“What is that smell?”
Squire grunted in annoyance. Like humans, like the Fey, hobgoblins had their own scent. He couldn’t smell it himself, of course, but Eve had often told him he smelled like rotten apples. And who would know better?
Silence had fallen in the room outside the weapons closet. The Fey could walk without any noise at all if they wished to, but Morrigan did not bother. Squire had an image in his mind of her sniffing at the air, of her pausing to glare at the doors to the closet. He heard her footfalls on the hardwood as she marched toward him.
With deep regret Squire glanced around at the weapons that remained, trying to choose what he would rescue for his final trip. There really was no question, however. There was a longbow on the wall that had belonged to Ceridwen, a gift she had given to Conan Doyle before he had left Faerie. Squire snatched the bow off the wall just as the closet doors flew open and Morrigan stood silhouetted in the light from the room beyond.
“You should have run further than this, wretched thing,” she snarled, the red scarf that had covered her hair now down around her neck. Her nostrils flared. “Go on, hobgoblin. Choose whatever weapon you like.” With a flourish she gestured to the armaments that remained in the closet.
The light from the outer room reached deep inside the closet. Morrigan had him trapped. Or so she thought. For the wicked bitch had barely noticed that she cast her own shadow, and it was as black as her heart.
“Sorry, babe,” Squire said, taking a single step toward her. “I’m a lover, not a fighter.”
And he dropped away into the shadow on the floor, her scream of rage following him down into the darkness.
In the living room at the Ferrick house, Clay stood behind a high-backed chair with his arms crossed. Eve sat at the edge of the chair, resting her hands on her knees, and when she spoke she sounded more earnest than Clay had ever heard her. On the sofa, Danny Ferrick stared at her, brows knitted beneath the little nubs of his horns. He was slouched down as though he might sink into the cushions, baggy black pants hanging on his legs like curtains. The boy’s mother was so pale Clay thought she would either vomit or faint within the next few seconds.
She surprised him. The woman was stronger than she looked.
“You’re lying!” Julia Ferrick said, her chest rising and falling quickly as though she was trying to keep from hyperventilating.
Clay put both hands on the back of Eve’s chair. “No, Mrs. Ferrick. I can assure you that she’s not.”
Beside her, on the couch, the boy she had always thought of as her son began to laugh softly. Clay was unsure what to make of that laugh and he narrowed his eyes as he studied the boy, who kept rubbing the soles of his red Converse high-tops on the carpet. Danny Ferrick shook his head and reached up to run his fingers over his small horns again. He sighed, glanced at Clay, and then focused on Eve. He was a teenaged boy and Eve was every teenaged boy’s dream of a woman, and so he trusted her.
“Seriously. You’re not just messing with me?”
Eve shook her head. “No, Danny. No way.”
The kid frowned again, narrowing his eyes. “So who is this Doyle guy again?” He turned to his mother. “How did you meet him?”
Mrs. Ferrick gazed at her son as though another word from him would shatter her like a china doll. She fidgeted with her hands again, and for the first time, Clay noticed how short her fingernails were. A couple of them were ragged. The woman had clearly been stressed even before all this lunacy had come into her life. Danny’s mother gnawed her lower lip.
“I don’t suppose either of you has a cigarette?”
No one responded. Mrs. Ferrick shook her head. “Just as well. I quit.” Then she lowered her eyes. “Mr. Doyle came to see me a few years ago. Just showed up on the doorstep one day while you were at school. Your . . . your condition had already started to show up. Your skin. But only just. I . . . I’m not even sure you had noticed it yet, but I had, just at the back of your neck one morning at breakfast.
“Mr. Doyle rang the bell. He was so polite, and so well-dressed, I thought he must be selling something or . . . or trying to convert me or something.” She uttered a tiny laugh of disbelief that sounded very much as though she were choking on unshed tears. “He said—”
The woman shook her head. Clay wanted to go to her, to sit with her and comfort her, but he knew there would be another time for that. For now, the truth was what mattered, and he did not want to interrupt the telling of it.
