Still, Tory King was not a woman to jump to conclusions or to be overly dramatic. Tory had asked her to check on KT, and that was reason enough to be concerned. Pia twisted the doorknob. It turned easily and the door opened. She took one step inside and called, "KT? It's Pia. Sorry to bother you."
Her voice echoed oddly in the apartment; were it not for the keys on the counter, she would have thought the condo empty. Her sense of disquiet increased, and she moved further into the kitchenv listening carefully for any voices or sound of movement. "KT?"
She was familiar with the layout of the apartment and started down the hall toward the master bedroom at the far end. It was then that she heard a soft moan. Oh God, she really is with someone. How humiliating.
About to beat a hasty retreat, she heard the unmistakable sound of retching and then a groan. In less than a minute she passed through the empty bedroom to the bathroom. KT, shoeless and in a rumpled, half-opened shirt and wrinkled trousers, was on her knees, arms braced on the toilet, gasping for breath.
"Oh my God," Pia murmured, bending down to brush the sweat-drenched hair from KT's face. "What's wrong?"
KT turned her head, her eyes glazed. "Pia? Hell. What are you doing here?"
"Tory called." Pia stood and ran cold water on a washcloth, then wiped KT's face with it. "You're supposed to be at work,"
"Fuck," KT whispered weakly. "What time is it?"
"It doesn't matter," Pia said, taking in KT's ashen pallor, the sunken appearance of her eyes, and her trembling hands. "You're not going anywhere."
"Need to." KT attempted to push herself upright and failed, sinking down again with her back against the commode. She leaned her head back and closed her eyes, both hands lying limply in her lap.
Pia noted absently that KT had kept her splint on. As she turned back to the sink to rinse out the washcloth, she saw for the first time the open container of prescription medication sitting on the counter. The empty container. Her heart sank and her stomach seized. She picked it up and read the label. Oxycontin. Oh God.
"How many?" Pia was astounded at how calm her voice sounded when inside, she was screaming. "How many did you take?"
"What?" KT opened her eyes and struggled to make sense of the question. When she saw the pill bottle that Pia held in her hand, she wanted to laugh, but she was too close to vomiting again. "None of them."
"The bottle's empty, honey," Pia said gently, squatting down beside KT. She picked up KT's right wrist and felt for a pulse. It was rapid but strong. KT's skin, however, was clammy and damp.
"Maybe you don't remember taking them. Try to think. We have to know how many you took."
KT shook her head, which immediately caused her to retch again. She turned her head and vomited what little remained in her stomach. When she caught her breath, she said hoarsely, "Threw them out. Down the toilet."
It took a moment for Pia to compute the significance of that statement, but then suddenly the scene in the bathroom made horrifying sense. What she had at first taken to be the aftereffects of too much alcohol mixed with pills wasn't the case at all. KT was demonstrating all the signs of narcotic withdrawaldilated pupils, increased respiratory rate, vomiting, sweating. "How are the muscle cramps?"
"Tolerable," KT mumbled.
"We should get you to the hospital."
KT's head snapped up, and her eyes suddenly focused. Her voice was surprisingly strong. "No. I'll be all right in a few hours."
"You won't be all right by then, and you know it." Despite her words, Pia's tone was tender. She used the washcloth again to wipe KT's face and neck. "Let me get you into the shower and then to bed. We'll talk after that."
"Go away. I don't want you here."
"I know." Pia eased her arm around KT's shoulders and gently guided her to her feet, switching her grip to encircle KT's waist once she was standing. "But you can't do this by yourself."
"There's nothing to do. It's not that bad." Despite her best efforts, KT shivered violently, and her teeth chattered. "I'll just sleep it off."
"Shower first. Let's warm you up."
KT leaned her back against the wall and held her good arm out straight, keeping Pia at a distance. "I don't want you to take care of me. I want you to go." She took a breath, her eyes pleading, "Pia, please,"
"All right," Pia said quietly. "I'll call Tory."
"Oh, Jesus," KT moaned. "That's all I need." She struggled not to shake, but a surge of nausea and dizziness swept over her. She figured she had about thirty seconds before she fainted.
