I would have guessed; Domitius Titens, a local landowner and former tribune with whom I later became fast friends, and Cylla, his beautiful and waspish wife, who sought then and forever after until her death to take me to her bed.
That she failed to do so is no great source of pride, for it was not my steadfastness that kept me from her willing body — only circumstance at first, and loyalty later.
She began her assault on me at first meeting when, in that way that women have, she let me know in no uncertain terms, yet only with her eyes, that she would rut with me at my whim. Her husband was oblivious. Not so Luceiia, however, and I was later witness to a series of smiling, verbal thrusts that would have disembowelled a mere man. I missed the start of this exchange of savage wit and feminine venom and could only assume later, in the light of things Luceiia said, that Cylla had made a lewd comment about the convenience of the arrangement Luceiia and I shared, alone together in the villa. Luceiia made little of the comment at first, dismissing it as unworthy of response. Cylla, however, was persistent, going on about it with envious tenacity until Luceiia decided she had had enough, and told her so. It was at that point that I approached them, unwarily, and heard their exchange of pleasantries before they noticed me. I pretended to have heard nothing, and they abandoned their dispute when, shortly afterwards, we were called to dine.
By the end of dinner, I was again enmeshed in Luceiia’s beauty and had lost all awareness of Cylla’s charms. I thought no more about her until she came to my bed in the small hours, awakening me and throwing me into a panic.
I had been dreaming of Luceiia, feeling her there beside me in the bed, warm and strong and silken, and then suddenly I was no longer dreaming. The breast I was fondling was warm and real, and the body pressed against my swollen penis was alive and urgent. I awoke very quickly, and must have called Luceiia by name, for a laughing, whispering voice said, close to my ear, “No, not Luceiia. Luceiia isn’t here.”
And as I struggled to raise myself on one elbow, blustering in sleepy panic, I heard Luceiia’s voice say, “Ah, but she is, my dear, and you, I think, are in the wrong bed.”
By the time I had sat up and shaken myself completely awake, Cylla was gone, and Luceiia spoke from the doorway of my room.
“Go back to sleep, Publius, and sleep well.”
I saw her shape, outlined in the moonlight as she turned to leave.
“Wait! Wait, Luceiia!” She turned back to me as I rubbed the last of the sleep out of my eyes. “What’s happening?” I asked her, though I knew, finally. “What was that all about?”
Her voice was low-pitched. “I sent Cylla away. She is a foolish woman and a dangerous one. Her husband is not as stupid as she thinks he is. Had he awakened and found her gone, he would have come right here. There are only two beds she could visit, apart from his, and Meric is too old and too holy to appeal to her.”
“Uh,” I grunted, at a loss for words. Then I found my tongue. “Thank you for that. I was asleep and thought it was a dream.”
“I know.” I could have sworn I heard a smile in her voice. “I heard you.”
“But… how did you come to be here? What hour of night is it?”
“It is late, Publius, but I have known Cylla all my life. I knew she would come to you. So I waited for her. Would you rather I had not?”
“No! No. I thank you for your thoughtfulness. You may have saved my life. You were right. That was both foolish and dangerous. And unsought.”
“Then your broken dream was not of Cylla?” Again there was that smiling sound in her tone.
“I cannot remember,” I lied. “No, no, I was not dreaming of Cylla.”
“Good. Then go to sleep again. She will not be back tonight, and we have to be afoot early tomorrow. Meric is not a patient guide. Good night, Publius.”
She closed the door gently as she left, and I had a hard time regaining my lost slumber.
XIX
I know that there are people who love hills and mountains. I hate them. They stink of blood and death and ambush. They hide enemies. I have lost too many good friends among hills ever to be impressed with their beauty. Hills are a hazard to the lives of travellers, and of soldiers. Place me on the top of a high hill with an unobstructed view of the countryside in every direction and I might be tempted to relax for a while, but I could never lie down and sleep on a hillside, nor can I ever be cheerful and talkative on a journey that wends through valleys. As I said, I hate hills.