“What did he say, Mom?” Danny asked, trying to get his mother to look up at him. “Did he tell you . . . what Eve just said?”
“No,” Mrs. Ferrick said, catching her breath. “All he said was that . . . that someday I would want to ask him some questions about you, and that when the day came I should call. And he gave me his card and he . . . he just left. I thought he was some nut. Some . . . some asshole, thinking he knows something about my son that I don’t.”
Eve sat back in her chair and lifted her chin, appraising Mrs. Ferrick. “But you kept his card.”
The look the woman shot at Eve was full of venom. “Yes. Yes, I kept the card. He’s my son. I brought him up myself. Everything I’ve ever done has been for him. I’d do anything for Danny. So, yes, I kept the card. Now you come telling me he’s some . . . some demon child, some changeling baby, whatever the hell that even means.”
“I explained what it—” Eve began.
“I don’t want your explanations!” Mrs. Ferrick said, her voice on the edge of hysteria. She brought one hand up to her mouth, gnawing a bit on her thumbnail, oblivious to their attentions.
“Mom,” Danny said, his eyes revealing his pain, and he touched her arm to try to calm her. She grabbed his hand and held on tight.
“Now you come telling me that he isn’t my son? That Danny isn’t my boy at all? To hell with both of you and your Mr. Doyle, too.” Mrs. Ferrick glanced at Danny. “He’s all I’ve got.”
Eve began to say something more but now Clay leaned down and touched her on the shoulder and she closed her mouth. For a long moment the Ferricks, mother and son, just sat there holding hands, both of them staring at their unwelcome visitors. They were a strange sight, the woman in her suburban mother uniform of khaki trousers and white blouse, and the boy in his baggy, unbuttoned shirt with the bright orange surfing tee underneath. Clay focused on Danny. The boy seemed not to want to look at him, but at last he did. Clay nodded gently. Danny swallowed and licked his lips, baring his needle teeth, if only for a moment. He took a deep breath and turned to his mother.
“Hey. Mom. Look at me.”
Mrs. Ferrick studied his eyes.
“No. I mean look at me.”
Defiantly, she continued to stare into his eyes.
“It’s killing me, what I see in the mirror, y’know?” Danny said, and the anguish in his tough-guy voice was enough to force Clay to glance away a moment. “But, well, what they say makes sense. Sucks, but it makes sense. And if it’s true . . . God, if it’s true I’m sorry, ’cause that means the kid you had in the hospital . . . he’s somewhere else. I don’t know where. But you’re my mother. And you’re the best. Seriously. You are.
“But if it’s true . . . and I can’t lie to you, it feels true. If it is, it means I’m not a freak. I’m not some fucked-up kid who doesn’t fit in anywhere, ’cause I don’t have to. I’m not one of them. One of the nasty little pukes I go to school with. If it’s true . . . and I think I want it to be. That would be better, I think. Better than the way things have been.”
Mrs. Ferrick recoiled from her son, stood up and turned her back on the sofa, on her guests. She was quivering and hugging herself, and when she turned again, there were tears streaming down her face and she had bitten her lip hard enough that a small trickle of blood went down her chin.
“How can you . . . how can you say that?” she whispered, sniffling, wiping away tears and blood. Then she shook her head again, with finality, and stared at Eve and Clay. “I don’t believe it.
I won’t believe in it. I’ve never believed in angels and demons, no heaven or Hell. That’s all bullshit. None of it is real.”
Eve began to stand, but Clay was faster. He moved around the chair and strode toward Mrs. Ferrick. She flinched as though afraid he might attack her. Clay passed her and went to the window, then quickly drew back the curtain.
“Have a look, Mrs. Ferrick. You’ve seen what’s going on out there. Are you telling me none of that is real?”