Surrendering, she turned her hand palm up. "Help me get to the bed."
"I'm so cold."
"Here, honey," a soft voice said. "Let me hold you."
KT turned her face to the comforting warmth of the woman beside her and wrapped her arm around Pia's solid strength as if she were a life preserver in the raging sea. Still shivering, her stomach rolling, KT moaned quietly. A hand brushed over her hair and massaged the muscles in the back of her neck.
"It's okay. It's going to be okay," Pia murmured.
Fully dressed, Pia sat half upright with her back braced against the headboard and KT against her side. She drew the other woman closer, encircling her shoulder with one arm as she pulled the blanket higher over them with her other hand. KT's cheek rested against her shoulder. After she'd gotten KT to bed, she'd called the clinic with the excuse that KT had a stomach bug and wouldn't be in for at least a day. She hadn't intended to do any more than stay until KT was settled, but after an hour of seeing the semiconscious woman toss and turn and shiver and shake, she couldn't stand it anymore. She'd climbed onto the bed to hold the struggling woman, and the instant she had, KT had quieted. Fortunately, she had no other appointments herself until the next afternoon.
"I'm sorry," KT mumbled, dizzy and disoriented. "I'm so sorry for everything."
"You're doing fine," Pia whispered, resting her chin against the top of KT's head and rubbing her back soothingly. "You're going to be all right."
In a moment of clarity, KT lifted her head, finally able to focus on the woman who comforted her. "You should go."
Pia merely shook her head and smiled gently. "You should close your eyes and get some sleep."
"I'm glad you're here," KT confessed as she dropped her head once more to Pia's breast and closed her eyes.
When next KT awoke, the room was completely dark except for a small lamp burning on the dresser. Pia stood in the doorway, a tray in her hands. KT blinked at the light.
"What time is it?" KT croaked, her throat unbelievably raw and sore.
"Nine o'clock."
"When?"
Pia set the tray with a bowl of soup and a glass of room-temperature water on the bedside table and eased her hip onto the mattress next to KT. "Same day. You've been sleeping on and off for about eight hours." If you could call it sleeping. Mostly you 've been thrashing and moaning.
"You've been here the whole time?"
Pia nodded.
"Why?"
Pia regarded KT curiously. "Because I wanted to be."
"I don't understand."
"Don't you?" Pia slowly reached out and brushed the back of her fingers over KT's cheek. "You need to eat a little bit, and then we should get you into the shower."
KT grimaced. "You're right about that. I'm disgusting."
"How do you feel?"
"Pretty ragged." KT tried to take the bowl of soup that Pia extended to her but was unable to manage it. Her left hand was useless and her right hand shook so badly she couldn't even hold the spoon. With a sigh, she dropped her head back against the pillows. "I'm not really hungry."
"Yes, you are. Besides, you need to get something into your system after everything you've tossed out in the last eighteen hours." Pia spooned up a small amount of soup and brought it to KT's lips. "Come on."
Obediently, KT sipped. After a few minutes, she lay back, exhausted. "Thank you."
"You're welcome." Pia set the bowl aside. "Think you can make it to
the shower?"
"Probably. Yeah." KT rested her fingers on Pia's knee. "I don't want you to stay any longer. I appreciate everything you've done. Another twenty-four hours and the worst will be over."
"It's going to be a difficult twenty-four hours." Pia saw no reason to pretend other than the truth. KT knew what was coming, and she knew that Pia knew. Addiction to pain medication was not that uncommon, especially in patients whose physical injuries required prolonged physical therapy and whose pain level was high for extended periods of time. Fortunately, the withdrawal from such drugs was intense, but short-lived. Thirty-six to forty-eight hours was usually the extent of the severe symptoms, and KT was almost halfway through.
KT was about to say she would be okay when her stomach gave a warning rumble.
"Oh, fuck," KT muttered as she pushed off the bed, swayed unsteadily for a few seconds, and then lurched into the bathroom to lose the small meal she'd just eaten. She held one hand behind her back to ward off Pia's assistance. "Stay out there. I don't want you to see this."
"KT," Pia protested gently from the bathroom doorway.