The Mendip Hills are no different to any of the other hill ranges in south Britain. They look exactly the same. But the Mendip Hills held the promise of skystones, and because all of my experiences since landing in this part of the country had been happy ones, I was prepared to treat the Mendips as friendly territory for the time being; for the first time in my life, I did not feel threatened or claustrophobic. I only realized that, however, when we pulled our horses to a halt at the crest of a high hill and looked down into the valley on the other side, a valley that had been visited by dragons.
“Well, what do you think?”
The voice belonged to Meric. I did not answer him immediately; I was too busy scanning the floor of the valley.
Even from the top of the hill I could see that the grass was thick and rank, mottled already with the browns and yellows of wintertime. Everything I saw had that wet, chilled, unwelcoming look that meant December, and I felt no promise in the prospect in front of me, even though I could count about thirty large boulders scattered across the floor of the valley. The surface of the lake at the far end looked cold and hostile, opaque with wind ripples, and the excitement of the trip turned suddenly to disappointment and depression. I glanced sideways at my two companions. Both of them sat huddled on their horses, swathed in cloaks against the bitter, gusting wind.
“I don’t know what to think, Meric,” I answered. “Are you sure this is the place?”
He started to snap a response but restrained himself and turned his eyes away from me, down into the valley. It was obvious that he had decided not to lower himself to the level of my ill-mannered tone of voice.
“Yes, Varrus, I am sure this is the place. I have been here several times and it has not changed.” He nodded towards the valley floor. “Are those boulders the stones you think fell from the sky?”
“They might be. I doubt it. I think they’re too big. You realize I’ve never seen a skystone either? I have no idea what they look like.” There was a roughness in my voice that I tried, too late, to conceal. It wasn’t Meric’s fault that this place was different from my expectations. To tell the truth, I hadn’t known what to expect. “Tell me again what happened that night, Meric,” I said more gently.
He shivered and drew his cloak more closely around his shoulders, and when he spoke his voice held no indication that he might be irritated by my request.
“Very well, but remember, please, I am only reporting what was told to me. The event took place during my boyhood, before I joined the Brotherhood. Apparently, the night it happened was a wild one — cloudy and windy, with great gaps in the clouds through which the stars were plainly visible. At about the second hour before midnight, many lights were seen in the sky. Each of these lights was separate from the others at first, but as they approached, at great speed, they became blindingl
y bright and were accompanied by a great roaring noise. They crashed to earth among the hills in fire and flames that lit up all the undersides of the clouds, turning them red as the fire itself, and the smoke of their coming blotted out the stars. This was all seen by hundreds of people who live in and around the hills here, and it was obvious to every one of them that the dragons of the legend had returned.
“On the following day, some of the more adventurous among the people came into the hills to see what had to be seen. Among them was Athyr, the old man who became my teacher. He was the one who told me what he saw with his own eyes. He brought me here to this very spot and tried to describe for me the devastation that had been wrought.”
He paused, and for the space of many moments there was no sound on the hilltop except for the bluster of a gust of wind and the clump of hooves as Luceiia’s horse sidled away from us slightly. Meric cleared his throat and took up his tale.
“There had been a small herd of cattle grazing in the valley that night — the riches of the village. The whole herd was dead, and the villagers left with nothing. Some of the cattle had been torn to pieces and the pieces scattered far apart. Some had completely disappeared. Vanished without trace. Others had been roasted alive. The entire valley had been drowned in mud, feet deep in places. Athyr said the mud reached the tops of the surrounding hills.” He pointed to a cliff face to the west. “The entire side of that hill over there was blasted to rubble. You can still see the rocks at the foot of the cliff, although they’re almost overgrown now.” I looked and, sure enough, the bottom of the cliff over by the distant lakeside which I had taken, from this distance, to be sloping hillside, was in fact a tumbled confusion of ruin overgrown by rank, tufted weeds and scraggly shrubs.
“Everything was covered in mud, and yet Athyr said the cattle were roasted alive. I still don’t understand how that could have happened, how it could have been true.” He shrugged his shoulders. “I can do no more than accept it on faith. Athyr would never lie about anything. I have never known a more truthful man. He told me that is what he saw, therefore that is what he saw. He believed what he told me, and I believed him. By the time he brought me here, more than ten years had gone by and the grass had begun to cover everything again, although not so thickly as it has now.”