She hesitated a moment, then joined him at the window. Clay looked with her, and together they gazed out at her neighborhood, overrun with a crimson fog, at the sun blacked out by an eclipse, at a swarm of mosquitoes that clung to a car as it careened down the street, tires squealing, only to bump up over the sidewalk and crash into a minivan parked in a driveway just a few houses away. The shattering of glass and crump of metal upon metal made the woman flinch.
“There are . . .” she began weakly, “there are explanations for it. All of it.”
Clay sighed. He stepped in front of her, forcing the woman to look at him. “All right. All right. Give me an explanation, then, for this.”
He reached out and touched her hand and in an instant of painfully shifting bones and flesh that flowed like mercury, he became Julia Ferrick, right down to her gnawed fingernails and her white peasant blouse. The woman blinked and gasped for air, breath hitching in her throat as she stared at the mirror image of herself that he had become.
And then she fainted, tumbling so quickly toward the floor that Clay did not have a chance to catch her. He was only grateful that the living room was carpeted.
“Mom!” Danny called, running to her, kneeling beside her. The kid twisted his face up into a terrible grimace and when he spoke again it was in a rasping whisper. “I’m sorry. Sorry I’m not what you wanted.”
Clay decided to give the boy a moment to collect himself. He stepped back, then looked over to where Eve was unfolding from her chair.
“That went well,” she said.
Before Clay could respond to her sarcasm he heard the squeal of tires yet again from outside the window. He turned, peering through the glass into the darkness beyond, and saw the limousine barreling through the suburban neighborhood. Its brakes screamed as it skidded to a halt in front of the Ferrick home, and then slowly turned into the driveway.
“Eve,” Clay said. “Trouble.”
Chapter Eight
Tom Stanley stood above the grave of his recently departed mother and wept, hot scalding tears streaking his round, cherubic features. It was this way every time he visited, a deluge of sorrow for the woman who had meant the world to him.
He crouched upon his mother’s grave and used the elbow of his jacket to rub imaginary fingerprints from her gray marble headstone. It had been set in place earlier that week by the groundskeepers of the Mount Auburn Cemetery, and Tom could not escape the certainty that they had marred it somehow. He paused, studied the gleaming marble, and then shook his head, buffing the stone again. His mother had been gone for a little more than two weeks, and already it felt like forever.
Strange shadows moved across the ground and Tom gazed up from his routine of sorrow, troubled by something he could not put a name to. The cemetery was strangely deserted this day, perhaps because the weather was so odd. Far off in the distance he heard what could have been the faint rumble of thunder. He wished that he had bothered to listen to a weather report before leaving the house. The sun was partially obscured by weird, shifting, gray clouds and a strange, reddish fog drifted just above the gravesites.
Like the red tide in the ocean, he thought. What the hell is this? Biologicial warfare in the city of Cambridge? He chuckled to himself, a bit giddy, a razor edge of hysteria bubbling just under the surface, as it had since his mother’s death.
His gaze shifted back to the headstone. Loving Mother, he read through teary eyes, and couldn’t have agreed more with the simple inscription. He doubted there had ever been a mother more dedicated to her child’s happiness than Patricia Stanley.
Tom removed a silver flask from his coat pocket and had another jolt of whiskey. He had been indulging more since his mother’s passing, to help ease the pain of her loss, and was beginning to worry that a problem was developing. That’s all I need, he thought, helping himself to another large swig before screwing the cap back on and returning the flask to his pocket, another problem.
Widowed not long after his birth, she had always been there for him, playing the role of both mother and father. He could still hear her voice as she defended her only son from accusations that he had been responsible for the deaths of some neighborhood cats and dogs. These were echoes of a past that seemed only yesterday, but in truth was so very long ago. That was the nature of time, though.
Time was a teasing bitch, and he wished that he could treat it like all the other teasing bitches who thought they were better than him.
How dare you accuse my Tommy! his mother had wailed. To think my little boy could be responsible for such a thing is a sin!
He was sure she had always known that he had killed the pets. But she wasn’t about to let them ruin her son’s good name. And besides, they were only stupid animals, what harm had he really done?
Tom wished that she had been as understanding about the other killings.