"Just give me a few minutes. I'll be out as soon as I get cleaned up."
When Pia finally relented and closed the bathroom door, KT pulled off her clothes and dropped them on the floor. She turned on the shower, staggered into the stall, and leaned against the wall, shivering beneath the hot spray. When she'd managed to wash her hair and soap away twenty-four hours of sickness, she stepped out and brushed her teeth. Finally feeling clean, she reached for the robe that usually hung behind the bathroom door and realized that it was somewhere in the bedroom. It was almost impossible to wrap a towel around her body one-handed, but she finally managed to cover the essentials. When she reentered the bedroom, she saw that Pia had changed the sheets on her bed.
"Thanks," KT said, heading toward the bed. The slight effort of getting cleaned up had exhausted her.
"Here," Pia said, lifting up the top sheet so that KT could slip inside. She held out her hand, "Let me have that towel. It's wet and you can't get into bed with it."
KT hesitated, and then realized that there was no point in being modest. Pia had already seen her humiliated and pathetic. Naked was the least of her concerns. She pulled the towel off and held it out to Pia
Carefully, Pia kept her eyes on KT's face as she took the towel. Nevertheless, she couldn't help but look down as KT settled onto the bed and tried to get her injured arm into a comfortable position. The quick glimpse of the nude form confirmed what Pia had felt as she'd held KT in her arms. KT was muscular and firm, with subtle curves at her breasts and hips. Her body was every bit as beautiful as her striking face, and Pia knew that the image would stay with her always.
"Try to get some sleep," Pia said as she placed a pillow beneath KT's splinted left arm. "This hand has been dependent too much of the time for the last day. Your fingers are swollen. How do they feel?"
"Without the benefit of the Oxycontin, they hurt like hell," KT confessed. She was too damn tired and too damn sick to pretend she didn't hurt. "Once my stomach settles down, I can try taking some nonsteroidals."
"That should help some." Pia stood and stretched the sore muscles in her back. "I've got some ibuprofen at the house. I'll bring it over for you."
"Go home now, Pia. I'm going to be all right."
"I just want to stay until you fall asleep." You 're going to have a difficult night, and I'm not going to be able to sleep worrying about you.
"It's not"
Both women jumped at the distant sound of a knock on the door.
"I'll go see who that is," Pia said.
A minute later, she pulled open the door and came face to face with a very surprised Tory King.
Chapter Nineteen
T ory!"
"Pia?"
"Uh, hi." Pia stood in the doorway, uncertain of what to do next. She saw the questioning look in Tory's eyes, saw her gaze travel from the damp towel that Pia still held in her right hand to the rumpled appearance of her clothing, and saw an uncomfortable expression cross Tory's face. Although KT hadn't said so explicitly, Pia had gotten the definite impression that KT did not want anyone at the clinic to know what was wrong. Awkwardly, she asked, "What's up?"
"I stopped by to see how she's doing." Tory knew from personal experience that subterfuge was not something that Pia was very good at, and Pia's discomfort was apparent. From the look of things, it seemed that she'd just interrupted an intimate moment, and although she didn't doubt KT's powers of seduction, she couldn't quite believe that KT had managed to get Pia into bed. Still, something was obviously going on. Feeling that she needed to explain her presence, although not entirely clear why, she said, "She didn't look sick yesterday, so I was concerned."
Pia considered her options, which were few. She could lie and say that KT was asleep and doing fine, or she could let Tory evaluate the situation for herself. Her better judgment suggested the truth, because she feared that KT would need more than a comforting hand before this ordeal was over, and Tory was a physician as well as a friend. She pulled the door wide. "Come on in. She's in the bedroom."
"Thanks."
Pia led Tory to the bedroom. "KT? Tory's here."
KT made an effort to sit up, and failing that, tried for a smile.
"Hey. Making house calls now?"
Tory hid her shock as she approached the bed, her clinical eye swiftly taking in KT's obvious weakness and debilitated state. Considering her fragile physical condition and the fact that Pia had obviously been there all day, it didn't require much deductive reasoning to conclude that there was more than a stomach virus at work here. She looked from KT to Pia. "What's going on?"