Once again tears filled his eyes and he wondered if he would ever feel happy again, or if there would only be grief for him now, forevermore. He had been coming here every day since her burial, hoping to experience some sense of closure, but all he felt was the gaping hole left by his loss.
He stared at the ground beneath his feet, imagining the fine mahogany coffin nestled in the grave below, and the peaceful countenance of the elderly woman at eternal rest within. How he hated to think of her down there, alone, without him to take care of her. She had been rather fragile in her final years, and had needed more of his attention, but it had been the least he could do after the years she had devoted to him.
“Why did she have to die?” he asked aloud, dropping to his knees, the moisture from the dewy grass seeping through his pants. But it was a foolish question. He knew the answer. Tom leaned in and pressed his forehead against the cool marble of the gravestone.
She had to die, because she was going to tell.
Animals were one thing, but people were another all together. He wasn’t exactly sure how she had found out about his nasty little avocation. Maybe she’d discovered the trophies he kept hidden in the footlocker beneath his bed, or even watched one of the special videos he’d made. He didn’t know for sure, which was why it came as such a surprise when she ordered to him to stop or she’d inform the police.
“You made me so angry, Mom,” he said, bringing a beefy fist up to gently pound the marble. He fished in his pocket for his flask again, and had himself another drink.
Tom had been doing his thing for years. The pets had been nothing but a warm-up to bigger and better things. He’d developed a real knack for zeroing in on the losers of the world, ones who would never be missed. Over time, he’d actually begun to think of himself as a kind of public servant, making the world a better place to live, one loser at a time.
How did she think he could just stop? Or that he would want to stop, for that matter?
The flask was empty, and he let it fall to the ground. “Why couldn’t you understand?” he slurred, alcohol making his mouth a bit numb. He recalled her horror as he tried to explain why he did what he did, the immeasurable joy he received when he watched the light of life go out of their miserable eyes. But his mother didn’t understand. She had begged him to stop, begged him to be the good boy that she always imagined him to be. But what his mother had asked of him was impossible.
Why? he asked again.
Tom pushed the troubling recollections from his mind and replaced them with thoughts of happier times—his memories of each murder—and immediately he felt soothed.
It was darker now, as if the sun had decided to pack it in
early. The red mist continued to swirl about him. He wasn’t sure he’d ever seen a fog so unusual. It was kind of creepy. Gripping the tombstone, he pulled his powerful bulk up, the bones in his knees popping in protest. It was times like these that reminded him there might come a day when he wouldn’t be able to do what his mother so desperately wanted him to stop, that he would be too old. Just thinking it was enough to stoke the fires of his urge. It was as if a switch had been flicked inside his head, and he knew what he wanted to do—what he had to do.
It had been a little over two weeks since the desire was last satisfied. The memory of it flashed before his mind’s eye. His mother was crying and carrying on, telling him that what he was doing was wrong, that he would go to jail, and who would take care of her then? She had been upstairs in the house they had shared since forever, changing the sheets on his bed, as she had every Tuesday for as long as he could remember. Dirty bedclothes in her arms, she had pushed past him, saying that he had left her no choice. She had to tell someone what he was doing, that it was all for his own good.
Tom had never thought of her as one of them—the losers that wanted to hurt him, to keep him down, but for a brief moment she had become the enemy. As she prepared to descend the winding staircase, he had thought about how dangerous it could be for an old woman to be performing the duties of a household. One terrible fall, and that would be that.
His left hand tingled with the memory of the act, and he brought it slowly up to his face, flexing his fingers. It had been the gentlest of pushes that sent the woman he had loved most in all the world tumbling down the wooden steps. She had landed in a twisted heap, her face covered with his dirty laundry.
She had still been alive. He’d gently pulled back the sheet that covered her face and found her wide-eyed and gasping, her neck bent in a most unnatural way. But the look in her eyes told him that death would soon claim her. He had seen that look many times before, and when it finally did come, the first tears of mourning had fallen from his eyes.
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