Pia backed toward the bedroom door. "I'll leave you two alone."
"KT?" Tory repeated again as she reached down and rested her hand against KT's forehead. "You look like hell."
"Thanks, Vic."
"Don't try to put me off," Tory said sharply. "You're sick as a dog, and I want to know what's going on."
"Would you believe" KT was suddenly taken with another round of severe cramps and began to shiver, barely able to finish her sentence. "A really...bad...hangover?"
"No."
Shaking violently, KT gasped, "Too much Oxycontin. Time to quit."
"Like this? Are you crazy?" Tory looked closely at KT's eyes and then pressed two fingers lightly to her carotid artery. "Your heart rate is at least 120. Are you having any chest pain?"
"No," KT said with a groan. "Just muscle cramps."
"When did you last take any kind of medication?"
"I don't know. About twenty-four hours ago." Moaning, KT curled on her side. "I think I'm going to vomit again."
Hurriedly, Tory looked around the room and grabbed the wastepaper basket just in time. Supporting KT's head while she vomited, she called over her shoulder, "Pia!"
Pia appeared almost instantly. "Oh, no. Again?"
"How long as this been going on?" Tory asked abruptly.
"Since last night."
"Why didn't you call me?" Tory eased KT back against the pillows, watching her rapid breathing with a frown. "She doesn't have to suffer like this."
"She didn't want me to call."
Tory whipped her head around, her eyes flashing, "Do you really think she's capable of making that decision?"
Before Pia could answer, KT grasped Tory's hand with unexpected strength. Although her voice was weak, her tone was forceful. "Tory, let it go. It's not Pia's fault."
"God damn it, KT." Tory covered KT's ringers with her own, rubbing the back of KT's hand with surprising gentleness. "You are so frigging hardheaded."
A faint smile curled KT's lips as she took a shuddering breath. "Yeah. You just noticed?"
"I'm going to go back to the clinic for some Catapres and a couple of bags of saline," she said, turning to Pia. "Can you stay with her until I get back?"
"I wasn't planning on leaving," Pia replied evenly.
"I'm sorry
for jumping on you." Tory met Pia's eyes. "I don't know how it's possible, but for a few seconds there, I forgot just how stubborn she is."
"That's putting it mildly." Pia glanced at KT tenderly, unaware of just how revealing her expression was, before giving Tory a smile. "It's okay. I'm glad you're here. Maybe between the two of us we can handle her."
"Maybe. Just." As Tory passed Pia, she grasped her hand and squeezed lightly. "I'm honestly sorry."
Pia shook her head, her voice low as she walked out into the hall with Tory. "It's really all right. It's hard, seeing her like this."
"Are you okay?" Tory asked gently. For the first time, she noticed the circles under Pia's eyes.
"Yeah." She pushed a hand through her hair and shook some of the tension out of her shoulders before leaning back against the wall. "I've been watching her carefully. I would have called you if things had gotten worse. She's just..so proud, you know?"
The corner of Tory's mouth lifted into a weary smile. Another barrier that she had tightly constructed around her heart to bury the memory of what she had once felt for KT fell away. Surprisingly, the only thing she now felt was gratefulness that Pia had seen past KT's facade. "Yes, I know."
"This is all so terrible for herthe damage to her hand, the constant pain, and now this." Pia's eyes drifted back to the bedroom. "I just didn't want to make it any worse."
Tory realized with a sinking feeling that she had seen KT every day for weeks and hadn't noticed what she had been going through. Hadn't really allowed herself to see KT's struggles or her pain. My God, I missed a drug addiction in my own colleague, A woman I once knew as well as I knew myself. Is that what my anger has done to me?
"You haven't made anything worse. On the contrary." Tory slid her arm around Pia's shoulders and gave her a hug. "I think you being here is just what she needs."
Pia blushed, suddenly aware that they were discussing Tory's ex-lover. "I'll wait until you get back. Then if you want to stay with her..."
"Actually, Reese is picking Regina up from Kate's, so I've got a little time. I'll get the things from the clinic, and then we can decide." She tilted her head and regarded Pia seriously. "Do you need a break?"
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